| Experiences, Miracles, Insights & Physical or Psychic healings of any magnitude. Well this is my reports on all my experiences at the July 2000 American retreat for Mukti Yagna until now. I say really it started on Oct. 1999 that felt deep unbearable pain of suffering term spiritual suffering, my suffering of or/my separation from God as put in Bhagavan teachings. I felt I could not go on living like this. Even being a New age Teacher, I knew so many different techniques like SRF Kriya Yoga, Shibedu Lahiri, Original Kriya yoga, TM, Theosophical Teaching, Buddhist Theravada Meditation called Dhammakaya, and Manomayiddhi, Tibetan Dzogchen, Shamballa Meditation, Ascended Masters Decrees, SKY Yoga, Brahma Kumaris, Sufi Teaching, Avatar course of Star's Edge Harry Palmer and Eckankar Soul Travel teaching as well. I was still in suffering mode. I heard about Kalki Bhagavan in June '97 Positive Living magazine, I was in India in 1997 when to see them as New Delhi retreat but they say American they have a Website and Group but I live in Asia as an expert AMERICAN MEANING I DO NOT LIVE ON USA , ANY MORE , IT HARD FOR PEOPLE TO THINK I DONT LIVE NOR WANT TO GO BACK TO USA BUT THAT MY KARMA and my choice. So I did not find at that time the KALKI website in American or any website on Kalki so I wanted to know the truth so I kept the magazine as reference in future. But I try then in October 1999, I found it, the Website of Freddy Neilsen. Maybe it was not the right time before, but email Freddy and he email Madhu email. I contact Madhi Dasaji and he say about the retreat in July 2000 of Mukti Yagna, and I could go and about the Singapore Group of Kalki Bhagavan. I What I was doing in meantime I thought of praying to Swami Yogananda as I was a SRF Kriya Yoga Initiates as well many years ago in 1982. ] I got his books how to talk to God , so it say when you know GOD and you get contact with then only your suffering will go, so I then felt God if its true was Bhagavan. I did not started really praying to Bhagavan until I meet with the satsang group on Bhagavan in Singapore in fen 2000, then I read the book KALKI DHARMA. And after talking with the people who been to India meeting Kalki and seeing and feeling there true devotion, I felt that Bhagavan was Speaking though them, I was told that was the first Yagna people has there Anthayamin awakened. One lady told me of the miracle that for 15 days Bhagavan came Physical eating lunch at her house. Until Bhagavan convince her that he was Kalki. Now I was convince as she was So I had to pray get for the money for the trip to India to go to the Mukti yagna in March. My friend from Germany email me, a surprise that I have not contacted for two or three years , I lost my email to him , he sudden contacted me out of the blue , really a miracle to be contact , I told him I needed to do a Martial Arts seminars in Hamburg , Germany he said yes and I could not believe for I was out and down no job for 6 month , no money , later he send me the money to go to Flight to Germany on May 2000. I got 28 students there, and after private lessons with his adult students and taught my Buddhist meditation and basic meditation to many more people like people just calling in wanting to learn, it was amazing. I pray to Bhagavan just before all this and am in a helpless state as was the teaching. I pray for if you are really Bhagavan and you want me to go to this Mukti Yagna, the first ones for American, then I need $2000US clear after expenses. So it really happen I got after just paying the borrow money and percentage to my Friends. Exactly $2000US plus as requested. I had a return ticket back to Bangkok Thailand. I travel back got my India visa and was on my way in June 2000 to Madras via Calcutta, India. I arrive at Neman in but they say they charge place to Satya Loka, , and we get extra teaching to become teachers, and maybe personal darshan with Bhagavan , first time in years to see people. I was thrill but still suffering from a deep pain. Fear what is life, who is me. Why am I here now at this time. I soon realize this Mukti taught me a lot of what the real truth of what enlightenment truly is. Acaryaji's Ananadgiri and Sri Samadarshinni were to be our teachers and first and only time that we meet and learn from Bhagavan first "child" teacher after his school friends Pamamachaya. The teaching by ANANDA GIRI WAS deep and cut though our human limited concepts and beliefs, some wanted to leave , one did, I kept on. I did not sleep at all there at Satya Loka until much later. I has deep pain when we