| In the Nighttime Air In the nighttime air, I breathe wondering what I'll see. Will I see the truth or be blinded by love? Will the madness come and rake my body or will the pain finally subside? Why -- I've asked a thousand times yet no answer comes back from the night sky. Only the moon and the stars twinkle in delight. Oh, why can't I be one of them, no worries, no fears, no heartaches or pain. When will it end? Then I scream into the night only to hear the echo of my voice except no sounds do I hear. Only the beating of my heart beating in pain...beating for you. |
| My Poems. |
| Afraid Here I stand. Afraid. Afraid of what I have to do. Afraid of doing it and yet afraid of not. Scared my life will take some horrible turn and wondering could it be better. Nighttime falls and still I think. I sit and think and wonder. Why do I sit scared in the darkness, afriad to reach out to the light. I'll never know. This is a true test -- I realize all to late and somehow I know this will decide me. Decide me as a person, as a life, as a friend, as me. The defining moment and... I'm running fast....away. Yet something stops me. I know it only by a feeling, that feeling of longing, of need. Why me, why now? As the world turns black, my heart stops beating and suddenly I am free. Free from pain and from worry and suddenly I awake in your arms. |
| Tonite Tonite I dared to believe believe in all I had ever wanted. How strange my answers come from you. The least expected source and the most important. Fear now resides in me. Fear of loss and rejection. Fear of prominant anger. Somehow it all fades. No anger, no fer just you and truth. i don't know how or why but I know you. I know the truth you speak. I know you. I rejoice and yet the fear returns . Will this end as so many before? NO...I won't let it. The importance strikes me even now and I know...this truth is more more than I deserve but all I ever need. Your faith is my strength tonite. |
| I'll Be Safe When the rain comes pouring down, I'll be safe. When the fire chases, I'll be safe. safe from fear and pain. Enveloped in Life; no end, no beginning, only now, only time, one belonging to one, none belonging to none. Realizing yourself or following the norm? Everyone is me. I am you. You are she. She is him. He is me. We are all one and therefore cannot be harmed. |
| I Am Happy I sit here bathing in the sunlight hoping this moment will last yet knowing it cannot. Too many feelings fight for possesion but for now, for here, for once, Happiness -- perfect contentness. I feel the best I have for the longest. Everything shines with love. Opened by your heart. You had the key and like no others you used it. For that I will be forver happy and forever with you. Nothing will break that trust, not now, not even. I am Happy. |
| Shallow Mind Love is a shallow mind in a sharp grave. Love is neverending peace and fear. Love is you and me. Love is nothing. Love is everything. Why you? The answers never known. Just feeling show through. No one can justify it or deny it. No matter what kind or with whom. It's all real and pure. Neverending happiness and pain is my love. For you, for me, for us. |
| The Unknown The days are filled with endless wonder and the nights with constent fears. The hours and minutes I talk to you refresh and replenish my soul. You annoy and delight me with your provacative and docile language neither do I understand without myself. Yet dreams of you I have filling me with longing and joy. You are my worst and best, my longing and joy. Why me and why you? God will only know. |
| Me I wait with neverending sighs I can't understand why You say you love me yet wish for me to be someone i'm not How can these be one and the same Happiness like when your near is rare the thought of you makes me happy but sometimes i wonder if you really love me I've heard the words of love spoken in many tongues, in many voices never have i wanted to hear them truthful as i do now why can't i be who i am and be loved for that why must you push yet in my love I let you I let you try to control me for fear of losing you Life doesn't make sense I wish I could just be me Why won't you let me be me. |
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