Author: Katie
E-mail: [email protected]
Disclaimer: I don't own 'em & I'm not claiming that this happened, only in my mind.
Distribution: At Castles in the Sky and Tarnished Silver. Anyone else please ask.
Rating: NC-17
Het/Slash/Both: Slash
Summary: Kevin and Scott finally admit their feelings for each other; Shawn and O'Haire stumble their way towards each other.
Characters: Kliq & Thrillers
Note: This might prove to be a little confusing because the Thrillers are in it too but I tried to be specific about which Sean/Shawn I was referring to. That doesn't and can't take away from the fact that there are four Sean/Shawn's to figure from.
Another Note: Thanks as always to AJ for betaing this *G*
Kevin's POV
I'm nervous. It's been weeks since I've seen him. He's my best friend. We talk on the phone all the time but� I miss him. The one and only thing he doesn't know about me is that I'm head over heels in love with him. I'm extremely worried about what happens when he finds out. He will find out. He's been curious about my feelings for him ever since I told him I love him one night. It slipped.
I didn't mean to say it obviously. We were on the phone and I was jerking off to the sound of his voice. Horrible of me I know. But his voice is just so fucking sexy. We were talking about sports, basketball if I remember correctly. Just listening to him made me hot and hard. I eased my boxers off and wrapped my hand around my cock. It wasn't really intentional but I got off listening to his voice.
Anyhow, so after I came all over myself, he said he had to go. I told him I loved him and said goodbye. He asked me right away but I managed to put him off. Tonight's the first time I've seen him since my injury. I can't wait to see him but at the same time I scared he's going to hate me forever.
Scott's POV
Fuck me gently. I'm arriving in Atlanta in a few minutes and I'm scared to death he's going to tell me he was talking to some fucking ring rat. I've waited for years to hear him say he loves me. He finally does and I don't know if he was talking to me or not.
What do you do when you're in love with your best friend and he's twice your size and usually grumpy as fuck? In my case, you do nothing except love him from afar.
I settle back as the stewardess calls for everyone to place their seats and trays in an upright position. I hadn't laid mine back at all so I'm good to go. I just want this to be over with. I look down at the object in my hands and my frown deepens. It's a picture of the Kliq and our various lovers at the time. It was taken back when Kevin and I were still in WCW and it was shortly after Kid had rejoined the WWF. We'd gotten together for a birthday party. Just a general one since most of us celebrate our birthdays in July.
Kevin and I were the only single ones. I wasn't in any state to be with anyone and he was just not interested. I think. Anyhow, while the rest of the guys are wrapped around their lovers, Kevin and I are standing next to each other, my arm looped around his waist, his arm thrown casually around my shoulders. We've always had that kind of bond where physical contact was a must. Of course it's always been just friendship as far as he's concerned but I think that was the day I started to see him as more than just a friend. I look down at the picture one last time and sigh. The plane has landed and I just know that Kevin's going to be waiting for his little buddy. Fuck. I don't want to do this all of a sudden.
Kevin's POV
I growl low in my throat as some young guy tries to pick a fight with me. What is it about me being seven feet tall that induces guys to think they can kick my ass? It pisses me off. I shake my head and try to keep on walking but he grabs my arm and physically spins me around. Without even thinking about it I lash out at him. My arm is caught by a strong hand though.
I turn around ready to get into it with whoever is standing there and can't stop the smile that stretches across my face. Fuck. I'd forgotten just how much I love him. "Hey big guy. Picking fights again?"
"Of course. I can't stay out of trouble you know that." Here we go with the easy banter I'm so used to. I just don't know if I can do this with him anymore.
"That's why you keep me around right? So you don't end up in jail?"
"Exactly. I knew you understood me."
"Of course I do. We're two halves of the same person."
"Most definitely." I wonder what he'd do if I told him I want to throw him onto the nearest object and just suck him dry? I hate this. We've always teased each other like this because the rest of the guys seem to think that we really are two halves of the same person. Maybe they know something I don't know.
Scott's POV
I really don't want to continue this playful banter. It drives me insane. It really does. I don't know why we bother. Maybe because everyone else seems to think we're two halves of the same person. It's really annoying.
He looks so fucking sexy when he smiles. I wonder how he'd react if I asked him to throw me over the nearest object and fuck me until we're both so sore we can't move? Better I not find out because I can't lose him. I can't. I may not be able to stay sober anyway but if I lost him I'd surely drink myself into a coma.
I lead the way to the car, a little unnerved by the uneasy silence between us. Normally when we fall silent it's that easy silence that can tell someone how long you've known the person next to because you're both so completely comfortable not talking. This is like when two strangers meet on a blind date and have absolutely nothing to talk about.
Once we're in his car I sigh and look over at him. I know he's disappointed in me. I don�t blame him. I fucked up. Again. I shake my head and stare at him trying, as always, to memorize his features. He stops at a red light and turns to face me. "We need to talk Scotty."
"I know we do." There's nothing else to say. I want him to start the conversation. I don't want to start out because if I do I'll tell him that I love him and I've been in love with him since forever.