did the Chakra Dhyana one night, I got very hot sweating, more so than any other time, I realize that this is psychic heat, kundalini heat, I had back pain for five years, it got worst that night some people had pain too it was releasing so the next day 50% of my back pain was gone I really felt better., to sit again. Then we had Bhagavan mula mantra to raise our kundalini. I was so aware too self conscious it was not working, but I let go and felt I rise to my heart it was still going up when the session ended. We had vipassana walking mindfulness meditation daily by the third day I was feeling my energy field /Aura around my body , called 2nd attention by Toltec shaman teaching, This mindfulness , slow walking later as I understand now raise my kundalini raise my awareness later I can fell music , sounds, vibration at a higher level now. We did a two hours OM chanting with an American audio CD of Master Charles of Synchronicity Foundation, this chanting as we finish the Pranayana mudras and pranakriyas and then Chakra Dhyana, The OM chanting was resounding and expanding my mindfulness awareness of my energy fields around my body, I was hot as well. It was having a peak experience, I was vibrating , (I now aware of another dimension of my being now) , all day and following night like being space out but aware, much more sensitive later on I felt more with Sri Samadarshinni Dasaji Samskaras Shuddhi processes. We then did the awakening of the Anthayamin with Sri Samadarshinni Dasaji, she say she never more than a Dasaji, in her humility I learn what a truly beautiful graceful enlightened beings truly is , her devotion convince me truly people are transform to enlighten beings by Kalki Bhagavan and she the proof of it. During the chanting Sri Samdarshinni Dasa I felt deep pain coming to the surface I felt a "egg shape energy force" enter into from the back right side into my heart /chest I was crying without knowing really why , I was very happy ,very happy , I never cry like this before. Others were crying and felt it too but others did not feel thing, I truly wanted to awaken my indweller in Bhagavan form only. I saw in my Third eye just a picture as in his Sri Mukti of out stretched arms in Yellow garbs, But was half cover with dust later its cleared, One Dasa say she see and confirm my Antharyamin awaken so I must cultivate what type of relationship so I can see and talk to him more really in reality I chose as a friend and chela. I tell about that later. Late as we did Samsharas Shuddhi when we did pancha pranas , balancing the 5 pranas I felt a great feeling of flowing releasing energies especially in lower body, Sri Samadarshinni Dasa singing of Chanting was uplifting as well I felt every sound she intone. I felt her sound/singing/chant mantras all the time got very warm every time she talks as with Anandagiri. Then we finish the yagna if a few days, then we have the Teacher training course for those who what to teach. Later on as I told Madhuji let have an interview with Sri Samadarshinni on Bhagavan teaching, because she not known to the west as much as Anandagiri. So he say yes, but first ask her, it was ok he say, I should do the questions, he will review and set up a date to shot the whole interview. Later that interview was now in every website, but the video sound what is right so we just print the interview it was suppose to be the main video to release around the world. Later we had group darshan, 6 at a time with Bhagavan, my/our turn one night. I will not every forget my first personal, before we had the whole yagna group darshan which I ask a question, what is my mission on earth, he say I here to raise the awareness of mankind. At this small group darshan every was able to ask question , talk a little freely with Bhagavan , His first statement after saying welcome I am your friend , was You know you all mad , if I was in your place I would have kill my self" A funny but shocking statement From God?? I knew why later, the true of what he says hit me this year 2003 in March. That�s later. Below. As with all 6 he had two female Dasaji, there, beside Sri Samadarshinni and Madhuji. Bhagavan ask the two female Dasajis when to find out what previous life relationship we have with him of the 6, I was the only one what knew him as Sri Ramakrishna. Shri Samadarshinni tells me as his incarnation as RAMAKRISHNA was higher than his Lord Buddha incarnation or rebirth, in spiritual power as well. As for me I was the last to talk after the 5 other to get this information, I was a Nepalese Buddhist monk with my