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10:33 p.m. May 8, 2005 long time without an update. sry. it seems i may have been abusing my livejournal like i said i wasnt going to ... oh well. exhausting past two days is what ive had. saturday morning woke up at 7:15 to get ready for work. got ready and went to work. work wasnt horrible but it was 8 and 1/2 hours of which i could have been doing something else.
after work ... had a lot of things to do so my plan on napping for a couple hours before todds party didnt work. i gave my stepsis her birthday present and i think she enjoyed it. had to wrap up and tape up todds present. it looked cool tho .. it was covered in stripes and bows and ribbons.
todds party. there is a night to remember. starts off just us sitting around drinking our virgin drinks, talking, and admiring the tiki torches, floating candles, hammocks, and bubbles. we did the usual party thing, pizza and cake and just kinda chillin. later in the night todd opened up one of his presents and it was a book of stupid questions so those were fun to read and hear everyones answers.
then the fog machine. what a good time. it was different from the halloween fog machine tho. but two different kinds of fun. i think after that was the neighborhood walk. then the hammock for awhile. great time. stared at the stars. it was a beautiful night, but kinda cold. then inside to fall asleep on the couch. and that was about it.
woke up about 8 to head home ... got home. got dressed and left again. drove to my mothers to surprise her for moms day. i think i was talking about this to someone last night and they told me it wasnt a good idea but i didnt listen to them. about an hour into the drive i was having major problems staying awake. i did it tho. got there. shocked my mother to the point of cursing at me and throwing her towel at me. shes a little bit strange at times. theres a downfall in my mother thats a good thing for me. whenever she gets a gift for someone she has a realllly hard time not giving it to them. so that means today i got my graduation present from her. even though it is still two weeks before my graduation. oh well tho, im not complaining. its a really pretty ruby and diamond ring. then i fell asleep on her couch for awhile, ate lunch and left. i was a good present wasnt i? yep. the way home wasnt that bad i managed to stay awake by turning my music up rather loud and thinking. drives alone are the best time to think.
i had a lot to think about.
and that was pretty much my weekend.
9:27 p.m. May 1, 2005 so i had a pretty smashing weekend ::well i guess past four days; as in thursday, friday, saturday, and today:: thursday night ... um, i think i worked? no wait ... i did something but i just forgot what it was. oh duh, it was thursday. survivor/apprentice night. met up with lauren at around 5:30ish and we had a new face with us .. michelle, i swear i had not seen this girl in over two months. i missed her. we went to quiznos and ate and then to tcby and then to laurens to get to the good stuff. seven o'clock rolls around and here is our president talking about some bullshit instead of me watching survivor. wtf. i was pissed. and even more pissed when i decided to watch this and listened to this man talk. i read in the paper that his popularity rate has declined drastically since november and people were upset about this. well you f-ers elected him, deal with it. i can bitch because i didnt vote for him. needless to say it was a bad 7-8 .. so not only was survivor not on at the same time it came on at 8. meaning i had to channel flop between survivor and the apprentice. not cool at all. after that i went home and sort of kicked it with a certain someone for a little bit. then bed. friday was boring school and work and steak and shake with lauren and i was asleep by 11 because i was sick, tired and had to be at work at 8 on saturday. this entry is long and im not even to the best part of the weekend yet. work on saturday morning then to the mall with lauren and nothing really in the afternoon...7:15ish i arrived at b&n to meet up with what turned out to be; steff, kyle, todd, erica, yuki and sara. rather large group. hung out there for a little bit. played the question game and then i got tricked. todd told me to wear comfy shoes cuz he had an idea for what we could do. something about a nature hike behind cjhs. well it was a nature hike for me that turned out to be my "walk of terror" ... everyone was in on this besides me and erica. ::steffi had left us by now to go to the movies:: so me and erica stay at b&n for awhile and i get a call from sara ::one of the moles:: who told me that todd and kyle had to run an errand so our meeting time at the jr high has been changed to 10:20, me and erica get bored and decided to head out there early because we thought we could just sit and wait for em. well we pull up about 10:10 and sara and yuki are standing outside saras car. they tell us that kyle and todd are going to be super late so we should go on without them ... how i did not see this coming is beyond me ... we start. erica wimps out and locks herself in her car before we even get into the woods. and at this time i currently had calibrettos "dont go into the woods" song stuck in my head which is a freaky song so i was a lot freaked out. so me yuki and sara continue on....we go in for about 15 minutes and decide to turn around ... almost half way out was my scare of the century. kyle and todd come screaming and running out of the woods towards us. i almost peed. i grabbed on to todd cuz i was flippin out and then tried to find kyle and just fell on my ass, and somehow ended up banging my chin on some kind of wood. it didnt feel to hot. sara screamed pretty loud as well, but then sad thing is she knew about it all along. poor sara. so i make it out of this alive. and then its a hot tub party at maggies. we get there. get changed and climb in. snl was on so we watched it and just kinda hung out in my hot tub .. chillin. then yuki and sara left. the rest of us, got out, dried off and went to steak and shake for a little bit. i got home around 2 i think .. maybe i dunno. during the course of this i set my alarm because i had to be at work at 10:30. well i set my alarm for 9:45 pm instead of am. so i woke up around 10:20 and got to work around 11. oh well. work for seven hours. then home to sit on the new deck with the family and grill burgers, ate, and off to borders to pick up the new bitch magazine. then to b&n to "study" for the ap exam .. didnt happen. then home. then now.
9:02 a.m. April 28, 2005 im in second period, bored - my inbox is empty so no emails to write. in the newspaper today there was this story about a dognapper who demanded $500 for this little 11 week old puppy. he got arrested. good. i wonder how that website about Toby the bunny is doing, i cant go to it during school because it is surf controlled for some unknown reason. everything is surf controlled it seems like, they finally got AOL web mail so that means i can no longer check that mail anymore - what a bother. i have to pick out a new computer as my graduation gift .. i really am blind about what kind i want, any suggestions? all i know is that i want an awesome one. i thought about getting a laptop but then i thought about it a little bit and i already have one, but i wont be taking it with me, and really they just get annoying. i want a really good desktop, im thinking a dell? i dunno.
9:17 p.m. April 25, 2005 so today was a good day i think .. the internet was down all day at school so instead of just surfing the net during lunch me cat and lisa somehow managed to take roughly 80 pictures of ourselves. wow. here's two of them, i dont feel like resizing all of them.
9:17 a.m. April 25, 2005 im bored right now, looking up random lyrics ..
1:03 a.m. April 24, 2005 my cat just jumped in my lap and doesnt seem to want to get off .. i guess ill let him stay. its hard to type with him in my face tho. im importing my bright eyes cds finally that i bought a couple weekends ago. but my ipod is upstairs and i realllly dont want to go get it, but i suppose i will. i made a hair appointment for tuesday. that should be interesting. hmm, what else is new with me - somethings new. but thats a secret for my real journal. i worked roughly 8 hours today, and it was freeezing out! what is up with that? seriously now, the weather can be perfect all week and just when we think spring is finally coming and going to stay we get some sort of tornado or whatever and it screws the whole thing up. i was at sonic on friday picking up my routine slushie before work and right as she was walking out with my slushie their power shut off. and pretty much the main part of newburgh lost power, i was on the phone with michelle who also said that most of evansville was out as well. so i drive to work and took a detour down by the river just to see what it looked like and it had some rather large white caps and i get to work and just watch the storm for awhile. we actually still had power so that wasnt bad because even when we lose power we stay open and have to enter everything by hand which bites. and if the pfc has power it usually means i have power at my house as well, which is good because i hate it when my power is off. tonight at work we didn't have enough tarps to cover all of our flowers so i had to call my dad and tell him to bring our huge blue one and even after that some of the flowers were left exposed to the night air, oh well - we did the best we could. my friday and saturday night were good ones. ;). but tomorrow i have no events planned or anything therefore im going to sleep as long as possible and do absolutely nothing besides hang out in my pjs. it will be a great day. so looking at my aol profile i notice that it tells me how long ive been a member of aol well my membership started on 3/26/96, thats 9 years. and i dont know about you but that seems to be a pretty long time to me. just a little bit of odd info for you. anywho im going to go get my ipod, update it, and go to bed and not wake up until i can't sleep anymore.
6:26 p.m. April 20, 2005 i just finished my english portfolio .. oh yea. i havent updated in a rather long time, things have kinda been crazy here lately and any spare time i had sitting on the computer was mainly used to work on my portfolio. so heres a few random points from my last few days.
9:17 a.m. April 14, 2005
Alice's Restaurant
1:23 p.m. April 12, 2005 so me and lisa made some commercials last period, one for water - which is the best one, one for jones chapstick, and one for sunglasses. i wanted to try to get them all up here but they are way too large. i really need to get a real website. or maybe ill just make three other geocities and only have one video on each and just link this site to those. but that sounds like too much work. i took some cool pics of my sis's dog yesterday while it was in the backyard...im thinking about posting those if i feel like it right now. maybe. last night i didnt have to work so i went to walgreens to print out those pics of scooby ::the dog:: and then lauren met me there and we went out to dinner at knob hill where we met todd. ate there, it was nice. i love that place, good food, and its very cozy - especially in the winter. then we went to target where i picked up some little things for prom. so that's about it. work tonight, theres going to be four of us there tonight which is not necessary for a weeknight so im going to try to get out of there early. ive been not working and taking off early even when i am working recently. it hurts my paychecks but im just so anti-work right now i really could care less, plus my dad seems to be being very generous right now with his credit card and getting me gas so im not too worried about money right now. these last few weeks of school i really have stopped caring, not just about school but about school and work. the only thing i want to do is just hang out and have fun. im actually working on my portfolio for english because i want that to look nice so its the only real work i have going on right now.
12:02 p.m. April 10, 2005 so its saturday night and im at my mothers, with sara. we started our drive yesterday around 4 after i got a few little errands taken care of. on our way here on 64 we passed the castle high school baseball team in a warrick county bus so we looked in our assignment book and found out they were playing in jeffersonville, about 15 minutes away from where we were going to be that night. so we got to my moms and had dinner and relaxed for a bit and when we couldnt decide on what movie to go see ::sara is not into chick flicks:: we decided to go to the baseball game. what an adventure. we got there pretty much at the end of the game...talked to a few castle moms, watched us win, and got back in the car and drove home. i have a picture of me outside the field that will later be added. that was my first sporting event of my senior year. i didnt go to a football or basketball game, i feel pretty bad about that and wish to change that. steffi told me i should attend a tennis match - i might do that. today we woke up around 11 and got ready and left to go to mall st. matthews and oxmoor mall. we did a little bit of shopping, i finally got my prom shoes with only a week left before prom. i decided on simple silver shoes, and not to big of a heel, i really dont want shoes ill be uncomfortable in before we even get to dinner. dinner, theres a whole other scandal, 10 people cannot make a unified decision for anything! oh well. so shopped and then headed over to the other mall, which was roughly 2 minutes down the road. we ate lunch at yang kee noodle which is this awesome stir fry asian noodle place thing in the mall .. ive had it before but sara hadnt and she really enjoyed it. walked around that mall for a bit and then headed home to get my mom. we picked her up before we went to garden ridge. at garden ridge we both bought paper for our portfolio and i bought a rather large frame so i can finally make my van gogh collage ive had in mind forever. my 2004 calendar was a van gogh one and i want to take all the paintings out of it and put it together as a collage and i just needed a big frame to do it in. after garden ridge we ran a few other errands and i picked up some pictures that are priceless and awesome, ill scan them when i get home and have them up here as well. thats about all for our day, it was rather exhausting. so im going to go to bed now. goodnight.
9:54 p.m. April 6, 2005 if only every night at work could be like this ...
9:19 p.m. April 5, 2005 "She's got her jaws just locked now in smile but nothing is all right ... i want something else to get me through this . . .semi-charmed kind of life." im making a sleep playlist and was adding that song and just had it stuck in my head.... not a very sleepy song but i enjoy it.
9:53 p.m. April 4, 2005 im so tired right now, ugh. i hate the first day back to life after a break ... i had 9 days off of school and work and today i faced both of those. going off of maybe 4.5 hours sleep. i work every weeknight this week - its a good thing i dont do homework because i wouldn't have time to if i did. work was work...and school was school. me and lauren were discussing how it doesnt really feel like we even go to school anymore and i explained to her that was because really we dont go we're just kind of there ::like zombies:: .. oh to be a senior with 33 days left of high school. i saw laurens grandfather in his underwear tonight, he didnt know he had company and just waltzed out of his room, amusing to say the least...but still disturbing.
9:31 p.m. April 3, 2005 i put some pictures of myrtle beach up already .. just the ones from my digital tho.
5:54 p.m. April 3, 2005 So I guess ill try this again. Earlier my journal f-ed up and didn’t save what I had done. Made me mad I had a lot to say and it took me a little bit to type out. Oh well, ill try it again. So let’s hit some highlights of Myrtle Beach.
3:27 p.m. March 26, 2005 i was browsing myspace and stole a new survey from a girls page! .. this is what happens when im bored at my mothers.
7:58 p.m. March 25, 2005 stepdads birthday .. we went to tony romas "famous for ribs". i didnt have ribs, but it was still good. got home and my watermelon slushie craving kicked in, i hadnt had one in over 3 days so i went back out, i stole my moms matrix, and went to sonic to fix that. im glad to be here, i missed this house. especially the animals .. my beagle here is the best - within the first 15 minutes of me being here i pulled two random objects out of his mouth, and my cat here. is just awesome. so dinner tonight my brother, james, went with us .. equalled a horrible dinner on my part. i try sooo hard to tolerate him, but i just cant. i swear im a horrible person. so my stepdad asked how i would feel about him and my mother moving to washington dc because there are jobs opening there in the field garys involved in and something about his job would bump from a level six to a level twenty. so i thought about it and originally i was upset because me going to uk was based a little bit on me being a less than an hour away from my mom, the closest i would have been to her since i was 9. but my mom and gary have never been in the best position financially and i know that hurts my mom a lot, so if this job meant better money for them then i could suck it up. and plus washington dc could be a cool place to visit. who knows. it might not even happen. uk plays tonight in a little bit, im excited. my mom bought me a bag of potato chips that say UK basketball on em, and its all blue, its awesome .. well im gonna watch ER now, we tivoed it from last night ..
9:41 p.m. March 22, 2005 5 days without an update .. im bad. sry. nothing really has been to intriguing in my life recently. 2 more school days until spring break .. i really need this break, bad. what have i been up to ... friday night was a benefit show at 1123, fun show, sooo many people there. saturday was a lazy day and hanging with lauren for a bit. sunday was work and writing my comp paper till 11:30. monday was school .. hm, i dont believe anything that intersting happened. today i woke up at 7:08 and was in my car by 7:12 .. i believe i am the best ever at getting out of bed and out of my house in record time .. my hand was asleep when i woke up so i couldnt button my pants or anything, it was really awkward. this morning was our senior class picture, i didnt order one, oh well. i think there will be one in the yearbook. i came home from school and took a relaxing bath ::lack of time made it impossible for me to do so before school:: then lauren came over and we went out to dinner at olive garden, it was good. after that over to lazarus to see erica. then to barnes and noble where i got flash cards done for zoology and a little bit of my study guide done, then a whole party showed up .. we stayed and chatted for a bit but then left. back to her house and then she took me home. it was a good night, but it wont happen again for awhile because i work wednesday and thursday night and then friday morning im off to louisville for easter weekend, coming home sunday. and then monday morning off to myrtle beach with steffi, kim and erica!! im so excited i could pee. my first vacation not with parental guidance, what fun times this is going to be!
7:33 p.m. March 17, 2005 i have a confession to make ..
12:21 p.m. March 17, 2005 happy st. patricks day, im home. sick. it sux. its mainly a head cold. headache, clogged nose, and exploding throat ... but everything else feels fine. i missed our little st. pat's day party in my english class. oh well. so last night was the survivor hot tub party. it was nice, lauren and todd joined and we sat in the hot tub and watched survivor. very cool. the evening ended with my watching survivor again and getting home around 11:30ish, all-in-all it was a good night. tomorrow should be good. work for the first time in 5 days and then mock orange at 1123, awesome. i havent seen mock orange since the rev and i miss them cuz i really like em. off this saturday, first one in about a month, but i work sunday - thats ok tho, i dont mind sundays. but as for now i think im going to go make some pancakes and get back in bed...
8:51 p.m. March 14, 2005 so tonight was fun. school was a blah, mondays as usual. but my evening was good. dinner at lonestar for my stepmoms birthday, quite good. then off to the school for some senior mentor incoming freshman orientation. well i conned lauren into going with me and joined kyle in a group to sit at a table and check off different kids coming in. heard some interesting comments from parents the best was this lady ... who i believed had a little tooo much make-up mom and me and kyle actually overheard her say something along the lines of "this is retarded why do we have to do this shit?" ... amazing, what a great mom. the first tour we led was lets say roughly 50 people .. which was a lot to try to walk around the school and explain everything to them. the second group was a little smaller and we had kind of gotten the hang of it .. so all in all it wasn't that bad. lauren and i went to sonic after to get slushies ... story of my life right there. survivor is moved to wednesday because of march madness basketball. i threw out my idea to lauren of getting in my hot tub and watching it ::we have a tv mounted on the wall of our screened in porch - where our hot tub is:: so that could be fun ... but thursday has opened up now.
10:12 p.m. March 13, 2005 i know i already wrote once today, but what can i say - im bored. national treasure is at south .. i have yet to see that and i am told that it is worth seeing ... any takers wanna see it with me? .. let me know. kim and i worked on our paper tonight and finished it .. we basically BSed the whole thing because we really didnt want to write it .. and it was for sociology, so really what was the point. we went to sonic and got slushies and kim was fascinated with the snow flakes .. i had to say they were rather large and quite interesting .. we stood outside her house for a second just to stand in the snow - it was fun. mom bought me a membership to barnes and noble today, finally, i really needed one. lauren called to inform me that i must close my thursday ::our survivor night:: and friday ::mock orange is playing at 1123:: night to the public .. sry, i know how bad you all wanted to hang out with me. i had a strange dream last night that was very realistic .. me and this guy ::he'll remain nameless:: were walking around louisville .. and we just spent the day together .. not that odd - but it was because we saw no one else the whole day .. in the whole city! it was a good dream tho ... no weird zombies or 28 days later crap ... im done for now ..
2:41 p.m. March 13, 2005 im at my grandpas right now, what a drag. mom and stepdad came in to town to "spend the day with me" .. riiiight .. all we seem to have done is lunch and here so she can see my grandpas new puppy and all the dogs can play together. what a joke. oh well. friday was a great night. i worked till around 8 and then went home to change and lauren picked me up and we went off to the show .. we only saw 2 bands, one was much the same which as always they were just awesome ... it'd been a long time since i'd seen them but they still rocked and i knew most of their songs because they played a few songs off of the cd i have .. and lauren and i just had an awesome time - im really gonna miss her when we part at the end of this summer :( ... then we went to steak and shake and just ate and hung out for a bit then home and bed so i could wake up and go to work at noon in the morning. i awakened to the sound of my phone ringing and a 'no name' calling .. i answered it and it was my bro, john :) .. that made me happy and i got to talk to him for a little over 20 minutes and he filled me in with what was going on with him and i filled him in on what was going on with me .. his story of course was a little more exciting.. hes still hoping to get his 2 week leave around the time i graduate .. that would be soo awesome if he could come! but i really am not counting on it so i dont want to get my hopes up too high. then work from 12-8 which was an exhausting 8 hours and then instead of doing something fun on a saturday night i walked across my street and went to babysit till around midnightish .. easy money tho - which i need. it wasnt that bad cuz after it i just walked across the street and went to bed, it was a long day. and thats pretty much it for now .. still counting down the days till spring break!
9:11 a.m. March 10, 2005 im at school right now, second period. yesterday was a good day. i slept in again .. i know im on a role, but this time i literally got out of my house in less than 3 minutes. im amazing i know. so since that happened i wasnt feeling so great and yesterday was also open campus lunch ::rip:: so i decided just to go home and shower and eat some pringles. it was nice. after school i came home and cleaned my room cuz it was trashed. i also cleaned my fish tank because i could no longer fully make out napoleon and pedro...but the waters crystal clear and they're happy. Later in the evening me and kim went out to eat at hacienda with the intention of working on our paper on feral children when we were done...needless to say we returned to her house and watched vh1 .. so not a lot was accomplished, oh well tho. we'll work on it sunday. so i just recieved this email from my mom and found it rather funny so i thought maybe you would as well ....
9:39 p.m. March 8, 2005 so i really dont have anything to say .. something on my mind tho since i was playing with pictures of myself .. see below. me and lisa i believe were having this conversation about being comfortable in your own skin .. that has to be a very important thing, if you're not comfortable with yourself and how you look and everything about it then that is something that should be fixed, i can type this and think this .. but honestly im not comfortable in my own skin. its odd and the whole image thing just sucks. i slept in this morning so no shower for maggie, gross - i know. spring break is creeping upon us and he can not get here soon enough, i realllllly am wanting this break to get here. new haircut on thursday - maybe, i cant decided what im going to do yet! the idea of bangs scare the pants off of me because it took me almost 2 years to fully grow the bangs i had forever back out ..
9:58 p.m. March 7, 2005 what a night. quiznos with sara, then to cvs. where i purchased a label maker .. why you ask? i do not know. just because it was $5.99 and me and sara assumed it would provide some interesting entertainment, none the less. it did. we got to b&n and decided to actually work for a bit before we busted it out. well that actually lasted maybe 45 minutes. then i typed up the word bitch and stuck it on saras forehead, and took a picture ::pics will be up later im just to lazy to run out in the cold to my car where my camera is:: .. after sara's bitch, was yuki .. who we labeled jap and took a picture. also amusing, and then was dan. llama was the word we stuck on his forehead, for old times sake. .. good times. i actually finished my zoo coloring page, what an annoying drag that was. i have yet to actually read this book of ruth that we're reading .. which kind of upsets me because i hear its good, but i just cant get into it .. so instead i just read the chapters im assigned to help discuss in class. oh well tho. me and todd just decided on our night of graduation plans. cabin at scales lake with a fewww close friends and just a good ol' time .. no mad parties at peoples houses .. because most likely i wont even like the person who is hosting the party. it will be fun i hope. im done for now.
12:03 a.m. March 6, 2005 i just heard my old phone ringing playing "here comes the bride" and i almost got out of bed to go get it .. odd. soo, whats new you ask? hm. My iPod arrived safely at my house on friday, awesome. yes it is. friday night was a good day. work was good and then after work i went over to lisa's to pick her up and then we were off. to the show that is, at 1123. we got there and cat and lauren were already there...i hadn't been to a show since around last summer so it was fun to go back, i missed em. at the show i met up with a friend who i had not seen since last summer ::also the first night we met:: ... since then tho i talked to him every now and then online .. but finally he was back in evansville. i took him to taco bell for tradition. so i had a reallly great time seeing him. after he had to make his long journey home then we took lauren home and killed some time till me and lisa met some of her friends at ihop around 12:30ish ... we got back to my house around 2 and crashed. then i had to wake up and go to work at noon ... got off at 8 and sara picked me up and we ended up just renting some odd movie and then she took me home ... and that was pretty much my past 2 days.
9:18 a.m. February 28, 2005 the last day of february, this month flew by. watched the oscars last night, i was upset with the aviator because it kept winning everything and i heard it sucked, oh well - i guess it wasnt as awful as i had heard. i wanted natalie portman or the girl from hotel rwanda to win ::she did an awesome job:: and i just loved closer, but the girl from the aviator got it .. ugh. Good news tho, best win of the night for me: Best Original Screenplay went to Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, awesome. very well deserving i thought, and the aviator didn't win that, good thing. my ipod should be in sometime this week, i hope .. im very anxious waiting for it. johnny and jenny broke up last night i believe, im not sure whats going on there, we'll see what happens next... im off tonight and tomorrow night, tomorrow will be my first tuesday off in a month. it will be glorious because i wont have to deal with the truck or anything like that. im scared hes cutting back my hours tho, oh well - i dont really want a lot of hours anyways. my mother kicked james out on saturday, good for her. changes in homes .. hm, wonder who's next ... me?
9:56 p.m. February 26, 2005 what if you catch me .......... im watching garden state, just got past the part where they're sitting next to the fireplace, i <3 that scene. hm .. last night was fun, i went to barnes and noble with sara and erica and todd met us there. i bought some bargain books. then we went to steak and shake and me and sara rented first daughter and watched it, actually it was really cute. i liked it. today i worked and then hung out with lauren and now im all alone on a saturday night - cats on her way over tho. i really didnt have a lot to say, just thought id update. ......... where we would land?
