I wish I didn't love her that way

1998 COPYRIGHT
BY PETER CHRISTOPHER RAYMOND

IT'S NO FUN ANYMORE WHY SHOULD I STAY
SHE WAS ALL I EVER WANTED ANYWAY
EVEN THAT WAS JUST TOO SLIGHT
SHE'S HARDLY WORTH THE FIGHT
SHE'S SCARCELY WORTH MENTIONING NOW
I MIGHT'VE TOLD HER HAD I KNOW HOW
MAYBE I DIDN'T LOVE HER AS I THOUGHT I DID
DIDN'T MEAN ALL THOSE POEMS I HAD HID
FROM HER THAT SHE MIGHT NOT HAVE UNDERSTOOD
I GUESS I DIDN'T THINK THEY WERE VERY GOOD
TO ME THEY WERE FINE BUT NOT WORTH HER TIME
IT'S ALRIGHT I GUESS FOR AFTER ALL THEY WERE MINE

TO DO WITH THEM IN WHATEVER WAY I PLEASED
AFTER ALL SHE MIGHT MISUNDERSTAND OR TEASE
BUT THAT'S JUST ONE WAY TO JUSTIFY
IT'S EASY SO I NEED NOT EVEN TRY
DID I MENTION HER INABILITY TO FEEL
OR JUST THAT SHE'S COMPASSIONATE AND REAL
THE HURT WOULD RUN DEEP IF I WEREN'T SO SHALLOW
NOW ALL THOSE FEELINGS ARE BUT A SHADOW
I WISH THEY WOULD GENTLY PASS AWAY
BUT SHE'S RIGHT THERE BEFORE ME EVERY DAY
AND SOMETIMES WHEN SHE GIVES HER SMILE
I LONG FOR MY HEART TO RECONCILE

TO LOOK ON HER SO WELCOMING AND KIND
WHY WON'T THESE THOUGHTS RELEASE MY MIND
TIMES I'VE BEEN ALONE WITH MY THOUGHTS
I'M LIABLE TO DWELL ON ALL MY HAVE NOTS
REMINDING ME AGAIN THAT I DON'T HAVE YOU
THUS THOSE MOMENTS ARE POINTEDLY FEW
SOMETIMES I'LL SEE YOU AND I'LL FEEL THE URGE
ALMOST OVERCOME BY A JOYOUS SURGE
BUT WHEN I REALIZE THAT YOU'RE INVOLVED
THOSE DESRIES WILL SIMPLY DISSOLVE
I'LL LET THESE POINTLESS PININGS PASS AWAY
LEAVE THEM WHERE THEY BELONG IN YESTERDAY
I KNOW I'LL FEEL MUCH BETTER WHEN YOU'RE GONE
YOU'LL BE ONE LESS MEMORY TO DWELL ON