Entry
610
Sunday
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Once again I have managed to miss a
few days, sorry I have gotten preoccupied with so many other things, especially
Sam inparticular. I don’t know what to
do about him. He has jumped to the
assumption that I went all over school telling everyone about what was said
that night. He is obviously pissed off
at me, even when I told him I only told Helen and mentioned it to Britany. He
apparently doesn’t understand that there are people that eavesdrop and over
hear others’ conversations. We still
haven’t talked about anything that was said yet. He doesn’t realize that he has also told
people things he shouldn’t have about me.
I need to talk to him so bad and I am going to call him in about a
little over an hour. Nobody especially
him has any idea how much this is upsetting and bothering me. If I don’t talk to him soon these emotions I
am having will just begin to fester inside of me and only get worse. Besides, over the past few days not lonely
have I lost him, but I have also lost a friend.
He knows he is the only person I can open up to the way I do, and come
to with certain situations. I am really
hoping he is just going to get over this as soon as we talk. I am not exactly sure what we will say, but I
am praying it will be a good conversation and won’t end in tears because I
really don’t need any of that right now.