Entry 347

April 1st, 1997

Dear Diary,

My Mom had to leave today to go to some teacher conference thing because another teacher that was supposed to go got sick so it was kind of a last minute thing for her.

 

Entry 348

April 2nd, 1997

Dear Diary,

Today I didn’t go to church because I went out to eat with my Dad instead since my Mom is out of town. We went and ate at Knickers and I got the chicken fingers which were alright.

 

Entry 349

April 3rd, 1997

Dear Diary,

            My Mom got back from her teacher conference thing in Florida she had.  Man you know I hate that we have to go back to school next week, I just wish it was all overwith now, but as always I will endure it.

 

Entry 350

April 4th, 1997

Dear Diary,

            I didn’t go to the movies tonight like I usually do on Friday and Saturday nights.  I am also utterly bored at the moment considering I seem to have nothing to do.  Oh today I found out Mary likes Jacob…isn’t that cool??  Since she is like one of my best friends and this means I can take part in trying to get them together.

 

Entry 351

April 5th, 1997

Dear Diary,

            I am really bored today…again don’t know why.  My friend Louise is probably in France at the moment having a terrific time, unlike me.

 

Entry 352

April 6th, 1997

Dear Diary,

            We didn’t go to church today and I dunno why either, I woke up early enough to go…and I kind of wanted to go.  I just didn’t ask why for whatever reason.

 

Entry 353

April 7th, 1997

Dear Diary,

            Today we had school as usual.  Mrs. Worrell, my English and homeroom teacher had a substitute because right now she is in Greece to follow Paul’s mission (from the bible) or some crap like that…I dunno.  She is supposed to be back on Wednesday though.  I’m really confused about my feelings for guys who  think I like…but I dunno.

 

Entry 354

April 8th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I got in a fight with my Dad today and I feel like I never want to see him again. The only reason is because he called me a bunch of uncalled for names. I mean I forgive him and all I guess and I still love him or whatever, but I will always have this ball of anger growing inside me about it.

 

Entry 355

April 9th, 1997

Dear Diary,

            School today was horrible I am completely mortified after the events of today.  See, I had this wet spot on my shirt and on my jeans so naturally being the immature age that my peers are they all assume I pissed in my pants and of course none thought to ask me…like dumbasses.  We happened to be in P.E. when this happened, so the P.E. teacher made me go to the office to call my Mom and ask her to bring me a change of clothes, excluding the fact that doing this makes everyone else think even more that what they have assumed is true.  So I went to call my Mom and before I even got the chance to ask her to bring me a change of clothes, she just said she would come and pick me up instead.

 

Entry 356

April 10th, 1997

Dear Diary,

We don’t have school tomorrow because it is a teacher’s work day which I am happy about. Mary is coming over tomorrow at about 12 in the afternoon and then Amy is going to come with us to Red’s at 7 p.m.

 

Entry 357

April 11th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Mary came over today as planned and we all went to Red’s it was fun, but Mary and Amy hardly skated any, while I did alot. Also have I mentioned that my dream is to become a world famous poet, I have already written about 7-8 poems and there are more in the making.

 

Entry 358

April 12th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Guess what I realized last night at Red’s I like Luke. I will admit he is not absolutely gorgeous, but I still like him. Mary has gone out with him before.

 

Entry 359

April 13th, 1997

Dear Diary,

            I went to church today as usual, it was okay I guess.  Gosh, I’ve hardly stopped thinking about Luke though, I think it is just the thrill of the possibility of a new relationship forming.  Since I have found a new interest I am beginning to think I no longer like Dan or Joey which is definitely a good thing.

 

Entry 360

April 14th, 1997

Dear Diary,

School was alright today, Amy, Mary and I are planning on going to Red’s again this Friday so that should be fun.

 

Entries 362-363

April 16th-17th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Mary might be moving soon to Atlanta, I hope she doesn’t have to though. We are still planning on going to Red’s Friday and Amy might be spending the night with me that night also which will be cool.

 

Entry 364

April 18th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Well, Amy was able to spend the night with me tonight, and Mary won’t have to move until later which is terrific so we all went to Red’s tonight and guess what happened!! Luke asked me out I was so happy and of course I said yes, since I can’t stop thinking about him. Also I haven’t had my period this month which is kind of annoying because I was hoping it would be on a regular schedule now, because I was supposed to have it on the 16th, so I don’t know.

 

Entry 365

April 19th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I went to see Anaconda today with Luke. It was cool I had fun for my first sort of date I guess. I like Luke alot. I mean I have never liked anyone this much before and I hope I have my first kiss with him.

 

Entry 366

April 20th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Okay well I find my thoughts filled with Luke alot lately, I really do like him I haven’t had feelings this strong for anyone, but then again he is only like my third boyfriend and plus I am only 13 so that is likely to change, but for now I am quite happy with him.

 

Entry 367

April 21st, 1997

Dear Diary,

I couldn’t wait until I got home from school today so I could talk to Luke. I feel kind of weird going out with him somewhat because him and Mary used to go out, but Mary says she doesn’t care so I guess it is okay.

 

Entry 368

April 22nd, 1997

Dear Diary,

I went to bible study today, which is like a club we have after school and it was alright. I didn’t get to talk to Luke that much though because he had to go to someone’s house because his Mom went to Atlanta this afternoon. Also we had a thunderstorm yesterday and while I was talking to Mary I almost got electrocuted, kind of scary.

 

Entry 369

April 23rd, 1997

Dear Diary,

I didn’t go to church today, but I got to talk to Luke longer which can’t be bad. I can’t wait until Friday when we are supposed to do something, it should be fun, I really hope we kiss.

 

Entry 370

April 24th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I can’t stop thinking about Luke, I talk about him alot especially when I am talking to Amy, Mary, or Jessica. He is the first guy I have felt this strongly about.

 

Entries 371-372

April 25th-26th, 1997

Dear Diary,

Guess what! Today I am deeply hurt because Luke broke up with me. What makes it worse is that he didn’t even have the guts to do it himself he got Mary to do it for him. He said the reason was because he didn’t feel anything. So at first I decided I wasn’t going to go to Red’s because I would see him, but then Mary changed my mind because she said Luke wasn’t going. But guess what; turns out he went anyway, can we say Awkward! Then what made it worse was when they played the song that was playing when he asked me out I was even more uncomfortable because we were all sitting at a booth together and I almost cried, but I just held it in until I got home.

 

Entry 373

April 27th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I didn’t go to church today and my parents went to Columbus while I stayed home by myself. I hardly ever go anywhere with my parents anymore, at least not in public where I’ll be seen.

 

Entry 374

April 28th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I found out earlier that Dan has a cancer tumor in his arm and he is having surgery today so they can remove it. So while I was at school I was hoping he would be okay, he has to keep his arm in a slang after surgery so he can’t move it that much.

 

Entry 375

April 29th, 1997

Dear Diary,

I am having the worst times right now in my life. I never thought that some things that are happening to me could happen. I mean right now it is like my heart is slowly being torn into pieces.

 

Entries 376-377

April 30th-May 1st, 1997

Dear Diary,

I didn’t go to school today, why? I am not really sure...I’ve been crying alot for Dan lately. I went to church tonight it was alright, but afterwards Curran took me home and on the way we stopped by to see how Dan was doing. Luckily he is doing alot better, he has to go back through surgery on Monday, then hopefully it will all be overwith.

 

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