Knew The Sign
Wasn't Right
I was stupid for a while
I knew that something wasn't right, but I kept telling myself we could work it out. That love could conquer all. It didn't occur to me that only happened when both parties were in love, not just one. I kept hoping, just holding on to the thought that if you even if you weren't in love with me, you loved medidn't love me now, maybe one day you would. It's only now, looking back that I really see how stupid I was.
Swept away by you,
And now I feel like the fool
I lost my head over some blonde curls and a smile sweeter than honey. It must have been funny to others - the harderned, self pitying, meloncholy loner completely smitten with the young, adorable, bubbly, country girl. I can't recall ever having felt like such an idiot before.
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?
I don't understand what's happened. Sometimes, the look on your face or the way you'd touch me had me convinced, that even if you weren't saying the words, you felt the emotions. Other times, it seemed we were emotionally as far apart as two people could possibly be.
Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.
You were too good for me. Everyone said it behind my back and now I finally realise the truth. I could never give you what you need to make you happy. To me you were the personfication of everything that had been missing in my life until then. I should've known I never had a chance.
Catch myself from despair,
I could drown if I stay here,
Keeping busy every day,
I know I will be okay.
I feel.. I can't even find words to express it. I've been in emotional pain before, but nothing compares to the gut wrenching agony I'm going through now. I had a chance to remove myself a little from the world you inhabit and I took it. To stay within close proximity to you would have been my undoing. This way, I keep myself occupied and spend less time each day thinking about you.
But I was �.
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?
She loves me, She loves me not. You made me feel again, when I thought I'd shut down from ever giving a damn about someone other than myself. You broke through where nobody else has been able to. And it turns out it's all for nothing.
Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.
There's someone else in my life. I don't love her, I don't even like her most of the time, I only keep her around for one reason. No, not that. She's got blonde hair that is roughly the same shade as yours, plus when she smiles, a real smile, there's something in it that reminds me so much of you. I'm pathetic, I know, because this isn't moving on.
So much hurt, so much pain,
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside,
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind.
I'll be over you.
I didn't know I could physically feel emotional pain until now. It chewed up my insides, eating away at me till all was left was a hollow shell of a man. However slowly, but surely I can deal with this. It'll take a while, but I know that one day I'll return to what I used to be. I'll look at you and see a good looking woman that I once loved with every fibre in my being. A woman who destroyed my ability to trust others.
But now I'm�..
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you.
I �m sure you were aware of how I felt about you, everyone with eyes knew. I refuse to believe that you did it deliberately. It�s not your way, to mess with someone�s heart. My guess is that you were out of your depth, you didn�t know how to handle it. He�d better treat you right, or I�ll hurt him in ways he�s never been hurt before.
Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart,
In my reach, I can see,
There's a life out there for me.
You were out of my reach. I finally understand that now. I'm sure that you cared for me, but I know now that you never loved me. I just wanted it to happen so badly that I made myself believe it. I've distanced myself from a little and even that short distance has given me a new perspective. You know what I see Molly? I see that I can live without you. I see a future for myself that doesn't include you and it doesn't look as bad or as far away as I first thought. In fact, it looks as though it's within my reach.