Nikki's Biography

Name: Leah-Nicole (Nikki for short).

Birthdate: 13th August, 1982.

Birthplace: Sydney, NSW, Australia.

Height: 173.0cms (5'8").

Hair Colour: Dark blonde.

Eye Colour: Green.

A History of My Life

Where do I begin?

I was born in Sydney, Australia, at the Women's Hospital on the 13th of August 1982. As far as a childhood goes, mine wasn't out of the ordinary. The earliest thing I can remember having something to do with transgenderism, would have been when I was about 4 or 5. I remember being in my little sister's room and something to do with her clothes, but that's all I can remember. The next time that I can remember something to do with transgenderism, was when I was around 10 to 13. I can't remember exactly how old I was, although I'm pretty sure that I was still in primary school, so that would make me 12 or less.

I can remember vaguely thinking what girl's clothes felt like. So one time when I was home alone, I went into my mother's bedroom and tried on some of her clothes. I don't remember exactly how I felt, but it was a good feeling. I have basically worn girls clothes since then.

I have never been 'caught' although I have had a few close calls. I have never 'purged' either. I've never felt guilty because of it. It feels right. I don't dress up often, for one main reason. I have no privacy and I get very little time to myself.

The feeling that I am actually a girl has mainly surfaced this year, 2002. If you asked me this time last year, if I was thinking about GRS* (Genital Reassignment Surgery), my answer would have been no. I don't know why this feeling has surfaced but it has only became stronger. Wearing girls clothes simply wasn't making me feel content anymore. I thought maybe I could go androgynous, but that feeling lasted about two weeks.

The Present.

So now I am the stage of knowing what I want, I just haven't done anything about it yet. The reason for that is simple. I can't afford it. My plan is to be on hormones by the end of this year. That means I need to be seeing a gender therapist, which means I need a better job. For the purposes of actual money in my pocket, you might as well say I don't have a job, although of course, according to the ATO (Australian Taxation Office) I do have a job. So I need a better one.

The Future.

That's all I am doing though. I honestly don't know what career I want. Although I do have a pretty good idea. Back in 2000, I applied to the ADF (Australian Defence Force) for a career as a pilot in the RAAF (Royal Australian Air Force). I didn't get in due to medical reasons. After that, I didn't know what else I wanted to do. I have since found a few university courses that appeal to me. I may have to go back and get my HSC (Higher School Certificate) again and get a better UAI (University Admission Index).

I hope that in five years, I have at least transitioned, including GRS. My education and career aren't the top priority for me, as long as I have a job.

*GRS. Sometimes SRS, Sexual Reassignment Surgery. Sometimes GRS as in Gender Reassignment Surgery. I feel both of those are misleading. Clearly there is no gender reassignment so that name is wrong. Sexual focuses on sex and it's not about sex. So Genital Reassignment Surgery is the best term given that is what actually happens.

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