I sit here thinking..., and thinking some more
Never wanting that much to begin with
Never getting that much in the end
My mind feeling for one person
Later feeling for the next
An outside layer of hard shell exterior
A blockade to shelter me from everyone
Not knowing which way to go toward
Not wanting to hurt again
My heart wants to love and live
Later knowing there is no one there
A carefree attitude is not for me
My mind wants to let me be loved
Later realizing there is no one there
A large gap lies in the middle of me
Filling a gap is knowing the void
Never fearing the emptiness
Not knowing what it contains
Bridge my lonely space with yourself
Are you the right substance?
I don't know anymore
R. E. Knight