followers that heard of Sri Ramakrishna teaching, I wish to see him, I was all most enlighten in that life, I change my mind from Buddhist that I had to come back and do a higher enlightenment as Sri Ramakrishna did as Kalki Bhagavan teaches. So I had a relation with him, I was surprise, as I have memory of past lives oil did remember this one, but I do remember being in India as this time. Bhagavan told me the day will come for example that I will give Milky to ex USA President Clinton, he foretold that. He smiles at me with love, Sri Samadarshinni say she see that look only with Bhagavan close chelas. She says that a very good sign. I was told among us was a few people that came with him from Satya Loka inner high planes of heavens, but he did tell who as not to give anyone a big ego. I know of two other American chelas that came with him from Satya Loka one fellow yagna chela told me in secret, the day we left. I was the last person to leave on his last jeep In August. 2000 After that I was back to Jakarta, Indonesia to teach 0me of my New Age Course called Shamballa Ascension Meditation. I had a recorded breaking 10 students waiting for me in Jakarta. I had to teach which I usually do about the Ascended Masters, and the Headquarters of then Shamballa. My power to teach was enhancing, I did not tell them but show Bhagavan photo to my group. doing my processes I use to clear there chakras and inner bodies to raise there kundalini , but it clear them but very mild way , but I USE the MOOLA MANTRA singing/chanting tapes I told to listen to it on the 2 nd day of a 4 days course 9 out 10 people the kundalini rose to there head chakras. Two of the nine students had experience kundlini in there own way before, so that helps. The level of my vibration from the Mukti Yagna was high and the photo and the chanting tape work all together, it was amazing. But I tell the people about Bhagavan there do not believe yet, it was too fast for them. They are not ready yet. In Jakarta after I finish my course with them I got a cold /flu. I was doing my daily sadhanas of 30 minutes , I did not to give up , but I was sick I took cold medicine , I when to sleep in afternoon , as soon as begin to sleep and let go of running my sadhanas by taking cold medicine I had a tremendous raising of energy , my mind was seeing vision of he inner working of my body and the ideas came rushing too fast integrating all my science , quantum mechanics , and all the philosophical ideas I had , it was exiting as it was scary, I was going to enlightened but I was too scare , so the processes STOP. But I do remember equation m the DNA has sometime to do with the kundalini and time travel is possible via awakening of the kundalini by changing your point of view. This is a KEY IS: a POV, point view as least for me. I wrote down a three page of exactly what happen but it too long to put it here. BUT THE FEW EXPERIENCES OF ENLIGHTED STATES I HAD. ONLY THE LAST ONE I HAD WAS AS SAID I HAD BHAGAVAN CONTACT VERY STRONGLY IN APRIL 2001, EARLY, I MEDITATED SEE HIM IN THIRD EYE VISION, FEEL HIS PRESENCE OF THE ANTHARYAMIN, THEN WHEN TO SLEEP, IN MIDDLE OF NITE I FELT VERY HOT, I CHANTED HIS Mula Mantra and his NAME, I FELT EVEN HOTTER IN MY HEART AND BACKSIDE OF BODY,. WHEN I when TO SLEEP, I HAD A DREAM BHAGAVAN TOLD ME THE FUTURE BY IMAGE A CHART SHOWING DATES 2003. 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007 STOP THERE, EACH DATE SHOWN, HOW MANY PEOLPE ACHIEVED ENLIGHTEDMENT, 3000 or 30,000 BY 2007, I was shown about the FUTURE, about something I will not say here but Kalki Bhagavan present was very clear. KALKI BHAGAVAN SAYS ABOUT SOMETIME IN FUTURE IN YEAR 2047 TO 53, LATER. But so far I taught a few people about Bhagavan, one when to India, I taught an Intro to a 20 people Indian group in Jakarta 2002. I taught a small Indian group in KL, Malaysia, One 6o year�s Malaysian burned Indian lady (Lashimi Devi) got her Antharyamin quite easily, later I did a full day yagna for her in 2002 Later in KL, Malaysia Sri Acharyaji Vimalakeerti came to visit and speak here via Narayanji cost going to teach in Singapore. I was so lucky to meet him as well. I ask him what I felt all my life since 26 that my karma is not my karma, (53 years now) > he says when a person starts thinking that way and knows it that an indication he awake and soon be enlighten. Later I was meditation and got aware of Anandagiri teaching about being to SEE about WHAT is no matter the CONTENT of what you see or meditated on. I realize it�s the same teaching ob Bhagavan "TO suffer and