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Passing Grief Memory
I think of my mother and father
Happiness reigns
They're back together again
Eleven years apart
Death brought separation
But not forever
Romance blossoms in Heaven.
Down here on earth
The loss is great
Moving on without them
Mother wasn't present on my Wedding Day
Now father won't see his first grandchild from me
I'm an orphan now
My age doesn't matter.
My memories of mother
Cooking, cleaning
Looking after father
She loved to dance, dad didn't
She was artistic, creative spirit
She inspired me.
I think of my father
Wise, old owl
Prayerful and charitable
Always giving to the needy
Teaching us kids not to be greedy
Materialism was never a measurement of worth.
Together they instilled morals in us children
To give without conditions
Reach out to the hurting
Love the lonely
Be supportive and dependable
Keep promises and confidences
Do this with a cheerful countenance.
There was a dark side too
For there's no happiness without grief
No love without loss
No pain without gain
No fear where courage cannot rear.
When mum passed on
I was at a selfish age
No one mattered bar me
Mum's wisdom, what do you mean?
I was immortal, invincible, indestructible
Then your death shattered that
I crashed!
Eleven years on together with dad
I learned to appreciate
Take note of his intelligence
Pray together, grow together
We became close.
Even healed the rift
Of my childhood
A new fresh path
Of honesty, openness, one on one
We began a journey
Then God called you home.
So here I am alone
Walking through maturity
My own family, with hubby
Maintaining relationships
With my siblings
Making you proud
As I continue living
Or try to.
It's so hard without you
Can't find a reason for all this
Continue to what
Where am I going?
Where is my past?
Trying to overcome
Feeling like I can't
Write poetry, heal my soul
And hope one day
This grief will pass.
� Elizabeth
25th April, 2001
"I lost my father in September 2000, and my mother eleven years previous. This poem is about my loss reflecting on what my parent's taught me and how to develop my character in becoming a better person. This poem is a tribute to the good things they gave me in this even crediting the struggle I had with my father and mending our rift from childhood.
This is for you mum and dad, I'll always love you."
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