9:32 p.m. February 24, 2005 wow, long time no update .. weird. my computer was at the geek squad again, ugh, but i didnt really feel like using my laptop so i just havent been online that much. nothing really toooo exciting going on with me .. quick recap of my last few days. weekend was a good one i went to my mothers for the three day weekend .. tuesday was work .. wednesday i went prom dress shopping with kim for her - she looked awesome in almost everything she tried on. then we ate at buffalo wild wings. then i came home to watch the season finale of project runway. Jay won it. yea! i always loved jay's personalities, but i was a little iffy about his designs. kara saun on the other hand i thought was the best designer...but her collection let me down and jays amazed me, so i was glad he won. and wendy didnt even get close to winning so that was a great thing, she was a ho. today i went to work thinking i had to work, but it turns out i didnt .. so instead i ran an errand for my manager over to the west side pet food center .. just dropping off some things and picking up a few things we needed. their cat was prettier than ours, but kennys still my favorite pfc cat. but anywho so i did that went home, and then went to go get lauren. lauren and me met cat and dallas at a prom dress shop and cat found her dress which looked awesome on her. then to best buy to pick up my computer....then racing home to make it in time for survivor, i did, thank goodness. i was satisfied with this episode, lauren and me decided to make it an every thursday thing for us .. but next thursday i think we might be seeing the play .. uh oh - better tell my dad to tape it. then we ran to quiznos to get some sandwiches and raced back home to catch last half hour of the apprentice - thursday is just a great night for tv. then i took her home and that brings us to now. i discovered today that i will be recieving a check for 300 dollars for my "pain and suffering" from my wreck - awesome huh? i only get to keep 200 tho cuz 100 of it has to go to pay the my doctor when he checked out my neck to tell me what i already knew about it, but hey that got me 200 bucks so im not complaining ... looks like i wont be broke for spring break after all :)...
9:44 p.m. February 17, 2005 ok me and sara have a shirt idea ... its going to be a kind of dark lime green and dark purple ::maybe:: letters. Heres what the shirt will say:
6:58 p.m. February 17, 2005 hmm, can you say survivor? i can .. and im currently watching it .. how exciting. my story of the night - ready? ok here it is...so im importing my cds into itunes and im on outkast's 'speakerboxxx' and its going along and it has the first song done .. and all of the sudden i hear this huge crack boom noise .. and my computer starts having convulsions or something. i turn it off cuz the cd drive wont open, turn it back on to open the drive and as it opens i see what happens. my cd has shattered into a MILLION pieces. so now the drive wont shut cuz there are pieces allll in it. i tell dad we take it apart and look at it and we here all these pieces rattling around in it. the drive closes but we know there are still pieces in it. we still have a warrarnty on it so i take it to the geek squad at best buy ::a very accurate name for them i might add:: and this guy says no big deal he'll replace by dvd-rom drive and i can pick it up in about 45 mins. well this is right at 6 so i tell him what about 8:30ish cuz i have to go home and watch survivor ::whos the geek?:: he says thats fine ... the geek squad came to my rescue tonight.
9:54 p.m. February 16, 2005 project runway is about to start for the second time and i missed it the first time tonight so i dont have a lot of time to write .. went prom dress shopping again tonight with sara erica and lauren .. i found a few i really liked, nothing i absolutely love yet tho .. then we went to the mall and just kinda looked around there .. nothing too exciting, it was a nice day off tho. the only reason im really writing is to tell you guys that i stuck a new link up there "random pics of friends" with a few pics of my friends .. and im in there 2. pics of me in my new glasses are on there - tell me what you think.
8:29 p.m. February 14, 2005 um yea, happy valentines day .. what a hallmark holiday. oh well tho, my dad got me this really sweet card that i loved ... pathetic, i know .. oh well. i purchased my mini green ipod today online so i should hopefully get it within two weeks. so tonight, no homework and no shows are on that i wish to watch so im going to start uploading all my cds into itunes .. its offical - my damien rice "o" is lost. i went through my whole case and took every cd out. and no sign of it anywhere. im really upset. i have NO clue what i could have done with it. i decided to pull the mixes out first and upload them - i have the weirdest names on my mixes: "what was i thinking" "dont you wish you were me" "ugly" and my personal favorite "duran duran" ::dont ask:: . sunday was a lazy day .. i didnt get home til around 2 cuz i went over to cats to just hang out and watch a movie and so i slept till 1:30ish..then just was lazy for a few hours then i went with sara to b&n and since i didnt have any homework i gave in and looked at prom magazines .. what a mistake. it got me and sara started and the next thing i knew we were leaving to go prom dress shopping. ugh, sometimes im more of a girl then i think.
12:57 a.m. February 12, 2005 wow, i have a lot to write about ..
9:51 p.m. February 8, 2005 "all things just keep getting better" -- sometimes i wish i was a really butch straight guy so i could call the fab 5, i just love those guys. they really make me crack up. work was a drag tonight. i made bunches of ad signs. i got my tax returns back - awesome! both of them on the same day. i really dont have much of an update. i get to sleep in tomorrow but its 10 and im already pretty tired, so maybe ill go to bed at the same time as always and just a couple extra hours of sleep. that would be lovely. i took a big zoology test today, actually it wasnt that big. hallie just asked me if i could see my eyebrows and then stood next to me for roughly 5 minutes trying to look at her eyebrows - you should try it. seriously.
11:01 a.m. February 7, 2005 just finished my timed writing, it wasnt that bad .. i want my tax returns really bad. i decided im going to buy a mini green ipod .. i can get mr. shelby to give me his teacher discount so i can order one from apple for $229 ... everyone keeps telling me to just get a big one, but really - i love music and everything, i just dont think i could find 5,000 songs ... 1,000 is plenty for me and i really love the color green ::well at least this lime color of green:: i changed a few things around on my profile ::link at the top:: .. just a bit of an update. patriots won last night, i was quite happy. Brady didnt get MVP tho which is sad cuz he is good and really hot, but he did screw up a few times. It was a good year for new england .. red sox won the series ::i would just like to say how awesome that was one more time:: and now the patriots 3 out of the last 4 years, not too shabby.
7:10 p.m. February 6, 2005 watching the game .. whos it gonna be? patriots or the eagles? i dunno .. we'll see. i had a really good weekend. work on friday was fun. after work i went to hacienda with kim, todd, erica, sara and matt. we just sat there for awhile and played mind games, it was a lot of fun. then everyone but erica came back to my house for a showing of mean girls, that was my second time seeing that movie, its a really funny one tho, i think everyone really enjoyed it. then saturday i woke up and went to work ... work was good. just kinda relaxing, but yet i actually worked. we got 6 baby hamsters in, they're adorable. saturday after work i took a little nap and then met kim, steffi, and erica at steak and shake .. we sat there for a bit, and then me, kim, and steffi went back to kims to watch a cinderalla story ::two chick flick teenager movies in two nights:: .. that was also my second time seeing it but i still liked it .. got home around 2:40ish and went to bed. sara woke me up this morning around 11:30 so i got up and got ready and met her at target then we went to quiznos and then to b&n where we worked on sociology with our lap tops .. i paid 4 bucks to use the internet for 2 hours, it was nice ... i got a lot of work done actually. now im just watching the superbowl - relaxing.
10:56 a.m. February 4, 2005 mr. shelby just went to get us sonic, we offered to pay but he wouldnt take our money, what a nice guy. this will be my 4th ::maybe 5th:: sonic slushie this week. i believe i have an addiction .. some people may be addicted to cigs, coke, alcohol - me its slushies .. at least i wont die from them ::hopefully::. I GOT MY CAR BACK YESTERDAY. its a little weird driving it cuz i got used to the other one, but it wont take long for me to get the feel for mine again, i missed her so much. weekend finally, i just have to get through 3 more periods and work tonight, then maybe some fun with friends, we'll see tho, thats it for now ...
1:40 p.m. February 2, 2005 so i redid some of the things on here, the alignment, colors, and picture at the top .. then i realized i have about 234 sub pages that all have the old colors on them, and i thought about redoing all of them, i really did. but then i decided against it, so sry if it bothers you that my colors do not match. which is a big thing for me because i do always match
9:44 p.m. February 1, 2005 is it sad that i still have to double check my spelling of february, for some reason it never looks right and i always think i spell it wrong. today was open campus lunch day. i went to quiznos with cat and dallas, it was good. i finally finished reading othello and writing down all the quotes for it in my notebook, i didnt think i was ever going to get it all done, but i did. i worked tonight, and last night, and i work tomorrow, and friday, and saturday - busy week for me. im still a little sick, its mainly just a head cold tho, you know, the stopped up nose, coughing, scratchy throat, and occasional headaches. ill survive tho, sara thinks i should sleep in for a bit tomorrow and i think she may be right, oh well, ill think about it.
8:30 p.m. January 30, 2005 sunday, my down time day. wasnt a bad one - i slept till noonish and then laid around the house for a little bit and then spent roughly two hours with my father filling out financial aid stuff, boring, but i guess we're poor and i wont be going to college without it .. actually thats a lie, i think my dad is just a little cheap and thinks it may help. after that i had to go over to Hannah's where I watched School Ties with her and Jenna, it was a pretty good movie actually and i rather enjoyed it. then to the PFC where i just stopped in to watch the guys finish painting .. friday night i worked and then picked up sara and cat and we went to dinner and wasted sometime at b&n and then we went to go see this Hotel Rwanda movie about the genocide that took place in that country. it was a really good movie - but horribly depressing. im glad my eyes were opened up to that experience but its nothing i want to witness again. saturday i worked again and then met up with todd and sara and we just went to dinner at cicis .. school tomorrow, im not looking forward to it. as always i do have to go tho.
11:23 a.m. January 27, 2005 so im sitting in our little office eating a peanut butter sandwich and not really doing much. Have i ever mentioned this guy - Johnny, he's my step-sisters boyfriend and he lives with us. I'll just do a quick little recap of him - he's utterly annoying, very immature, self-centered, bitches way too much, and makes my bathroom dirty. so last night i guess he had some news to tell jenny ::the step- sister:: about her dog, i dont really even know what was going on, all i know is that it ended up with her crying at my dads b-day dinner which made me so mad because this jerkoff had to tell her some depressing news and ruin the dinner for everyone. he never thinks about anyone but himself! maybe im just a little 2 protective of my dad and i got really mad when someone ruined his dinner, but i just dislike this boy johnny soo much! so then we get home and i watch american idol, project runway, and queer eye for the straight girl - it was nice. after all that tho of course i have another quarrel with this f-er over where our cars are parked, i have to get out in the morning and im in the front and hes behind me {side note: this pb is sticking to the roof of my mouth and really bothering me} so i know we have to move our vehicles because since my other brother james is here theres only one place for my brother jeremy to park when he gets home which would be behind me and johnny - making it impossible for me to get out in the morning and go to school. so i tell him that we need to move our cars around. he gets pissed and starts cussing. i tell him its his own fault for parking behind me and to stop complaining because he shouldnt even be living here. so we get out there and i tell him how we have to move our cars and he says he doesnt think so and he pulls one of those repeating what i just said like it was his idea and i just rolled my eyes at him and said to shut up and move his damn truck. finally i went to bed. but i just thought id dedicate this entry to my hatred for that boy
10:53 a.m. January 26, 2005 Happy Birthday to my Dad today, he is 49, gettin up there in years, but not slowing down at all. Yesterday was an alright day .. school and then home. didnt really do much. im enjoying my rental car - but i do miss mine. even tho i am now driving a 2004 silver grand am i miss my cirrus, seriously. i feel awkward driving a car that isnt mine, like i have to be safe. i should get mine back on friday. things have been going pretty good recently - nothing really weighing on my mind {i finally got one thing off of my mind that was really bothering me} and overall im feeling pretty good. we're sitting in here just watching some videos .. mainly postal service, i really love them. i really need to study for zoology ... later
7:49 p.m. January 25, 2005 so i got this little list in a email from my mom with the subject of something about "you know you're from indiana..." so i figured id take it and apply that little survery method i used in my previous entry
11:19 a.m. January 25, 2005 just a little survery i stole from cat ...
8:06 p.m. January 23, 2005 my car goes in the shop on tuesday, i get my rental car tomorrow. ohhh, im excited ... i dont even know what kind of car its going to be, but its going to be fun to drive a car around that isnt mine! sara thinks we should destroy it as much as possible without actually damaging it - isnt that interesting ... this was her idea - "can i urinate in it" .. i said no, cuz thats just gross, but im hoping she was kidding. my weekend wasn't too thrilling, but still not bad. friday i worked and um, after work, that was a little of a blur right there. in bed by 11 tho, thats all im for sure about. woke up and went back to work saturday for 8 and a 1/2 hours before i came home to go babysit till after midnight, came home and went to bed. babysitting was fun, we watched veggie tales and all dogs go to heaven 2, and played trouble and old maid, not too shabby. today me and sara went to quiznos ::we seem to go there a lot - i got sara to fall in love with it:: cat met us there, but left us when we were all done. then we worked on zoology and got it done! yay for us. i worked a little on my abstract and all i have to do really is write the short summary and type it up. i bought my dads b-day gift at best buy, his birthday is on wednesday. i have to go now, nothing else to say.
11:38 a.m. January 21, 2005 so here i am during lunch, just got done fighting cat for the last twizzler, i won. she didnt put up much of a fight tho. my previous entry was rather depressing, sorry about that. i was just really upset. still am, but i know theres nothing i can do to change where he is. i have the shins "caring is creepy" stuck inside my head. not good. oh well. me and sara went to target and to eat at quizno's last night .. it was rather good. todd just walked in, with five minutes left in here, what a waste. oh well tho, i still love him. i have to go now. bell.
9:45 p.m. January 19, 2005 well i cant stop crying! it started at b&n when i talked to my brother, john, on the phone. he's really leaving tomorrow morning. wow. i just dont know what to do. mom says the only thing we can do is pray, i agree. i have to keep him in my thoughts and my heart, and hope for his safe return. i really wish tho that people would stop telling me that hes going to be fine, that doesn't stop my "what-ifs" or the constant worrying i will be doing for the next year and a half ::minimum::. tomorrow mornings going to be bad, im afarid im going to just start crying in any class because im thinking about him and what hes doing and where he is. i woke my dad up about 20 minutes ago because i needed him. i cried on his shoulder for awhile. it was nice. i can tell hes scared. me too.
9:12 p.m. January 18, 2005 hmmmmmm ... i dont really feel like writing, but for some reason here i am. monday was an ok day ... lunch with my mom ::chinese:: then the drive home, not a great one ... but still not a bad one. home i had to read about a 150 pages in a book that i had to have done by today. well i almost got done but i had to go to work. after that i finished up the book around 10 ish. school today was odd because we had 25 minute classes. in zoology we watched a movie over animal reproduction and the whole class full of 17 and 18 year olds cracked up when this turtle made these moaning noises while "riding" another girl turtle .. i love the maturity level of my school. i wont lie. i laughed, so hard i even cried. after school lunch with todd, and then to the mall .. i spent a little bit of money on a sweater and a new pair of pants when i was with him. then erica joined us but todd left again. me and erica went into pacsun and i walked out with another shirt and another pair of pants. i really have a spending problem. then work again .. i spent the whole time relabeling the cat food .. how boring. so this evening i started watching american idol. im starting to wonder if these people really do not know that they cannot sing. i feel bad for them.
9:40 p.m. January 16, 2005 watching a movie, and a drawing of a peep just got stuck to a windshield. what a good movie. its called 'the door in the floor'. reading my last entry it seems as if i was quite out of it. thats strange. im at my moms. drove up yesterday after work. friday night was a good night, i took a nap after school then went with sara, todd, and michelle to quizno's and then we decided to take a drive to dogtown, forgetting that its in the bottoms and the water was high, we didnt get very far before we had to turn around. turning around, what an experience for todd - the poor guy, i wont go into details, they're gross. we ended up at b&n, and a spur of the moment decision wound us ::plus erica:: up at east seeing 'in good company' .. cute movie. today i went to go see 'white noise' with my mother, not a horrible movie, pretty good, other than the ending really. i really do not like scarey movies and my mom is usually the only person i will see them with cuz she always asks me to go with her. scarey movies scare me, to be quite honest. thats why i dont like to watch them. i have about 150 pages to read in a book that i have to talk about in comp on tuesday - ugh. i really hope i get it done, actually i think im going to go read.
9:58 p.m. January 13, 2005 close your eyes and wiggle you're feet -- we're falling. what an amazing day. todd loves beyonce. school wasnt horrible. i have a timed essay tomorrow, oh crap. what horrible timing. work from 4-6:3o, then to the talent show. what an awesome show, i loved it. especially who won it - so great. but i think the comedy act at the end should have won. then home where im just hanging out with erica and todd.
10:04 p.m. January 12, 2005 so busy day, - well not really. school, i woke up at 7:03!! im usually leaving my house at about that time. but i got up and out the door in roughly 8 minutes, yea - there aren't many girls who could say they are able to do that. school was school. after school i went home and wrote a thank you note and sent it off before my mom had a panic attack because my relatives didnt get a thank you card! seriously im 18, i dont want to be writing thank you's to everyone. oh well. its done. to the post office to drop that off and back home again. then a little before 5 i picked cat up and we went to buffalo wild wings where we met up with james, and just ate and talked. it was fun. tehn to b&n, and then home just in time for Project Runway. i had to move all my word files and all my pictures off of the main computer cuz we're getting ready to crash that one and just start over. it f's up on us all the time so we figured this was an easy way out. ... me and michelle are talking right now and she mentioned something about how we dont get to see each other as much as we'd like and its kinda getting me down. there are so many things going on and for some reason i always seem to be on the go. work is really getting in the way and weekends im usually just too exhausted to do much with anyone - i always end up doing something, but usually exhausted after it. take this weekend for example. friday night hopefully out with friends, but i cant be out to late because i have to be at work at 8 on saturday to work 8 - 4 and then right after that im planning on driving the two hours to spend some time at my moms. i really just need to stop stressing and try to manage my crazy life. its hard sometimes though, it really is. i should start working more towards school, and trying to spend some time with the people i wont be seeing that much of after this summer. im down, its my bedtime, goodnight.
10:07 p.m. January 11, 2005
8:22 p.m. January 10, 2005 mondays really bother me. i hate waking up. today was really hard to get up because i had slept in for the past 3 days ::i didnt go to school till 11 on friday:: thursday i went to the doctor after school because of my neck and he gave me some pain pills and told me it should get better within two weeks. well by today it was feeling a lot better till a little incident in the hall and it started bothering me again. but that pain didnt last long so im almost all better. im glad too because i hated not being able to sit up. work tonight wasn't bad. it was just me and my ass. manager again. same as friday - but this time we didnt order a pizza, his mom brought us sonic. one of the guys did not show up tonight or saturday so we're thinkin hes quitting. so if you're a guy and can lift things pretty easily - come fill out an application.
11:05 a.m. January 6, 2005 wow, i havent updated since last year, sry about that. i watched garden state the other night. great movie. i love it. perfect really. i had a bad morning. horrible. some dumb sophomore f-ing rear-ended me!!! are you kidding me?! it was horrible. i was stopping at A STOP LIGHT. where one is supposed to stop. and this dumbA ran into me going at least 30. it hurt really bad, i cant move my neck. ouch. my whole back bumper is pushd into my tires, lights are cracked, and my trunk wont shut. so on top of this bad wreck, i get the most unintellegent kid to deal with. ugh. he was so stupid. i believe he just graduated drivers ed. he didnt even have his drivers license on him. gee wizzzz.
4:32 p.m. December 31, 2004 happy new years eve. my past few days have been good ones. wednesday - my drive home was a good one, i had a lot of time to think and it felt really good, maybe it was those 90's mixes i was listening to but i got a lot of things figured out, and sorted out. i got home and ran some errands and had lunch with whitt .. then later that evening i met up with todd and we went to borders where i started reading that he's just not that into you book and it was awesome. i loved it. but it was 20 dollars so i talked todd into going to b&n where i bought it for 15 .. ive only read 4 chapters, but they've all been great. and then sara came over to my house. what a night we had full of 6 hour walks, fires, and golden girls. good times. yesterday i worked till 8 and then i went with cat to go get her nose pierced. it was exciting. then me and erica met up and went to sonic and then to showplace to say hey to lisa. she showed us the forbidden areas of showplace. it was quite cool. now im trying to figure out what to do with my new years eve. im not feeling so hot so i think im just gonna stay home and have a few friends over here. erica and me thought about going to the house, but i havent been there since halloween ::my bday:: and i didnt have the best time at that huge party, so im thinking a big party isnt really my scene, so erica will probably go, but im not really in the mood to go.
10:54 p.m. December 28, 2004 what a day. i get up at about 8:30 to continue moving furniture out of our family room because we didnt get it all done last night .. i do that, and go back to bed. or so i thought i was going to be able to go back to bed. 9:02 the doorbell rings and the floor guys get here. well of course i get stuck with the puppy so there goes my shot at going back to sleep. i come up with a plan. knock him out. so i give him to allergy tablets in a spoon of peanut butter .. and it works, he falls asleep, i fall asleep. the floor guys start sawing - he wakes up, i wake up. im cranky when im woken up so i open my door and throw him out in the hallway ::which is blocked off at the end so he cant go that far:: so he sits out there and just squeaks and barks .. gary gets him to shut up, i fall back asleep ::and by now its about 11::. get up again about 1:30 - go to chinese food - get home - put the family room back together. i hate moving furniture around - im just a girl, not that strong! mom gets home, she brought me a present - the movie Garden State, she said it just looked like me and some movie id enjoy. ha, i havent seen it yet but i heard it was good, so i will be watching that tomorrow. we throw up some ideas about what to do with my last evening here, we decide on a movie. i wanna see life aquatic, but shes set against it cuz she didnt like another movie by the same guy. she suggests darkness, i refuse. that movie looks horrible. then she said something about the aviator, but ever since i saw one preview for that i said it was going to be a long, dull, boring movie. so i say no to that also. we settle on spanglish. what an awesome movie. so cute, i cried. and now im home, thinking about going to bed cuz i have a drive home to make tomorrow. todd, lisa, sara, and i have plans tomorrow evening. should be a good time.
12:15 p.m. December 27, 2004 ok so here i am just cleanin off the bookshelf so it can be easily moved when the floor guys get here, and i find one of my moms old yearbooks. being the curious kid i am, i open it and start to read all of the little notes people left her. i see the usual you know "have fun at college" "stay sweet" "great friend" "keep in touch" all that stuff .. and then i find one thats from a Rick Legler ... and what does it say ... "To the dirtiest girl of the class of 74, good luck"
6:16 p.m. December 26, 2004 i hate snow. its awesome if i dont have to go anywhere in it, but it sucks if i do have to get out in it. so my day started off with my mom waking me up and telling me my grandpa and his wife are coming up for lunch/dinner so i have to get up and go to the store and figure out what to make for this family dinner. ugh, got out on the roads and thought i was going to wreck. ! then finally came home cooked dinner, which consisted of mac and cheese, green bean casserole, ham ::which my stepdad smoked::, rolls, stuffing, and pumpkin pie. got my present from my gpa [cash as always, not complaining tho] and then i did the dishes and thought the day was over. not quite. i was just laying in my room perfectly happy cuz i was watching pimp my ride with my incense burning and i was just content. but i walk out to get some coffee and of course my brother has to say something about me taking him to wal-mart ::which is about 3 minutes away:: so i refuse because i did not want to leave, he guilts me, i go. it takes us about 25 minutes to get there cuz of the roads and traffic .. i wait in the car for him, which is another 20 minutes while hes inside, then we try to leave and get stuck in this traffic jam for 50 MINUTES, before we even really get out of the wal-mart parking lot. i slide at least 4 times and think im going to die...finally i make it home. so now i absolutely refuse to leave this house in my car. i will not do it. johns now watching my eternal sunshine on this little portable dvd player my grandpa brought up here for him from my dad .. im comfy right here .. my rents are watching oxygen .. and butlers squeaking the f out of this squeaky snake he got as a christmas gift .. everything seems to be finally calmed down. john leaves at 4:30 tomorrow morning .. so im pretty sure this is my last night with him, i seem to have said that a lot - that this was my last time to see john. but i really think it is this time. what a bummer
6:58 p.m. December 25, 2004 MERRY CHRISTMAS! hope everyone had a good one, mine was decent. my cell phone was one of my gifts from my dad so i got that and a digital camera mainly from him. also season one of the golden girls on dvd. how awesome is that? me and john made it back to my moms. i was driving this time. not good for about the first 45 minutes on 164 and the merge ramp to get on to 64 was horrible, i thought i was going to die driving on it. other than that 64 was mainly clear so it wasnt terrible. from my mom i got a new coat, a burberry scarf, 75 dollar gas card, socks and underwear ::as always::, a few things for random collections i have, and i think thats mainly it...pretty good christmas.
11:06 p.m. December 24, 2004 i made it to cats yesterday. my bro took me in his truck, thank goodness. we attempted the whole "lets play in the snow thing" and we ended up just walking around for awhile, and then got cold. so we came in .. ate .. watched some tv .. and then watched eternal sunshine ::thank you todd for that wonderful christmas gift:: i think that movie gets better everytime you watch it. drove to louisville and back today ::well my dad did the driving but i was in the van:: we had to pick up my brothers from my moms. then we did our annual family thing at my grandma's this evening. this year wasnt that bad. i sat with my dad and all his brothers and noticed how funny it was how much they all look alike. i had some pretty good laughs too. especially when they were making fun of james ::my brother::. now im home, just waiting to go to bed. i have to make the drive to my moms again tomorrow. what fun.
