She Knows Me Better

1999 COPYRIGHT
BY PETER CHRISTOPHER RAYMOND

WHEN MY MIND IS IN A FOG
SHE WANTS TO JOG MY MEMORY
BUT SOMETIMES IT'S SO CLEAR
AND STILL I JUST DON'T CARE
THINGS I USED TO LOVE JUST MAKE ME SAD
AND I'M FAR REMOVED FROM THE JOYS I'VE HAD
I WISH SOMETIMES SHE'D LET ME FORGET
BUT SHE WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND AND JUST GET UPSET
I GUESS I'D FAKE IT IF IT MADE HER SMILE
PRETEND I WAS GLAD AND PROMOTE HER DENIAL
I LOVE HER SO MUCH I'D LET HER BELIEVE
BUT NOT WELL ENOUGH THAT I WOULDN'T DECEIVE
I'D WANT TO PRESRVE HER WINSOME SPIRIT
TELL MY SORROWS IN SECRET SO SHE WOULDN'T HEAR IT
MY SPIRIT IS VACANT AND MY WRITING IS PAINED
I'M WEARILY DRAGGING AND MY HEART IS DRAINED
THIS CAN'T LAST FOREVER SO SOMEHOW I'LL HEAL
AND REPLACE ALL THE JOYS I NO LONGER FEEL
SOMETHING WILL COME AND TAKE THEIR PLACE
RETURNING THE CONFIDENT GLOW TO MY FACE
WHEN NOTHING I SAY IS MAKING MUCH SENSE
SHE'S A CALMING CONSTANT IN MY CHANGING LIFE
GENTLE WORDS AND A WARM INFLUENCE
SHE SOFTENS MY EDGE AND DISPERSES MY STRIFE
WHEN SHE SEES THAT MY SPEECH IS LABORED
SHE BRINGS ME COMFORT AND JOY I CAN SAVOR
SHE KNOWS LONG IN ADVANCE HOW I'LL REACT
IT'S AWESOME HOW HER WORDS CAN IMPACT
SHE LOOKS DEEP INTO MY VACANT EMPTY STARE
AND BELIEVES THERE'S STILL SOME LIFE IN THERE
SEARCHES THE DARKNESS OF MY SOUL
HOPEFUL THERE MAY STILL BE SOME GOLD
I WONDER SO OFTEN WHY SHE WOULD BOTHER
SHE BELIEVES THERE'S A PART THAT STILL LOVES HER
ALL I FEEL NOW IS DESPAIR AND REGRET
I'VE BURIED JOYFUL MEMORIES BUT SHE WON'T FORGET