Shivers running down my spine

Warm.

I think of you

Cold.

My life without you in it

Warm.

The way your lips feel against mine

Cold.

My heart before you came

Warm.

Everywhere your hands touch

Cold.

Warm.

Hot.

You and Me together

Forever.

Your voice,

It sounds to me like

Angels singing.

I can picture your face

Your eyes

Smiling at me when we talk

I can feel your arms

Your hands

Caressing me softly.

You have made my Life

Worthwhile.

I can feel you at my side

As sure as if you were here

By your side I’ll always be

And I want to keep you here

Forever

With me.

In the pounding waves

I hear your heartbeat as we

Lay entwined in each others arms

The gust of wind against my face

Reminds me of your breath as you

Whisper in my ears,

"You’re Mine."

The grains of sand at my feet

Are countless my love

As numerous as the times I think

Of you.

You are my Life,

You are my Love,

Eternal like The Ocean.

My tears fall like rain

They amass in pools at my feet

The loneliness invades my throat

Choking the very life out of my body

The Tears grow and grow

The Puddle deeper and deeper

The breath is short

My eyes go dark

There is no Life without your Love

Until you hold me, kiss me

I’ll continue to die

Choking on loneliness

Drowning in my tears.

The danger is here,

Can’t you smell the Fear?

There’s Death all around

Our blood’s on the Ground.

Those we fight

Should be our Friends

Why fight each other?

When a worse Enemy lies

Without and Within

Bury the Past with the Fallen

It hurts Us more now

Than it did back Then.

The pain, the heartache.

I feel it first before the rest.

The moistness, the hazy vision

I cannot stop the tears from falling

Blood Red tears trickle down my face

Into the waiting tissues of sorrow

My heart is Bleeding

My heart is crying, dying

Because you said goodbye

I want you and only you to stay

By my side.

I want only your arms to hold me

When I cry

I want only you, only you

To kiss my Tears aside

My Blood Red Tears

The tears that were caused

When My Heart Cried.

Staring into space

Not feeling, not hearing

Anything but your Voice

My friends all say I’ve lost It

I smile at Nothing

But nothing’s what I am

Without your Love

I can’t help but Smile

When I hear your Voice

I can’t help but Grin

When I see your Face

Thinking of you makes Me

Happy when I am Blue

I can’t help but Laugh

When you tell a Joke.

You are my only Love,

How could I do any Less?

My heart stops beating

When you talk yourself down

Don’t you see the Truth in my eyes?

Can’t you feel the Love in my touch?

My heart aches inside

That I can’t stop your Pain

I long to take your fears and Tears

And kiss them all away

I’m here for you

I love you

I’ll never stop for

With you I belong

You alone I care for

You alone I love.

Loneliness curls into a ball

And warms up to you in the night

It gives some comfort, and yet,

Its hard to sleep

With a ball of emotion pushing

You over the edge of the bed

During the day.

Loneliness is present,

But always prancing out of

Reach.

Always skipping, always playing

But never really present.

At night, loneliness comes

Creeping in on soft padding

And sleeps with you until

The dawn

And then,

Away it scampers to play

For yet another day.

Once I thought that Life sucks

People die

Friends lie

Friends suicide over guys and stupid things

That a little love and kindness could heal

But now I know that life sucks

Friends cry

Guns kill

People cheat

Torn early from my place of rest

Thrust out into the cold unfeeling world

Spank

Smack

Hustled off to be dried

Something's wrong

I shouldn't be out here

Where’s my protection?

Where’s the warmth that

Surrounded me once?

It’s gone.

They’re laying me down

Why be so gentle?

My beat will soon stop

And I’ll be nothing

But a broken Heart.

Every now and Then

I hear a voice calling me

I feel a Hand holding mine

Every Now and then

I feel eyes on me

I hear laughter joining mine

Every now and Then

I feel arms holding me

I feel a soul touching mine

Every Now and then

I feel you out There

I hear your voice

Every now and Then

I feel you’re watching over me

I know you’re with me

Every Now and then

I’m not as alone as I was

When you first left

Every now and Then

I wish you were still here

And not in Heaven above

Every Now and Then.

The classroom doors have closed

The bells no longer ring

"Freedom" shoots through your mind

But are you truly free?

What comes next will be a challenge

A fight you might not want to make

To make yourself better,

You know you must

But fear takes a grip

And holds onto you

You’re on your own

Which path do you take?

Suddenly "freedom" doesn’t seem

Quite so great.