1:56 p.m. December 23, 2004 about to hit hour 39 of me not leaving my house ::other than to play in the snow outside:: im going crazy. i really think i am. im about to walk to cats! my dad doesnt want me to tho, ugh! what am i going to do? go crazy in this place, thats for sure. im supposed to work tomorrow at 8 in the morning, i dont know if thats going to happen, all though i wouldnt hate it because i would be out of my house. i just got out of the bathtub a little bit ago, it felt nice. it had been about 3 days since i bathed ::ew i know:: so now my hair smells good and im clean, but really for no reason. i have no clue how im going to make it to my moms, or how my brothers going to make it to where hes going! if i dont get to see him i think i will be REALLY upset. i watched Fahrenheit 9/11 last night. it held a lot of different emotions for me. one i was pissed at our "preseident" ::as always tho::, and another i was incredibly upset, i cried. seeing all the footage of things that have happened in iraq and the innocent people killed, and the soliders who have died or been injured. the mom who talked about losing her son is what got the tears going for me. i just keep imagining what would happen if i lost my brother. i really shouldn't have watched that movie. all it did was make me sad and pissed.
6:59 p.m. December 22, 2004 snowed in. thats me. im pretty much under house arrest cuz dad doesnt let me leave when the roads are bad, understandable, because i dont think id want to anyways. he called me this morning and woke me up to tell me not to go anywhere so i hadnt looked outside yet - so this is me "why cant i go anywhere" . my dad "look outside" ha, i was amazed because when i had gone to bed it had been raining! and boom! so much snow overnight. so i woke up and turned on mtv. biggest mistake of my day. i had never realllly gotten into this Laguna Beach show but there was a marathon on of it .. and i ended up watching that from around 11 to 4 .. what a waste of 5 hours, but still fun - that show is so horrible, but i still like it. i took a break tho when my step brother pulled the 4-wheeler out. i had to take a ride on that. i almost wrecked, as always .. so i stuck to being a passenger for most of the rides, such fun. my week ::since i last updated:: has been pretty good .. i finshed finals and im passing all my classes --always a good thing-- i went to seekers monday night with todd. that was a good time. tuesday i met up with todd and erica and we spent some time at steak and shake .. and then todd had to go home because of the storm :( .. but me and erica just hung out at my house for a little bit. and then that brings us to today ..
11:33 a.m. December 20, 2004 random pete yorn lyrics.
11:04 a.m. December 20, 2004 im kinda upset. guys are shady, low, and jerks. thats all there is to it, all of them. i say this a lot, but seriously, im done being hurt.
11:26 a.m. December 15, 2004 i want to apologize for my previous entry, i was really pissed off, maybe upset .. things at home were kinda getting me down. but im in a better mood now. promise. its wednesday, hump day, my favorite day of the week, what joys. tonight should be a good night, not sure whats up for the night, but it will be good, no work. my mom called me yesterday and asked if she could spend the day with me saturday, i said of course. so she'll drive up here, spend the day with me and head home. im happy cuz i miss her. ive missed 8 first periods, thats not bad at all if you ask me. i think thats pretty good actually. alright i must go .. ttyl!
10:35 p.m. December 13, 2004 so here i am just sitting with my cat in my lap .. thinking .. listening to my newest obsession, damien rice. his voice is amazing. ive always said theres just something about guys who can sing, that i love. so really, i should be really happy right now, right? its christmas time, im pretty much half way done with my senior year, and spirits are generally pretty high. but i feel like somethings missing. and its one thing to me that shouldn't bother me if it's missing, it really shouldn't .. but it does. oh, but why!? maybe its my break thats coming up, maybe its the fact that this will be my first christmas without my brother. or maybe its me playing up something in my head. i dont know. there are times when some people really aggravate me, and thats happening right now, as im typing this. and this should not annoy me. finals. what a pain in the butt. i really just want the next 8 days to be over with. geez, i sound like some depressed teenager, im not really. im happy.
6:19 p.m. December 12, 2004 ah, its december 12! two years ago today .. i got my drivers license. good thing? not for my insurance ;) .. my weekend was pretty good .. friday after school me and lisa went to Fired Up where we sat for almost three hours and painted .. i made a little bone shaped ornament that says butler on it and a star jewelry box .. lisa made something fantastic. yep. then me and erica went to go see closer .. all about sex, but yet one of the best movies i have ever seen. .. saturday slept till around 1:30 and then went to work, then i met up with todd at barnes and noble and then we hung out for awhile, back to my house .. where i played spy on one of my christmas presents .. shh dont tell. then erica came over and we all just kinda hung out in my living room with the fire going and the christmas tree on, it felt like christmas time. it was nice. sunday. i slept till around 1 again and michelle came over and we hung out and then i had to go in to work again for two hours, i only did it so lonnie could leave early ::im such a nice person:: and now im home, getting ready to do some homework and watch survivor ! so exciting!!!!
11:27 a.m. December 9, 2004 im at school. should be studying for anatomy, but i actually got a lot of it memorized last night, so i might not do that bad. anyways my day yesterday was rather good. i had a pretty good day at school, then i ran some errands and came home. then dinner and out to get my new phone - its really cool. then to lazarus where i managed not to spend any money .. i was on my way to mcdonalds in the mall to get erica a happy meal and i stopped at eye-mart to fix my glasses ::i damaged them when i smacked myself in the face with a 40# bag of dog food:: brought erica her happy meal sat outside why she ate it ::it was freezing:: and then off to b & n to study with todd. always a good time.
10:39 p.m. December 7, 2004 well, good day? actually it was. school was pretty good .. my anatomy test got postponed till thursday, which is awesome, cuz i wasnt going to have time to study tonight, at all. but im off tomorrow (first day off in four days) so i must study tomorrow, i will. work was pretty good, beside the guy who came in 10 minutes to close looking for a dog book but ended up buying a rabbit. this guy was kinda creepy .. he found a lot of reasons to touch me, not just touch, but kinda hit me - i was scared. then to barnes and noble where me erica and todd met with the intent on working on anatomy, didnt happen. oh well tho we still had fun. todd wrote a poem, later said it was about erica and now, just because it was such a great work of art, im going to share it with all 3 of you who read this.
8:55 p.m. December 6, 2004 yea, im back. try not to get too excited. even tho i said i wasnt going to update for awhile i had too because theres something about writing in here that just helps. so my past week and a half or so havent been that eventful, well thats a lie, they have. i said goodbye to my brother, hes going to iraq for a year and a half, its hard. a lot harder than what i ever imagined. i dont know if anyone ::other than the people who are also in my position:: can understand how im feeling. i developed the pics from that day and i look at them and cant imagine not seeing him for a year and a half. its really hard, i thought i was strong, and i thought i could handle all this. but i dont know if i can.
9:26 p.m. November 28, 2004 ok here it is, this time of the year sometimes really is not the best for me, and it hasnt started off great. sometimes my emotions run crazy and im just not always the happiest person. this year may be different it may be worse. i dont know yet. im going to stop writing in this for awhile, i dont wanna pour out my feelings for anyone to read. sometimes talking is overrated. i may be back in a week, or it may be a month ..
1:43 a.m. November 28, 2004 im watching jersey girl right now - its really cute so far. ill have to finish it first before i can form my full opinion on it. my day was pretty good i woke up around 11:30ish then just kinda hung out in my pajamas for a little bit. took a rather long bubble bath. sat around some more. drove for 2 hours in the rain home and almost died a few times cuz i hate driving in the dark and in the pouring rain. got home - occupied my saturday evening with someone. they left. michelle came over we drove around for awhile then went to barnes and noble. a few of us went on an adventure that all i can say made me feel kinda dirty and i probably wont do it again for quite sometime. then to steak and shake where i attempted to piss a few people off by playing milkshake over and over again on the jukebox. we left tho so we didnt get to see their reaction. so then i came home and on my way in when i was unlocking my door this cat that always hangs around our house was yelling at me so i stopped and sat on the ground with him for awhile. it was freezing. but i still sat there for about 20 minutes, just thinking and petting this cat. i really wanted to let him in - but my dad would have killed me, i feel really bad cuz its all alone in the cold. oh well, im sure he'll be fine... k i have to go finish this movie!
10:19 p.m. November 26, 2004 ok i know i already updated today but i just wanted to let everyone know that i beat my entire family ::4 of em:: at balderdash .. i came back from dead last and won it. im awesome, i know. i went to go see the incredibles earlier, it was a cute movie, funny, and pretty good. im really tired and its only 10:20. i wonder what thats all about - im not sure, maybe its lack of sleep from my past week.
2:08 p.m. November 26, 2004 i just got into louisville about 10 minutes ago and now im just tryin to kill sometime till me and john think of what to do - go see national treasure? we might. im in love. with butler. my beagle puppy in this house. hes the cutest thing in the world. sometimes i question my love for cats over my love for dogs, but i really dont know. my thanksgiving evening turned out not to be as bad as my day. i hung out with a few friends for a little bit, but came home by midnight. kind of odd but nice cuz i got to play some texas hold em with my bros .. i got one of em out and then i got bored with it so i went all in and quit. then me and john watched the first 20 minutes of spaceballs before i went to bed. so i told my brothers we'd be leaving around 10 or 10:30 .. so what happens at 7:30 in the morning. john walks in my room and starts annoying me greatly trying to wake me up. ugh, i kick him and he goes away. so then at 8:30 what happens? my dad walks in and asks me when im leaving i get annoyed and tell him around 10. 9:30 - what happens? of course, john walks in again and tries to wake me up this time i just ignored him and he went away. then at 10 my dad walks in and before he even says anything i snap at him and tell him im getting up. i felt kinda bad, but gosh - what's a girl have to do to get some sleep in her own bed?! the drive here wasnt bad cuz john and james slept most of the way so i had some time to think about things. and now im just sitting around waiting to do something......
8:05 p.m. November 25, 2004 happy thanksgiving. mine wasnt great, it kinda sucked. oh well. i dont really have a lot to say, im not quite sure why im updating. nothing else to do. my night last night was interesting - new and exciting i suppose. me and my brothers will be heading back to louisville tomorrow and then ill be home saturday evening. i found out that john got changed back to a mechanic instead of an mp which made me feel so much better because now he wont actually be inside all that crap .. he'll still be over there, so im still going to be nervous. but not as much. im watching the apprentice. i really like this show, its quite funny. what a weird feeling im feeling right now, hmm .. its not that good. i wonder whats going on, i hate not knowing something. it really bothers me because the "what if" thoughts that go through my head really bite.
3:34 p.m. November 24, 2004 so, i just attempted to delete myspace .. it will take a few days but it will be gone, so say good-bye, it got stupid. my day was alright, kinda like friday cuz i dont have school for the next 4 days .. awesome i know. i have to go to work in about 20 minutes for the 4th day in a row, im rather bored with it. but again after today, no more work for 4 days either. friday i should be heading to my moms and hopefully home by saturday evening. today in english we did this thing where everyone had an index card with their name on it and we passed them around the room and everyone had to write something about that person. it was a really neat activity because it made a lot of peoples days - i know it made mine. some of the things you can tell people just said cuz they didnt know what else to say cuz they dont really know me - but some of them were really sweet and made me feel very good about myself. i got told i was always happy, energetic, and other things that made me sound very up-beat .. sometimes i am, but definitely not always, so either they just said that, or i do a really good job at putting on a happy face. who knows. anyways i gotta go to work.
11:41 a.m. November 23, 2004 im at school right now .. bored, nothing really new with me i just wanted to update kinda fast cuz the bells getting ready to ring .. these past 4 days have really just gone by tooooo fast, and something tells me the next 4 are going to do the same exact thing. hm. work again tonight, thats all i ever do is work. my mom calls me last night at work freaking out crying pretty much cuz she thinks i hate my life and im under a lot of stress so she wants me to move out of my house - hm? but anyways i may be under a lot of stress and i dont particularly care for my home life, but things seem to be going ok this week, and they were pretty good last week too. so maybe ill survive - and unless she pays rent on an apartment somewhere for me, im not leaving my house or living with someone else. thats it for now ! bell!!
11:11 p.m. November 21, 2004 well last night was pretty cool, i did my babysiting and then met up with sara and todd at barnes and noble where we did nothing and then i was hungry so we went to mcdonalds and sat in my car there for awhile and then we went to a 'bon-fire' in the middle of a subdivision ::is that legal?, oh well if it wasnt, it was still really fun:: me and todd at one point of the evening left to go get marshmellows and had a scarey experience in CVS .. the whole time we were in there we saw no one. not a worker. not a customer. i felt like i was in the movie '28 days later' .. i got home around 2:30 and then had to get up and go to work at 10:30, it wasnt fun and i slept in a bit but i was still ok...after work i came home took about a 20 minute power nap, had a bath, and then had an entertaining evening till around 10:30 when i decided i should be heading home cuz i have school in the morning, ugh, school .. im going to sleep.
3:25 p.m. November 20, 2004 alright these past 24 hours have been ... hm, awesome? yea i think that could describe them. school was school yesterday, nothing exciting, but it was a reallllly long day. after school me and todd went on a little adventure ::i guess you could call it that:: it was fun. then home to take a bath and clean out my fish tank .. and thhhen to the movies to see napoleon dynamite again, gosh, what a fing funny movie. i love it. after that was time number six for me getting pulled over! argh .. why does it always happen to me? im so used to it by now, whatever. luckily he just gave me a warning cuz he was a really nice cop and i realized today that he is also the cop that patrols my street and i wave to him a lot and he's friends with my neighbors .. maybe thats why i just got a warning? or maybe it was some good luck charm i had with me. good thing i wasnt speeding .. i know its something new and different - me not getting plled over for speeding. then watched another movie and just hung out - details will remain secret ;) ... after that i came home around 3ish and slept till 1ish and that was 1o hours of well needed sleep .. woke up showered, watched 'what not to wear', and went to target to see cat and i sat with her on her break. i ventured into that new store Rue 21 over there, which was a money mistake, i spent a hundred bucks on clothes .. hm, but i did get a pair of reversible jeans - how cool is that? and i bought another pair of jeans two sweaters, and a sweatshirt that said 'speed demon' with a turtle on it ::i found it pretty much summed me up:: and now im home, waiting till i have to babysit at 5:30 .. still deciding what will come of the rest of my evening.........
3:32 p.m. November 18, 2004 today is national smoke out day . just so you know.
10:19 p.m. November 17, 2004 well its been a good evening ... erica came over and instead of going on this walk we went to the river and sat on a bench and looked at the river and kinda watched the sunset .. it was romantic :)::joke:: then we changed and met sara at china village which was fun and full of good conversation .. me and sara got the same fortune in our cookies we're both going to "inherit a large sum of money" ::in bed:: thats only happened to me one other time when someone ive been with got the same fortune as me .. odd. we had a pretty good dinner and then we went to go see our schools musical 'fame' it was pretty good and i liked it. it had all the right things for a good story .. horny teenagers, drugs, and dancing ;) thats about it for my evening...so far.
3:16 p.m. November 17, 2004 i wanna go for a walk. i called erica and told her that, she said she might come with me .. i hope she does. musical tonight, that should be fun i hope. i had a weird dream last night, now im really paranoid about something .. its stupid but sometimes i get such a strong feeling that its scarey. it'll pass. my day was alright. theres something on my mind that i cant seem to stop thinking about .. you know how when you're not really thinking about anything one thing always pops up .. well these thoughts popped up quite frequently today. hmm ... me and lisa went to our usual place during super study and mr. shelby got us some of the items on our wish list we left him yesterday .. so now we're fully stocked on cherry coke, peanut butter crackers, and candy bars .. its awesome, so doing a little work on the school site isnt that bad when you get rewards. anyways .. i dont really have a lot to say .. maybe more later
3:34 p.m. November 16, 2004 soo .. my day hasnt been bad so far ::other than my morning:: i get up this morning late already so i do nothing but get dressed and get to my car .. well as im trying to stick my keys in my ignition i notice that my dads keys are already in there ::oh well i thought cuz sometimes my keys get stuck and its still ok:: i go to start it and it wont start .. johnny comes out too see if we can fix it by jumping it .. we cant .. he leaves for work .. jeremy comes out and im explaining to him about how sometimes my keys get stuck cuz of the cold weather, or the breaks not all the way up, or my car isnt all the way in park ::as i am saying this i look down:: and of course, my car was in reverse .. i put it in park, and it starts right up . hm . note to dad - next time you move my car, put it in park when you're done. oh well tho, i only missed about 15 minutes of first period...so classes go by and me and lisa go to the computer lab for the whole hour today cuz i have some work i need to do about moving teacher sites around on the school web site .. but i dont really get that done .. but oh well i will eventually. and then anatomy, and i slept through it again - sara threw a colored pencil at me .. her and todd informed me that everytime i fall asleep they're going to throw things at me .. looks like i might not get my mid-day naps anymore. i dont have any homework for tonight which is nice, but i do have a timed writing tomorrow which isnt that awesome, oh well ... ill probably get the same grade i get everytime - and i can live with that. but as for now i gotta go dry my hair and then im off to work!
3:48 p.m. November 15, 2004 snickerdoodleO46: i dont wanna go to fing work
2:32 p.m. November 14, 2004 well, i just got home from cat's a little bit ago and i had just woken up at 1:30, so i finally got to sleep in for the first time in a really long time and it was awesome. so my friday night was exactly what i said it would be .. i took a bath, and crawled into bed with a book, read for awhile and fell asleep. saturday i was up at 7:50 to go to work at 8 .. i love living less than a minute from where i work. and then i got off at 4 and got home, wrapped cat's present and headed over to her house .. she wasnt there for a little bit cuz she was running dallas home so me and her mom just sat and drank coffee and talked for about 30 minutes .. it was nice, i love her mom. then she showed up and she opened my present and joeys present ::who happened to show up when i was there, just to give her her present:: after that me and her headed to kipplees on first ave and we sat and ate pizza for awhile and just kinda talked .. we were done there by 8 so we really didnt know what to do, so i suggested driving to dogtown and she agreed..so we just drove there and back .. that was fun .. then to blockbuster where we rented 2 movies and back to her house to watch them .. first we watched 'a cinderalla story' - my pick - it was so awesome, i loved it :) .. it made me wish my life was a fairy tale and i really wanted to fall in love all of a sudden, but i get like that a lot when i watch teenage love movies. then we watched 'saved' - cats pick - it was really good 2, kinda different, but still good .. i enjoyed both of em. then we watched an episode of rainbow brite and went to bed. and then that pretty much is it for my weekend ...
9:24 p.m. November 12, 2004 Happy 18th Birhtday Cat!! I <3 you! - hope it was a great one. my day .. hmm, not so bad, i was up a little late for me last night .. online till around 1ish maybe .. fell asleep by 2 i believe .. but i kinda slept in till 7 so i was off to school in a hurry. but i made it, like i always do. school was school .. got the report cards today . whoa . 3.667 or something like that, not bad i can live with that. alright here's my 'beef' with whats going on at my lunch table .. this is gay stupid high school stuff, why is this animosity going down?? i have no problems with anyone, and this is just all really big bs. so while everyone was 'discussing' it today, i laid my head down on the table and tried to sleep, it didnt work tho. anyways - its dumb. i heard someone say "go F yourself in your A" today, that was quite hilarious if you ask me. after school i came home and laid down before i had to go to work and ended up falling asleep and the result of that was me about 20 minutes late for work. oh well. after work ran to target and got cat a bday present .. then came home and called my mom. this is really kinda bad, but i seem to make my mom cry a lot. she might have just been real emotional but first i could tell she was crying cuz she says she misses me .. and then she was kinda crying again when she was telling me "how proud" she was of me for my report card .. and then again when i was telling her how much i hate my house and how i can never have a minute alone or i dont have anywhere to relax and she went off on one of those "im sry all i wanted was to give you a house you could be happy in" and was crying again then .. maybe it was just an emotional day for her. but thats it. im tired and i have to be at work at 8 am tomorrow morning .. so im going to go take a bath, and crawl into bed with a book!
5:03 p.m. November 11, 2004 another update .. cuz im bored. look ^ i put a tag board on here .. cool huh? anyways...today in psychology we did this thing where we had to write down the 5 main characteristics that we look for in a 'mate' .. wanna hear mine? ok good. -easy to talk to -funny -attractive ::im shallow so what:: -smart
-trustworthy. recently ive been thinking a lot about what i want. and i enjoy that. really nothing else major happened. i ran a few errands after school that really needed to be done. now im home. eating chicken and dumplins .. heavenly! i also heard the newest news on the drama king of my family, my brother james. james is not that bright ::in case ur new to my journal and havent read other entries about him i thought i would fill u in on that fact about him:: this time .. he somehow gets to ohio ::not sure how:: because he thinks he has a trucking job there. but he doesnt. so now he has no way of getting home. so he calls my mom and my stepdad drives to cincinatti to come get him .. what bs. and now he wants my dad to drive to louisville to get him from there! argh ... sometimes he is just so irresponsible!
11:37 a.m. November 11, 2004 its veterans day. everyone in evansville is out of school, but yet im here, cuz i live in warrick county. we did the whole veterans day speech/pledge thing over the intercom instead of going outside cuz it was pouring down rain. it wasnt that bad, all this veterans day stuff makes me think tho .. oh well .. they keep saying we're fighting a war over there for our freedom. are we really? i dunno tho, all i know is that we're at war and that nothing can change that. im exhausted, i was up kinda late online doing some chatting, but that was ok .. but then i couldnt fall asleep cuz there was something ::someone:: on my mind .. so i dont work tonight so im planning on going home and taking a long nap ... that is if i dont have a butt load of homework like i usually do.
3:46 p.m. November 10, 2004 ok so im sitting here waiting till i have to go to work at 4 and some things been on my mind since a conversation i had with todd last night. this is what i want the next relationship im involved in i dont want it to be a physical one ::and no, i dont mean no touching at all:: just not the major things. i know you probably dont care, but this is my journal so f off. i feel as if i deserve what i want in a relationship .. ive been burned too many times due to the physical reasons in a relationship .. the things which shouldn't be that important. this is in no way proclaiming that i now want a relationship, its just a thought about the next one im in. so yea i guess you could say that im bitter to past relationships that have, in a sense, literally screwed me over. almost everyone of any kind of relationship ive been in has really had a main focus on the physical aspects of it. i dont want that. its retarded. im done. just wanted to say that.
11:32 a.m. November 10, 2004 so ... im at school right now, yep .. the updating during school hours has resumed .. be happy. today started off not so great .. our principal has this new thing with every morning we have to say the pledge of alligence which i dont really care for cuz we're not 2nd graders .. but i dont say anything because it really doesnt bother me .. the one part about it that does bother me is how before they say it every morning they have to say something about the people who are "fighting and dying" i know this is true, but to say it every morning, and i know im not the only one with a family member whos about to go over there and i know there are many people here who already have family or someone they know over there .. and to say it every morning to remind me about the deaths that occur daily .. just really upsets me cuz its hard not to think about my brother .. and so this morning in addition to the pledge our principal gets on and talks about this article in the paper about 10 young guys who died over there .. really, why must that be broadcast over the whole school system so i start my day off really upset, and thinking about how my brother could be killed. i just dont like it at all. anyways ...
9:48 p.m. November 7, 2004 wowowo .. what a pretty cool saturday i had. sara called me around 9 in the morning to tell me she couldnt go to garden of the gods with me and erica cuz she wasnt feeling good ... me and erica decided we still wanted to go, i felt kinda bad cuz it was her idea to go :( .. anyways it was a fun drive there .. and we didnt get lost ... we got there a little after noon and holy f .. what a pretty place, we walked around there and what not and took a lot of pictures ::see garden of the gods pics link about. oh and i added halloween pics too:: so we were there for awhile and then headed out and we stopped at this little dads barbque place, it was this little house almost..it was really cute and had really good food! made it home .. we both showered and then went to go see napoleon dynamite, very hilarious movie. really we're not quite sure was the moral was .. maybe - everyone who deserves it gets what they want? in the parking lot after the movie we were sitting in ericas jeep when this guy pulled up next to us and we all looked at each other for about a minute before i realized it was gyress! i used to work with him at quiznos and i hadnt seen him in forever ... so why we were standing there talking to him, and i saw todd pull into the parking lot, so i chase his car pretty much all around the theaters parking lot and dont catch up to him till he parks and hes with kyle and they're going to see napoleon dynamite too .. and i walk up to the box office with them and theres kevin and yuki 2 .. wow .. so many people at south movie theater .. so that was that then me and erica leave everyone and go to mcdonalds and then back to my house .. and then today i woke up went to work .. walgreens .. target .. and over to where erica was playing poker to let her see the pics .. and then im home .. thats about it i believe for my weekend ..
12:52 a.m. November 6, 2004 So yesterday (this being the 4th) was a good day for me. school was only a half day, meaning this one i got to sleep in till 9. and yesterday evening me and todd went out .. we went to penny lane where we sat and played a game called 'the dirty mind game' and todd...i just have to tell you that really, you just dont have a dirty mind. im sry. then we went to barnes and noble and read magazines for awhile and we actually ventured into the kid sections and played with the train set ... and also rediscovered 'stories from wayside school' what fing awesome books .. really they are. i bought 2 of them, i need to go purchase the third. today ::still to me the 5th:: was laurens birthday, happy birthday..i <3 you!! i worked till 8 and then went to hacienda for her birthday with a few other girls, that was fun .. then home to make a mixed cd for erica, sara, and my roadtrip tomorrow to Garden of the Gods..should be fun, im excited.
