Entry 257

January 1st, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today I stayed over at Amy’s house until about 4 p.m. and we didn’t get dressed until about 4 either. We called Carol and asked her if she wanted to go bowling, and she said yeh, so we went bowling until about 6 p.m.

Entries 258-261

January 2nd-5th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and I’ve noticed I’m maturing very fast, and I don’t like it. My breasts are growing too fast. I would give almost anything to go back to the 1st grade. I didn’t have any worries in the then because in the 2nd I found out we had to move to where I am now. Then in 3rd grade I didn’t anybody at school and in the 4th it wasn’t so bad I just had some rough times with some of my friends. In the 5th grade I had a lot of fights with my friends; I had a horrible teacher that always scolded me when sometimes I wasn’t even doing anything. In the 6th grade, it was real hard for me because once you enter middle school the teachers expect you to be absolutely perfect, so whenever you do something wrong you get screamed at. I mean it is totally different from elementary school. Now in the 7th grade it’s okay I guess, I mean I know there is something wrong with me I just don’t know what yet.

Entry 262

January 6th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Ray’s changed ever since he started going out with Helen. I mean he acts way different toward me. Today something happened that I thought could never happen. He said that he didn’t want to sit by me at lunch. I felt horrible, I don’t like him anymore, but we are friends; I sat by him anyways though.

Entry 263

January 7th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Guess what?? Today I got Joey’s phone number! I told Ray that I had a friend that likes Joey and she wanted his phone number and Ray gave it to me. I asked Joey if it was really his number and he said it was and I told him why I wanted it, so now I am so excited I don’t know what to do with myself.

Entry 264

January 8th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today they canceled church because of the weather. I’m glad because I didn’t feel like going. I feel like something is wrong with me, but I don’t know what. It is like whenever I think about eating I get sick, so I basically have to force myself to eat.

Entry 265

January 9th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today I got to thinking about my life and the future about what will happen to me. And I think that in a way I miss Gardner Newman, but in another way I am glad I came to Callaway because I met and made a lot of new friends.

Entry 266

January 10th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I’m glad it’s Friday because that means we have two days to sleep in and stay home. They are saying that it might snow on Sunday, then we might have a snowstorm on Monday. I hope it does because then we won’t have to go to school that would be so cool.

Entry 267

January 11th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Once again I had a whole day where I was basically bored the whole time. I talked to Amy on the phone a few times, went online, and played some video games and that was about it.

Entry 268

January 12th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I didn’t go to church today because my Mom didn’t want to. I have been starting to pray at night before I go to bed and at school during the silent reflection. I think I am doing pretty good now I need to start reading the bible more.

Entry 269

January 13th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today I didn’t feel like going to school, but I did anyways of course. On Wednesday we have a test in science and that really sucks. I invited Mary to spend the night with me on Sunday, since we don’t have school on Monday.

Entry 270

January 14th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Mary asked her mom and she said maybe and I asked my Mom and she said, “We’ll see.” I really hope she will be able to though, but if she can’t then I will just invite her again next weekend. I have been going on the internet a lot lately and I have been finding a lot of interesting things on there.

Entry 271

January 15th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today Dan called and asked if he could come over and type a report on the computer and print it and I told him yea. He came over around 5:00 and stayed for a long while because my Mom got us something to eat and we took an hour to eat. I think I still like Dan.

Entry 272

January 16th, 1997

Dear Diary,

We had a substitute in our Pre-Algebra class today. Here is a list of the guys I like: Joey, Clark, J.T.T, Frank and Dan. One of them I only like because he is famous which would be J.T.T, but he is really cute as well.

Entry 273

January 17th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today me and Amy planned to go to the movies on Sunday, and Mary’s mom said she couldn’t spend the night, but maybe next week when we have a teacher’s work day. Amy and I are going to see “The Preacher’s Wife”.

Entry 274

January 18th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I was pretty much bored all day today…felt like I was in boredom city so not really much to say…

Entry 275

January 19th, 1997

Dear Diary,

At church tonight no one was there in our class except for me and Sherry. I didn’t do much after church except get on the internet for a little while.

Entry 276

January 20th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today we didn’t have school because of Martin Luther King’s birthday. I needed a break from school, I was getting kind of sick of the same schedule. Of course tomorrow we will have school, but I’m glad we got today off.

Entry 277

January 21st, 1997

Dear Diary,

At school today each time I saw Joey I somehow realized that I have grown very fond of him. In other words I like him a lot more than I ever realized and I really don’t know why though.

Entry 278

January 22nd, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today I went to church and Dan called asking if we could give him and Christy a ride home from church. Of course my Mom told them yes. As it turned out that we ended up just taking Dan home because Christy decided to stay.

Entry 279

January 23rd, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today Mary, Amy and I planned to go to the movies on Friday night. We are either going to see “The Relic” or “The Beverly Hills Ninja”. Amy won’t be able to go if we go to see “The Relic” because it is rated R. I don’t care which we see as long as they hurry up and decide.

Entry 280

January 24th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today Mary decided for us to go see “The Relic” so Amy got kind of mad because she couldn’t come, but I am assuming she got over it because if she didn’t I don’t think she would still be talking to me.

Entry 281

January 25th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I was like so tired all day and I had this really bad migraine, my head hurt so bad because of it. My Mom wants to schedule a doctors appointment, but I don’t want her to because I hate the doctor’s office mainly because it reminds me of needles and shots which I hate.

Entry 282

January 26th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I went to church tonight and pretty much the whole youth group was there which made it more fun than usual other than that nothing really exciting happened.

Entry 283

January 27th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I stayed home all day by myself because today was a teacher work day, and so my Mom was at work all day just as my Dad was. I got pretty bored, but I just sat around and watched T.V. basically.

Entry 284

January 28th, 1997

Dear Diary,

When I got home from school today my Mom told me that we are going to visit my Aunt Kathy and cousin Sarah in Jacksonville, Florida. I am really excited because usually when I go to visit them Sarah and I go out and play pool together.

Entries 285-286

January 29th-30th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I didn’t go to church today because I was really tired when I got home. Also my Pre-Algebra teacher, Mrs. Farrell moved to South Carolina so now we have a new teacher Mrs. Crooke, who I really don’t like.

Entry 287

January 31st, 1997

Dear Diary,

I didn’t go to school today as planned, instead we left early this morning to go and visit Sarah and Aunt Kathy. It took us six hours to get there, which seemed like forever but we finally got there safe and sound. We went out to eat at Gators and I watched Sarah play some pool.