I live in a State called In Between

To the North, there is Happiness

To the South, there is sadness

To the East, there is Reality

To the West, there is Fantasy

Some people float in and out of my state

Some people stay here all the time

Some people are between Religions

Some people are between Relationships

Some people are a mixture of Both

I am stuck in In Between

I am stuck amidst my feelings for you

And my feelings for Me

I am stuck between Love and Hate, Fear and Joy

I am the Governor of this State that I

Live in.

When one lives in In Between, One's

Mind refuses to work.

One’s heart stops Feeling

One’s eyes stop Tearing.

One’s feelings stop Aching

One’s world stops Spinning

I live in the State of In Between

I am surrounded by

Happiness

Sadness

Reality

Fantasy

Yet I am unaffected

My Heart is in a Cage

That noone can break Into

There are no locks there are

No doors. Only I can open it

Five have entered, three have remained,

One is truly true

Two have torn down the cage to get in

And ripped my heart in the process

You, I do not know,

Do I let you In?

Do I leave you Out?

Do you WANT in?

Do you WANT out?

What to do

What to do?

I don’t’ know but one thing

I love You.

I wish you were here

To keep me company

The noise is so great

My ears are ringing

I am so lonely

And you are so far away

I wish you were here

To ease my pain

I used to live in a Perfect World

I was happy and in love

You were here with me

And we lived forever

In time

But then

Something went wrong

Somebody came and stole you

From me

And now I live in Darkness

No I live in a

Hell

That is worse than Anything

I’ve ever felt before

For three months I was happy

As never before

And now,

What to do?

You’re gone from me and I am

Alone

Again

Forever and always destined to be

Alone.

I am like a migraine

No matter how matter how hard you try

I will always be around

I will never die

Even within Death

I am Alive

So long as one holds me

Close to their heart,

My love for you all

Will always thrive.

If I asked you to stay

Would you still go?

If I asked you to hold me

Would you still remain distant?

If I told you I loved you

Would it matter at all?

You see the pain

You hear the tears

Would it matter if I bled?

Would it matter if I died?

What will it take for

You

To see that you’re

Everything to Me.

Everyday we are apart

My heart beats faster

Stronger

With the love you make

Me feel inside.

Everytime I speak your name

My lust grows harder

Higher

With every thought of

Your Touch.

Every minute we are as one

My body sings louder

Clearer

With the pleasures of

Being yours.

Every minute, every hour

Of Every day

Your thoughts are mine

Your love is mine

We are one.

"Don’t leave me here Alone"

I shouted

But too late,

You’re gone

The door is shut and

We are no more.

Crumpling to the floor

I cried.

"I need you"

I wailed,

Too late

You’re back was turned

Screaming to the stars,

I whispered,

"I love you"

I called.

Too late

You refused to

Believe

Curled in a corner

I died

Alone without You

I died.

You returned

Too late

Too late

I’m gone.

So many words

So many sounds

Surround the world

Our heads

So many lies

So many pains

Surround your words

Our hearts

So much hurt

So much love

Thrown down the drain

To hell

The screaming the shouting

It all needs to end.

I am a child

Naïve in the ways

To make you happy.

I am a child

Frightened and shy when

Facing new things.

I am a child

Desperate for the love

That you give me.

I am a child

Needy in many ways

And lost without you.

I am a child

Yet the feelings

I feel for you are strong.

I am a child

But in your arms I feel

Like a woman whose heart is full.

I am a child

But I long to be the

Woman who can love you completely

I am a child

I am a woman

I am yours.

The pangs of hunger

Are great within my body

I hunger not for food

Nor water, but I hunger

For the touch of your hands

I hunger for the sound of your voice

In my ear. I hunger

To hear words of love

Come out of your mouth and

Into my ear. These

Are the things that I

Hunger for. With them

I feel Pain. Without them,

I would be no one. Ease

My Hunger, love, and be mine.

I speak to you

Yet you do not hear me

I talk to you

Yet you are not listening

You do not seem to care

Can you not see the pain in

My eyes?

Can you not hear the sorrow

In my Voice?

Why can’t you understand

The way I need you,

Want you,

Love you?

Sitting

Staring

Wondering where you are

What you’re doing

Who you’re with

Thinking

Wishing

Praying

That you were here

That we were together

That things were different

Hoping

Dreaming

Crying

In the Darkness

In my soul

For you

Singing

Screaming

Wandering

In my own little world

Without you

Forever

Sitting

Staring

Wishing

Praying

Singing

Screaming

Dreaming

Crying

For you

All for you.

Hold on. Don’t ever let go.

