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| My Darling,
There are some things I need to say to you. Isn't it a shame how so many of us don't do or say what we should in a timely manner. I guess this is one of the things that makes us human. I can only ask your forgiveness at this point...for being human. Do you still remember the day we were married. I wanted to have the ceremony in the church but you insisted it be in the church yard. You said the outside was fresher and you wanted it to represent the freshness you always hoped would be in our relationship. Well, it certainly turned out to be fresh didn't it dear. I will never understand how you managed, with not much more than a look, to keep everyone in place as the rain started. I stood there laughing, getting soaked to the bone, and I was happier than I had ever been in my life. Later that night, our night, I jokingly asked you if the rain was as representative as the freshness was suppose to be. Being the ultimate optimist, you laughed and told me the rain meant our sorrows would constantly be washed away. Oh how I wish that had been true. It was only a month after we married when we bought our house. I laugh to this day thinking about you then. Before we could even move in you had to have that tree. You had us driving all over creation looking for the perfect dogwood to plant in the front yard. By the time we found it and got home it was too late and we were both too exhausted to plant it. At least that's the way I felt. You had other plans and stifling a yawn you handed me the shovel. You know darling, I would have done whatever you wanted of me then because of what you said about that tree. You said it was an ancient blessing on our marriage and we would last as long as the tree would. It did get planted that night and you should see it now. It shades the whole front of the house, shelters 2 different bird nests, and seems to glow with its own light when it blooms. I have to tell you in general life was easy with you. The only time that wasn't so was when you went into labor with our daughter. In the labor room at the hospital you really kept me hopping. As the pains came you would tell me it was all my fault and to leave but if I started to leave you cried for me to stay. I think if the labor pains had lasted just another few minutes I would have split myself in half. Then when we held our daughter together, the whole world seemed insignificant. I can still feel your tears of joy burning into my cheek as they mingled with mine. The little things about you I will never forget my love. I don't think I ever saw you looking at me without a smile. That smile could eat away my days troubles in a mere second and give me a whole different perspective on just what is important in life. I remember having to tie a tennis ball on a rope from the ceiling in the garage so you could pull up and stop as it touched your windshield. Before that you must have hit the wall 30 times. I never once let you see me laugh about that for fear it would hurt your feelings but I have to tell you I did laugh. You're the only person I ever knew that could peel an apple and always keep the peeling in one piece. I still can't believe how many times you painted our bedroom nor can I understand how you ever got all that paint off of you each time. I remember how you burned the turkey that Thanksgiving so many years ago when we had both of our families over. You were devastated but it wasn't hard to find a ham to replace it and we only ate a little later than planned. I never laughed about that one either until now. I remember the look on your face that horrible afternoon when you came home from the doctors with the news. I was numb with fear before you ever opened your mouth. Little did I know in less than a month you would be gone. I also remember the look on your face as you lay there in front of the church surrounded by family and friends. I could have sworn you were smiling at me and it almost killed me when they closed the lid and took you away. It's been a long time my darling but you need to know my love for you has continued to grow every day. You would be so proud of our daughter. She looks so much like you now it brings tears to my eyes all too often. She even sounds like you and has so many of your mannerisms and she's so much smarter than me she must have gotten that from you as well. Rest assured she is happy but I know inside she often misses you, too. I miss you desperately. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and as the years pass by and my time grows shorter, my one consolation is I will one day be with you again. In the meantime, I'm content to watch you through our daughter. Be at peace my love for all is well with the world. Enjoy the kingdom in which you now live and know you are still loved here and always will be. The day will come soon enough when I will join you and we will be together again. All my Love, Your devoted husband |
| Letter To My Wife |
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