"About what happened the other night on the phone. I'm sorry man. I�" He stops talking and starts driving as the light turns green. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. This was not the conversation I wanted to have. I wanted him to bitch and yell and cry because I'm out of the WWE. Again. This sucks.
Kevin's POV
This sucks so much. I don't want to tell him. I don't want to see the hatred in his eyes when I tell him I'm in love with him. Fuck. Who would have ever thought I'd be afraid of someone like Scott? But then again what's not to be afraid of. I love him. He's always been my best friend. I don�t know what to do without him in my life. When we aren't in constant contact with one another it kills me. It really does kill me.
I steal glances at him while driving towards my home. Tristan just left not long ago. Actually it was probably about an hour or so before I had to go pick up Scott. I love my son but I'm glad he's not going to be here while Scott and I have this out. I don't really want to have this out because I'm so scared of losing him for good but I need to tell him how I feel.
I stop at another red light and turn to him. "Scott, I know I can't excuse what I said but I really hope you can understand."
"Understand what Kev? I know you didn't mean it that way. Why would you?" I hear him mutter. I don�t think he meant for me to hear that because he looks surprised when I turn the corner instead of going straight and stop the car. I turn more bodily in my seat and turn him to face me.
"Scott� I love you. I've never said it before because I was scared of losing you. Guess what? I'm sick of being scared. If you don't want to talk to me ever again I understand but I need you to understand that I love you and I've been in love with you and I want you more than anything." Wow. That wasn't exactly the speech I had in mind but he's smiling so it must be a good thing.
I must admit to being shocked when I feel his hand cover mine and he leans forward kissing me softly. "Kev, I am so glad you said that. I love you so much. I was beginning to think that I'd never have you as more than a friend. I want you more than I've ever wanted any other human being around."
I know I look like an idiot with the grin spreading across my face but I don�t care. I pull him across the cab of my truck and into my lap. It's a tight fit but I don't care. Our mouths close over each other and our hands are slow as they run across each others backs.
Scott's POV
I'm so lost in the way he feels that I don't hear the glass crash and I don't see the man reach in with a gun. Later I'll be able to recall the way Kevin covered my body with his own. I know he protected me but one second I'm being loved by the man I love the next I'm covered in his blood.
I don't know who calls the other's but I'm sitting in the waiting room covered in his blood when Sean storms through the doors. He makes a beeline for me but I can't tell him anything. I honestly don't know what happened. I don't know why he was shot. I look up what seems like seconds later and see Hunter talking quietly to him. I sink into the chair and shake my head. "What happened Scotty?"
I look up and find myself staring into steely blue eyes. No one I've ever met can manage to look that hard and that soft at the same time except for Shawn. I shrug. Sean walks over and pulls Shawn away. I don't know what they're saying but right now I don't care. It's slowly starting to come back that Kevin saved my life. He got shot and could be dying because he wanted to save me.
Shawn's POV
I can't believe this is happening to us. It's not like our lives aren't already fucked up beyond all recognition anyhow. Now we may very well lose one of our brothers. And for what? I don�t know and no one else can tell us anything. They won't even tell us how Kevin is.
I nod my head as Sean tells me that Scott hasn't spoken to anyone since they arrived here. He's been sitting there covered in Kevin's blood and acting like it's no big deal. I don't get what's going on.
I watch as Sean walks back over to his lover. How they manage while being on separate shows I'll never know. I do admire them anyhow. Sean and Hunter have been together for forever. The rest of us have been running around like chickens without any heads for that time, flirting with anything that comes along� Oh wait� that's just me. Never mind. I shake my head. I know that this isn't the time or the place for self-pity.
I walk over and sit next to Scott. I think I'm the only one who knows anything about him being in love with Kevin. I don't know if he's told the other's or not. And I sure as hell don't know if he's told Kevin. I wrap an arm around him and try to get him to his feet. If he won't get cleaned up on his own I'll help him.
I lead him towards the nurse's station and ask them to show me to a room where I can get him cleaned up. The cute blonde leads the way. I know it makes me an asshole but my eyes are settled firmly on this young nurse's ass. He's really good looking. Under any other circumstances I'd be flirting like crazy.
I shake my head trying to clear my thoughts as he stops in front of a room marked shower. I thank him and he offers to come back with scrubs. I nod my thanks and when he leaves I can't help but shake my head. I feel like a total asshole. Here I am flirting with some young stud while Scott is standing here spaced out covered in the man he love's blood. I am such a fucking asshole.
I shove Scott inside and strip his clothes off. I can't help but wonder why he's letting me do this. Scott normally would never let me touch him this intimately. He must really be freaked out.
I strip down to my boxers and push him gently into the shower after turning on the hot water. It's immediately too hot but Scott doesn't flinch. I reach around him and turn on the cold water as well after pulling him out of the way until the water gets a little bit cooler. I push him back in and proceed to wash him off. He just stands there shivering slightly. This is so fucked up. Why am I the one to have to do this? Why do I have to be the one to clean him up?
