Disclaimers: me no own, pesky lawyers no sue!
Author's Note: First Shamanic Princess fic, but not first fic ever. I�m obsessed w/ anime, especially Yu Yu Hakusho, Rurouni Kenshin, and Inuyasha. My friend got the entire Shamanic Princess series on DVD, and told me to watch it. So I did. I loved everything but the pairing. I think the fact that I watched episodes nine through twelve (Graham part) before one through eight had something to do with it (my first impression of Kagetsu was a pansy pretty boy and childhood infatuation of Tiara�s). To be honest, I�ve nothing against those who like the Tiara/Kagetsu pairing. I�m just always going to prefer the romances-that-will-never-be (unless there�s a sequel series of Shamanic Princess where Kagetsu becomes an evil psychopathic killer and Graham comes back- and we all know how likely THAT is). *sigh* And so I can�t dump Kagetsu without feeling evil. Oh, well. I suppose I�ll go with the next best thing! ^_~
Second Chances
Chapter 1:The River
I was nervous.
Mother said it was to be expected. She had been nervous, too.
But what if I don�t pass?
Father patted me on the head and said that if my mother could pass, then I was guaranteed.
Mother hit him with a pillow for that.
Mother�s partner counseled me as well. I go to her when I need to know more than simple motherly confidence in her only daughter.
A partner is an excellent source of assurance.
And yet I am still nervous. Perhaps I should listen to Mother, and stop thinking too much on it. Maybe she is right, and the butterflies in my stomach are normal.
Or maybe I think too much on him.
Him being Mother�s first partner. The partner who roams the corridors of our mansion these days is not the first to do so. Another came before.
Another died before.
And this, I know, is the reason I am nervous.
When my kitten fell off a high branch and broke her neck, dying instantly, I wept for so long. It has been two years since, and I still cannot bring myself to find a replacement.
I have always been quiet. During the time others spend talking, I think. I think about Mother, and Father, and Mother�s partner. I contemplate my adopted aunt and her partner. I wonder about the way things are here in the Guardian World. I fantasize other worlds. I consider others and their actions. I consider myself.
And I have had to face some difficult truths.
I do not fear death.
I fear my loved ones dying.
I have trouble keeping myself apart from others around me.
My greatest strength and weakness is that I must feel.
I cannot see anything as insignificant and just another life which will one day be gone.
I find it hard to let go.
I keep in my heart all those close to me.
My heart does not mend easily when one who is a part of it is lost.
Like my kitten was.
Like Mother�s partner was.
Like my partner may be.
And that is why I am nervous.
Chapter 2
Author's notes: I would ask if you want me to continue, but I plan to anyway, so� that would be a waste of everyone�s time. Instead, I shall tell you that I�m not telling you anything, I am evil, and to find anything out (well, everything that isn�t obvious) you will have to wait and read the next chapter.
Wow, it�s really late. I feel tired. Maybe I should, like, go to bed? *too late, she dies on the floor*
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