Author: Katie Jones
Disclaimer: I don�t own them unfortunately. Also make no claims to the song. Trisha Yearwood sings it.
Distribution: If you want to use it, go for it. Just please let me know where it is.
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Summary: Someone is looking at his past that he has tried desperately to forget.
Notes: Okay, I�ve never been very good at first person narrative�s so don�t kill me if this sucks. Takes place in about ten years.
I was sitting at the counter of my favorite diner when this kid comes up asking for my autograph. I was flattered. I mean that someone still remembered me. I haven�t been wrestling for five years but people still recognized me even though I�m not nearly as noticeable these days. I turned back to the counter when I heard this song. I couldn�t help but remember the past that had hurt me so much. I didn�t want to. I was happy now. I�m married I have three kids and I love my wife. But some part of me will always love him.
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I was standing at the counter
I was waiting for the change
When I heard that old familiar music start
It was like a lighted match
Had been tossed into my soul
It was like a dam had broken in my heart
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I couldn�t believe that after seven years I could still recall every detail of him. The way his broad chest felt against my skin when we would lay together after making love. The way his lips would curve into a smile that we both knew was meant for only me. The way his hair would tickle my neck when we kissed. The way he would look at me with those brilliant blue eyes. The way he smelled like Drakkar even after a match. The way he would run his graceful fingers through my hair almost absently. The way he would kiss me when I was sore or hurt after a match. The way he looked at me like I was the only man alive. The way he felt inside of me when we were making love.
There is no reason I should remember these details but they all came flooding back.
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After taking every detour
Getting lost and losing track
So that even if I wanted
I could not find my way back
After driving out the memory
Of the way things might have been
After I'd forgotten all about us
The song remembers when
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I thought I had forgotten him. I thought I had put the past behind me. I truly love my wife. So why am I here? Why am I standing in this spot trying to remember the love we once shared. With my children by my side no less. My wife thinks I am taking them out for ice cream. That was the plan but I had to come here. I had to make sure I was past this. I can�t continue to love him while I am with my wife. It�s not fair to her. It�s not right.
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We were rolling through the Rockies
We were up above the clouds
When a station out of Jackson played that song
And it seemed to fit the moment
And the moment seemed to freeze
When we turned the music up and sang along
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I can still remember the first time we heard the song together. We were on our way to another show, in another city when it came on the radio. We both started to sing along even though both of our voices sucked. It didn�t matter because we were singing to each other. Oh god I miss him. I shouldn�t but I do.
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And there was a God in Heaven
And the world made perfect sense
We were young and were in love
And we were easy to convince
We were headed straight for Eden
It was just around the bend
And though I have forgotten all about it
The song remembers when
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We were supposed to spend the rest of our lives together. I hate that things went wrong. I hate him for leaving me. But I can�t stop loving him.
~*~
I guess something must have happened
And we must have said goodbye
And my heart must have been broken
Though I can't recall just why
The song remembers when
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I wonder where he is. Is he happy? Does he still remember me and the times we shared?
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Well, for all the miles between us
And for all the time that's passed
You would think I haven't gotten very far
And I hope my hasty heart
Will forgive me just this once
If I stop to wonder how on Earth you are
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I cry tears for him for our love even though it�s been seven years. I still love him. Why?
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But that's just a lot of water
Underneath a bridge I burned
And there's no use in backtracking
Around corners I have turned
Still I guess some things we bury
Are just bound to rise again
For even if the whole world has forgotten
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�Daddy? Are you okay?� I look down at my oldest daughter, Gwen and smile through my tears. Yes I still love him but I am happy now and I love my children more than anything else in heaven or on earth.
�Yeah babygirl. I�m fine.�
My oldest child, a boy named Matt after my brother looks at me and asks. �Did you know him Dad?� I look from Matt to the gravemarker.
�Yeah Mattie. I knew him.�
My youngest, a little girl by the name of Amy after my best girl friend looks up at my with wide green eyes. �Who was Glenn Jacobs, Daddy?�
I smile at her and take her hand. �He was a man who meant a lot to me at one time. I loved him very much.� I pick up Amy and take my other kids hands. Settling them into the car I look back one last time and mouth �I love you Glenn but I have to get on with my life. I will see you someday. Goodbye.�
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The song remembers when
Yeah, and even if the whole world has forgotten
The song remembers when
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Well, how was it? Did it totally reek?
Katie