You're The End Of My Life

1999 COPYRIGHT
BY PETER CHRISTOPHER RAYMOND

I JUST WANT TO BOW MY HEAD AND MOURN
HOW COULD I REGARD YOU WITH SUCH SCORN
ASK MYSELF WHY I WOULD WANT TO LUST
KNOWING YOU REGARD IT WITH SUCH DISGUST
MAKING CAORSE JOKES I PROFANE AND CUSS
MAKING TALL THE WALLS DIVIDING US
I GUESS I COULD SAY IT'S TOO GREAT A TEMPTATION
AND TREAT WITH CONTEMPT ALL YOUR GRACE AND PATIENCE
HOW COULD I HURT YOU SO KNOWINGLY
KNOWING THE LOVE THAT YOU'VE SHOWERED ON ME
I JUST WANT TO HIDE MY FACE AND WEEP
FOR THAT PROMISE I CHOSE NOT TO KEEP
HOW I CHOSE AGAIN TO OVERSLEEP
HOW DID I LET MY DEBT GET SO STEEP
I NEVER SEEM TO REFLECT ON MY LESSONS
AND REFUSE TO REPENT DESPITE MY CONFESSIONS
BUT YOU NEVER MEASURE THE WEIGHT OF MY FAILURE
NOT HESITATED TO BRING ME A SAVIOR
YOU'VE OFFERED ME KINSHIP WITH ROYALTY
YET I HAVE REFUSED YOU MY LOYALTY
WHEN CHALLENGES OF HEART HAVE ARISEN
YOU'VE RESCUED MY SPIRIT FROM ITS' LONLEY PRISON
THE WORDS I WANT SEEM UNDER ARREST
YOU LOOSEN MY LIPS AND LET ME EXPRESS
AND IF THE THOUGHTS I CONJURE ARE WEAK
YOU INSPIRE ME WITH PRAYERS TO SPEAK
LOVE THAT SPARKLES AND STANDS APART
WHICH WOULD NEVER ORIGINATE IN MY OWN HEART
YOU'RE FULLY AWARE OF MY SELFISH HATE
BUT YOU CHOSE ME TO ADMINISTER AND MEDIATE
I JUST WANT TO LOVE YOU WHILE I CAN
KNOWING THAT FULL DEVOTION'S YOUR DEMAND
PUT THE DIFFERENCES WITH MY BROTHER ASIDE
GIVE MY SISTERS THE LOVE I'VE TRIED TO HIDE
REACH OUT TO THE LOST AND NOT BE SHY
AND IN SUCH WAYS GIVE MYSELF TO DIE
DIE TO MY PRIDE AND MY EARTHLY PLEASURES
AND RATHER DESIRE YOUR HEAVENLY TREASURES
PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR MY BRUTAL STRIFE
HELP ME TO SEE YOU'RE THE END OF MY LIFE