9:22 p.m. November 3, 2004 well ... bush won it ... which sucks for me ... but you know what ... its over now, nothing i can do, and honestly i suppose my world hasnt came to an end.
9:16 p.m. November 2, 2004 Vote. today is election day. i hope everyone who could vote did .. my dad said today "vote because it is the only voice you have that will be heard" sometimes hes very insightful .. i <3 him.
10:19 p.m. October 28, 2004 tomorrows my birthday. i should be happy. i am happy. its just i found out something tonight that really annoys me...wow, my life sometimes is just real shitty. im not complaining really, it just annoys me .. a lot. so my week has gone by really fast because i have worked every evening .. monday, tuesday, wednesday, and thursday .. off for 2 days tho .. since i asked off. i got my halloween costume tuesday after school with erica .. 'princess of webs' its this black velvet hooded dress with big sleeves and its kinda low cut and it has slits right up both legs .. i rather like it ;) . last night after work i had to go over to my grandpas to get my present, another very nice piece of jewelry .. and then i picked up mr. star and took him out to dennys for my birthday .. ha, i didnt mind tho cuz i hadnt seen him for a long time and i needed his company. then today i took whitt home and went inside cuz her mom made me this totally awesome birthday cake shaped like a butterfly, it was so cool! then i went to work, and came home and erica gave me my bday present .. its a UK hoodie! and i love it ... tomorrows dinner with the family, team america, and a halloween party .. should be fun, i hope so at least.
8:26 p.m. October 24, 2004 well now the countdown is 5 days till im 18 and that also means 5 days i have left to find a halloween costume and im not doin to good ... hmm ... *must get to work on that* this weekend was a 3-day weekend and thursday i left school early to drive to louisville so i could do my bday dinner with my mom and gary and john .. we went to joes crab shack .. never go there on your birthday .. ok it was fun but still embarassing .. but i got free icecream out of it. so my mom got me pearls for my birthday and they're really pretty, awesome :). friday i drove my brother and me back home and worked and then i think i did something with erica but for some reason im not recalling what it was .. oh! i got it .. we went to buffalo wild wings .. later friday night was just bad news, drama that i really didnt need/want to be involved in went down and it was just a real shitty night .. there were at least 3 times when i either wanted to punch someone or cry .. i ended up getting about 20 minutes of sleep cuz i had to wake up at 7:15 to get to work by 8 .. then i worked till around 2 and me and erica went to the mall in search for costumes but then decided that they were rip offs. so then we went to lazarus where she got to shop with a big employee discount and i got a pair of sweat pants that say wildcats on the back ;)then she came back to my house but had to leave cuz i had to do dinner with the family cuz of my brother being here and this is the last weekend he'll spend with us for a year and a half .. saturday night .. the game .. game one .. what a great game and for us to win it just made it even better .. me and erica watched it at a friends house and when she left i helped out with some work and then headed home .. went to bed and slept till 2:30 today, i really needed the sleep and it felt f*ing awesome. so now im watching the game again and crossing my fingers .. we'll see what happens .......
11:01 p.m. October 13, 2004 yea 16. days. till. im. 18. thats so fuckin awesome ... it really is. Well, lets see here ... i had a really good night. me michelle and lauren all carved pumpkins in my garage .. it was really fun cuz it was kinda just us hanging out with our little space heater listenin to music and makin fun of each others pumpkins. I made mine frankenstein, it actually looks really good! Then we made pumpkin seeds, and wow. those were awesome! so good. erica turned 18 on monday and i went with her to get her belly button pierced, so hott dear. what else has happened..i watched a little of the debate tonight, what i could when i wasnt covered in pumpkin "innerds". this weekend should be a good one, friday night i really dont know if i have any plans, i think i might but i forgot them .. all i know is i work 4-8. saturday im off, my first saturday off since i started working there. and im not sure whats going on then either .. probably a lazy day and then i think the house may be having some kinda party for erica's bday so i might be there. hallies here, shes growing up so fast, its really weird! im really glad we still get to see her. .. i think thats about all i have to say, im gonna go get some sleep.
9:05 p.m. October 10, 2004 so today is sunday and i had an exhausting yet pretty good weekend, and with the events of last week this whole week in general has been exhausting ... friday i dont think i did much school and worked 4-8 and then hung out with michelle for a little bit. saturday i woke up at 6:30 cuz i had to drive to owensboro to take the SAT's. which. really. sucked. i do not like taking tests at all, ugh .. then straight from there i went to work for 7 hours so then i get home and im worn out completely but somehow i end up going to lonestar with erica and to the fall festival for a bit ... so then i get home at like 11 ish and im at the point where im so tired im not even tired. so i went out for the night. it was fun. it ended in me falling asleep around 4 and having to get up at 7:30 to go back to my house, shower, and leave to go to louisville to spend the day with my mom...so the whole drive up there im like falling asleep at the wheel. it was scarey. get there we do lunch and then me and my mom went to target ... yea, that was fun. my moms new puppy is. so. adorable. its so little and it has the biggest ears you could imagine on this itty bitty beagle puppy ... aw i just wanted to take him home with me. so then i drive home which was another tiring drive ... ugh. i found out some bad news about my brother ... so i know hes going to iraq in about a month, and im worried but not horribly because for his unit hes a mechanic so i didnt really think he'd be in that much action ... but now they say they have too many mechanics over there so they transferred him to military police which is something the guys get years of training for, and john will get 2 weeks. and im scared cuz MPs have to go around with the iraq police and the people of iraq hate their police more than they hate us so theres always bad things happening to iraq police and i dont want to think about my brother being caught in the middle of that. it scares me. i really dont like driving to and from louisville by myself ... i like it cuz i get to play my music loud and be alone... but it gets really boring and i have way to much on my mind so 4 hours of pure thinking is really tiring and stressful. well im pooped ... cya
10:48 p.m. October 5, 2004 wow yesterday i had awesome news. today i have horrible news. my dog [at my moms] died. daisy, she went to the library with my mom and after that my mom was gonna take her to the park and when my mom was trying to get back into the car Daisy got out and ran into the busy highway right in front of my mom. ::im crying writing this, this really sux:: my mom picked her up and took her to the vet and she said she knew she was dead because while she was carrying her into the vet she was limp. it really doesnt seem fair at all. my mom loved that dog so much, and so did i. she was only about a year and a half old. still a puppy. two pets ive lost in the year 2004 .. one i still cry over and miss even tho i lost him in feb. and now daisy .. i wish i could be with my mom right now. she was so attached to that little dog and shes blaming herself saying if she wouldnt have taken her out this never would have happened, she really cant blame herself .. she was so upset .. it hurt me so much to hear my mom like that.
9:27 p.m. October 4, 2004 I GOT INTO UK how freakin. awesome. is that.? very awesome, i know. i was so nervous when i got this letter today, i didnt wanna open it so donna made me cuz she said if i didnt she would, so i did, and i got it ... yep yep i did! im still really excited about it! well thats all i wanted to say!! later.
10:40 p.m. September 19, 2004 havent updated in awhile and i apologize. oh well. number 5 tonight guys, we're doin good ;) . so whats new with me u ask . not a lot. i visited UK on saturday, what a fucking awesome place. wow. beautiful. i think i want to go there because of their library, 5 stories and it looks like a museum. i filled out my application tonight, sent my act and sat scores, and tomorrow i have to get my transcript sent and then theres nothing really left to do but wait .. what a horrible experience that will be .. waiting .. ugh, everyone tells me not to worry and ill get in, but still im scared because i really want to go there! so i started the pet food center on thursday and ive only worked 2 days and so far i like it, not bad, close to home, not incredibly hard work, and nice people .. sounds good to me. mom got me a new watch .. off ebay ::ha i love it:: its a fossil brand new tags were still on it, and its neat, i was just telling erica the other day about how i needed one, my mom reads my mind sometime i swear. whats with people and not being able to take hints? seriously, i dont want to have to be mean about this. i have my first multiple choice AP practice exam tomorrow morning in english .. nothing i can study for really. but i do have a psych test on which i need a very high A to get an A for six weeks and im not studying right now so i dont see how this is promising. but oh well, ill just get a B, life will go on. im done for now.!
11:26 a.m. September 11, 2004 its 9/11 ... it feels weird doesnt it? it does to me.
4:59 p.m. September 6, 2004 FIRST THERES NEW PICS UP ... the ones of my 2 days with sara .. i should be adding more later!
1:54 a.m. September 5, 2004 my tummy hurts ... bad ... ugh ...maybe it was that orange slushie from sonic, but those rarely let me down. anyways my saturday, slept till noon went out to logans with the family. came home showered and hung out for a little bit and then erica came over when she got off work and lauren was shortly behind her .. so erica had to come home cuz she hadnt "washed her body" yet today so why she went home and showered me and lauren went barnes and noble to pick up a few things ... evansville living, which im in this month on pg 147, i know be jealous. and then lauren got some arbys and we met back with erica and headed out to michelles bf's house for a little bon-fire .. it was fun, but we didnt stay long, it was on BONER road ... haha. then we went to um. i kinda forgot and think maybe back to my house and then just out looking for something to do. we went to lone star so erica could say hey to a few people ::read my blog on myspace for my view on green river road:: and then we drove by buffalo wild wings so lauren could go pee cuz it was like 11:20 and they were the only place opened around ... we had some fun with her when she was getting back into the car, we played the normal everytime she comes to the door we drive about 2 feet away .. we were laughin so hard she kinda got in and it didnt last that long, but it was amusing. ok then .. we um did something that i cant mention in here cuz it could get me in trouble ... but erica broke my door in the midst of it .. i was upset .. cuz in about 8 hours im supposed to be driving to louisville and that would have been difficult with a door that wouldnt shut .. so we took my car home to wait til morning so my dad could look at it .. lauren got her car and me and erica got in her jeep and we drove to hunters ::laurens bfs:: friends house and there were a few people there but lauren had to be home at 1 so we head out and me and erica go back to my house and talk for a little bit she leaves to meet up with her bf so i can relax and update this thing, and i think shes coming back to stay the night here shortly, and that brings the close of my night. im supposed to be going to louisville in about 7 hours, so i should get some sleep!!
8:15 p.m. September 2, 2004 it's been a rather good day ... in the middle of a horrible week ... ugh, this week i bet me and my english partner spent a total of 15 hours working on this gigantic presentation. we finally went today and got it done with .. and phew, what a relief. i definitely had a gigantic hoop skirt on and an elizabethan gown that i rented ... it was pretty neat .. theres a pic on my myspace ::link above:: if you want to see. i also got my senior pics back today ... so far the people who have seen them ::lauren and family:: like them, im happy with a few of them .. not so happy with a couple...but then again, no one ever really likes pictures of themselves. so like i said this week hasnt been so great, lots of stress and school is just really getting the best of me..i didnt think this year would put so much pressure on me ... it sux cuz i got such good grades last year and really didnt work that hard, and this year it seems like im gonna have to work really hard so i can keep those grades great so my moms not disappointed, ugh .. i just wish high school was over already! three day weekend this weekend ... plans? of course ... football game and pizza tomorrow night ... bon-fire at jimmys saturday ... louisville sunday and monday with sara and todd? ::maybe:: to go to the zoo and stay with my mom ... MONDAYS SARAS BIRTHDAY ... HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SARA, i heart you. ive got four problems to do in math ... doesnt sound like that many but their long so im gonna go get started on those ...
9:35 p.m. August 26, 2004 I first want to say Happy Birthday to two of my favorite people in the world - Michelle (23) and Eliza (18) ... two very different ages but i love them both and i hope they had awesomely terrific birthdays! Well today was a very good day, i really don't know why but it was good. Nothing more than school, disgusting slides that made me want to puke in anatomy, dressing up as queen elizabeth, normal fun at barnes and noble, and a little thrill towards the end of the night which i wont go into detail on here too much. so tomorrow is finally friday ... which should also be a good day, and then the weekend, which hopefully will be a good one, pretty busy actually! so these past two weeks ive been in this mood, kinda hard to explain, not a bad one, not a great one ... just a different mood. i really dont know why or whats the reason for it. i really just dont know a lot recently .. its hard to figure out what im thinking, i dont know what i want, i really am so back and forth about what i want in a situation it gets confusing, and it sucks, why cant things just be right there in front of your face telling you what to do and what you want! one day i think i want one thing and the next day the idea of that is just nothing i could even imagining wanting! argh, i really just don't know .. maybe ill figure it out, maybe i wont, but until i do ... no major decisions will be made ... ok im done ranting for tonight
12:12 a.m. August 21, 2004 hey there ... whats shakin? im just kinda layin around in bed cuz im not feelin to hot, my nose is all stopped up ... it bites. so me and eliza decided what we are gonna do for her birthday ... just me and her are gonna go camping .. like putting up tents, starting fires, and making s'mores ... scared for us? i am. it'll be an experience thats for sure. thrilling. tomorrow i have a few errands to run, and then im not quite sure what the plans are. tonight was fun tho, me cat and dallas just kinda hung out and ate pizza and played in an arcade and dallas stole a bunch of bouncy balls ... theif. sunday ill be working on my paper for english all day ... no fun in that. k im done.
5:48 p.m. August 17, 2004 so im just sittin here in the family room with my dad watchin walker texas ranger, always a fun time. i made him sloppy joes earlier... so schools gettin into routine again ... nothing new or exciting anymore, back to boring same old stuff. what fun, not. im not into my math class really .. there are like 90 kids in there, i dont like big classes at all. my english class is pretty cool, im happy for that. we spent the whole period ::in busines and personal law:: talking about gay marriages. it was pretty cool actually, im really gonna like that class .. there are a lot of interesting people in that class. my anatomy class should be fun, i got mrs will again, shes pretty easy and really nice so im not down about that .. and my psych class will be entertaining. alright it appears as if my battery is about to die ... so im gonna end this and go read or somethin ...
11:19 p.m. August 13, 2004 its friday the 13th and i didnt do anything scarey ... o well. rant time: so usually i try not to let the little things bother me or i try to not over think a lot of things but sometimes you just cant help it. i should be satisfied knowing about what i have ::or had:: but yet you always want more, which seems to be the situation im in right now. i mentioned a few entries down that right now for some reason im feeling really vulnerable .. gay wording i know .. but its true. it seems like every little thing someone says or does has some kind of impact on me. i hate being this way! someone can say something so casual as ::insert something casual that people say cuz i cant think of one right now:: and ill think about it so much and end up convincing myself that they had this meaning behind it and thats why they said it or with the way that they're talking to me ill get all worked up and be positive that they have no motive to talk to me or want too ... make any sense to you? i dont care if it doesnt .. whatever. i went to ben franklin the other day looking for fabric for m's blanket i made her for her b-day, well i didnt find any but i ended up buying a sketch book instead .. dont know why i've never been much of an artist .. but it gives me something to do, other than write. [side note: i did make m a blanket for her birthday ... and i was dumb enough to leave it on my chair when she came over cuz i wasnt expecting her to so she got it about 3 weeks too early, but she did like it] . my cats sleeping right next to my head and his stomach keeps moving right next to my ear, its really weird. im supposed to go see the princess diaries 2 with sara on sunday, which i am very excited about, not only to see this movie, but to spend time with sara, i didnt see her at all this summer and this year we have 2 classes together and that makes me happy cuz i missed her :) .. my parents are going out of town the 28th so i was gonna have people over but it turns out thats the same night as a really big show that i shall be attending .. oh well .. my parents seriously leave town maybe once every 2 years ::if that:: and its never for more than a night, oh well, this time next year ill have my own place and wont have to worry about my parents being home or not, i seriously can not wait for that freedom. im not that tired at all, i feel like reading but i dont know where my comp notebook is that im supposed to take notes in. :yep: . i really need to go to work i havent been at work since last week sometime ... i love my job but i need a job where i have motivation to go to work, say an actual schedule maybe .. one that if i dont show up i get fired. this job is almost TOO easy. yea i have it so great and im complaining, that sounds bad, im not really complaining as admitting that im just to unmotivated to get up and go to work, i should work on that, its hard enough getting up and going to school, that really =sux= . me and whitt and michelle all went out tonight to hacienda and wired coffee house where we just kinda hung out for awhile cuz there was no one else in there and its a really neat place, i wanna go there more often. then we drove around for 2 hours like always, but yet always a good time. i think thats {[it]}.
4:25 p.m. August 12, 2004 so here i am ... lost in the world again for awhile and ive been neglecting my journal, sry guys, but you really dont care that much. i went back to school today and it sucked, well my day didnt suck, but the whole idea of going back to school did. oh well last year ill survive. all my classes seem really cool so i think it is going to be a very good year, even with my discrete math teacher being a bore ::and she is terribly:: but ill survive it like i always do :) . i went to the dentist after school, just for him to look at my tooth, and make sure everything was going ok ... it is. yesterday i went to go see my senior pics and pick out the ones i liked and all that good stuff ... i should be getting em in a couple weeks, they're all really good ... but wait i have big news, ha, one of my pictures is gonna be in his ad for studio b in that evansville living magazine, so keep your eyes open for it ... exciting huh? what else is new, nothing i guess, same old stuff. so thats all i have for now.
10:29 p.m. July 30, 2004 hey look at the time ... thats my birthday neat. so its been awhile since ive updated, still living without the internet its not that bad, im alright, im at my moms right now and we just returned home not to long ago from seeing "the village" . can i say 'let down' yea i can, cuz that movie was a big let down, it wasnt a bad movie at all, but i had it so hyped up, i was so excited to see this movie SO excited it just wasnt normal, and then it just wasnt all that it should have been i thought, me and my mom were both really dissappointed. so my summers almost over in less than 2 weeks i will be back in school, as a senior, im not that upset, but i will miss my summer. i got my tooth in, ha, how odd does that sound. my teeth are finally done!! im so happy, i could just burst. yep ... so im sittin at wendys for lunch and im feelin my lip and i can feel a cold sore coming on ... not good ... so by the time i get to my moms there is a blister on my lip ... MY SENIOR PICTURES ARE ON MONDAY ... how much does this suck? im really upset. tomorrow is a shopping day with my mom, but with my dads credit card, sounds like a good day to me. then sunday i will be heading home .. only to be returning to louisville with whitt on tuesday for 2 days of just louisville time. well thats about all i have ... i think i feel like playing around with the color and layout .. of this thing
7:37 p.m. July 22, 2004 hello ... 9 days since my last update. nothing at all has really happened to me, obviously i havent been online that much because my internet is broken at my house and we are no longer allowed to use it at work, but that is ok .. life goes on .. i can live without it .. everyones at warped right now, eh. im not that sad about missing it, i coulda gone i just really had no motive to go, there were maybe 4 bands tops that i wanted to see ... so why go ... i hope they're having fun, i believe it is raining on them right now, oh well i guess its a cool down. i went swimming with whitt today and we went to holiday world on tuesday which was fun cuz it was just the 2 of us ... and saturday i went to burdette which was amusing as well ... no news in the relationship area .. oh well thats cool .. ok thursday my teeth will FINALLY be done, its over all of it ::besides august 30th when i will be getting my wisdom teeth out but that doesnt count:: ... so much money has gone into my mouth and im so thrilled that its over ... 7 more days ... i could pee im so excited. hm. thats all for now i guess .. im searching for pics for my tattoo im hoping to get .. i wont say what cuz unless you know me really well you might think its just weird .. but i still have a few ideas up in my head, and i have been thinking about this for a long time ... i want to make sure its def something i really want! .. k later
5:20 p.m. July 13, 2004 yo ... i dont really have much to say im just hanging out with michelle waiting to see what the nights gonna unfold for me, if anything ... lets hope something happens. we only worked for 3 hours today cuz we got bored with it .. i got a key this afternoon so i can come and go as i please now, not just 8 to 5. yea thats a good thing. hmm, last night michelle and me drove around for awhile .. got snocones, as always, and i finally got my beastie boys cd back from matt after about 234235 days of him having it .. im glad to get that back. then we came back to my house and just goofed off for awhile ... and then slept and then went to work ... yep i got a screw put in my mouth yesterday .. a real screw .. he used a little screw driver and everything .. odd .. july 29 by 5 pm i should have a real tooth ::ha:: . so now what ... nothing, im done.
12:14 a.m. July 12, 2004 im in an odd mood, not a good one, but not really a bad one .. dont know how to explain it ... my mom got sick this morning so i spent the whole day cleaning the house for her, good news i did get to drive her red 2003 toyota matrix home for the week, being that she was sick and didnt feel like drivng. i have to find a way to get it back to her on friday when my stepdad gets back in town, because they will need 2 cars again. went to the show with eliza tonight, always a blast when im with her ... i really love going to hardcore shows, the energy and the vibes you get just always make me have a good time and i leave em happy. yea, so im gonna ramble on here about things that have been on my mind, so if you dont care stop reading here --> .
7:51 p.m. July 10, 2004 ya know what this week has really kinda sucked, i mean its had its fun times but the one bad thing that happened this week out weighs all the good things that did happen ... i dont know why i let my brother get to me so much, hes home again, of course, he got fired, what else is new .. james will never grow up is what i have discovered, im sick of it ... so now my life will consist of working, being anywhere besides my house, and if i have to be home i shall be locked in my room ... he puts me in such a bad mood, he doesnt even have to say anything ... i just have to see him or hear him breath and im pissed off ... i hate that i get like this, but i dont know why i do or how i can get rid of it. oh well. im at my moms right now and we're just hanging out watchin some tv after we got done eating our kfc ... i wanna watch the banger sisters here in a little bit ... tomorrow should be a good day, im coming home in the evening and then i think me and e are going to the show possibly, hopefully ... my job is rockin right now, im so happy i found this job, i didnt go in on thursday and friday i got there at noon and was so tired i only worked for two hours and then hung out with michelle ... and then me and lauren just hung out for awhile ... my mom just had a fit cuz she got the final jeopardy question correct and none of the three players did. shes a hoot at times ... alright i think im done for now!
6:38 p.m. July 6, 2004 soooo ... im bored right now with nothing to do so i was going through some pics on my computer and i have a lot of myself ... i guess i agree with cat when she called me a 'camera whore' oh well ... if you wanna see em ill put a link up called 'camera whore' and it'll just be random pictures of me ... me and michelle and whitt found these kittens on the side of the road on the 4th so i took em home and my dad wouldnt let me keep em but i still took lots of pics of em ... click kittens ... they are now residing at michelles boyfriends house ... im glad they found a safe home i went over to james' last night cuz he was having a cookout and it turned into a um ... viking dinner? it was unusual and fun ... cuz james def has a viking table in his basement which i had never noticed until last night ... amusing ... then we went to some old bridge on the river and set off fireworks until a storm hit ... then we went back to james' house where we put in the ring and i decided to leave around 1:30 after the storm had passed ... thats about it for my life as of now ...
10:24 p.m. July 3, 2004 thursday night michelle spent the night and my goal for the night was ripping my fake nails off ... well i achieved that, but now i basically have no nails considering i had those gay things on for about a year and a half ... they sucked and were to expensive ... yea ... i know im dumb for even having them
im watching the race with my dad right now ... there was a rain delay so he was still up when i got home at like 9:30 on a saturday night
so friday morning michelle woke me up at 7:30 to go to work and i did not feel like getting up so i was like you go and ill be there in just a bit ... and then i showed up about 11 and we worked till around 4 ... it was a fun day cuz we got in the good room and just played around on the internet for awhile ...
what can i say about friday night. i dont really know it was a fun night thats for sure yea it was ... a lot of fun ... we'll just leave it at that ... i have about 32849 bug bites from it ... but i suppose it was worth it ... of course it was worth it ... but just cuz it was worth it doesnt mean they dont still itch, cuz yea they itch like a bitch.
today my mom calls around 10 and wants me to meet her in dale so we can go shopping and spend some time together ...
so i do and we go to huntingburg where she informs me that we are famous there cuz my moms family ::the kemps:: have been political leaders of it since forever ... wow ...
she also informs me that one of my great great uncles was the LEADER of the KKK in dubois county like in the 30s and 40s .. that wasnt really something i needed to know or wanted to know.
then we drove to selvin where my grandma is buried and put flowers on her grave and stole 2 humogous rocks ... yea. thats right i said rocks. my mom wanted them because they were special to my grandma cuz they used to be in a wall around a house she used to live in. so these rocks were around some tree on someones property and i had to pick 2 that weren't totally infested with bugs and maggots and get them in the car ... and my mom wanted the biggest one which i swear weighed like 14 pounds ... it wasnt fun, but she was happy she got them so i was happy to do it
then i drove home met up with eliza and we just 'rolled' for awhile .. you know how we do
now like i said im just sitting in the family room watching the race with my dad waiting for whitt to get off work so we can see whats up.
