These are Shelby's letters to daisy from                     Because it's there.

Dear Diasy,


They say things change.  They say time heals all wounds.  They say life goes on, but their wrong.  I'm home.  I'm back in the nightmare, and I don't know how I'm going to get through it again.  Nights are the worst.  It's like it's happening all over again.  I'm going crazy.  What ever I am.  He made me this way. He made me crazy and now I'm suppose to keep him alive.

Jess is fine.  She's in eighth grade now.  She has friends, gets good grades, everything I could never do.  He's never touched her.  It was just me he wanted...Just me.

Mornings.  Quiet but I can feel it coming, that fear.  Sometimes it's like all I have is that fear.  Who am I anyway?  Am I that totally scared girl, waiting in her bed?  Am I that runaway, that junkie, that whore?  Maybe I'm nothing.  Maybe I'm nothing but fear.

I never had anything in my life that was good enough to miss.  When I ran away I never missed home, and I never missed the streets, but I miss the mountians.  I miss the smell of the trees.  And the wet ground.  I miss everyone.  I miss you.  It's better to forget, maybe, because all it does is hurt.

He's my hole life now.  I do his laundry and cook his food.  I think about him all night and do things for him all day, but I guess he's always been my life.  When I was younger, he was the monster.  When I ran, I was running from him.  And now when he calls me I go.  When he wets himself I clean up after him.  When he's hungry, I feed him.  Who am I?  I guess I'm just the one who takes care of him.

Dear Daisy,

Well her I am, home sweet home.  Yeah right.  Just walking into my room that first night really creeped me out.  So many ugly memories are in that room.  The only good thing about being back was seeing my little sister Jess, she seems okay, but I can tell she's a little mad at me.