The World and it’s Troubles

Will try to pull us apart

Hold on. Don’t ever let go.

I will be your anchor

Use me, hold fast.

Hold on. Don’t ever let go.

Together we can make it

Only together we can win

Hold On. Don’t ever let go.

I’ll cling to you

You’ll cling to me

Hold on. Hold on.

I swear that I’ll never

Let you go.

"Sit down there"

"Do not Talk!"

"Has anybody seen the Chalk?"

These are things we here

Everyday, when

Spring comes about,

Soon, we’ll be on our way.

"Sit in silence"

"Hush your mouth"

"It’s a scantron, take your pencil’s out"

What point is there?
I do not see

Why I must take a test

In order to get Free.

"Twenty more minutes"

"Time’s almost up"

"Ok! That’s it, pass your papers up!"
There

I’m done

Five more to go,

But hey,

I’m through the one

And I’m on my way!

Why do you hate me so?
I have tried to be nice

I have tried to understand

Yet you push me away

With feet and with hands

With words and with looks

I want to be friends

Why can’t you see

What your words and actions do

To me

You will pay for the anguish

You’ve caused

You will pay for this ache

In my Heart

You will pay

Why, oh why

Must you hate me?

I care for you

More than any one before

But you and I,

We can not be

You are my brother

And can never be more

If life were different

If the timing had been better

Maybe, just maybe

We might have belonged to each other

But it was not to be

I promise you, though,

That you and I will always be

Brother and Sister

Throughout Eternity.

Parents are interesting things

They yell they scream

And tell you it’s because they love you

They cry they laugh

And tell you it’s because they love you

Parents are interesting things.

Siblings are interesting things

They beat you they tease you

And you know it’s because they love you

They protect you they make you cry

And you know it’s because they love you

Siblings are interesting things.

Friends are interesting things

They lie for you they lie to you

Yet you suspect it’s because they love you

They help you they hurt you

Yet you suspect it’s because they love you

Friends are interesting things.

Lovers are interesting things

They hold you they leave you

And still they tell you that they love you

They hold you, they push you Away

And still they tell you they love you

Lovers are interesting things.

Life is an interesting thing

Brings you joy brings you pain

And gives you different things to love you

Brings you love brings you hate

And gives you different things to love you

Life is an interesting thing.

School is painful

School is fun

School is where you go to see

Everyone

School is a place, where I sit everyday

And get bored and get tired, and

Wish myself away

To Far-off lands

With dragons and knights and

Mysterious lovers that come to your side

"Save me my Knight! Take me away from this place!"

The princess calls from her prison

Behind the desk

In the back row

Of English class.

Hyperness is my name

Having fun is my game

I travel all night

Till the morning light

To be held in your arms

And feel the magic of your charms

You know not what it is to me

To feel you close so tenderly

I love you so, with every breath

The deepness of my love, knows no depth

You live so far away

And yet, you’re with me nearly every day

I can’t hold you for real

But I have you in my Heart

And that is where you’ll stay

"Come and rescue me" I scream into the night

And I know you can’t hear me, but I like

To think that you do.

Someday, Someway

I will see you and then

I will never need rescuing again.

The boy I know

Who always got into fights

I had to stop him once

Perhaps twice

Now he’s my brother

And less annoying now

He makes me worry when he gets into

Things he shouldn’t.

But Love is in his heart, for those that he holds dear.

And I count my lucky stars that I am one of those

To my little brother,

Stay safe

Stay sweet

And may there come a day

When we may perchance meet.

I’m sitting in a classroom

Surrounded by my friends

They’re talking they’re laughing

And still I feel Alone.

I’m standing at a party

Surrounded by my friends

They’re singing they’re dancing

And still I feel Alone.

I feel Alone all the time

I feel as if I’m new here

I’ve been here for almost

Eight years

And still I feel Alone.

I’m with these kids for

Eight years

And still I feel I don’t’ belong

I hate this feeling of being alone

I think eight years should be a

Long enough sentence of pain

Let me in, it’s cold outside

I’m cold out here and very, very alone.

I am confused

You say you love me

Yet she is still there

You say you need me

Yet she is still there

Why do you confuse me so?
With your words so sweet upon

My ear

Why do you tell me things

And then forget what you say?

If you love me

If you need me

If you want me with you

For all of your days

Tell me

Tell me and

Mean it

A brand new start

Things never explored

A brand new start

Friends you’d never have thought

A brand new start

Frightened at first

A brand new start

Help each other through

A brand new start

"Patience is a Virtue"

A brand new start

Together we can make it through.