forgive". I was Seeing , being mindfulness of everything, every even no comment to see it dissolve into nothing , my awareness energy rose, I now understand how to maintain and enlightened state but I was closer to enlightenment , but not yet to be enlightened as he taught, it was a great revelation. I SEE NOW, HOW TO SEE, TO SEE WHAT IS NO MATTER WHATEVER THE CONTENT YOU ARE SEEING OR FEELING. THEN ENERGY RELEASE FROM ME LETTING GO OF MY ATTACHMENTS TO JUGDE OR CONDEMN OR TO COMMENT, SO THE ENERGYTHAT WAS LET GO , RAISE MY AWRENESS FURTHER, THEN I FELT IT RAISE MY KUNDALINI. I HAD OOBE OT O BODY EXERIECE BY THAT< FROM A VPASNA BOK I READ WHEN WE DO MNDFULLNESS TECHNIQUES , A RESPD S WE HAVE IGHER EERGY OF AWARENESS SO WE HAVE AWARENESS IN DREAMS AS LUCID AND OOBE TOO. Now March 2003 I was planning on going to India in Jan 2003 and to see Bhagavan in Darshan and the Festival. I got the money to go, but this time a change , the E. festival was delay to August , American Group got Bhagavan Darshan was too early. I got perplex, I meditated, I contemplated. My plans was delay but something told me to wait , I Got a New meditation Music release in America, these 5 CD just like many good audio CDs Anandagiri pickup from USA that he use at the Mukti Yagnas< but this one was deeper , Anyway on a Saturday in mid March my higher self sort of set the event. I use the music all week but to use it to sleep with, it changes my consciousness to the awareness of enlightenment for the next 24 hours exactly. I saw, felt, and realize all of Bhagavan Teachings. THIS WAS: Well you can get experience now its does not matter except to you, if you are determine enough to face the truth of you very existence and face all you fears that you created you will see and know the truth ever when you see you will have fears beyond your expectations and bliss beyond you wildest experience and there is beyond all that you will know the truth but you know you don't know. I have a blowouts mind expanding experience for 24 hours, I can not forget, it too much to explain, except everything perfect as it is, everyone mad and everyone enlightened much more to say but that me you experience can be the same or different the life's paradox, we all living the life we want we create our reality but we forgot we are doing it. we get caught in our story , our drama, our life WE CREATE OUR OWN MOVIE STORY LIFE AFTER LIFE, WE GET BIG CLUES (like cancer , like accidents, like death in family etc) THAT WE ARE IN A MESS BUT WE REFUSE TO SEE WHAT WE DID TO OURSELVES . This is not the final truth just a beginning see a third space star field portal in my third eye, like RV Remote viewing I says this we all be RV by this new music .From that I took my trip, I can not say In know what know is true or not but some THING I DID LEARN WAS TRUE, COMPASSION, don't hurt another for any reason, we are all in pain in our fear and ignorance to know the truth. First off was we are in pain , I felt mankind's suffering and pain the pain body of all of Earth as one whole thing , I saw at the same time felt its a female , the mind the dualistic mind, the dualistic caparisoning of thoughts bind us in pain so deep, THAT WE FEEL HOPELESS IT SO BAD, WE FEEL TRAP BY IT and NO WAY OUT, just like the 6 realms in Tibetan Buddhism Teaching, I could not stand it was so painful with it hopelessness like being in hell of our on creation , we were mad , all of us are mad with the beliefs we have we think we are sane;, NOT true, we are mad , But we can not get out it, but we can be Enlightenment just as we are MAD , how to do it is what I haved to understand. BUT THIS Madness is our Enlightenment we can be enlightened or mad; it is that easy I felt THIS TRUTH. (IT BEEN SAID THAT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A MADMAN AND ENLIGHTED ONE: LOOK THE SAME ACT THE SAME, BUT ONE IS AWARE THE OTHER IS NOT) But we cover up our pain unbearable suffering by new beliefs, by our desires it like it diverts our attention to our real pain deep , we fear to see it , I fear to feel it, we all do so,,we have denial of it, we create a make believe world called modern society , we create religions we create , governments, countries , nationalism , movies, all kind entertainment smoking , drinking, entertainment, philosophies to stop us remember we are mad in pain. But I also had new realization and experience that our very desires are causing our suffering , its the ceaseless wanting every microseconds, I heard my self saying mentally I want this , I want this , next wanting , next wanting , I ask