I pull him from the water when it stops running pink down the drain. I wrap him up in one of the towels that are handy and dry him off. He looks up at me with tears in his eyes. "It's my fault. It's all my fault."
"No baby. It's not your fault." I shake my head. I don't get why he would think this was his fault.
"He told me he loves me. I told him how I feel. We were kissing, making out really when� I don't know what happened� All I really remember is that he covered me, I heard an awful sound and then I was covered in his blood. He saved my life but� I can't live without him Shawn. I can't." Tears are streaming down his face and it's all I can do not to cry. Again why do I have to be the one here?
I wrap my arms around him and hold him. I don't know what else to do. I know it wasn't his fault but getting him to believe it is another story. He cries for a long time until his sobbing finally subsides. I pull away and wipe away the remnants of tears. "Feel better?"
He nods his head with a short laugh. "Sorry Shawn."
"It's okay Scotty. You're scared. You have every right to be." Of course I'm just guessing that that's really the root of his problems. He nods his head though and grabs the scrubs the nurse must have left. After yanking them on, and me admiring how good his ass looks in the tight fitting pants, we both head out to the waiting room.
Sean immediately swarms him. You'd think that one person couldn't swarm someone so much bigger than himself but somehow Sean manages. I step back and go sit down by myself. Why should this change anything? Just because I helped him out doesn�t me that he is going to be grateful to me. No as usual, Sean will get all the credit. Boy that doesn't sound too fucked up does it?
Sean's POV
Scott looks so much better I couldn't help myself when I jumped on him. I knew something had happened between him and Shawn but I didn't expect Shawn to walk away. For the life of me I can't understand what's going on with Shawn. I shake my head and lead Scott over to where Shawn is sitting. I push him gently into the chair next to Shawn who just looks at me shocked. "Can I convince you guys to eat something?"
Scott shakes his head and looks up at me with sad soulful brown eyes. "Have they said anything about how Kevin is?"
"I�m sorry Scotty. No one seems to know anything. If I went and got you some food would you eat it?" He nods his head and I smile before turning to Shawn. "Hey Shawn. How about you? Wanna eat something?"
He nods his head absently and I walk away feeling frustrated. I convince Hunter to go with me. He may be the only one who can help me figure out what's going on with Shawn and Scott. I lean on him as we head for the cafeteria. I load a tray up with food as he looks on. I start to grab my wallet but he beats me to it when we get to the register. I hand him the tray and fill four cups with coffee before also pouring a couple of sodas for us.
We get back and Scott's in tears. I nearly drop the tray as I rush over to find out what happened. Scott's sobbing so hard I can't understand a word he's saying so I turn to Shawn.
"The doctor just came in. Kev's not doing good. The bullet hit his lung." He looks away, his face pale beneath his tan. I've never seen Shawn look so worried so I know it has to be bad. I wrap my arms around Scott. I don't know why I don't include Shawn in the hug but I don't think he'd be very receptive to me hugging him.
I frown when Scott pulls away from me and snuggles against Shawn. He on the other hand looks glad to have Scott holding on to him. I really hope that Shawn's not using this as an excuse just to get closer to him. This isn't the time or the place to be making his move on Scott. I'd tell him so but I don't want to upset Scott by fighting with Shawn so I keep my mouth shut.
Instead I bring the tray over and set it in front of them. "You guys need to eat. If you're going to be here for Kev you need to keep your strength up."
Shawn nods his agreement and I can't help thinking he's being way too helpful here. I have to wonder why. I know I should be concentrating on Kevin but I'm very curious as to why Shawn is so helpful.
Hunter's POV
Fuck. I don't know how Sean just keeps going. All I want to do is collapse and cry. I don't know how we're all going to manage without Kev. He's always been the one who holds us together. I look over at Shawn and Scott and I can tell that both of them are just barely holding it together. I don't even know why Scott didn't get shot. No one does as far as I can tell.
Sean's worried about Scott and Shawn hooking up. Which first of all is ridiculous because Scott has never and would never like Shawn in that way. I don't know who he's got at thing for but I do know it would never be Shawn. Don't get me wrong. I love Shawn. He's my big brother. But at the same time� I don't know. He's just not the type to have a one person at one time relationship. He's too much of a� Well a whore for lack of a better word. He'll fuck anything that moves male or female. And he's never ever cared about whom gets hurt along the way.
The third reason it's ridiculous for the two of them to be together is that other than being Kliq they have nothing in common. Of all of us those two are the most opposite people I've ever seen. And the reason I say it's the third reason is I believe the second reason is that Shawn is such a slut. Scott would never want someone like that. There's another place where they are total opposites. Scott is the kind of guy who is totally and completely committed to whoever it is he loves. He would never consider chasing anyone else.
I shake my head. Now is not the time to be thinking about this. All of our thoughts have to be with Kevin. I take a shuddering breath and head over to the other guys. I sit down next to Sean and take his hand. He grips me tightly as Scott goes from a sobbing mess to just his shoulder's shaking. Shawn's holding on to him tightly and his eyes are closed. I'd love to find out what he's thinking right now.
