Do not fall in love with Aya, and do not let Aya fall in love with you.
What you see in him doesn't matter. Yes, there's a lot about him that brings out a response--hell, you'd have to be blind, deaf, and stupid not to see why the girls are all over him during his work hours.
Read my lips. It doesn't matter.
First of all, which I hardly need to point out--he's a man, you're a man. I wouldn't go so far as to call him macho, but... oh, hell, yes I would. He may treat girls like the most irritating thing since Hello Kitty, but he's too much of a manly-man to deal with being the object of a guy-on-guy crush.
Beyond the mostly-superficial, though: he's damaged goods. Take a look at him the next time we're on a mission. Do you ever see him looking more alive than when he's got that damn katana in his hand? Do you ever hear real heat in his voice unless he's yelling for someone's blood?
His heart is flash-frozen.
You're going to break your heart and bruise your soul trying to pry him out of his shell. It's never going to be about you--you're going to forget yourself, you're going to drown in him completely until there's nothing to you except the thought of purple-flame eyes. When you can't hear his voice, you'll feel like you've been split open right there on the pavement; when you aren't next to him you'll taste blood in your mouth.
He'll kill you without lifting a finger.
And if he loves you back? Oh, then you're really screwed.
Think about the way he sees love. If his heart lets somebody in, he has to protect them. Look at him and his sister--I can't count the number of times he's almost died trying to keep her safe. And that's just the ones we've witnessed--it's happened before, I know it has. It'll happen again, even if the person he's trying to protect isn't her. If he lets you close enough to love, and if he gets over the fact that you're both men--he'll never tell you. You won't get any hint that he's falling for you. He'll hide it from everyone, including you.
You won't know until he's had his chest pumped full of lead trying to protect you.
He'll throw himself in front of every conceivable danger the two of you face. And one day he won't be fast enough, or his aim will be just a little off... who knows, maybe he'll give you one kiss before dying. You'll taste his blood on your tongue every night for the rest of your life. Believe me, I know.
Keep him at arm's length. Have your fun, be his friend, call him a jerk when he's being one. Just don't let him close. Don't make eye contact. Don't touch him. Don't ask about his sister. Do whatever you have to, just make sure he can't get at your heart.
Have a cigarette. You're going to need it.
Light up, kick back, try to forget you ever felt this way about him.
Do not fall in love with Aya, and do not let Aya fall in love with you.
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