| Chapter 6 I looked at my watch to notice that the wedding was to begin in 15 minutes. I looked around, making sure everyone was here. I hadn�t seen Howie for a while. I went� around and asked if anyone had seen him. Kevin and Brian volunteered to help me. I looked out the window in the west and had found Howie, standing at the foot of a grave n the cemetery. My heart sank, knowing whose it was. Kevin, Brian, and I went out to Howie. �Hey Howie.� I said approaching him and putting my hand on his shoulder. �Hey Guys.� He replied quickly wiping his tears away. I looked at the head stone before me, feeling my own tears fall from my eyes. Nickolas Gene Carter January 28th 1980-June 21st 2001 A loving son, and a loving father. Rest peacefully We all stood there in silent. The pain of his loss was to great for me. I couldn�t bring myself to come here. The closest I've come to this grave was the outside gate, when I brought Isis to see it. 17 years. I haven�t been here. Not since we had buried him.... �flashback� The pastor rambled on about the traditional mumbo jumbo in the Bible. It was a bleak gray day out. Not raining, though the air was hot and muggy. there were about 100 people there. Including MTV and Carson Daily. They were doing a Special live TRL at Nick�s Funeral. But instead of playing videos they were showing the entire funeral, with fans comments and thoughts running at the bottom. The last report was about 100,000 fans standing outside the cemetery's gate. I was angry. I wanted them to all go home and leave u s to mourn in peace. But another part of me was glad. Glad that so many people loved and cared for Nick one way or another. For a few moments that feeling of happiness engulfed me. Until I looked across the way from me, on the other side of Nicks black coffin. Isis was standing there, her head bowed as if in prayer, one hand on the coffin. I couldn�t even imagine what it was like for her. She had lost both parents. This was also the first time the world found out about Isis, and seeing her. It was Nick�s wishes that she not be in the spotlight. So she can at least have some of her childhood in private. But now all that is gone. And I wonder, what would become of her. ******************************** Chapter 7 Chapter 5 Table Home |