9:39 p.m. July 1, 2004 soooooooooooooooooooooooooo i hate this thing i have called a brain, it thinks to much about stuff i dont need to think about, weird one ends ::officially:: and another one was already beginning ... i think ... i hope, i want it 2, you know, but this time im not gonna get my hopes up. if it happens it happens if it doesnt it doesnt, i can live with rejection .. dont like it but i can. random thought what is the point of scented tampons .. who smells down there when its that time of the month ? ok im done with this ... tomorrow night tho ... its on
9:39 a.m. June 29, 2004 sry about the lack of update recently ... ive been rather busy .. my job at tropical nights closed so now im working with michelle in the girl scout building downtown ... its quite nice actually ... we sit on a computer in a room all day, which is where i am right now, so obviously i really dont do that hard of work if i can sit around and update my website ... as i was told last night i 'hit the jackpot of jobs' and i think thats about accurate ... i always get the good jobs according to some people, and i suppose i will have to agree with them ... michelle woke me up this morning at 7:30 which was a little annoying considering we get to make up our own schedule and come in whenever we want so ... why get up at 7:30 .. but of course she wanted an early start so i got up ... we didnt really do much last night besides drive around and play ps2 and watch beavis and butthead ... i felt like a couple of guys, ha, it was fun tho ... so yep ... dont really have any plans this week ... all i know is for sure wednesday i will be in a theater somewhere watching spiderman 2... thats all i have to say. i wanna go to a show in lexington on friday night but im not sure if thats gonna happen ... we'll see ... so now im bored with nothing else really to say, so im gonna go browse myspace ... later!
11:51 p.m. June 23, 2004 oh goodness ... so what have i been up to ... not a lot, you know the usual .. vandalizing signs, breaking into limos, and almost getting killed ... i guess ill go into a little bit more detail in case some of you care ... so the sign was just the hitch and peters sign that we put a b over the h in hitch and made it say bitch and peters ... it was funny ... the limo was some ghetto ass thing we found that was for sale so we got into it and had a lot of fun with it ... theres pics up .. click 'limo night pics' ... then ... this is the scarey part i thought we were gonna die ... so its just me and eliza driving around not doing anything realy so we decide to go to dogtown on our way there we notice this guy in front of us some ways so we decide to follow him and mess around with him ... we didnt think he knew where he was going ... you know how old henderson road just turns into gravel well when get got there he turned around, so we did to and followed him some distance back ... that road is really scarey at night ... you're surrounded by corn and it makes me think of jeepers creepers .. so anyways this guy obviously notices we're following him so he pulls into someone drive and makes us pass ... well i fly about 75 down that road so he wouldnt try to get smart and follow us .. but we still had some time to kill so we decided to pull into dogtown tavern and wait for him to drive past so we can follow him again .. he honks as he passes, so hes noticed us, well i pull out and start following him again till our road comes up that i have to turn on .. so i figure this is the end so i honk as im turning while hes infront of us ... boy was that not the end ... we get on our road and eliza realizes hes turning around to come back to us ... AH ... and then we try to drive away BUT THERES A TRAIN right across our road so we have no where to go, well i turn around on this little 2 way road infront of this train almost driving into a ditch and fly out of there past a stop sign right as he was turning into the street ... i dont know what would have happened if we wouldnt have seen him turning around and we would have sat there waiting for the train and he came up behind us ... it was so scarey, and he was rather scarey looking himself ... i dont know if it was something i would want to experience again! and thats about all for now ... click on pics too cuz i put up new random ones!
2:24 p.m. June 21, 2004 sry for the lack of update recently i promised i wouldnt let this thing slip cuz of myspace and i seem to be doing that! ah im such a horrible person, anyways ... my work is closing for good on sunday so i have to find another job, but im not really in that much of a hurry cuz my dad pretty much pays for everything and he said it would be alright if i had a little vacation anyways ... so thats always good ... but i want another job because ill feel like a lazy bum if i dont work ... so i havent really been up to much saw 3 movies in the past week ... garfield, really cute ... dodgeball, incredibly funny, and the stepford wives, interesting and kind of ok ... hung out with eliza and whitt a lot, been fun, i love those 2 girls ... cats in florida right now and im jealous and i miss her cuz i love her 2 ... she needs to come home ... alright well i dont really have much to say ... i know ive been bad but im posting a lot of 'blogs' ::i dont like that word:: on myspace instead of writing in here! im sry. oh well just go there if u care that much ... which im sure you dont!
2:01 a.m. June 17, 2004 yep its 2 in the morning and im up cuz i was trying to get all of mine and elizas new pics on here and i think i did it ... if you wanna see em click on 'the night of the doll' link up there ... if you're computers kinda slow then i dunno if i would cuz theres a lot of pics on there ...
8:49 p.m. June 14, 2004 so i really dont have much to write about cuz i havent really been doin much ... sunday i worked during the day ... closed up a bit early ... sunday was alyssa's birthday so me and her and james and ryan all went to dennys and sat there for a little bit and then we went over to tropical nights around midnight so they could play pool and whatnot ... i got home around one and in bed around three ... slept till 12:30 today and then i woke up got dressed and went over to whitts. me and her dropped our camera off at walgreens for a one hour and then decided to go to the mall to kill that hour ... i saw christine workin at journeys and talked to her about chelsey for a little bit ... i really should call chelsey sometime soon because i want to see her baby! then we got the pics and some of them turned out quite hilarious! then home and not really doing much since ... i made a myspace ::link with other links up top:: thing on saturday night for lack of other things to do and it actually is quite fun ... theres a place on there where you can post blogs which are pretty much journal entrys and ill probably use those just to post my random thoughts or whatnot but dont worry i wont abandon this site ... i put new pics up so check em out!
12:59 a.m. June 13, 2004 oh goodness i just wrote a very long entry about what happened last night to me and whitt and it didnt save any of it so i really dont have the energy to do it again ... so ill sum it up for you
12:04 a.m. June 11, 2004 so yea today was a good day, i worked from 10 to 2 and then i got my nails filled in and went home ... dad let me know that he wanted to take me out to dinner just me and him for my report card so i couldnt say no to that so we went to his shop to pick up his pay check and then we went to smokey bones .. yum .. when we were leaving the house dad ran over part of the garage door ::cuz we had it on the ground cuz we were painting it:: so he was pissed about that because after working on it for awhile we discovered we were gonna have to get a new one ... oh well life goes on. dad also informed me that we're getting a hot tub .. excited? i am .. hes gonna build like a little privacy thing for it behind our garage its gonna be very nice to have .. michelle and cat came over to watch the movie awards with us and cat decided to stay the night so we had to make a 10 oclock run for her cuz she was craving some KFC well the green river one was closed so we drove to the west side thinking it would be open cuz its a kfc/taco bell and taco bell is always open late but of course the kfc part was closed ... just our luck ... then we were driving home and passed dallas and waved him down to come back to my house and we played some scategories and now we're not really doing anything.... so im gonna go! later!!
11:19 p.m. June 9, 2004 k sry about that last entry ... i was just talkin ... and no im not gonna kill myself for those of you who thought that ... blah ... so today i worked for EIGHT hours ... yea thats right 8 hours ... it wasnt that bad maybe because i had a lot of meds in me cuz i have stiches in my mouth from the tooth thing i got goin on ... dont ask ... i had an aray of visitors today at work fun times
9:24 p.m. June 7, 2004 yea i just updated about 2 hours ago but im bored and my site crashed cuz im just trying to put some pics up! argh, this thing annoys me... oh well ... i found some old surveys in my old journal and updated them a lil and put them on survey page .. check em out ;)
7:27 p.m. June 7, 2004 oh goodness ... where did i leave off ... saturday afternoon hmm ... so saturday i worked and didnt do much cuz it was a rather boring time there as always and then i went out to eat with whitt at quiznos ::i realized we go out to eat a lot, we're gonna go broke my the end of the summer most likley:: and then i went back to whitts and hung out for a little bit ... aj called around 9 so me and her went over to todds to hang out with those fellas, and then back home we were ... waiting for the night to actually begin ... we snuck out of whitts house ::and oh what an experience that was:: and went over to aj's whos parents are out of town and had some fun over there till around 3:30 a.m., fun night ;) sunday ... worked and that was about it ... today i went over to whitts to lay out and we realized we have a low tolerance for heat so after about 15 minutes we gave up and went to sonic to get slushies then i had to come home cuz she had to work and i showered and hung out at home for a bit till i left and went to target where i met up with cat and dallas, and oh did we have fun at target ... ha ha ha ha ... that probably made my whole summer, well probably not but it was still pretty funny! then we went to coconuts and best buy when my dad called and asked if i wanted to meet the family at logans, well i was hungry and i figured why not have dinner ... so i did and that brings us to now ... home and bored ... i really wanna go swing somewhere ... james is home! no matter how good a day i had coming home and seeing his car in the driveway ruined it all ... i dont really know why i dislike him so much, but i do and i know thats a bad thing i just can't help it ... k im gonna go ... maybe ill work on my pics so check and see if they're there!
1:22 p.m. June 5, 2004 i just got home a little bit ago from lunch at ihop with cat after we got done taking the sat's this morning, and yea they did suck ... there was way to much math on it and im horrible at math! sry i havent updated much this past week ive been kinda busy ... and was without power sunday thru tuesday ... we had 2 big power lines down on our street from the bad storm on sunday ... and we got it back the day i left to go to my moms! but yea, so tuesday after i went out to lunch with whitt i left and drove to my moms, wednesday we went to the summit and just kinda browsed around for a little bit. i got this really cool jelly light for my room, i have to put it together sometime tho .. thursday me and amanda walked and shopped on bardstown rd for a few hours and thursday night ::friday morning:: i dragged my stepdad to harry potter number three at 12:05 a.m. it was a really good movie! ... then i came home yesterday and went to get eliza who came to work with me for a little bit. whitt and michelle hung out with me for awhile in there 2 and then me and whitt went to ritzys ... on our way there we saw doug as he was getting off work at the acropolis so we stopped and talked to him for awhile ... i havent seen him for awhile since i stopped going over to the house, but i do miss him, hes a really cool guy! and then me and whitt just ended up hanging out at my house for awhile ... and now i have to hop in the shower cuz i have to go to work at 3!
3:36 p.m. May 29, 2004 ha, i totally just found a john deere "owners addition" hat in my dads rom and im gonna rock that with my john deere shirt sometime soon! wow, so ive had a lotta fun since i last updated ... hmm so where did i leave off ... thursday morning ... thursday afternoon i went to go see 50 first dates very cute movie and then i went to work from 6 to 10 and hmmm ... aj, todd, cory, and travor all came in when i was working and played some golf and pool and i did nothing the whole time they were there .. then kory came 2 and they all stood in the parking lot and got this gigantic hacky sack circle going and these 3 guys who i guess were cruisn green stopped and asked if they could join and then this girl who was in marshalls joined in and it was pretty fun cuz i was still "working" while i was out there hanging out with them .. dont you hate me cuz i have such a perfect job? .. anyways then i closed the place down and took aj home and then i came home and went to bed ... friday i slept till around 10ish when whitt woke me up and said we were doing something tonight so yea ... then eliza decided she wanted to get outta the house so i picked her up and she came to work with me for 5 hours, so it was nice i wasnt there all by myself and she got my pictures developed for me ... some very good ones actually ... im on the lap top right now ill go downstairs and scan them here in a few and have them up ... then whitt met me at work around 7ish and we took eliza home after i got off around 8 and me and whitt drove around for awhile with nothing to do ... 2 funny things happened to us all before 11 ... ok the first was we were on green river road and whitt saw the dominos sign that says "we have what you're craving" and so she calls and says something like "do you really have what im craving cuz im craving cock" or something perverted like that i was laughing to hard to hear exactly what ... the second funny thing was we were getting gas at hucks off lynch and as we were walking in to pay we see this guy passed out in this car with a penis drawn on his face and the word FAG wrote above it .. as we're laughing about it when we're walking in the driver to that car is buying a disposable camera and asks if we want to take a picture with the guy with the penis on his face .. so we agree and we walk out there and the guy wakes this guy up and says "hey these girls wanna take a picture with you" so the guy crawls outta the car and poses in a picture with us .. the whole time oblivious to the fact he has a penis on his face .. very entertaining. then me and whitt went over to todds and whitt had to be home at 11:30 so she left and then the guys were all going over to korys dads house so i was heading home when whitt says to come get her cuz she wants to sneak out .. so i do and we end up going over to korys, ::where todd, jake, travor, and matt all were:: and that was a lotta fun, actually it wasnt that much fun for me cuz i was the only sober one there cuz i had to make sure whitt got back home ok and the only guy i really wanted to be there wasnt ... it was still kinda fun to watch all the drunk people ... whitt and todd were brought together a little bit through their drunkeness ::is that a word?:: and im glad 2 cuz that would be so cool! yep ... and i got home around 4 in the morning woke up around 9:30 and went to work for 5 hours and now im home again waiting to see if i have to babysit or if im going to the show tonight ... who knows what'll happen ...
7:44 a.m. May 27, 2004 its way to early to be up in the summer, oh well, i came home from whitts at like 7:15 cuz she had to go to summer school and now i crawled back in bed but yet im not that tired so i really dont feel like falling asleep just yet. my first "day" of summer was an ok one. i didnt quite make it through all of lotr .. what can i say .. im a wuss and i fell asleep .. the guys left sometime after noon and i had to shower and go to work at 2 till 6 where i did nothing besides read my book. then i went home and picked up my lotr box set to take back to best buy cuz the fellowship was chipped, they let me exchange it tho so it was no problem, then me and whitt ran elizas purse to her cuz she left it in my car on tuesday and my dad wouldnt let me go back over there that night cuz of the storm...and then me and whitt rented thirteen (one of the weirdest movies ive seen in awhile but in its own very odd way actually good) and her mom made us homemade pizza .. yum .. and then i fell asleep cuz it wasnt even midnight but i was still exhausted from my lack of sleep from the night before. i think i had the weirdest dreams of my life, one where my best friends dad was like a child molester and he had dug a hole in his backyard and kept it covered up with a blanket where he kept little kids in it and everyone knew about it but no one ever said anything to him .. it was a really horrible dream actually .. it was one of those where you wake up in the middle of it and try so hard not to close your eyes and start the dream again, but no matter what i did i couldnt stop that dream, and i woke up about 4 different times. then i had this dream where we skipped outta school early and the hair stylist from TLC's what not to wear cut my hair and he gave me bangs again and i almost cried cuz i didnt want them at all but then they actually looked kinda good .. it was weird .. yep. today i think im going to the 2 dolla theater to see 50 first dates which i missed when it was in the normal one, and i actually wanted to see it so im excited. then i have to work again from 6-10, im workin a lot this summer :( .. k maybe ill fall asleep now, but i dont think so
6:05 p.m. May 25, 2004 whoa guys yesterday was to much fun i just dont know if i can handle it...so basically everyone cut out of school after 2nd period and we all went to steak and shake and there was quite a big group there ... then cat, dallas, aj, and whitt all came back to my house where we didnt really do much besides walk up to treasures and pleasures and then whitt decided she wanted to make a rather interesting purchase ... so we went to the mall where she bought ... um lets call it a personal massager... it was quite entertaining to watch her purchase that, lol, and then watch her try to get the batteries in it in the car, she was excited to try this thing out 2 .. lol, i love you whitt! ... then what did i do, hm took whitt home around 3 came home and did nothing till i had to work at 7 and then aj and dallas came to see me at work for a little bit and that was a fun time ... and that was pretty much my yesterday. today was the last day of school for summer, im so happy its done with ... i took my final in 7th period and it upset me cuz it was really hard, oh well tho...and then i came home and went to best buy and bought the box set of lotr cuz donna wanted it and it was on sale, then i met up with lauren and we hung out for a little bit and now michelles on her way over and then tonight ... cat dallas and aj i think are all coming over for a long night of lotr .. im watching all of them , i dont know how im gonna stay up ... but im gonna do it...we're gonna be up ::that is if they make it:: till probably around 6 am
9:11 a.m. May 24, 2004 hey hey ... im in 2nd period doing nothing for an hour and a half cuz its final day but we've already taken our final .. so yea, now theres nothing to do until i leave at 10:30 cuz i cant leave until whitts done with her final cuz im her ride. yep and then i think a few of us are goin to steak and shake or something like that...so yesterday was a good day ... alissa called around 2 cuz we were supposed to go to zachs graduation party but i had totally forgot about it and i was supposed to get the gift! so i ran to the mall and picked up his present and met alissa at her house and we were at zachs by 3:15ish ... then i had to work at 4. and as always i did nothing ... cat and dallas came in to see me and we played golf and played some pool for awhile ... i kicked dallas' ass at pool, actually not really cuz i suck but he just kept doing dumb stuff! yep ... so thats about it yep ... only one more day of school and then its summer, i can't wait ... this year went by so fast but yet it feels like ive been waiting forever for summer! ya know? alright well im done ..
12:12 p.m. May 23, 2004 holy wow, if this summer is gonna be anything like my weekend was then trust me ... its gonna be a kick ass summer. yep yep. yesterday...what did i do, hmm...i woke up went to go get my paycheck, came home and woke cat up ::she was still sleeping in my bed:: and then we got online for a bit and decided we wanted to go to the mall...so we went and i spent some money...then i came home, took her home, went out to lunch with my parents and got my nails done and then i came home and started getting ready and by the time i was done it was time to leave and go see shrek 2 with aj. that had to be the cutest/best movie ive seen in awhile ::troy was great 2 but they're 2 totally different movies so i cant really compare them at all:: but yea shrek 2 was so much fun...and i had an awesome night last night...yea, it was quite cool. and right now michelles downstairs on my other computer working on her presentation for school so i suppose i should go join her and see what shes up 2 ... i have to work at 4 so you guys should come in and see me! k ... later
1:13 a.m. May 22, 2004 well hello there...im sitting at my desk not doing anything while cat and dallas are sitting ::laying:: in my bed .. what fun. i had a realllllllly fun night. so i get home from school and get plans made with eliza to go see troy at 5:30 on the west side ... well by the time i get outta the shower and am almost ready i realize we're running a little behind so we dont make it but we see the 6:05 one after stopping for new orleans style shaved ice which was soo good...then after that we went to kids kingdom and i did nothing but swing on the swings..man what fun..and then eliza has to be home at 10 and im tired cuz i didnt get much sleep all week so i came home and called cat and dallas and told them to come over whenever they wanted ... so i kinda just layed in bed and watched some roseanne and tlc .. kinda relaxing .. then they got here around 12:15ish and havent left ... so random fun thing that happened me and eliza were being retarded saying funny things about all the movie posters we walked past and she walked up to spiderman ::the one with his close up of his hand:: and she said something like "oh spiderman what a nice hand you have" and yea it definitely cracked me up...a lot of things cracked me up tonight .. and whoa i just got some big news! dun dun dunnn
9:28 a.m. May 19, 2004 dont buy gas today ... ok? alright wanted to say that ... but yea my last night was rather fun ... whitt skipped out of work ::shes such a rebel:: and we spent about 5 hours together just going to random places and not really doing much .. it was a lot of fun ... especially when we were driving to evansville and those lawn mower guys ;) haha, 2 much fun ... we went to barnes and noble and i bought a new book cuz seniors are taking their finals today and tomorrow so im gonna have long classes with nothing to do in them and i just finished my old book. im in web and we just got done taking our final i guess mr. shelby thought it would be better if we all just took it today instead of splitting it into 2 different finals, i dont mind it was a rather easy one i got it done in less that 15 minutes all we had to do was copy a site he made and print out the source code ... a 3rd grader could have done it i believe. the only finals im a little worried about are german and chem .. german goes on the 6 weeks and i never do anything in that class so im most likely gonna screw up on the final and get a c or something for the 6 weeks, oh well i cant always get straight A's ... im getting that "i dont give a crap" attitude about german since im not taking it next year so right now its really pointless to me. oh well ... life goes on. and chemistry i suppose wont be that bad its just i havent done great in those classes ::well its been A's:: and i dont think i really remember much .. hope its not worth 2 much. f it i dont really even care. i put in my application to be a senior mentor to freshman ... i hope i get it cuz it'll look good on college applications i suppose. alright im done for now :)
9:01 a.m. May 18, 2004 ok well i really have nothing to say but im sitting in second period incredibly bored so i thought id update ... i put 2 new surveys up last night, woot woot. so my monday wasnt to exciting a little on the boring side .. nothing really worth mentioning besides the fact that my jelly shoes came in ... me and cat both ordered them and i got em ... do you remember those old school jellys that we all had in like emlementary school? well yea i had pretty much every single color and i was quite excited when i found them in this magazine, i got a pair of orange ones and i think im gonna wear em with my little girls skirt that way ill look like im 12 :) awesome huh? so new found glory has a song out and it sounds exactly like everything that was on sticks and stones ... not suprised at all. so my weekend is looking pretty open i might be hanging out with eliza on friday till around 7ish or something, not really sure yet...oh well im out of things to say ... later!
9:59 p.m. May 16, 2004 hello, i just got home not to long ago from work ... took a bath, and climbed into bed...roseannes starting so im in a good mood. especially since i walked downstairs to get a glass of milk and found fresh no-bake cookies, yummy. so k .. my day was fun .. i get a text message from whitt saying that i should wake up cuz im gonna come over and hang with her, so i did and we ended up going to sonic, tanning, and to target. i bought 2 new bras ... lol ... sry that "lol" was towards roseanne. so yep ... then i went to work and stamped and labeled my heart out ... i had a visitor that made my day ;) you know who you are ... so im thinkin sittin here watchin tv that ya know what, im a very jealous person ::random thought i know:: but its true, i suppose everyone is and i think its just an insecure thing ... you know? but i guess i just cant help it... i know im dumb, oh well... i just put my wet hair in a gigantic bun on top of my head .. i suppose ill wear it curly tommorrow since its gonna be that way anyways. bored...i hate sundays im never tired cuz i slept so much over the weekend so i cant sleep at all. i get to go pick up donuts tomorrow morning ... yay ...what fun, me and whit will make an adventure out of it... k i think im done with this random entry...
10:21 p.m. May 15, 2004 heyyyyyyyyyyy ... im at eliza's right now, we're kinda just hanging out not doing anything really ... so last night was a lot of fun in someways ... i worked till 7 and then cat, dallas, aj, and holly all met at my work and we headed out to the west side. we ate at noble romans ::and dont ever get a 20 inch pizza unless you're really hungry cuz it is rather large:: then we parked at some church and had to walk forever ::cats brilliant idea:: to get to where we were going ... the TB hospital...the walk there we were playing james bond or something cuz everytime we saw a car we had to hide or drop or something...we get there and we have to climb in through a window and we start walking around and holly is freaking out so we have to go cuz we dont want her to have a panic attack or anything ... i actually thought it was really cool, i love scarey stuff like that, and really i wasnt that scared, after we're out me cat and dallas walk through this door ::aj and holly are scared and standing outside:: and its the basement with all these little desks and chairs .. weird .. we walk the 342566 miles back to the car and drive home ... cat and dallas came over for a bit and then i went to bed ... i slept till 1, and it felt really good ... got up...ate some of that 20 inch pizza...watched what not to wear .... took a bath ... got ready ... and went to work. after work went to steak and shake and then i picked up eliza and her little cousin she was baby sitting and we went to the mall and to toys-r-us...and that brings us to now ... we're kinda just sitting around and ill be heading home in a little bit ... k thats all ... later
9:25 a.m. May 14, 2004 web design ... just got done with a journal essay thing i had to do for history that i procrastinated on it .. oh well what else is new. so last night was a good night i went with my german club for some thing and then when i came home, i came home to my dad trying to destroy our computer! he was trying to hook up this wireless router so we could connect to the new lap top but in the process he screwed up my actual internet so i was on the computer for about an hour just trying to get my internet back up .. i did. michelle was over and then we went to the library to see cat and we stole her car and took it back to my house and cleaned out the inside of it before we cleaned out my car .. so now we both have really clean cars. then me and michelle ran mine through a car wash and took cats back .. yep that was my thursday. so i work today, tomorrow, and sunday ... oh well good hours i suppose. todays friday :) yay, finally i didnt think it would ever get here, but my 4 hours i have to work is gonna go by really slow...yep i suppose im done for now i have to go take a german test next period that i did not study for, argh, im really sick of this class, only 7 days left of school ... yay summer ...
9:21 a.m. May 12, 2004 so im in web on wednesday ... kinda bored ... we had to go listen to the people who are running for our senior class officers next year ... whoa it was fun. but yesterday was a good day :) i didnt really do much besides run a few errands and hang out with cat at the library cuz she was working. i kinda wish it was friday, this week seems to be going by really really slow. i dont have really any weekend plans set in stone yet other than i think friday after i get off work at 7 im going ghost hunting ... scarey i know. im not even sure why im going, i get sooo scared ... just driving past the place where we're going gives me the willies ... ive only been inside of it one other time and that was in the middle of the day ... it wasnt bad when i could see where i was going, but its gonne be dark friday night ... good thing ;) ? or bad thing? dont know, guess we'll find out ... k im done ... later
5:22 p.m. May 10, 2004 hey just wanted to say i put 2 new pics up ::of me:: they're actually not tiny ... i have to work from 7-10 tonight so if you're reading this and its between 7 and 10 get off you're computer and come see me ;)
9:27 p.m. May 9, 2004 happy moms day ... hope everyone was nice to their mothers today ... i know i was nice to mine. so my weekend was a good one, a relaxing one, i dont get those often so it was pretty cool, thursday when i got there i kinda hung out with amanda for a little bit nothing 2 exciting. friday was a me and my mom day, we went to go get her license renewed lunch at red lobster went to go see mean girls and nothing else really ... friday night i went to the mall with amanda and got a few new things...saturday me and my mom cleaned and grocery shopped ... i kinda got sick saturday evening so i ended up spending the night on the couch watching movies with my mom, sunday me and my mom went to the mall and then i drove home and thats about all ... hope everyone had a nice weekend
9:01 a.m. May 6, 2004 its thursday and im in web trying to avoid showing the class my "website" that im supposed to be making for a teacher, basically i havent done anything really...we have a 3 day weekend this weekend what fun. so last night was an adventure, i worked but i probably did about 10 minutes of actual work ... from about 5-6:15ish i finished my homework and then james and jimmy came in and played pool till around 8 when they left to go to buffalo wild wings and then around 9 they came back with, fat dick (ha i love typing that), drew, and alyssa (who is a really cool girl, last night was the first time i met her) and they were there till 11:30 just playing pool, mini-golf, and bouncy ball wars ... it was a fun night and i made a few new friends ;)this weekend im going to my moms so im probably not going to be updating cuz my stepdad does this thing where he loves tracing all the websites i go to and i really dont want to risk having my mom find this journal ... k im done for now
10:01 p.m. May 4, 2004 i decided that im just gonna make another little link for my random surveys that i fill out or have filled out ...
