Daily Thoughts ______________________________________________ January 06, 23:15 Mood: Tired & stressed Ohh Gebus, this week is hell... Actually this whole month will be hell for those taking diplomas. I guess I won't be updating much in the next couple of days as I try to study my ass off for ohh no, not diplomas, but unit exams... queer. Anyhoo Good luck to every one out there finding themselve in an educational bind like myself. ______________________________________________ January 03, 12:48 Mood: PANICKING Does anybody realize that school is in on Monday?! Shizz I got a lot of homework to do... mmm may thats why i'm up so early. Well good luck to all of you, whom are in gr.12, its going to be hard these next couple weeks with all the rushing and fussing about diplomas. Get back on regular sleeping regement... ohh thats going to be the hardest. Just think about it, this means we are at the halfway point of our graduating year! Damn its going by slow. Well I'm going to go do my bio. peace. ______________________________________________ HAPPY NEW YEARS 2004! Another year has gone by... Its time for another 365 days until 2005. Isn't this exciting?! A fresh start for New adventures, experiences, loves, fights, pretty much everything. For grade twelves, this year means Graduating, becoming adults, going off into the real world!!! Eeep... kind of scary ehh? Well even so, we should still psyched to see what this year brings... Hope you have a good one! Wooohooo 2004 baby! Re-cap of the past couple of days... December 31st: -Got glammed up for the night with Carmen -Went for dinner at Cheesecake Caf� -Hit up Jen's party then Ken's party -4:30am, sleep. January 1st: Slept + ate yummy fondue January 2nd: Worked out + Shopped + Girls night ______________________________________________ December 30, 01:06 Mood: enjoying the holidays Ohhh I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS, especially since my gal pal Tatiana is back for the break from U of Vic. I wish i could find an I.D though, so I could go bar hopping. Do any of you guys work out? Geez it feels great to go to the Y and run and be all fit. So funny, Nicole and I ended up doing Tai-Bo the other night... Yes yes geekazoids but, meh still exercise. I realize pool halls reek of smoke, and make you all stinky which really sucks. Greg is a geek for not liking marshmellows in hot chocolate, and carmen is funny because she crossed her eyes while aiming to shoot the pool queue. Well thats the funny stuff. Have a great day, and soon enough HAPPY NEW YEARS! ______________________________________________ December 29, 19:06 Mood: I am a HOBO Yes yes I am a Hobo, having no cash sucks. I guess spending it shopping on boxing day is what made me this way. Saw Bad Santa.... eepp quite the funny movie but sad because its about an alcoholic that is a con artist.. hahaha gnight. P.S. Dont you just love it when your parents are away and your brother is being super nice! It kicks ass! ______________________________________________ December 26, 21:49 Mood: At peace Wow, looking back at my last little entry, I realize that I was extremely angry. It's been approx. 20 hours and I feel so much better, calm, at peace. How is it possible for my mood to change so quickly? Well I got closure and now I'll can concentrate + keep my mind on other things. Today I went shopping all over Calgary with Carmen. So exhausting. I'm so happy because i finally had cash to buy clothes and hair dye. Announcement is that my hair is now Jet Black! woop woop. Anyhoo, going to go chill with Nicky.D, Gnight. ______________________________________________ December 26, 01:29 Mood: frustrated/disapointed/small. I'm so not in control of my emotions, i just can't take it. Every thought, feeling i've had since sunday has left me feeling so incredibly small. Thats not even the right description of how i feel. I'm angry at myself for being so vulnerable to you, thinking things could actually work or... i'm just so... why didn't you tell me before that you didn't want to be more or why did you convince me that you did. Your sorries .... ohh i know you didn't want to hurt me but you did and i want to forget the past few days but i'm just so, everytime I let my guard down with you, i'm left feeling like i'm nothing, just some girl. It happened last year, how could it happen again. The song "Weakness in me" is how i feel about you. "Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me? Why do you come here And pretend to be just passing by?" I'm not going to vent anymore, its too late, after your apology, i still don't know if your sincere. If you are, let everything be normal again.