Isolation

1992 COPYRIGHT
BY PETER CHRISTOPHER RAYMOND

I GUESS I NEVER NOTICED JUST HOW MUCH I PUSHED
AND HOW YOU MIGHT'VE FELT LIKE YOU'D JUST BEEN AMBUSHED
I DIDN'T LET YOU LEAVE MY SIGHT FOR FEAR YOU MIGHT DISSOLVE
AND TRY SOMEHOW TO GET AROUND THE FACT
THAT YOU WERE ALREADY INVOLVED
AT YOUR HEEL LIKE A SPINELESS MINDLESS PUPPY DOG
FEARFUL THAT I'D BE FORGOTTEN AND FADE INTO THE FOG
TRYING TO ATTAIN A ROLE WHERE I REALLY HAD NO PLACE
LOOKING AS BRIGHT AS I COULD
AND IMMUNE TO FEAR AND DISGRACE
WAITING FOR THE OPEN MOMENT TO STEAL YOU AWAY
BY WAY OF A CAREFUL POWER PLAY

IN TIME YOU'D BEGIN TO DOUBT MY SINCERITY
AND REALIZE I WAS OUT TO CAPTURE SOMEONE ELSE'S TERRITORY
AND THEN I SAW THAT WARM FRIENDSHIP THAT I'D COME TO ENJOY
HAD COME TO RUN THE RISK OF BEING DESTROYED
I HAD MY AMBITIONS TO RECONSIDER
UNDERSTANDING THAT YOU MIGHT TURN ANGRY AND BITTER
I HAD TO MAKE A DISTANCE BETWEEN MYSELF AND YOU
I WAS TOO MUCH UNDER YOUR FEET AND SERIOUS THOUGHT WAS OVERDUE
I NEEDED TO CHANGE MY SCHOOL
SO I COULD BE ALONE AND THEREFORE BE OBJECTIVE
LATER I KNEW I COULD FACE YOU
WITH AN HONEST AND SOBER PERSPECTIVE

FOR MONTHS I WAS OBSESSED
I COULDN'T BARE TO HAVE YOU WRITE ME OFF AS A WHIMPERING PEST
ONE WHO WAITS BY THE WOMEN'S ROOM DOOR
ONE WHO JUST WON'T GO AWAY AND SITS ON THE STUDENT LOUNGE FLOOR
NOW MY MIND SEEMS CALM AND ORDERLY
AND I THINK I'M READY NOW TO PROGRESS NORMALLY
I THINK AT LAST I'VE COME TO GRIPS
WITH WHAT I NEED IN A SOLID FRIENDSHIP
I KNOW WHAT GOAL I'M WORKING TOWARD
THAT THE TRUST YOU ONCE HAD IN ME WILL BE RESTORED