I'm pretty scare. When I eat a normal amount, I feel out of control, but if I don't, I feel very good. I know I am obsessing, but it's hard not to. I'm afraid to eat, because food=fat. I don't want to gain weight. Food=fat; Thin=Achievement.

Looking in the mirror, I see a fat girl. No guy will ask me out because of it. I've never been thin. Food=fat. Food=fat. I'm scared to gain weight, food=fat, food=fat. Food=fat. Something I don't want. Food=fat. Food= out of control. Food=fat.

If I eat I gain, If I don't, I lose. I'm sared Food=fat, Food=fat. People stand over me. "Fat, Fat, Fat..." That's what I get, that's what I see. Food=fat. Fat girls shouldn't eat much. only a little. Image. Image. That's important. Imgae=Importance. Thinner=Better. Thin=Perfection. Thin=Discipline. Thin=A's Thin=clean. Everything can be achieved with Thin. All goals. It's everything. Thin=Achievement. Food=Fat Fat=Food. Achievement=Thin. Fat=Food, Food=Fat. Food=Enemy. Enemy=Food.

[]Webmaster's note: When Mercy asked me to put this up, she wrote:
"...how I felt, I don't feel that way anymore."