Logan is loved and missed by
Mommy Becki, Daddy Ben,
big brother Skylar and big sister Destiny
OUR LITTLE ANGEL LOGAN ENTERED OUR LIVES ON MONDAY THE TWENTY FIFTH OF MARCH AT 12:36 P.M., IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL SPRING DAY. HE WEIGHED 8LBS 4 OZS AND WAS 19 1/2 INCHES LONG, HE WAS BEAUTIFUL. HE HAD A HEAD FULL OF BLACK HAIR AND DEEP BLUE EYES. HE ARRIVED BY C-SECTION, MY OTHER CHILDREN WERE DELIVERED BY C-SECTION ALSO. HE WAS A REAL GOOD BABY AS LONG AS HE HAD A CLEAN DIAPER, WARM BOTTLE, AND HIS PACIFIER HE WAS GOOD TO GO, HE WAS EATING GOOD AND GAINING WEIGHT FAST. AT HIS TWO WEEK APT. HE ALREADY WEIGHTED 11 1/2 POUNDS. HE WAS A BIG GUY! WE THOUGHT WE HAD THE PERFECT FAMILY WITH TWO BOYS AND ONE GIRL. they WERE SPACED OUT BY FOUR YEARS. AFTER HAVING LOGAN WE DECIDED FOR ME TO JUST HAVE MY TUBES TIED LITTLE DID WE KNOW THAT 8 1/2 MONTHS LATER THAT GOD WAS GONNA CALL OUR BABY HOME.
AS TIME WENT ON WE GOT USED TO HAVING A NEW BABY IN THE HOUSE HE WAS A REAL JOY TO BE AROUND. EVERYONE THAT KNEW HIM LOVED HIM. WHEN HE WAS 6 MOS, OLD WE TOOK A MINI VACATION TO MISSOURI (IT WAS JUST FOR A WEEKEND) AND DADDY STAYED HOME BECAUSE HE HAD TO WORK. WHEN WE GOT BACK DADDY COULDN'T BELEIVE THAT HIS BABY BOY WAS CRAWLING EVERYWHERE. DADDY JOKED AROUND SAYING THAT LOGAN COULDN'T GO AWAY ANYMORE. HE WAS GROWING UP TO FAST. HE LOVED HIS BIG SISTER DESTINY HE WOULD CRAWL IN TO HER ROOM AND SIT AND WATCH CARTOONS WITH HER. LOGAN WAS JUST AN ANGEL IF YOU ASKED SKYLAR, HIS BIG BROTHER HAD WANTED A BROTHER FOR SO LONG HE DIDN'T CARE IF HE WAS 8 YRS OLDER. THEY PLAYED LIKE THEY WERE BEST FRIENDS. LOGAN WOULD CRAWL TO THE FRONT DOOR WHEN HE WOULD HEAR SKYLARS BUS HE WOULD BE BY THE THE DOOR WAITING FOR SKYLAR TO PICK HIM UP. HE WOULD JUST SMILE AT HIM, HE COULD MELT ANYONES HEART WITH HIS SMILE.
OUR NIGHTMARE STARTED ON SUNDAY MORNING THE TWENTY SECOND OF DECEMBER AT 5:36 A.M. MY HUSBAND WAS GETTING READY FOR WORK HE WENT TO GET LOGAN OUT OF HIS CRIB. HE NOTICED THAT SOMETHING WASN'T RIGHT WITH LOGAN . WHEN HE GOT UP TO THE CRIB HE REALIZED LOGAN WAN'T BREATHING. HE WAS LAYING THERE WITH HIS EYES WIDE OPEN JUST LIKE HE WAS WATCHING HIS DADDY. MY HUSBAND BEN HOLLERED AT ME TO CALL 911. WHEN THEY ARRIVED THEY WORKED ON MY LITTLE LIFELESS BABY FOR WHAT SEEMED LIKE FOREVER BEFORE THEY TOOK HIM TO THE HOSPITAL. I JUST KNEW LOGAN WAS OK HE WAS STILL WARM AND THEY GOT HIS COLOR BACK TO HIM. THEY JUST COULD NOT GET HIS TINY HEART STARTED BACK SO AT 6:20 AM THE ER DR CAME AND TOLD US THE WOST NEWS THAT I WILL EVER HEAR. HE TOLD ME THEY HAD DONE EVERYTHING THEY COULD TO SAVE MY BABY BUT HE WAS GONE. TO THIS DAY THOSE WORDS HAUNT ME I HATE THEM I NEVER WANT TO HEAR THEM AGAIN.... THE INVESTIGATORS CAME AND TALKED WITH US ABOUT OUR BABYS DEATH THEY WERE VERY RUDE ACTING LIKE WE HAD DONE SOMETHING TO OUR BABY ONE OF THE INVESTIGATORS SAID THAT HE HAD NEVER HEARD OF A BABY THAT OLD DYING OF SIDS. WELL I AGREED WITH HIM I HAD NEVER HEARD OF IT EITHER. LOGAN WAS A VERY HEALTHY BABY. HE WAS NEVER SICK HE NEVER EVEN HAD AN EAR INFECTION. HE WEIGHED 22 LBS WHEN HE DIED. YOU JUST DON'T THINK OF SUCH A HEALTHY BABY DYING OF SIDS.
AS MUCH AS WE HATED IT WE HAD TO MAKE ARRANGEMENTS FOR OUR BABYS FUNERAL DURING THE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS. WE HAD A WONDERFUL FUNERAL DIRECTOR. HE UNDERSTOOD WHAT WE WERE GOING THROUGH HE HAD LOST A DAUGHTER SEVERAL YEARS EARLIER. LOGAN WAS BURIED IN THE CHRISTMAS OUTFIT THAT HE NEVER GOT TO WEAR. WE DECORATED HIS CASKET WITH PRESENTS HE NEVER GOT TO OPEN OR PLAY WITH. HE LOOKED LIKE AN ANGEL IN HIS LITTLE CASKET SURROUNDED BY ALL HIS PRESENTS. FRIDAY THE 27TH OF DECEMBER WAS THE HARDEST DAY OF MY LIFE. WATCHING THEM PUT MY PRECIOUS BABY IN THE COLD WET GROUND. SINCE LOGAN HAS BEEN GONE I VISIT HIS GRAVE SITE EVERYDAY. I KNOW THIS IS ONLY HIS RESTING PLACE. BUT IT GIVES ME COMFORT THAT IM CLOSE TO HIM WHEN I'M THERE. LOGAN YOU WERE MY HEART AND SOUL AND WITHOUT YOU I'M NOT WHOLE , BABY BOY, MOMMY LOVES YOU SOO MUCH MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW OR UNDERSTAND. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN I'LL BE MISSING YOU !!!
"SOME PEOPLE ONLY DREAM OF ANGELS I HOLD ONE IN MY HEART"
LOVE YOU BABY BOY, OUR CHRISTMAS ANGEL
MOMMY DADDY SKYLAR AND DESTINY.
 
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