8:45 p.m. May 2, 2004 so its sunday night, and im bored ... as usual ... my weekend was a pretty good one, didnt do anything exciting really ... friday i went straight to work from school and i was there 5 hrs so when i got off i was kinda tired so i just kinda came home and did nothing ... it was nice ... saturday i woke up around 12:30 michelle came over and we went out to lunch and then came back to my house and she edited my research paper for me ... then we went to pick up eliza cuz she had prom last night and we drove around for a bit, she looked really cute all in pink and black with the cat collar on her ankle ::lol i love you:: and then i dropped her off at james' and they went to prom and me and michelle drove around in the rain for awhile ... rented a movie ... watched it ... and that was pretty much it ... today i woke up went to work for 5 hours got off ... got my nails filled in ... and came home ... nothing exciting but oh well ... this weekend we have a 3 day weekend and im going to my moms since it is mothers day and i havent been up there for a weekend in who knows how long and the last time i saw my mom was easter and i miss her :( ... k im done later
9:28 p.m. April 30, 2004 ok im in web and i was just informed that i never update this so thats what im doing right now ... so what have i been up to the past 2 days, not a lot ... wednesday i went over to cats and we went to these "basketball" games at school around 5ish and watched cats bf and all his friends play, it was entertaining, then i went with lisa to mcdonalds where all the guys were and sat there for little bit and then we just drove around newburgh with the music up rather loud, it was fun ... then i found erica at barnes and noble, kidnapped her and we drove around till around 9. then i went home told my dad i had 2 papers that were due friday ::today:: that i havent started on and that there was no way i was going to school tomorrow so he said he'd call in for me ... so i finished my history paper wednesday night and went to bed around 1 slept till noon, walked into school to get my research manual, walked out, went to barnes and noble, came home typed up my paper, discovered i was half a page short, went back to barnes and noble and erica popped up after i had been there about a 1/2 hour or so ... the highlight of my night yesterday ... watching some guy fall up the escaltor ... i laughed for awhile, it was awesome. so then i went home finished my paper, finished watching the great gatsby and yea, that was about it ... now its friday and i hope i get to have some fun this weekend ;)
9:14 p.m. April 28, 2004 im in web right now, bored with nothing to do...i could be studying for my german test next period but im not ... oh well ... so yesterday afternoon wasnt a very good one at all, my brother ::james:: was supposed to be leaving for some trucking school and my dad had given him almost 400 dollars to go to this thing and he goes out with a friend and gets his wallet stolen or lost or whatever ... and someone charges over 600 dollars worth of stuff on his visa at wal-mart. so lets just say my dad wasnt very happy because this is not the first time hes done something irrespoinsible and immature. my dad let him have it, bad, i dont think ive heard my dad yell that much for a long time, it wasnt very good. james always has this way of putting our whole house in a bad mood...so i had to get out of the house, i left around 5 and didnt have anywhere to go till 7 when i had to be at work. i went to barnes and noble just to do something and erica was there so i sat with her and kinda worked on my homework. it wasnt a very good day yesterday...
10:06 p.m. April 26, 2004 oh what now, i finally got pictures up on here, click my profile if you wanna see em! my monday was boring, i slept in through the reading period and the day kinda went by pretty normal then i hung out with michelle and we went to the state hospital to feed the ducks and we saw this mommy duck and 10 little ducklings ... it had to be the cutest thing ive ever seen :) well i dont have much to say just wanted to post about the pictures cuz im proud of myself about those!
10:05 p.m. April 25, 2004 wow, im pretty much in heaven right now ... im eating strawberries and they're so good :) i just got outta the shower and its sunday night and being i slept till 1 today im not at all tired...hmph. so overall my weekend was really good...went to 2 awesome shows, calibretto on thursday and they were so awesome! and saturday i went to the sloppy seconds show and that was just a lot of fun, so many people were there and it was just a fun show. friday i saw the best movie ::13 going on 30:: i had been counting down the days till it came out and i was so excited about it and it did not let me down at all...it was very good :) and today like i said i slept till 1 and then i met michelle for lunch and then i went to work at 4 and now im home tryin to make myself tired...
2:43 p.m. April 23, 2004 hey hey, whats new with everyone? not a lot here, im off school today for a snow make-up day and im waiting for cat to get done getting ready so we can find something to do...i just kinda felt like updating even though i really have nothing to say. i have 2 big papers due on friday a huge research paper and a weekly question for my history class so my upcoming week is gonna be packed with paper writing which makes me sad. so...im not sure and its kinda weird, but i think i have a "crush" on someone...i dont think ive had this kinda crush (you know the kind where you kinda get happy thinking about them and you cant wait till you walk into that class that you have with them) since freshman year...and its odd...i guess i thought i was done with crushes, guess i was wrong ;) oh well...it'll pass...k im gonna go finish getting ready...
10:07 p.m. April 20, 2004 hey :) ... hows it goin ... i just got outta the bath tub and im feeling really good. i had a good day...school was school and work was cool. i got there talked to cat for about 20 minutes and then michelle showed up and we sat outside for awhile, played some pool, and hit golf balls as hard as we could to see where they'd go and what they'd hit...got off work...came home...went to the library...went to schnucks got stuff to make puppy chow and me and michelle came home and made puppy chow...she poured the whole bag of powder sugar in with it and yea, that was some of the sugariest puppy chow i ever had, but still good. im off school friday and i dont have to work so i think im gonna go see 13 going on 30, im excited to see that, it looks cute. well i think im gonna go curl up in bed and watch roseanne...cya!
8:38 p.m. April 18, 2004 ah, i hate sundays, they're always so boring. my weekend was a fun one. friday night me and cat and michelle all hung out and had quite a good time. first we went to the springfest at USI and there really wasnt much to it but we rode the gravitron twice in a row, and man was that fun. besides the fact i felt a little sick after it. then we went to coconuts for a bit and then back to my house. we were looking at some globe tabloid and we saw a pic of roseanne and cat said something about the yellow house they show the pictures of being in evansville over by memorial so we went to go find it...and we did. it was so awesome. i know im weird. but roseanne is one of the coolest shows and we saw her house! then we drove around the TB hospital and since we were all the way out there again we decided to go back to the springfest and ride the gravitron one more time. saturday i got up and went to my friends baby shower, it was fun, nothing real thrilling tho. then i came home for a bit and went to go get eliza so we could go to the show together. the show was fucking awesome, probably the best show ive been to in awhile, there wasnt a band i watched that i did not enjoy. great time. and sunday i went to work and got my pics developed and some of em came out mildly entertaining...thats all ive got for now...later!
9:05 p.m. April 12, 2004 ok well i got it to work, and im thinkin the colors look pretty good...so i would have lived if my life did depend on it,yay. so my weekend was a pretty good one very busy. friday i already wrote about my morning and my plans for the night which is basically what happened. saturday was work till 3 and i got to the mesker show around 5ish it was a very good show and a whole lot of fun! i dont know if it was better than last years, cuz i remember last years as being a blast, but this one was up there 2, besides the fact it was a little cold and a little wet everything went ok...and at some point in the night i even went on a little adventure, it was fun ;) . my mom gave me some money for summer clothes so i need to go spend that whenever i have a chance. i got my nails filled in tonight ... and i was lighting my candles in my room, and my thumb nail kinda burst into a little flame and blackened the tip of it...oh well. thats about all i have for now...but right now i need to go take a bath and get into my pjs...
8:38 p.m. April 12, 2004 I can not get this thing to work if my life depended on it...
9:30 a.m April 9, 2004 Whats goin on? Nothing really here...im in web design and alissa is painting her nails next to me and im listenin to my hoobastank cd and not really doing anything...my day would really suck without this class. so my day was/is quite a full one...i got up at 6 picked whitt up at 6:30 and we went to krispy kreme to pick up 6 dozen donuts for my first period class...it was interesting. it was the first time i went into our new krispy kreme and i stood and watched the little machines that made donuts for about5 minutes, it was pretty cool...so now im at school...and then i have to go straight to work and work till 7, then i have to come home, walk across the street and babysit till 10:30, and i think maybe after that me and eliza might be hanging out...busy friday. so tomorrow is the mesker show and im pretty excited about it. last years was a lot of fun and this one is 3 times longer so it should be just as fun if not more fun. today is the last day of this grading period for me...only one more left. then summer. cant wait. sunday im goin to my moms for the day with my grandpa for easter...what fun...alright im done! later
9:46 p.m. April 5, 2004 Hey hey...im at home just got done printin up some pics for a project and now i should probably working on that project but im not. so i had a eventful monday evening sorta...me and eliza hung out for a little bit, and i went to wal-mart with lauren...and then i came home and my dad said he lost his cell phone so we went over to ace hardware to look for it, it was nice to have the drive with my dad, we didnt find the phone tho...but i went out back to look for it cuz they had been removing a stump and i was calling it and i heard it so it took me like 5 minutes of staring at the piles of stump dust trying to figure out which one was ringing to look up and see that the phone was hanging on the fence...yea, at least i found it. so now im bored and im outta things to say, i have to work tomorrow...so thats where ill be till 10...but im done for now...later
9:40 a.m. April 2, 2004 I got pulled over last night, again, argh, oh well, after three speeding tickets now i get my warning, how much sense does that make? but the sherif was really cool and he didn't run my record cuz he thought it would be my first speeding ticket cuz he said he remembered how scared he was for his first and so yea, he didnt see the three other ones i had. eliza was with me and im thinking shes my good luck charm cuz i probably would have gotten a ticket because this was the worst yet...83 in a 50, he asked me how fast i thought i was going and i told him probably about 80 so that helped cuz he said he liked people who were honest with him....yea, so that was my april fools day...oh well, im done for now, bells gonna ring!
9:45 p.m. March 29, 2004 I know i just updated yesterday, and i dont really have a lot to say but i was reading my last entry and i realized i forgot to talk about my saturday near death experience...so me and eliza went with her dad to his partners farm and we spent most of the day there riding 4-wheelers...it was a lot of fun, so much fun actually, we got incredibly dirty and muddy but it felt great. so there was this one time when her and i were off on this little trail and im following her and i watch her bounce over this creek, and it looks pretty odd and i got this really bad feeling i wasnt gonna do to good on this jump...turns out i was right. so when im trying to make it up the little hill after the creek i turn towards a tree...run into it...and then flip the 4-wheeler, all this time im still holding on to it. i finally let go and land flat on my back ::and my ass:: and the 4-wheeler kinda hits my legs and bounces right side up in the creek. i laid on the ground ::in the mud:: for about 2 seconds and jumped right up and kinda stood there dazed and confused...eliza was pretty scared, she said it looked really bad and she thought i was gonna die or be really hurt, but it turns out besides a sore butt the worst injury i had was a little cut on my finger. im pretty lucky i think. well i just wanted to get that out cuz i thought it was interesting and amusing. today back to school wasnt bad, kinda boring, but thats school for you. me and michelle hung out tonight and i spent a lot of my money...what fun. tomorrow i found out i have to baby-sit at 6:45 so me and eliza are meeting at my work tomorrow right after school so we can go job hunting for her and then im gonna have to head home and babysit, which is a good thing cuz i actually like the little girl im babysitting, so its kinda like getting paid to just hang out. alright im done for now...later taters.
10:52 p.m. March 28, 2004 back to school tomorrow, but spring break was fun, and im glad i got the break, but ya know im glad to go back and just get this year done with. so some pretty stupid shit has happened in the last 24 hours, and i am really quite confused by all of this...and upset, and just blown away...people will do things that will shock you, thats for sure. i worked today at 12 and got off at 5 and met the family on the west side for my stepbrothers birthday dinner, it was good...came home and cleaned my room, which was in desperate need of it, it was horrible, and it feels good to have it clean, im proud of myself. i dont have to work till wednesday so me and michelle are hangin out tomorrow i think, and then on tuesday me and eliza are gonna go through our rooms and see if we can find things to sell in her garage sale...should be fun. k gonna go to bed so i can be up for school in the morning!
12:56 a.m. March 26, 2004 Yo, whats up? im at home...bored...tryin not to fall asleep. Had a pretty fun night with eliza...we saw confessions of a teenage drama queen ::it was a pretty horrible movie, but we still had fun:: and we drove around and acted stupid for a little bit...it was fun...good times...so i have to work again tomorrow... friday, saturday, sunday, monday, wednesday, thursday, friday, sunday... that was/is my spring break schedule, what fun. i got my tax check back, and ive already spent it...yea, i really need to learn how to use my savings account! gr. its weird, there seems to be a lot of drama going on in my life right now, not really having anything directly to do with me but im involved in all of it...its been an interesting past week or so, but ya know, things will play out, and hopefully go back to normal or at least back to what they were! have you ever shattered a fake nail? well yea it hurts... i did that the other day ::an air hockey puck hit it at full speed:: and its still hurting cuz i got about 252893 blood blisters underneath my actual nail so i cant apply pressure on that finger! alright well im done for now...i suppose...
11:13 p.m. March 22, 2004 Wow, its been over a month, sorry guys! I honestly havent been online that much at all and just haven't felt like updating. Don't be to disappointed in me...not a lot is really new in my life, same as always. im on spring break right now, yep, good times, i love not having to go to school, i cant wait till summer! I started my new mini golf job and its quite a cool job, i love it! It's pretty easy and i get to do whatever i want pretty much cuz im always there by myself! so my life has been pretty normal, nothing really to interesting has happened...well ok thats a lie, some pretty interesting things have happened to me but i dont know if i care to share them with everyone...theres been a lot of drama goin on in a few of my friends life that has been really not needed and its been really retarded...i just wish some people would mind their own business and unless it directly concerns them that they would stay out of it! blah, stupid shit. i got friday and saturday off so i think im gonna head to my moms after work on thursday cuz i havent been there for awhile...eliza might come with me and she might not, we'll see what happens. well thats all i have for you now...ill update again later!
10:31 p.m. February 19, 2004 alright....i just got a incredibly horrible pick up line tried on me...im driving home and im stopped by the duck inn waiting to turn left on to the street and this guy taps on my passenger side window and i roll it down and he says "hey this guy has a problem" i look at the guy who is driving an expedition with about 4 other guys and this guy goes "my problem is i just got here and you're leaving" so i told him something like his problem is that hes hitting on a 17 year old and then he proceeded to invite me out to icecream and then told me to stay in school and be true to my mom...it was highly entertaining. so today i get home from school and i leave again to meet erica and then i end up not getting home till a little after 10, i came home so i could eat study shower and sleep...so far ive done one of those....eat....i decidied im not gonna study cuz i never do so why start now, and im about to go shower and then ill go to sleep. tomorrows friday im so excited...its gonna be another pretty day and me and erica are gonna wash our cars...yay...mine is so dirty its quite nasty...but tomorrow im gonna make sure its really clean, inside and out...alright gonna go take my shower....later
9:33 a.m. February 17, 2004 so yea, it was 6 days since i last updated, i guess im slipping...so i started my new job and im thinking about just not going to work the last 3 days i work at kids world, cuz i hate that place and it would be pointless to go, so im not gonna. i had a rather good weekend, friday night i got to hang out with lauren who i havent got to see in awhile and then we spent the night at ericas so it was a fun girls night only thing, and on valentines day my stepdad came and got me and i went to louisville to stay at my moms saturday night, it was as good as a vday one can have without a valentine. sunday i came home went to lunch at biaggis with my mom and then i hunted erica down and she was at the house so i went over there for a bit and then i came home...this week we get report cards and i should be getting another 4.0 ::third one this year:: yay, im happy...alright well im in web class and the bell is about to ring and i get to head to german ::fun class:: ... i have to go pay my speeding ticket today after school, what fun, im gonna be broke for a while i suppose...oh well, life goes on...ttyl!
9:04 a.m. February 11, 2004 wow, long time no update, sry about that, but im sure all the 2 people that read this will understand...so yea i had a pretty bad last saturday...i came home from school friday night and found out my kitty ::rocky:: had stopped eating cuz he had a tumor in his mouth and it was at the point where it stopped him from eating, so we decided that we didnt wanna see him suffer and watching him stare at his food and water and not be able to touch it was one of the saddest things i have ever seen, so on saturday morning we had to take him to the vet and had him put to sleep...it was really bad, i held him while they gave him the shot and he just stared at me...it was one of the worst things ive ever had to do in my life, rocky was with me for almost 10 years...i miss him so much, anyone whos ever had a pet they were that close to knows what im saying...well anyways on to a subject change, its wednesday morning and im not at school yet cuz we have a PBA day and we don't have to be there till 10 so im sittin at the house just tryin to kill sometime cuz i stayed the night here last night...yea, fun times, this weekend is valentines day, ick, im going to my moms cuz i have the weekend off and i havent been up there since the beginning of jan and i miss her! the grading period is over in 3 days and i dont really know how my grades are looking, thats not a good thing, i wanted to keep the straigh A thing going but thats not looking to good this time...oh well, ill get em back up somehow...alright i gotta go...i wont take 6 days to update next time!
7:07 p.m. February 5, 2004 wow, another pointless snowday, a 2 hour delay would have worked fine, because the roads definately were not bad at all and now we're gonna have to make this day up,...i was out all day on the roads pretty much. around 11 i went with michelle to her eye exam and helped her pick out some pretty cute frames and shes happy cuz now shes gonna be able to see finally! then i went home and went back out and met erica at target and we picked up some things there and then we went to the mall and i got a sticker that says .. i <3 cats ...cuz i do... then we went over to where we always are "the house", and hung out there and watched monty python and the holy grail, i love that movie. erica had to leave to go to work around 5:30 but i stayed till it was over and then i came home cuz i am really tired for some reason. i havent even done anything all day and i slept till 10...k im gonna go nothing more to say....
10:52 p.m. February 3, 2004 well scratch that, this wont be my first "full week" of school, i was up kinda late last night so i woke up at my normal time and knew there was no way i was getting outta bed so i called my dad and told him i was sleeping in and he called the school and i slept through first and second period...oh well. i had to work tonight and it was a pretty long 6 hours, like always. whoa its tuesday and im already in need of the weekend...i live my life waiting for the weekend ... i freakin cant wait till this school year is over ... gosh! so ive been doin a lotta thinkin lately and there has been a lot on my mind, i try not to get to deep into my thoughts on this journal thing and just keep it basic ... but oh well ... so yea, these past couple months have probably been some of the best cuz ive been havin a lot of fun and actually been living my life but i feel like im becoming a totally different person. i dont know if its a good or a bad thing yet...i really dont know where im going with this so ill just shut up ... later ...
9:27 p.m. February 1, 2004 hey hey merry February... i just got home from “the house” as erica liked to call it in her guesbook signature, we had to run over there cuz i lost my ring last night and i had to go see if it was there, and it was ::wink wink:: but then we ended up staying for a little bit and watching em clean and duct taping their floor, fun times...so the superbowls over and NE won...woop woop! this week has been a little bit better than the previous one, maybe cuz i only had one full day of school, the others were 2 hour delays and one we just missed...but this week is gonna hit me hard cuz its gonna be my first full week of school since the semester started i believe. my weekend was alright ... friday night i worked and went out with a friend for a little bit, nothing to exciting...slept till 2 on saturday and just hung out in my pjs for awhile then erica came over and we went to the gang stars show and yea, that was a bad time for erica ::sry dear:: but the show was fun, the first band, walk dont run..it was the first time i have heard them and they were really cool! so after the show we headed to “the house” and did our usual saturday night thing. so sunday morning erica left me a little after 10 and i left right at 11 cuz i had to shower and meet my mom for lunch with my grandpa for his bday...and then me and my mom went to kohls and spent the day together sorta...it was fun...then people started coming over to my house and the superbowl, yet another year had begun, my yard turned into a parking lot! so erica got here and there were way 2 many people here so we just left and thats how we ended up where i started this entry...so yea, right now im burning a couple cds for us that we kinda took, but we’ll give em back tomorrow! and im gonna go see if i can help clean up or maybe just fall asleep cuz im runnin off about 3 hours sleep and maybe a 1/2 hour nap in the middle of the day...so hope everyone had a HAPPY SUPERBOWL...later taters....
9:43 p.m. January 27, 2004 ok so yea, i love erica, we always have so much fun...ha, tonight we went out just cuz we were bored and we drove around for awhile we went to barnes and noble and made the guy at the registers night when erica bought this very amusing book ;) ... we didn't really do much besides drive around and eat at steak and shake. we had a 2 hour delay while all the other schools around had a snow day, oh well, they'll have to make it up, we won't! yesterday we did have a snow day, and the roads werent even that bad so once again me and erica went out with nothing to do in mind and ended up at the mall and i bought some new undies and buttons from hot topic and a scarf and a jacket from wet seal...im spending way 2 much money, and i still have a speeding ticket i have to pay for, ick! yesterday was also my dads bday and we went out to eat at this new chinese food buffet and im so happy that they have a mongolian grill!! no other place around here does and i love those!! yay, i take pleasures from the simple things in life. i have to work wednesday and friday but i have saturday and sunday off which is quite cool considering its superbowl sunday! yay!!! i like watching the commercials, my moms comin into town tho and we’re gonna go out for my grandpas birthday and im not sure what her other plans are yet. k ... thats all!
11:10 p.m. January 25, 2004 ::yawn:: im tired, but i was sleeping for a bit and then i woke up and couldn't go back to sleep so now im online and figured id update..yay..so my weekend was pretty good, better than my week at least. friday night i wasnt really in the mood to do anything after i got home from school so i decided to have a "me night" i went to go get my nails done, spent some money at target, came home, ate some carry-out, read my book, and took a long bath...it felt really good, i needed that. saturday i was up at 8 cuz i had to be at work for a meeting and then i worked till around 4 and then i got home and showered and hung out with a couple friends. Erica came over after she got off work and me and her went to go see The Butterfly Effect, which was a really good movie, it was kinda depressing tho. we went out and drove around for awhile after that and then we ended up where we usually do, and then in the morning she found me woke me up, and we left, but we were outside for about a half hour using an ice scraper and pretty much a whole can of d-icer on her car, it was a giant ice cube! all cars were like that tho, it was one cold night, and it still is. because of all the ice i dont have school tomorrow and we closed early at work so i only had to work for 2 hours which is nice considering the lack of sleep i got saturday night, and thats about it...cya
9:49 p.m. January 22, 2004 ok i cant handle it im spinning out of control here, this week has been so stressful for some reason! AHH, so work tonight was great we werent busy at all, so we had everything done that needed to be done by 8 and the last hour we just hung out and played games still on the clock, i really like this job. but then i get home and i can not get my car key outta my ignition its in park and everything is normal it just wont come out so im pissed about that, and i have homework that im obviously not doing and i dunno, i just feel like crap! i really wish it was friday at 2:45 ... later
4:52 p.m. January 20, 2004 phew, chuck e cheese can wear you out, me and whitt were there for her sis's bday after school and we most def had a lotta fun. we hung out in the ball pit for like an hour and we met this cool little girl named faith, she was awesome! Do you know that arcade game the one where u sit on this jet ski thing and its supposed to feel like ur on an actual jet ski, well that is not made for 2 teenage girls...whitt fell off of it while trying to hold on to me and kinda took me with her except she managed to fall all the way to the ground, and i got back up, it was pretty funny. so now im just sittin here waitin for erica, and catching my breath...
11:45 a.m. January 18, 2004 hey there, i just woke up not 2 long ago and now im just hangin out and putting off when i have to go shower. so far this weekend has been pretty good, but even tho its sunday doesnt mean its over yet, im so thrilled i dont have to go to school tomorrow! yay. and only a half day on tuesday, what fun. i discovered this little survey thing u can make for people to take from a friends info, so the links underneath my guestbook, click it and fill it out for me! please! thanx! im gonna go now! later
10:24 p.m. January 14, 2004 ok so i just got back from 1123 and the show was incredible, whew, i loved it, i had to go right after i got off work tho so i still had my work shirt on...Other than the show tonight there really has been nothing good about this week at all. So on monday morning on my way to school i got my 3rd speeding ticket, yes thats right no typo there, 3RD speeding ticket. Monday night i met mary, charlotte, and erin at barnes and nobles to study for our lit test and then came home and ended up talking to someone till after 2 so i didnt get enough sleep. I woke up tuesday morning out of it and sick. I ended up going home during 6th period and passed out around 2, i woke up every now and then to take some meds, or throw up green stomach acid, overall i slept for about 16 hours...it felt really good actually. And all day today at school and at work i definately felt like my head was in a cloud, i hate being sick! This weekend needs to hurry up and get here because i really need this 3 day weekend...and i need to have a lot of fun! wow, im tired and im going to bed! night.
