Curious

 

 

Watson sat at this desk engrossed in thought; as usual it was Holmes that occupied his mind.

 

For nearly a year now he was hopelessly in love with Holmes, and he was determined to reveal his feelings. This not knowing is driving me insane, if I tell him and he rejects me then I can put these thoughts out of my mind. If I tell him and he returns my feelings, or at least doesn’t reject me then we can take it from there. But HOW to tell him.. He looked up and saw Holmes still at the breakfast table reading his paper.  There he sits the object of my desire, for an observant man he is certainly blind to the facts in THIS case.  So blind to the fact I am in love with him.

 

Holmes looked up from his paper  “ Something on your mind?” he enquired rather nonchalantly.

 

Watson sighed. Caught out again.   “ I was just thinking”

“Ah. Dangerous past time for you Watson”

Watson glared at him “You have NO idea”

 

“Perhaps not, so why not fill me in.” Holmes folded his paper and rested his hands on his lap. “You have my undivided attention.”

 

I wish!    “It’s nothing.”

 

“Alright then I shall go back to the morning papers then.” Holmes unfolded the paper. Watson reached a decision. “Wait there is something I have been curious about.” He drew in a deep breath “Have you ever been in love?” There I asked it…

 

Putting the paper down again Holmes gave Watson a strange look, a mixture of shock and horror with a bit of disgust thrown in. He sat blinking in disbelief.

 

“Whatever made you ask that? He was quite puzzled.

 

“Oh.. I don’t know, just curious I guess” He shrugged and tried to sound casual.

 

“We have shared these rooms for nearly a year now, and do you know WHY that is?” His voice was calm and even; it was impossible to tell exactly what he was feeling.  But at this statement Watsons heart leapt for joy, and he dared hope.  “Why?”

 

“Because you have managed to keep your questions to your self. If you wish to continue the association, I suggest you keep it that way.” Though his face still retained a near emotionless expression, his voice had a slight edge to it.

 

“Holmes it’s a fair question, why not respond all it requires is a yes or no answer.” He pressed the issue.

 

Holmes was losing patience with Watson “I did” came the very curt response.

 

“But you said nothing ”Watsons voice still questioned.

“Because” Holmes spoke through gritted teeth “There is nothing to tell you as it is none of your business!”  Holmes slammed a hand down upon the table.

 

Watson jumped at this reaction. Obviously I touched a nerve, and a raw one at that!   “Holmes I only meant to start a conversation, I can't see why this has upset you so.”

 

“You haven’t upset me Doctor, at least not with the question if that is what you are thinking. It is the fact that you asked it.  I do not think we are that well aquatinted that we should discuss our private lives.”

 

Watson rose from his chair, stood behind Holmes, and placed his hands on Holmes shoulders and leaned forward and kissed his lips, he could feel Holmes protest, he struggled beneath Watson's grip, but soon he too settled into the kiss, closing his eyes and parting his lips.  Watson broke the kiss and gazed deep into Holmes eyes, he stroked the side of his face and smiled. “Perhaps you’d like to become better aquatinted?” He gazed deep into

 

Holmes gazed back; He has the darkest most expressive eyes I have ever seen. Has he guessed my true nature and my feelings for him?   “Watson?” He questioned curiously.

 

 

“ I asked my question because I was unsure exactly how to tell you what I was feeling, I was afraid to come right out and say I love you” Watson blushed at the admission. “Holmes I am in love with you, I have been for many months now. I have tried to convince myself that it isn’t true, to deny my attraction and growing desire for you. I thought if I ignored my feelings they might somehow go away but they are stronger than ever. I thought I could live with being just friends, but the not knowing.. I can no longer keep silent Holmes. If I have offended you I do apologise and I shall pa…. Watson didn't get the chance to finish.

 

 

Holmes turned his head and claimed Watson’s mouth with his own quieting the doctor’s curiosity once and for all. “I think a FULL partnership is in order here, “ Holmes said after they disengaged themselves from the kiss. Gazing deep into Holmes grey eyes, for the first time he saw the signs of the great heart as well as the great brain A sudden realisation came over Watson "Yes. My dear Homes I do agree" A broad grin ran across his face.

 

 

 

“I ask few things of you.” Holmes said later that evening whilst they lay in bed.

 

“Any thing.” He kissed Holmes on the nose and smiled.

 

“I ask for NO expectations, because I don’t know that I can live up to them, and I ask for your patience, as I can be” he paused, looked thoughtful and continued “Difficult, and I ask for privacy as it is most important to me. I need time to myself and sometimes prefer to be left on my own, and want no company now mater who’s it is.”  Holmes yawned and lazily reached his arm around Watson. " I should warn you I do enjoy a challenge now and again."

 

Watson laughed and ran his hand along Holmes bare thigh, “I think I can manage that.” They shared another ardent kiss.

 

“And you Watson would you ask anything of me? Holmes ran a finger teasingly over Watson’s moustache.

 

“Hmmm I would have thought that was an expectation.” He winked at Holmes  “ I ask only that you allow me to love you, and occasionally you take me into your confidence.”

 

Holmes Laughed and ran his fingers through Watsons hair. “Agreed. Watson, by the way the answer to your question is yes” With a knowing smile Watson rolled over and hugged Holmes. This is the start of a beautiful partnership.