Author: Katie
E-mail: [email protected]
Disclaimer: I don't own 'em. Kind of hard to own people ya know. Vince McMahon owns the rights to certain names. I'm not claiming that this happened. I made it up in my sick little mind. No suing of the broke college student. "Nothing But Love (Standing In The Way)" is owned by The Wilkinsons. Steve Wilkinson & Gary Burr wrote it and of course I am using it without their permission.
Distribution: At Castles in the Sky and Tarnished Silver. Anyone else please ask.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Shannon Moore tries to leave his lover Shane Helms after a fight.
Characters: Shannon Moore/Shane Helms
Note: Thanks as always to AJ for betaing this *G*
You'll never know how close we came
The word goodbye was almost spoken
Just one more thoughtless word
And I was ready to leave
We're always fighting. I don't know why I've stayed with him as long as I have. I mean I love him and all but it's not good for me to stay here anymore. He's slowly destroying who I am. Maybe he doesn't even know he's doing it? I don't know but I have to get out of here.
Then the thought of how I'd feel
Waking up one day without you
I closed the door and turned around
You wouldn't believe it if you had seen it
My bags are by my side. I'm ready to leave. I'm completely prepared to walk out of his life, his house and never set foot here again. It's about ten-o-clock at night and it took me all day to write the goodbye note. Seven pages long and I've sealed it in an envelope and set it on the table where he puts his keys when he comes home. I know he'll notice it there. But something stops me just as I'm about to walk through the front door of the house.
This is worth the empty cab
This is worth the bag unpacking
If only for the lesson learned
I'm glad to go through this
Moment of truth
I close the door and slowly approach the phone. If he even meant half of what he said I can forgive him. I love him too much not to give our love another try. I pick up the phone as soon as he hangs up and dial his cell phone. He picks up immediately.
There I was...the note was even written
Seven pages...it took all day
There I was...I'd made my decision
With nothing but love standing in the way
"Shanny?"
"Hi."
"Fuck I thought I'd missed you. I love you Shannon. I really truly do love you."
"I love you too Shane but�" I pause not knowing how exactly to continue this. "I can't stay if you keep on like you have been."
"I know baby. I'm willing to do anything you want me to. I love you and I don't want to lose you."
"I don't want to lose you either Shane. I love you so much." I close my eyes against the sudden onslaught of tears and smile despite them. "Promise me that instead of yelling at me you'll explain why you don't like when I've done something you think is wrong?"
"I promise baby. And when I slip up and start screaming just smack me."
"Okay." I laugh softly and I can hear his answering smile.
"I've got to go now. My match is in a few minutes. I love you Shannon."
"I love you too Shane."
Nothing but the touch of your hand
Nothing but your kiss, I know
Didn't even have to think twice
Baby, how could I go
Now my head is filled with thoughts of him touching me, loving me. I can't believe I nearly left him. I must have been crazy to even think about leaving the man I love.
There I was...the note was even written
Seven pages...it took all day
There I was...I'd made my decision
With nothing but love standing in the way
I look over at the table near the front door and smile. I grab the note up and start to tear it in half. I stop though. Maybe, just maybe I should keep this for future reference. When he gets angry at me or with me, I can pull this out and remember this day.
There I was...the note was even written
Seven pages...it took all day
There I was...I'd made my decision
With nothing but love standing in the way
So now my decision is made. I love Shane and he loves me. I won't leave him. Hell I probably never will. He's my life. I smile as I sink onto the nearby couch. He'll never know how close he came to losing me. I won't tell him.
With nothing but love standing in the way
Just think. I nearly lost everything that's ever meant anything to me. He nearly lost the man he claims is the only man he loves. The only thing standing in the way was my love for him.
THE END