I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
Who does he think he's kidding? The only person he's fooling is himself.. and maybe her. Jealous? Yeah maybe a little - or a lot. I don't have a lot of luck with men - I always seem to fuck up somehow. God I hate feeling like this... This was originally a business relationship - I help him hang onto the Hardcore Title, he teaches me what I need to know to become the toughest woman in the Federation. But that was before I fell in love with him... then he fell in love with her.
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...
I don't understand what's going on. Yeah, he's an attractive guy, but it's not just a physical attraction that draws me to him. It's deeper, more primal. And somehow, I know he needs me. It's so confusing, especially when I'm being asked what's going on and I don't know what to say. Especially when I don't understand myself. I just know that when I see him, looking hurt and confused, I want to go to him, take him in my arms and ease his pain. And when I see that masked woman with him, I want to rip her heart out.
Am I jealous? It certainly seems like it doesn't it? They keep teasing me about having a crush on him. It's not a crush, it's something that can't be explained by mere words. I shut them out, hopefully, that way they'll stop demanding an explanation.
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I just wish everyone would back the hell off! There's so much going on, I can barely take it all in. I've got my protegee in my ear constantly about my actions of late, I've got those two idiots on my back about their cousin. The only person who hasn't said anything is her, and I wish she would say something so I at least know where we stand and what's going on. I need everyone else to leave me alone, give me some breathing space so I can get my thoughts straight. It's just too much to deal with right now - any more of this and I may snap.
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
It's not simple anymore. Before it was easy - He was my mentor, whom I fell in love with. Then he fell for her and it seems now, she has some feelings for him which she's trying to deny out of a sense of family duty. She's jealous of me, I am certain of that. If she only knew the truth. He sees me as no more than an protegee, someone to watch his back - until she accepts her feeling for him. At the same time, I feel that I am part of the reason she continues to deny those feelings. And I know those feelings are there - the way she attacks me is the attack of a jealous woman.
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
I have no idea what's happening anymore. She's changed - no longer cheerful and perky, now she's moody and quiet. I know she cares for him, but I can't understand why. She has a determination to find out who the mystery woman is and it is the bane of her existence that he keeps preventing her from finding out. To her, that's a sign that she's not wanted, even though it's clear to all that she is. It's jealousy plain and simple - this woman is at his side and she isn't.
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
I thought by now it would all be sorted out, one way or another. But no, that would be too easy. I know she needs me as much I need her - it's in her eyes every time she looks at me. I'm beginning to crave her. Nightmares wake me in the middle of the night and I find myself searching for the comfort of her body in an empty bed. I had believed that by now it would all make sense - but it's getting worse each week.
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Why can't they just leave me the hell alone? It' s bad enough as it is. I know he needs me, I'm not sure how, I just know. But she's still hanging around and that makes me hesitant. I don't plan to come between them, but I don't even know what the deal with those two is... it's driving me crazy! I wake up in the middle of the night, knowing he needs me at his side, but something I don't know what, keeps me from going to him. I can't stand this any longer... if I don't take action soon, I may just... Break.