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| 1991 COPYRIGHT BY PETER CHRISTOPHER RAYMOND I SEE YOU AT THE FRONT OF THE CHEMISTRY CLASS AND GREET YOU WITH GRUNTS AS I WALK PAST LIMIT MY WORDS AS I HURRIEDLY STEAL TO THE BACK OF THE CLASS TO HIDE AND CONCEAL THE WONDER AND LOVE I IMAGINE TO FEEL BUT TO SUCH AN EXTENT I CANNOT DEAL SHYNESS OVERCOMES ME INHIBITION NUMBS ME DESTROYING ANY CHANCE FOR ENDEAVOR FOR IT MIGHT JUST TAKE FOREVER IT'S HARD IN THIS COLLEGE CONTEXT IT GIVES ME A BLOODY INFERIORITY COMPLEX EVERYONE IS A JUNIOR EINSTEIN AND I CAN'T GET ACADEMICALLY INCLINED I GET SO CHAUVANISTIC AND FEEL LIKE I'M AUTISTIC WHEN THE BRIDGE OF COMMUNICATION IS SEVERED IT MAY JUST TAKE FOREVER FOR ME TO CEASE TO FEEL AS IF I'M TRAPPED AS IF IT'S SOME SORT OF HANDICAP I'VE GOT TO OVERCOME THIS ANXIETY AND WITH DIGNITY FACE SOCIETY IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW LONG OR IF BY THEN YOU'RE AGES GONE BAG THE DEOMESTIC TRANQUILITY I'M DETERMINED TO SET MYSELF FREE |