WHAT I WANT??? I want to exist , I suppose. I realize just existing next moment of recreating our need to want a human form as Buddhism teaches Nama and Rupa name and form NOW I UNDERSTOOD BUDDHAS teachings , we desire to create Me , the "I" ,and the form the body; the mind create the need , the want , the desire , the craving , the grasping comes cause us to heard the ceaseless wanting which we can not stop because of the trap or web or our attachment to our mind creates the ceaseless wanting. So I realize to stop all this is stop needing or wanting, I WANT NOTHING, I NEED NOTHING. Because we are whole as Soul, we have all we need we need nothing anyway as we have the whole UNIVERSE AS US AS ATMAN AND BHAHMAN ARE ONE AND SAME AS THE VEDIC SCRIPTURES TEACH. BUT what ever was created IS PERFECT, nor can we really BLAME ANYONE or criticise them for their mistakes. We should be very Compassionate always because all / we are in pain and I felt it not right to give any more pain to others again as they are in too much as it is!!! We just have to Stop and feel Joy, are happy change that belief. For we are Joy we are peace, Then the seeing and feeling I got vision of the revelation , realization we are stuck because we believe we are stuck then the I am ego came together with the " I AM" SELF it became one. But Ego SAID I AM ENLIGHTEN BUT: ( FELT IT NOT TRUE HOW CAN EGO BE ENLIGHTED THEN I SAID I AM NOT ENLIGHTED THEN I REALIZE THE TRUTH THE EGO WHEN AWAY TO come back again , but it was reduce can I say smaller weaker ego. I felt elated but I was being freed of my ego, but not all at once. BUT THEN I see a very large light greenish colored clear body LORD BUDDHA COME and I BECAME IT. I WAS THE BUDDHA. I FELT THE REAL Peace of the Buddha nature we are that Peace and Bliss that lasted, I really don�t know how long I just sat there in my bed. But I had revelation from my higher self I knew that the TRUTH of all Beliefs are not TRUE it the not the higher or Highest truth. , the world religions are created by man serve only to relieve there pain , as pain releaver for the masses, ALL RELIGIONS, PHILOSOPHIES ARE NOT THE HIGHEST OF TRUTHS, ALL ARE JUST RELATIVE FROM PEOPLE'S POINT OF VIEW .,THE TRUTH IS NONE OF THEM, ARE BETTER OR WORST, TRUE OR NOT TRUE. JUST A IDEAS, A DEVICE TO PUT A BAND-AID on MANKIND'S DEEP UNRESOLVED PAIN. What Bhagavan say is true we are mad with delusion, we created our own mess, by the mind we are trap by the mind this is our paradox, with using the mind the wrong way, this dualistic MIND. Like the movie THE MATRIX, we are our own self created MATRIX OF THE MIND IN PAIN. So my mind is not my mind, that true, we are not the MIND but we ARE PEACE and JOY the true Nature. . It�s been a wonderful and joy full 24 hours. I see people on the street and have not judgements, no fear of them, as I normally unconsciously do. I felt detachment, I FELT FREE, I WAS SO HAPPY I WAS FREE of this painful mind. But gradually after 24 hours it came back. I realize my mind ego complex was not completely understood yet. Late I realize two weeks later in another deeper contemplation that the ego I wanted to rid of it I was fighting it , I dislike people because I dislike my EGO so I realize what I hate in the world was a reflection of my hated my EGO MIND lower self. So I say to ego no more, no more fight no more, let it is, let go. Then I FELT SOMETHING LEFT ME, , it came back in different beliefs, I let that go it left, again and again it like the different egos of the same ego are leaving me. I had a dream after May 11, Bhagavan and Anandagiri came or came to see them , he was like a friends, like two friends I was asking what's up both was laughing bit, smiling , happy , happy to be with them , I realize I was dreaming of Bhagavan , but like reality, I was happy now I have a feeling of a closer relationship with Bhagavan and Acharyaji, He told after I as him he had a telephone bills, that was called tracing or tracking line or calls to find devotees like on Internet?? Not sure, He show me paper 50,000. That was end of Dream. My intuition tell me he trying to find the 50,000 for mukti though his dream internet connection?? After this It happen last week when I started the Mukti 4 process release by Rani to American May 4th.The first body physical we work on after the going into corpse pose shavansana maybe negative thing went though my head mind but then something LEFT ME , a going out of me that wasn't me of longer. So that it for now. This is my experience John V. 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