10:01 p.m. January 11, 2004 Hello! I had a pretty fun weekend...i worked friday night but we still werent open so we all got off by 7 and then i went home and kinda passed out cuz i was exhausted from this whole full week back to school :( Saturday I got up and went out to lunch with some friends from school, went home and went back to sleep till almost 7. I woke up and went to the rev cuz steves band was playing and i just wanted to see him and say hey. then i went out with erica for the night, woke up today, went home, showered, and went to work and got off there around 9. We're finally open and its actually a really cool job, i dont see us ever getting incredibly busy so most of the time we're just sittin around gettin paid, its great. But yea, i have to go back to school tomorrow, but next weekend is a 3 day weekend, yea! k...goodnite!
9:51 p.m. January 7, 2004 My family is the Brady Bunch on crack ... and apparently i only sleep here because no one tells me anything anymore. So me ::youngest girl:: and michelle ::the maid:: are sittin watchin tv and donna ::the stepmom:: comes in and starts telling me i can park behind jenny again and i ask where james and jeremy are going to be, so first we're talking about james ::oldest son #1:: And I ask who that girl was he brought home yesterday, and she looks at me with these big eyes and goes "you dont know" , well obviously i dont because you know i dont live in this house or anything, so this girl is james' online girlfriend who is now pregnant, wow, and i forgot to mention james still has a wife, but hes living with the online girlfriend (didnt catch her name). That was incident number one...number 2...so after we're done talking about that we move to jeremy ::youngest brother:: who is married to tabby ::we'll just call her oldest sister:: but jeremy had moved back home because they had a few fights BUT tonight i find out the true story, shes screwing his best friend ::or was:: but now jeremy has moved back in with her and they are living together, oh and also with her 4 year old daughter. That takes care of 4 of the brady bunch on crack kids, the other 2 are john ::oldest brother #2:: and jenny ::middle sister:: and my dad ::the stepdad::, they're suprisingly pretty average, well as average as my family can get... But that was my breaking family news for the night, which i thought overall was quite humerous. goodnite
9:49 p.m. January 6, 2004 Hey there. I just got done with all my english homework...i felt like i rewrote the whole index in the back of my lit book! Today was an okay day I guess, my phone was late today, so i was mad cuz i didnt think i was gonna get it, but it came and i got it and its cool! Yay. I went to work tonight just to end up walking around and eating pizza cuz we're still not opened. I have to work tomorrow for 6 hours, hope i dont have any homework..ick..The place on the inside does not even look like its ready to open! I mean there are nail guns on the floor, booths and chairs are not put together, i doubt we'll be opening tomorrow. Talent shows on thursday, i dont know whos in it but i think im going. Me and Sara went to the mall last night...in both the victorias secret stores i spent total of over 100 bucks, it was fun! I had to get shoes and pants for work and i found a cute pair of 50 dollar nikes for 16 dollars! I love shopping, ha. I spent all my gift cards ::almost:: ... k i need sleep, im super tired!
9:37 a.m. January 5, 2004 back to school ... ick ... i overslept almost an hour this morning so i had to speed out of the house, still made it to school on time tho. I'm back in web page, semester outline for this one, sounds exactly like the last one...oh well, more time to update this :) because i get what i need to get done and still have time to kill in this class. This weekend was fun the show on saturday was pretty cool, really fun tho... I have to start my new job tonight, only training tho, im excited to be done with willow park, not enough hours or money! well thats all for now, bells gonna ring and then i get to go to german, yay...later
10:25 a.m. January 3, 2004 Sometimes I hate my brother, its 10:25 and john woke me up 20 minutes ago by banging on my door and asking me to take him to work, so of course i said no...but he didnt quit he gave me the whole "im gonna be late and im gonna get in a lot of trouble...why wont you take me?" so i screamed ::im very grouchy when you wake me up in a bad way:: at him "because im sleeping" but he still didnt quit, and i figured now that hes made me scream, im up, and im not gonna go back to sleep, so i got up and took him to work...sometimes im to nice. I definately fell asleep after 3 so im probably gonna sleep good tonight. I'm still at my moms but i should be leaving here around noon or 1 to head home...tonights the show im going to, i really only wanna see good luck summer so i might not be there to long, unless they're playing last. ok im gonna go...moms home and needs help with the groceries...later!
10:13 p.m. January 1, 2004 HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Hope everyone had a great one, mine was an interesting one to say the least. I spent the night with cat at her boyfriends house and there were about 10 or so other people there ... a lot of fun, you know the usual things that happen at new years eve party happened...and some other unusual things. Now im at my moms cuz i told her id spend till saturday with her. Saturday i gotta head home tho cuz im goin to the rev to see good luck summer. ok im not really in the mood to write ... so im leaving
12:07 a.m. December 30, 2003 WoW, tonight was scarey. Me and erica decided to drive around downtown evansville so we were all the way at the end of 1st ave. and somehow we ended up in 3 towns i have never heard of ::anderson, st. wendels, johnson:: and 3 towns i have heard of ::poseyville, cynthina, and owensville:: WE WERE SO LOST...It was kinda spooky considering we were all alone on these dead silent empty roads and some of the houses looked like they walked right off of texas chainsaw masacres set or something. Before that we had spent a couple hours at the mall and i bought a new pair of shoes and a new pair of jeans. I SAW GYRESS! I haven't seen him since quizno's and he ran into us tonight...it was so awesome to see him again, i missed him...he informed me and erica that he had a baby boy named miles and wants us to come see him sometime, so we exchanged numbers and that was that. So to say the least after a long day, im glad to be home (esp. after being lost for almost 2 hours) and i dont have to work (unless they call) until sunday...gonna go now cuz im out of things to say!
10:42 a.m. December 29, 2003 ah, im exhausted, i woke up at 7:30 this morning cuz i had to work the breakfast shift at work, and now im waiting till noon when i have to go back in and work the lunch shift. hopefully tho i wont have to work anymore this week besides sunday. Last night was fun, me and erica just went random places and didnt really do much. I had some time to kill so i changed my profile around a little bit. Saturday night i did end up going to the show, but not with cat (cuz she was really sick with the flu) but michelle came with me, it was pretty fun... today i dont know what my plans are but im pretty sure ill find something to do! and in 2 days is new years eve...arent you excited? i am! k gtg...
3:59 p.m. December 27, 2003 Hello, im home finally...i got home a little after one and my dad and me put my cd player in my car...it suprisingly wasnt that hard, just not something i would wanna do again. My poor dad has to do 2 more ::my brothers and my stepsisters:: So tonight is The Gang Stars show, i dunno if i wanna go, cats sick, so if she doesnt go then i dont think im gonna go, i havent got to see her all break really so i thought this may have been a night for us, but she may be to sick. If she goes tho, that'll be cool cuz i really wanna see someone whos gonna be there ;) So these simon visa gift cards ARE SHIT, never ever buy one...you charge it, and then the charge gets cancelled so where should the money go? back on the card, right? well it does it just takes UP TO SEVEN DAYS for it to show up, it took not even seven seconds for them to take the money away, but they are in no hurry to give it back! Grrr, that annoys me! I got a new cell phone off ebay, with my gift card and other random christmas money it was basically just a late christmas present, its pretty cool, it'll be a few steps up from my current one. I'm pretty sure im gonna get a digital camrea, I was trying to buy one last night but the whole freakin gift card thing screwed me over, oh well, ill just wait SEVEN days. K, im gonna go...familys going to Los Bravos! Yummm :)
9:27 p.m. December 25, 2003 Merry Christmas :) Hope everyone had a nice one, mine was the year of the gift cards i think. Wanna hear what i got...ok, from my dad = a really nice cd player for my car, some emergency road side kit or whatever for my car, new books, and a rather large visa gift card ::just cuz he didnt know what else to buy me:: , i got a gift card from my brother ::for gas:: and one from my stepbrother ::for target:: Around 5 i got to my moms here i got a 50 buck EBAY ::i love ebay:: gift card, a 50 dollar gas gift card, 25 dollar gap gift card, 25 dollar coconut gift card, a santa snow globe, a coach wallet and a coach glasses case, pjs and underwear, books, 50 dollars from my grandpa, a sweater from my stepdads parents, and um...15 dollar visa gift card from work, a vera bradley bag, and 25 dollars from my stepmoms dad, and i think thats about it...it was an alright christmas, im not complaining, and i think thats about all there is to say about what i got! So im gonna go!!
9:09 p.m. December 24, 2003 Happy Christmas Eve ... even tho its never a very good one, same thing every year ... one of these years i will escape. Came back from getting my brother today and, of course, john had none of his christmas shopping done so we went to four different places and bought gift certificates for nine different people. So tomorrows christmas and it doesn't feel like it at all, this year is going by so fast! The years seem to go by faster and faster... I have to leave again tomorrow for my moms where ill be till saturday and then i should be here the rest of the break. Alright, im done! Have a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
5:48 p.m. December 21, 2003 4 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS...aren't you excited? I am! yep, im a dork. Everyone needs something to look forward 2, but im also excited for New Years EVE! YAY, ok so my weekend was pretty good!!! I only work next Sunday morning...and thats all...for this whole week. Wow, I'm gonna be doing a lot of sleeping! Woot Woot. So somehow between now and wednesday i have to get my brother in louisivlle, should be fun. I know everyone one wants a white christmas, but i have to drive to louisville christmas day, and i dont like driving in the snow...so you can hate me...but i dont want a white christmas, unless its the kinda snow that only sticks to trees and yards and not the roads. OK, im in my pajamas still, and i think im gonna go get dressed and find something to do tonight.
8:58 p.m. December 18, 2003 Yo...im in my second period web page class and i just got done taking a final that yea, was really easy cuz i only needed like a 10% on it to keep my A. Now we're watching The Gladiator, never seen it all the way through so I dont wanna start it and not be able to finish it, so im just not paying attention. This weekend should be an okay weekend, no plans set in stone yet but im sure ill find something to do! And plus this weekend is about 2 weeks long so that makes it even better, I love Christmas! So O went to go see LOTR -Return of the King on wednesday, and it was definately one of the best movies i have ever seen. It was the best out of all three of them! Alright im gonna go...!
5:41 p.m. December 16, 2003 HELLO...I thought I'd give this personal website thing a go again. I suppose its mainly going to be a journal with a few little extras, nothing to special, because I'm pretty stupid when it comes to HTML codes and all that stuff! So this week is finals week and then we're off of school for 2 weeks, thank goodness! Last weekend was my "Santa Switch" dance it was alright, ill get pics up as soon as possible...lots of other little things going on with my life, but as of right now im gonna keep it short! ~Later~
9:40 p.m. October 10, 2003 Hey just trying to see if I can get a site going...
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this is odd but a few days ago my stepmom asked me about relationships and what not because someone she worked with asked her if i dated a lot ::im sure they saw my picture and couldn't imagine me not having 34 dates per weekend:: anyways she asked me and we talked about it for awhile and how she thinks i shouldnt be stuck on one guy because of the fact that im leaving soon. but then again what does she know? i agree with her because im leaving, but im not the type of girl who likes to "play the field" currently, i dont know what it is, im just not into those kind of relationships that last 3-7 days. but thinking about it i dont think i could handle a "long distance" relationship when i leave, that would be too difficult for me. i think im just going to play it by ear and let whatever wants to happen, happen.
homeroom today, once again i didnt go, i havent been in almost three months. i was standing out in the hallway talking to erica and some teacher who isnt even a real teacher told us to go back into our classrooms, that annoyed me. we werent doing anything wrong, how dumb. 
so that was a pretty good lunch period.
im sitting here just sippin on my slushie thinking about different things ... in less than four months i will be living in kentucky. im still a little freaked out about this whole thing. todd passed out his bday invites today and they were awesome, im terribly excited for this party, if its anything like the halloween one i simply can't wait. work was pretty good, we didnt have a lot to do and for some reason the time fleeeew by. dont have a lot to say. 16 school days left!
"Well theres a secret I've been perfecting, I swore I wouldn't but you let me. I'm comfortably confused." - tbs
"my brain's repeating-if you've got an impulse let it out, but they never make it past my mouth." - death cab
"What you do on your own time's just fine. My imagination's much worse, I just never want to know." - fall out boy.
"and love is the scene i render when you catch me wide awake. and love is the dream you enter,
though i shake and shake and shake you. and love's the best endeavor" iron&wine
"Sunrise, sunset. You are hopeful and then you regret.The circle never breaks.With each sunrise and sunset there is a change of heart or address. Is there nothing that remains?" bright eyes
*went to prom on saturday, it was a great time -danced the night away. what good memories.
*umm, went to go see little shop of horrors today at usi's play house, not the best musical ever, but it was cute and i had fun .. and plus i wasnt in school.
*took a ride in a hot convertible last night, while listening to a mix of damien rice, hanson, and mxpx.
*spent a lot of time outside recently, i love this weather.
*sat by a window for a good half hour in zoology with lisa, it was like something you would see done at a high school on tv. fun. we took pics
*one month from today is my last day of high school
*im done.
By Arlo Guthrie
This song is called Alice's Restaurant, and it's about Alice, and the
restaurant, but Alice's Restaurant is not the name of the restaurant,
that's just the name of the song, and that's why I called the song Alice's
Restaurant.
You can get anything you want at Alice's Restaurant
You can get anything you want at Alice's Restaurant
Walk right in it's around the back
Just a half a mile from the railroad track
You can get anything you want at Alice's Restaurant
Now it all started two Thanksgivings ago, was on - two years ago on
Thanksgiving, when my friend and I went up to visit Alice at the
restaurant, but Alice doesn't live in the restaurant, she lives in the
church nearby the restaurant, in the bell-tower, with her husband Ray and
Fasha the dog. And livin' in the bell tower like that, they got a lot of
room downstairs where the pews used to be in. Havin' all that room,
seein' as how they took out all the pews, they decided that they didn't
have to take out their garbage for a long time.
We got up there, we found all the garbage in there, and we decided it'd be
a friendly gesture for us to take the garbage down to the city dump. So
we took the half a ton of garbage, put it in the back of a red VW
microbus, took shovels and rakes and implements of destruction and headed
on toward the city dump.
Well we got there and there was a big sign and a chain across across the
dump saying, "Closed on Thanksgiving." And we had never heard of a dump
closed on Thanksgiving before, and with tears in our eyes we drove off
into the sunset looking for another place to put the garbage.
We didn't find one. Until we came to a side road, and off the side of the
side road there was another fifteen foot cliff and at the bottom of the
cliff there was another pile of garbage. And we decided that one big pile
is better than two little piles, and rather than bring that one up we
decided to throw our's down.
That's what we did, and drove back to the church, had a thanksgiving
dinner that couldn't be beat, went to sleep and didn't get up until the
next morning, when we got a phone call from officer Obie. He said, "Kid,
we found your name on an envelope at the bottom of a half a ton of
garbage, and just wanted to know if you had any information about it." And
I said, "Yes, sir, Officer Obie, I cannot tell a lie, I put that envelope
under that garbage."
After speaking to Obie for about fourty-five minutes on the telephone we
finally arrived at the truth of the matter and said that we had to go down
and pick up the garbage, and also had to go down and speak to him at the
police officer's station. So we got in the red VW microbus with the
shovels and rakes and implements of destruction and headed on toward the
police officer's station.
Now friends, there was only one or two things that Obie coulda done at
the police station, and the first was he could have given us a medal for
being so brave and honest on the telephone, which wasn't very likely, and
we didn't expect it, and the other thing was he could have bawled us out
and told us never to be see driving garbage around the vicinity again,
which is what we expected, but when we got to the police officer's station
there was a third possibility that we hadn't even counted upon, and we was
both immediately arrested. Handcuffed. And I said "Obie, I don't think I
can pick up the garbage with these handcuffs on." He said, "Shut up, kid.
Get in the back of the patrol car."
And that's what we did, sat in the back of the patrol car and drove to the
quote Scene of the Crime unquote. I want tell you about the town of
Stockbridge, Massachusets, where this happened here, they got three stop
signs, two police officers, and one police car, but when we got to the
Scene of the Crime there was five police officers and three police cars,
being the biggest crime of the last fifty years, and everybody wanted to
get in the newspaper story about it. And they was using up all kinds of
cop equipment that they had hanging around the police officer's station.
They was taking plaster tire tracks, foot prints, dog smelling prints, and
they took twenty seven eight-by-ten colour glossy photographs with circles
and arrows and a paragraph on the back of each one explaining what each
one was to be used as evidence against us. Took pictures of the approach,
the getaway, the northwest corner the southwest corner and that's not to
mention the aerial photography.
After the ordeal, we went back to the jail. Obie said he was going to put
us in the cell. Said, "Kid, I'm going to put you in the cell, I want your
wallet and your belt." And I said, "Obie, I can understand you wanting my
wallet so I don't have any money to spend in the cell, but what do you
want my belt for?" And he said, "Kid, we don't want any hangings." I
said, "Obie, did you think I was going to hang myself for littering?"
Obie said he was making sure, and friends Obie was, cause he took out the
toilet seat so I couldn't hit myself over the head and drown, and he took
out the toilet paper so I couldn't bend the bars roll out the - roll the
toilet paper out the window, slide down the roll and have an escape. Obie
was making sure, and it was about four or five hours later that Alice
(remember Alice? It's a song about Alice), Alice came by and with a few
nasty words to Obie on the side, bailed us out of jail, and we went back
to the church, had a another thanksgiving dinner that couldn't be beat,
and didn't get up until the next morning, when we all had to go to court.
We walked in, sat down, Obie came in with the twenty seven eight-by-ten
colour glossy pictures with circles and arrows and a paragraph on the back
of each one, sat down. Man came in said, "All rise." We all stood up,
and Obie stood up with the twenty seven eight-by-ten colour glossy
pictures, and the judge walked in sat down with a seeing eye dog, and he
sat down, we sat down. Obie looked at the seeing eye dog, and then at the
twenty seven eight-by-ten colour glossy pictures with circles and arrows
and a paragraph on the back of each one, and looked at the seeing eye dog.
And then at twenty seven eight-by-ten colour glossy pictures with circles
and arrows and a paragraph on the back of each one and began to cry,
'cause Obie came to the realization that it was a typical case of American
blind justice, and there wasn't nothing he could do about it, and the
judge wasn't going to look at the twenty seven eight-by-ten colour glossy
pictures with the circles and arrows and a paragraph on the back of each
one explaining what each one was to be used as evidence against us. And
we was fined $50 and had to pick up the garbage in the snow, but thats not
what I came to tell you about.
Came to talk about the draft.
They got a building down New York City, it's called Whitehall Street,
where you walk in, you get injected, inspected, detected, infected,
neglected and selected. I went down to get my physical examination one
day, and I walked in, I sat down, got good and drunk the night before, so
I looked and felt my best when I went in that morning. `Cause I wanted to
look like the all-American kid from New York City, man I wanted, I wanted
to feel like the all-, I wanted to be the all American kid from New York,
and I walked in, sat down, I was hung down, brung down, hung up, and all
kinds o' mean nasty ugly things. And I waked in and sat down and they gave
me a piece of paper, said, "Kid, see the phsychiatrist, room 604."
And I went up there, I said, "Shrink, I want to kill. I mean, I wanna, I
wanna kill. Kill. I wanna, I wanna see, I wanna see blood and gore and
guts and veins in my teeth. Eat dead burnt bodies. I mean kill, Kill,
KILL, KILL." And I started jumpin up and down yelling, "KILL, KILL," and
he started jumpin up and down with me and we was both jumping up and down
yelling, "KILL, KILL." And the sargent came over, pinned a medal on me,
sent me down the hall, said, "You're our boy."
Didn't feel too good about it.
Proceeded on down the hall gettin more injections, inspections,
detections, neglections and all kinds of stuff that they was doin' to me
at the thing there, and I was there for two hours, three hours, four
hours, I was there for a long time going through all kinds of mean nasty
ugly things and I was just having a tough time there, and they was
inspecting, injecting every single part of me, and they was leaving no
part untouched. Proceeded through, and when I finally came to the see the
last man, I walked in, walked in sat down after a whole big thing there,
and I walked up and said, "What do you want?" He said, "Kid, we only got
one question. Have you ever been arrested?"
And I proceeded to tell him the story of the Alice's Restaurant Massacre,
with full orchestration and five part harmony and stuff like that and all
the phenome... - and he stopped me right there and said, "Kid, did you ever
go to court?"
And I proceeded to tell him the story of the twenty seven eight-by-ten
colour glossy pictures with the circles and arrows and the paragraph on
the back of each one, and he stopped me right there and said, "Kid, I want
you to go and sit down on that bench that says Group W .... NOW kid!!"
And I, I walked over to the, to the bench there, and there is, Group W's
where they put you if you may not be moral enough to join the army after
committing your special crime, and there was all kinds of mean nasty ugly
looking people on the bench there. Mother rapers. Father stabbers. Father
rapers! Father rapers sitting right there on the bench next to me! And
they was mean and nasty and ugly and horrible crime-type guys sitting on the
bench next to me. And the meanest, ugliest, nastiest one, the meanest
father raper of them all, was coming over to me and he was mean 'n' ugly
'n' nasty 'n' horrible and all kind of things and he sat down next to me
and said, "Kid, whad'ya get?" I said, "I didn't get nothing, I had to pay
$50 and pick up the garbage." He said, "What were you arrested for, kid?"
And I said, "Littering." And they all moved away from me on the bench
there, and the hairy eyeball and all kinds of mean nasty things, till I
said, "And creating a nuisance." And they all came back, shook my hand,
and we had a great time on the bench, talkin about crime, mother stabbing,
father raping, all kinds of groovy things that we was talking about on the
bench. And everything was fine, we was smoking cigarettes and all kinds of
things, until the Sargeant came over, had some paper in his hand, held it
up and said.
"Kids, this-piece-of-paper's-got-47-words-37-sentences-58-words-we-wanna-
know-details-of-the-crime-time-of-the-crime-and-any-other-kind-of-thing-
you-gotta-say-pertaining-to-and-about-the-crime-I-want-to-know-arresting-
officer's-name-and-any-other-kind-of-thing-you-gotta-say", and talked for
forty-five minutes and nobody understood a word that he said, but we had
fun filling out the forms and playing with the pencils on the bench there,
and I filled out the massacre with the four part harmony, and wrote it
down there, just like it was, and everything was fine and I put down the
pencil, and I turned over the piece of paper, and there, there on the
other side, in the middle of the other side, away from everything else on
the other side, in parentheses, capital letters, quotated, read the
following words:
("KID, HAVE YOU REHABILITATED YOURSELF?")
I went over to the sargent, said, "Sargeant, you got a lot a damn gall to
ask me if I've rehabilitated myself, I mean, I mean, I mean that just, I'm
sittin' here on the bench, I mean I'm sittin here on the Group W bench
'cause you want to know if I'm moral enough join the army, burn women,
kids, houses and villages after bein' a litterbug." He looked at me and
said, "Kid, we don't like your kind, and we're gonna send you fingerprints
off to Washington."
And friends, somewhere in Washington enshrined in some little folder, is a
study in black and white of my fingerprints. And the only reason I'm
singing you this song now is cause you may know somebody in a similar
situation, or you may be in a similar situation, and if your in a
situation like that there's only one thing you can do and that's walk into
the shrink wherever you are ,just walk in say "Shrink, You can get
anything you want, at Alice's restaurant.". And walk out. You know, if
one person, just one person does it they may think he's really sick and
they won't take him. And if two people, two people do it, in harmony,
they may think they're both faggots and they won't take either of them.
And three people do it, three, can you imagine, three people walking in
singin a bar of Alice's Restaurant and walking out. They may think it's an
organization. And can you, can you imagine fifty people a day,I said
fifty people a day walking in singin a bar of Alice's Restaurant and
walking out. And friends they may thinks it's a movement.
And that's what it is , the Alice's Restaurant Anti-Massacre Movement, and
all you got to do to join is sing it the next time it come's around on the
guitar.
With feeling. So we'll wait for it to come around on the guitar, here and
sing it when it does. Here it comes.
You can get anything you want, at Alice's Restaurant
You can get anything you want, at Alice's Restaurant
Walk right in it's around the back
Just a half a mile from the railroad track
You can get anything you want, at Alice's Restaurant
That was horrible. If you want to end war and stuff you got to sing loud.
I've been singing this song now for twenty five minutes. I could sing it
for another twenty five minutes. I'm not proud... or tired.
So we'll wait till it comes around again, and this time with four part
harmony and feeling.
We're just waitin' for it to come around is what we're doing.
All right now.
You can get anything you want, at Alice's Restaurant
Excepting Alice
You can get anything you want, at Alice's Restaurant
Walk right in it's around the back
Just a half a mile from the railroad track
You can get anything you want, at Alice's Restaurant
Da da da da da da da dum
At Alice's Restaurant
ha, its an alice's restaurant day in web design. what that means is we listen to this song and do absolutely nothing. kind of like a free day accompanied by a song. i understand if you dont want to read all of those lyrics but the song is amusing, you should probably at least download it. ha.
