Beware Of Snakes - [June 28 05]  1:35 AM

So, I talked to Bri earlier today ... well yesterday me and her came to conclusion that I should beware of snakes and subway sandwiches ;).

Hell - [June 23 05]  12:16 AM

What the freak is the point of anything? Seriously?! I don't give a shit about any answers! 

Strange - [June 19 05]  6:03 AM

Talked to a friend hella late at night... hmmm. I realized 'I've fallen hard into a pit, and climbed out of it rather slowly.' Better then not climbin out. Where's a friend when you really need to talk to one, still missing that :( . 

I realized it's pointless to talk, argue, and deal with ignorant people. Not to be messed up, these type of people are just stupid and pathetic. Another thing is that there is a limit to sarcasm and funny jokes. At times it just gets tiring, troublesome, and annoying.

Falling Rocks - [June 12 05]  1:55 AM

Er, long story, crazy life threatening shit. Ask me about it. :(

Seriously I Try - [June 11 05]  2:28 AM

As much as I am cover with happiness it is always conquered over unhappiness. I wish there was a way to say or sum it up in easier terms or details, whatever I can to ellaborate on it but it means shit. It sucks to be in my position, repetition in life, my little brother and sisters that are stubborn, add a stubborn mother that just equals = major stress. Wow fuck it seriously. I wish I had someone I can just talk to and not just be like oh, eh, and crazy. Whatever. You don't know how to help and your just to ignorant. No, you don't understand. In the end I always lose. All I can give myself is the thought of accomplishing priority's, tasks, daily goals with an effort. Other then that. That's my life a retarded repetition. Same faces, same stories, same everything. No, one just knows even the rest of this life story. Friend's? really don't believe in them much anymore. I been backstabbed and it always returns. I been lied too and played in the mind, but it's not the first time. Yea I'm being negative.

Depressed - [June 06 05]  12:48 PM

Today, we had to give Meryl and her kittens away :(. I feel depressed that the fact me and Son have to give our beloved cat away. I guess the SPCA well find them a better family. :(.. what a hella messed up day.

Really.. - [June 05 05]  1:47 AM

Chillen with Richard this whole past week while he was in Cali. Fun times. Miss a good friend eh. On top of that a sudden shock from the past... but this time I'm just massivly confused. I just don't want to care but I guess its just there....  This time I have to decide either to let it go forever or hold on to it.. either to be humble and forget, forgive, or find another way to just start away from confusion. Really I don't know what to think and say. Cause I know theres hella lies and secrets that were just played off.. basically deceit and I know it. I'm not gonna act ignorant about it, but damn seriously wtf is there to talk to without negative immature advice, I really don't have any trust. Maybe I'll seek God for some answers and write it off in "Reflections," cuz this is what this is here for.

Pissed off at Confusing Myself - [June 01 05]  12:45 AM

LoL, I had something in mind then forgot what to write, all these stupid irrational things came up. Tham it.