I Hope You'll Understand

COPYRIGHT 1997
BY PETER CHRISTOPHER RAYMOND

I'M ALMOST ASLEEP BUT TRYING SO HARD
TO REMEMBER THE PATH TO YOUR YARD
YOU'D COME WITH A DISH OF DIM SUM STEAMING
SOFTNESS DISSOLVING IN A WARM LIQUID EVENING
I SPEND SO MUCH TIME CONSIDERING YOUR KINDNESS
AND WAITING FOR THAT MOMENT OF ABSOLUTE RIPENESS
I PRAY FOR YOU TO RELATE AND SHARE MY JOY
AS I THINK ABOUT WHAT METHOD I'LL EMPLOY
I LOOK AT YOUR LOVE AND KNOW PARADISE IS NEAR
AND I HOPE IN YOUR HEART IT WILL BE JUST AS CLEAR
SWEETNESS FAR BEYOND WHAT YOU KNOW TO EXIST
MORE THAN THE WARMTH WHEN YOU PRESS MY WRISTS

TIMES I'VE NEEDED YOUR HELP YOU'VE BEEN EAGER
BUT NOW I NEED THE WORDS FOR MINE ARE MEAGER
AND SPIRIT MUST TRANSCEND MY UTTER WEAKNESS
FOR NO ONE WOULD MISTAKE ME FOR A GENIUS
LAST NIGHT WHILE I WATCHED YOU LOVINGLY SERVE
I SWEAR YOU LAID BARE A VULNERABLE NERVE
THAT LOVE YOU'D TRIED TO LAVISH ON YOUR FAMILY
LAST NIGHT YOU WENT AND LAVISHED IT ON ME
THOSE MISPLACED GESTURES MAKE ME ILL AT EASE
WAS I THE FALSE RECIPIENT OF EACH SMILE AND SQUEEZE
OR SHOULD I HAVE FELT ADOPTED BY YOUR HEART
WAS I BEING JUST OR JUST NOT VERY SMART

WILL I LIVE TO SEE YOU ON THAT GOLDEN MORNING
AS SPIRITS GATHER AS A NEW LIFE IS FORMING
THEN YOU'LL UNDERSTAND THE NATURE OF MY DREAMS
CLEARLY LIT IN THOSE NEW SUNLIGHT STREAMS
WITH THAT AND COUNTLESS OTHER WISHES FULFILLED
MY HEART WILL BE GLAD AND EMOTIONS WILL SPILL
BUT THE SWEETEST PART WILL BE THAT WE'LL AGREE
OUR INNERMOST THOUGHTS REVEALED WITHOUT A FEE
UNTIL THEN EACH DAY WILL CARRY THE POTENTIAL
FOR US TO FINALLY FLY FREE LIKE THE SEAGULLS
LOOKING FORWARD TO THE FINAL JOYFUL CONSEQUENCE
OUR MOMENTS OF PAIN AND GREY WILL ALL MAKE SENSE