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today is my mothers birthday. ill call her during 4th period to tell her happy birthday, i hope she got my card.
yesterday i went to the tennis match to see steffi which was a good match, but i was freezing out there. southern indiana weather just confuses me. one day its 70 degress ... the next its 45. i dont get it. after that i went to mcdonalds with todd and then to the variety show at our school - which was a good time. then to sonic and steak and shake after it .. neither of which places i bought anything, just went to see some friends. thats about it for now
so my sociology and econ teacher, mrs. lene, gave us some pretty bad news today. she is retiring after 34 years of teaching at castle, quite sad. i really love her, i get to start my day with her and end my day, it doesn't get much better than that. she said she would stick around for her homeromm and they're seniors this year so she's really going. crazy, she doesn't seem old enough to be retiring to me. work was a drag tonight ... tuesdays are always really long but tonight they were even longer because we had a new guy doing all the stocking and since he had no idea what he was realllly doing ::other than putting things where we told him 2:: it took us a little bit longer than it should have. i watched the office tonight on nbc because sara told me to and i dont really know how i feel about it. i enjoyed it but it wasnt making me cry from laughing or anything like that. it has a unique sense of humor. even though i enjoyed and im sure other people did as well, i cant see it making it past one season. too different for prime time tv. i need to get some real sleep.
lauren asked me a question tonight she said "do you like ::name removed for my privacy::" and i said no. but after the question came up, now im thinking ... do i like him?
wow, i just found my page stats. for my site ::the homepage:: and it has been viewed 3146 times, thats a lot... and apparently the most in one month was 450 in june 2004 .. and apparently the "Top search word used to find this page" was 99.12% typed "willow park texas speeding" ... i really dont know if i have texas anywhere in this whole site. i might tho.
*water with no god damn lemon.
*hushpuppies alllll over the floor.
*barbeque chicken pizza.
*laying on the beach in the sun.
*rocket ships on the windows.
*outlet malls.
*all the awesome people on the ‘strip’.
*bass pro shops – outdoor world.
*hardrock café. Rocky and Shaggy.
*black and white photo booth with Erica and pics that came out in a row.
*Johnny rockets.
*seeing mrs. Arnold ::the sr. counselor::
that’s about all i think im going to mention, mainly because im bored with typing them. Overall M. Beach was a lot of fun. I got home Friday and showered and all that and then went over to sara’s and hung out there for a little bit with sara, todd, and kyle, that was a fun time, but I went home and slept in my own bed which felt really nice. Saturday I laid around the house for awhile then went back over to sara’s ::her parents were out of town::. We had this idea to cook, a real dinner out of a cookbook. So we did, we purchased the groceries that we needed and made this really good chicken pasta dish. We attempted to make a cake too but I took it out to early and it didn’t get cooked all the way. Oh well. Then another night of just hanging out with Todd and Kyle. The time change really messes me up, I hate it – my phone didn’t change automatically so I got really confused and had to set it myself. But seriously, we lost an hour of our lives last night. Not good at all. Well that’s it for now. I’m going to take a nap.
but i dont know if i should.
Only in the U S A with American Lawyers ...
It's time once again to review the winners of the Annual "Stella Awards."
The Stellas are named after 81 year-old Stella Liebeck who spilled coffee on herself and successfully sued McDonald's (in NM). That case inspired the Stella awards for the most frivolous, ridiculous, successful lawsuits in the United States.
Here are this year's winners:
5th Place (tie):
Kathleen Robertson of Austin, Texas, was awarded $80,000 by a jury of her peers after breaking her ankle tripping over a toddler who was running inside a furniture store. The owners of the store were understandably surprised at the verdict, considering the misbehaving little toddler was Ms. Robertson's son.
5th Place (tie):
19-year-old Carl Truman of Los Angeles won $74,000 and medical expenses when his neighbor ran over his hand with a Honda Accord. Mr. Truman apparently didn't notice there was someone at the wheel of the car when he was trying to steal his neighbor's hubcaps.
5th Place (tie):
Terrence Dickson of Bristol, Pennsylvania, was leaving a house he had just finished robbing by way of the garage. He was not able to get the garage door to go up since the automatic door opener was malfunctioning. He couldn't re-enter the house because the door connecting the house and garage locked when he pulled it shut. The family was on vacation, and Mr. Dickson found himself locked in the garage for eight days. He subsisted on a case of Pepsi he fo! und, and a large bag of dry dog food. He sued the homeowner's insurance claiming the situation caused him undue mental anguish. The jury agreed to the tune of $500,000.
4th Place:
Jerry Williams of Little Rock, Arkansas, was awarded $14,500 and medical expenses after being bitten on the buttocks by his next door neighbor's beagle. The beagle was on a chain in its owner's fenced yard. The award was less than sought because the jury felt the dog mig! ht have been just a little provoked at the time by Mr. Williams who had climbed over the fence into the yard and was shooting it repeatedly with a pellet gun.
3rd Place:
A Philadelphia restaurant was ordered to pay Amber Carson of Lancaster, Pennsylvania, $113,500 after she slipped on a soft drink and broke her coccyx (tailbone). The beverage was on the floor because Ms. Carson had thrown it at her boyfriend 30 seconds earlier during an argument.
2nd Place:
Kara Walton of Claymont, Delaware, successfully sued the owner of a night club in a neighboring city when she fell from the bathroom window to the floor and knocked out her two front teeth. This occurred while Ms.Walton was trying to sneak through the window in the ladies room to avoid paying the $3.50 cover charge. She was awarded $12,000 and dental expenses.
1st Place:
This year's run away winner was Mrs. Merv Grazinski of Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. Mrs. Grazinski purchased a brand new 32-foot Winnebago motor home. On her first trip home, (from an OU football game), having driven onto the freeway, she set the cruise control at 70 mph and calmly left the drivers seat to go into the back & make herself a sandwich. Not surprisingly, the RV left the freeway, crashed and overturned. Mrs.Grazinski sued Winnebago for not advising her in the owner's manual that she couldn't actually do this. The jury awarded her $1,750,000 plus a new motor home. The company actually changed their manuals on the basis of this suit, just in case there were any other complete morons around.
new pics under the random pics of friends link ... including the label maker ones.
on the front - Say No to Imperialism.
Back - 10 Reasons to oppose War in Iraq.
10. The American people have deep misgivings about this war.
9. There are other options.
8. Things may not be better after war.
7. Funding for education, environment and health care is being cut for the "war on terror."
6. Young American men and women will fight and die.
5. Thousands of innocent people may die.
4. Our allies don't support us in this war.
3. A preemptive attack violates the U.N. charter.
2. There is no imminent threat.
1. War with Iraq won't make us safer.
the idea is still up in the air ... interested in one?
wednesday: eye app. after school and my eyes got worse, as they do every year - but i got new glasses, quite a change from my old ones, i like them. me and sara later that evening went to the mall and i spent a lot more money than what i should have on a pair of jeans, oh well - im in love with these jeans. then i came home and watched project runway, i was sad to see austin go and wendy still there, ugh.
thursday: i went across the street to babysit and i caught up on my power rangers. there was this flashback episode on that explained every single power ranger series EVER .. it was awesome, i never knew there were so many. Then after that they played a whole episodes of the show i used to race home after getting off the bus to watch. i also discovered this image game in todds info that took me over 2 hours to get through, but i did it - guess im not as stupid as i thought it was.
and friday wowie .. i went to dinner with sara and lauren at olive garden .. then back to laurens to just hang out. then the night really began when me and sara met todd at the funny bone. i had gotten us tickets earlier to see the raven - this hypnotist. we went, got there, and sat down at our table. i dont know why but when he started talking about how he was going to ask for people to come up, i got this urge to go up there. so when it came time, i got up and went right up there. im not usually that out-going of a girl, but i did it. it was crazy. i got past his little eliminating the people who were faking step and was on that stage for the whole show. i cant really say what felt - it was honestly weird, but there was a point in the show where he tapped my shoulder to try to get me to do something and i came right back to reality ::i was kinda always there just in a daze:: but he told me that everytime he said the word sex i would have an orgasm that would last for 15 solid seconds ... well when we were awake he said the word sex and lenny kravitz "american woman" started playing .. it was odd .. i know this because im watching the tape right now, i bought it because i wanted to see everything i did. its crazy and it was so much fun. im really glad my little fear of embarrassment didnt stop me from going out there. i like the little burst of energy i got from my outgoingness. there was one other thing .. he did this thing that said if you were up there on the stage that after it was over and everytime someone tapped you on the center of your forehead you'd have an orgasm .. needless to say walking out of there i was hit in the forehead by more people than what i would have liked. now im home, not really tired .. but im going to bed.
so i started thinking about something today. i was talking to a couple guys i went to elementary school with, one i "went out with" the other i didnt know that well. i just think its funny how everythings changed so much - we were discussing how when we were "dating" he used to carry my books and that, right there, was the best thing in the whole world. getting close to the end of my senior year i miss elementary school more and more. i know that i cant wait to go to college, but there are so many things about this town i will miss. whether we realize it now, this was the perfect town to grow up in. and i know i took most of my childhood for granted, but it was a good one ::minus the few negatives:: maybe im being really random - ok i am. but i just wanted to reflect. ... queer eyes, over - im going to bed.
quick thing, if anyone can tell me who did "such great heights" first - iron and wine or postal service, i would greatly appreciate that .. just IM me if you know --- PLEASE.
1. You know a traffic jam as 10 cars waiting to pass a tractor on the highway.
2. "Vacation" means going to Kings Island for the week end.
3. You measure distance in hours.
4. You know several people who have hit deer more than once
5. You often switch from! "heat" to "A/C" in the same day.
6. You use a down comforter in the summer.
7. Your grandparents drive @ 65 mph through 13 feet of snow during a blizzard without flinching.
8. You see people wearing hunting clothes at social events.
9. You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.
10. You think of the major food groups as deer meat, beer, fish, and corn.
11. You carry jumper cables in your car and you know how to use them.
12. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over his snowsuit
13. Driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with snow.
14. You think sexy lingerie is tube socks and flannel pajamas.
15. You know all four seasons: almost winter, winter,still winter, and -- construction --
16. It takes you three hours to go to the store for one item even when you're in a rush because you have to stop and talk to everyone you know in town.
17. You actually understand these jokes and forward them to all your friends in Indiana.
BOLD ALL THAT APPLY ... I underlined some that reallly apply
01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with new things.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I love wearing black eyeliner.
07. I love Daiquiris.
08. I love the weekends.
09. I can't live without lipgloss or lip balm.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags (Coach, Burberry, Louis Vuitton).
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I love the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I am a person.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen "She's all That" at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love "Charmed."
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I was smarter.
39. I am the hottest bachelor.
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. No one knows the full story of my life.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls.'
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have had a broken bone.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I love to dance.
60. I love to sing.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I hate when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love playdoh.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things.
73. I don't drink.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I love the Olsen twins.
79. I'm gonna try out for the softball team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Bam Margera is AWESOME.
84. I love the smell of fresh laundry.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. I’ve had my heart broken.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. Above all I despise dishonesty.
95. I can stay on the computer forever.
96. I love powerade.
97. I wish I was more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.
i just wanted to post this picture and tell everyone how much im in love with it ... as todd said "i so love our vibe in the photo" and i totally agree.
i left my house with both of my brothers in the car, got to my moms with only one. hows that you ask? well we stopped at the gas station about 2 miles from my house and james called mom and he said something that pissed her off so she got mad and hung up, so he got mad, said he wasnt going - and walked back to my house. hes so stubborn sometimes.
so im watching the top 40 videos of 2004 on vh1 and they're playing the postal service as background music and im noticing that the postal service seems to be pretty popular for music in the background ::ive noticed it on an mtv show 2, forgot which one tho::
anyways im not really looking forward to my drive tomorrow, i hate the bad roads. hmmph, oh well. i gotta go set up my stepmoms presents from my dad.
I don't miss you, still I will take a car to be with you I don't know you, of course you think you know me I don't want you so why should I compete with other girls? I don't love you, no I think I'll take a long way down from here I think I'll take a long way down I don't love you.
I've seen the silence grow between us. And not to make this sound so hard. But all my troubles and my justice fades on such cold steel
I made up that story to change your mind . I could have been somebody else But now I'm me this time.
hey, i got good news tho, my brother will be coming home for like a day so ill get to see him for christmas .. hes in fort dix in nj, so right after he gets home and goes back, he'll be leaving i think hes leaving around dec. 28th or 29th. , so i wasted all those good-bye tears, and now i just have to do it all again, oh well.
finals are almost over, i have an anatomy one next period and then business law and government tomorrow, then im done. finally
---i wanna go to you. funny how i'm nervous still. i've always been the easy kill, i guess i always will. could it be that everything goes round a chance or only one way that it was always meant to be, i just cant walk away. i can picture your face well...i wish id go to you.... i pick up put down the phone...oh god please don't tell me this has been in vain. i need answers for what all the waiting ive done means. you kill me youve got some nerve but i cant face your mistakes. i know what i should do but i just cant turn away so go on, leave all the still hope for escape. gotta take what ya can these days. i know what you wanna say, i know it but cant help feeling differently. i'm sorry but i cant just go turn off how i feel. you build me up but just to watch me break---
i heart that song.
bloated corpse
sexy lesbian
ellen degeneres
capitalist agenda
socialist manifesto
masculine opression
stoic enthusiam
cherokee tampon
national pledge
ivy league
star fucker
ebola monkey
voodoo economics
island democracy
pregnant mind
aborted soul
captive audience
your funeral, my trial
erotic violence
fireside lies
harajuku stillborn restless shame
todds crazy.
so then erica left and me and todd talked for awhile just about things. hes such a great person to talk things over with, except for a moment when he got up and left and returned with the book He's Just Not That Into You .. ouch todd ;)
im reading this book in english, and its really good. very moving. it kinda always makes me wanna cry - good thing/bad thing?
i have blisters on my heels, ugh .. new shoes. but i kinda had to wear them cuz they were pink, and awesome. i also bought a pair of really cute heels that are just awesome. shoes might be the end of me.
so i have a problem - i sometimes listen to people and believe what they say, without having anything to back it up. what ive been hearing havent been the best of things, and instead of discussing it. i get bitter. i really try not too! but right now i feel one way and i seem to be showing that ... ughhhhh!
about 2 more weeks till im done with school for christmas break, should be a good one .. lets hope.
2 new words i learned from my board game night that i thought id enlighten you with ... Zobo - What you get when you mate a zebra with a yak. also Curupura - A mythical, bald, one-eyed dwarf always seen riding a pig.
really. whats going on here?
my day was alright .. got a 10 on my psych quiz that i didnt study for .. did my math during homeroom .. and everything else fell into place, so really - you dont always have to do your homework at home. so this writer .. garett mathews .. came into my english class today to speak about this article he wrote about the youth nowadays and how its not like it was in the 60's ::obviously:: and all i can say is that he really annoyed me .. he was this really big liberal and you could tell with everything he said and he critizied us ::the youth:: about being money hungry, colorblind, uncaring about the war, lazy, fat, and other things that were huge stereotypes that really just ticked me off.. geez. anyways i gotta go to work now .. but i just wanted to say that
i really cant wait for this week to be over .. gosh. why can't friday just get here already?
Shellstarfish: fing call in
Shellstarfish: seriously
Shellstarfish: you're having car problems
snickerdoodleO46: ha, i could walk there
Shellstarfish: well hey they don't know that
snickerdoodleO46: yes they do
Shellstarfish: you broke your leg too
Shellstarfish: your leg is broken and your car won't start
Shellstarfish: and you got no mommy and daddy to bring you there
me and todd went to go see i <3 huckabees last night and im having some really big mixed emotions about that movie, part of me really liked it, the other part of me didnt like it at all .. hmm .. but it was still fun cuz i was with todd ::and that always equals a good time:: ... also yesterday after school i went with erica to try to get her hair from black back to brown, well obviously if they didnt want to kill her hair there was no easy way to do that so they just highlighted it really heavily and it looks really awesome with all the different colors in it. yep. the polar express starts today, im so excited to see that movie, i loved that book when i was little. i also got my senior sweats today which made me rather happy .. something to lounge around in!! i think thats it for now ..
i think im developing something in my head, but i dont really want 2 .. hmm .. problem
random thoughts so really, what am i doing right now, i dont know, i cant explain whats going through my head, but i cant say that i like it. gosh, you think you know what you want but one night comes and that totally changes .. geez
bush bombed iraq today
i got paid today, and it wasnt a shabby check, i feel like spending some money on something
i should call my mom i havent talked to her really in awhile, i miss her at times .. thanksgiving weekend i will spend with her, john, and gary .. the last time ill see john for a year and a half .. this really sux, it makes me wanna cry everytime i think about it
im tired
so my day was ok i guess. i woke up at about 3 am and puked my stomach acid up. it was gross. parts of it were red so i thought i was puking blood, but later i realized i had had a sonic watermelon slushie earlier in the evening so that was probably it. school was ok, i really felt like crap but i went anyways mainly to take my psych test and my practice AP exam in english. me and lisa discovered the joys of webcams today when i actually got it to work. it was fun. after school i cleaned my room .. it looks vvvvvvvery good, and im really proud of myself. for some reason i love the feeling of coming home and being able to walk into a clean room. todd, sara, michelle, and me all went to cicis for dinner and that was a lot of fun. sara - me and you marengo cave on saturday. then me and michelle headed to barnes and noble so i could pick up something for someone ... and that was my night pretty much. nothing to exciting
my weekend was a fun one i guess...parts of it...friday was alright, started out good dinner with dad and donna and erica .. movie with cat, erica, and steffi .. team america, hilarious .. then home to change for a big halloween party that really wasnt all that fun. it was ok, but there were just way 2 many people there and way 2 much bullshit and drama happening. i left there right after two. saturday slept for most of the day .. went to shylers with michelle and to hobby lobby to get stuff to make mine and ericas tshirts that say "vote kerry" on the front and 2004 on the back .. they turned out quite awesome if i do say so myself. then it was time for me to get dressed yet again for another halloween party. this one was todds. and it was so much fun. i really didnt think that much fun could be had with a fog machine and a bathroom full of people. whoever had the idea of the fog in the bathroom .. props for that. i met some cool new people, and got to spend time with a few people i normally dont, and it wasnt an insane party. just the right kind of awesome fun. and i saw a rainbow around the moon. thats just 2 cool. sunday i worked and that was about it. monday school and work. today - school, work, dad picked me up we went to go vote, and back to work .. me and ashley painted ::or attempted:: the bathroom .. it was an interesting time. thats all ive got for now ..
THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998
Six years ago today, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.
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what a week so far {lets say it started on saturday} .. saturday i got something i really needed and it was well appreciated. sunday i stressed majorly over a paper i had forgotten about. monday i got acccepted to UK. tuesday my dog died. Up, Down, Up, Down .. wonder whats gonna happen next.
i got my wisdom teeth out yesterday .. all 4 .. a lot easier than what i was expecting, i thought i was gonna be in this horrible pain, but not really at all. it hurt a little bit obviously, and i didnt really even take that much pain medication. erica called me a trooper...i am a trooper. i was eatin fried chicken and a cheeseburger last night. yep, i feel no pain ;) but this morning i woke up and im really swollen, i look like a chipmunk, oh well tho, that was to be expected.
even better news i got a job at the pet food center! awesome, i know .. so close to my home, i love it. i had an interview thursday and he called me this morning askin me if i wanted a job ... well of course i did .. so i got one, but theres a downfall ... i need this weekend off ... hope thats not a problem. it shouldnt be .. ive had these plans for awhile, he should understand. well he better at least.
this weekend so far is quite awesome, no school yesterday and michelle hung out with me all day and erica came over for a bit to see me before and after she worked .. cat came to see me 2, i hope shes doing ok, and everyone else too. but michelle should be back over tonight and maybe erica, we'll see. but as for now im done! later
this whole 3-day weekend has been a great one, with its downfalls ... why are some people the way they are?! why cant people just be themselves and open their head a little bit and try to figure out a few things?! just do what you want to do, be yourself, dont let your friends pick the people you should be with ... because then they are not your friends. goodness there are a few people in my head as i write this ... and its weird how they might read this and think its about them ... it most likely isnt about you ... this whole thing really isnt about just one person, im just thinking about a million things that bug me .. not just one person. i wish so much that you can be who you want to be without worrying about what someone will think of you and i wish that you can be yourself without using someone else as an example! i wish that you can accept me for the person i am and not judge me by what i do because it may be different from what you do. i wish that people would stop using who they're voting for in the election as a reason not to like someone. yes im voting for kerry, so maybe you're voting for bush .. this makes us not being able to be friends, why? ok i seriously have so many things going through my head right now, and i guess i really shouldnt be upset by some of these, but i just can't help it
hmm where to begin. guys are always a good thing to ramble on about. guys have been on my mind a lot ... one guy maybe ... maybe two? nah, just one. dont know why really, ok i do, but ya know, i decided awhile ago that im not the one whos gonna be doing the trying, a guy who wants something bad enough will get it, but i dont want to be the one to try, im sick of being the one who tries and then being let down ... not that im not gonna try, i just wont make the first move. im the girl, thats a guys job.
im feeling really vulnerable lately, and i dont like that feeling ... at all ... for some reason, ive all of a sudden feel like i have this empty spot inside that i just need to be filled .. that sounds gay. wow. oh well, its true, i want someone to be with ... like really be with, but then again as everyone knows im a very independent person, i hate being tied to one person, but i feel like i want to be now. oh well, im just being dumb
ever felt like you had something with someone and you thought they liked you 2 but then you just get slapped in the face ... that recently happened to me ... thus being one of the many reasons i dislike the idea of guys ... which equals me being the independent person i am, the girl who thinks she needs no boy in her life, well i know i dont need one, but it'd be nice to have one.
friday night, ritzys, ajs house, light up guy on bicycle, we've got what you crave, available, you got served, home, doug on the phone, party at the house, drunk whittney, barf, no undies, more puke in my bed, maggie trying not to kill herself through this whole ordeal because yes, yet again im sober why whittney is drunk, finally in bed ... wanna know the whole story ... IM me
and just so you know i decided that no matter what happens good or bad this summer im gonna make it a good one ... thats all there is to it ... unless something really bad happens nothing is gonna bring my summer down, nor anyone.
so yea i feel like crap right now...my head hurts really bad and im not sure what else is wrong but im just not feelin good. ive been thinkin a lot today and i think i discovered that im a worrier and i seem to throw little things way outta proportion, one or two things happen and i automatically assume the worst, i wish i wasnt like this cuz this is probably whats causing my headache! ::or its the fact that my brothers home:: i was on the normal computer cuz thats where my pics are saved but i couldnt stand being in the same room with james so i had to escape to my room .. why does he have this affect on me i wonder? so many people do, i feel really bad for having these feelings about him because i guess its not his fault but i just cant stand the fact that he is 24 and has done nothing with his life but live off my dad and i think thats what makes me so upset, he takes advantage of my dad like its nothing, i couldnt imagine being 24 and still living at home and borrowing money from my parents. and now i can hear my stepsister and her boyfriend in her room right next to mine and they're loud and annoying, its like i have no where to go where its just quiet! wanna rescue me?
i want this to be a good summer, i really do, i wanna have fun and really not worry about anything...but so far i cant decide if its gonna be it has been one so far but will it stay that way? ive already lost one of my best friends and im not even sure why, i try to tell myself i dont miss her and i guess i dont really because i have other friends ::who i love very much:: but its just kinda disturbing and a really bad feeling when someone who you considered your best friend just stops talking to you and you don't really even know why, it really sux actually. what did i do? im not sure? ahhhhhhh i hate when i get in these moods i just feel like ranting!
i got a letter in the mail saying the retirement home i used to work for got auditted and it was discovered that they owed me about 115 dollars that they never paid me ... it was a weird place cuz u were on a schedule and u were supposed to get everything done in 2 hours and even if u didnt get done they wouldnt pay u for the time u worked over, but i guess that bit them in the ass! so yay i feel kinda like i won the lottery cuz i shall be recieving a check for 100 bucks!
people confuse me ... you think you know something ... but then something happens and you're right back to the wondering stage and expecting the end of the world! im such a weirdo sometimes ...
ive always said that i have no regrets, nothing i have ever done i regret because i made the choice to do it so i did it, and its stupid to regret it. regretting is just a waste of an emotion to me ... and i think i can honestly say i have nothing to regret, there are somethings that ive done that looking back i dont really approve of them or even like thinking about them but i dont regret them ... never regret anything just accept it and move on.
ahhhhhhhh ... my dad and stepmom to a trip to where my dad grew up till he was probably about 10 and took some pictures, well i saw them today and the house my dad grew up in was litterally maybe the size of our garage, it was very little and a complete shack ... ill put the pic up as soon as my site stops being a tard ... but yea to see those pics and think of how my dad grew up and to see where he is now, it kinda makes me feel really lucky to have what i do have and proud of my dad for what he did with his life ... me and my dad arent the closest in the world but we're close enough, i dont tell him a lot about my life but i know he'd be there if i needed him. he trusts me so much and sometimes i suppose gives me to much freedom, but at least he isnt holding me back, im pretty lucky to have a dad like him.
alright im done
my birth month says that i ... Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children. 
