As always for my evil twin, the Falln one. Thanks for mentioning the song; you should've known I'd pinch it from you.
Ooh, yeah
Never be the same again
I call you up whenever things go wrong
You're always there
You are my shoulder to cry on
I don't know who else to turn to. Everyone else is busy with their own problems, so I sob out the whole story while he listens and comforts me. Just hearing his voice on the other end of the phone made me feel better. I've always been able to talk to him, and now I had no hesitation in calling.
She calls me in the middle of the night, crying hysterically. It feels good, knowing that after everything and despite the fact that it had been six months since we'd last spoke that she still feels she can come to me with her problems. My blood runs cold when I hear what has happened and I know I have to go to her, comfort her in person.
He arrives the next day, just as I was about to call him again. As soon as he sees me he just wraps his arms around me in a big bear hug. I cry on his shoulder for a while and then he just holds me. I've always cared about him - just as a friend of course-, but right now, sitting together with his arms around me, just feels so right. It frightens me a little.
I haven't realised how much I've missed her till I was comforting her tonight. We've remained close after the initial break up, but it hadn't been the same. Back then we'd had to keep tings under wraps, or face the wrath of he who must be obeyed. But now, holding her body close to mine, I accept something that I'd always pushed aside before.
Then he does the last thing I expected - he kisses me.
I don't know why, but I do it - I kiss her.
I can't believe it took me quite so long
To take the forbidden step
Is this something that I might regret?
My mind is spinning; this is the last thing I expected. My natural instinct is to push him away and slap him, but I don't particularly want to. With a sigh, I lean in against him, slowly returning the kiss without worrying about the consequences.
What the hell am I doing? Think before you act, I remind myself. I am just about to pull away when I feel her responding. I throw caution to the wind and act on instinct, pulling her closer, not thinking about what would happen after this.
(come on, come on)
Nothing ventured nothing gained
Somewhere in the back of my mind I weigh up the pros and cons of what was going on. I think I make a conscious decision, I'm not sure. I clearly think 'I can either step back now and possibly ruin things between us or take our friendship to the next level."
I am risking everything by doing this. I don't care. She is intoxicating, how the hell did those two assholes ever give this up? No way would I ever let this one go - not voluntarily anyway.
(You are the one)
A lonely heart that can't be tamed
I realise something that I have never faced up to or accepted before. I need him, more than I'd needed anyone before. It isn't physical - well it is - but not completely. This feels right. This is love.
It is then that I fully understand why I've always pushed my feelings to the back. Because I love her. Because being with her feels so goddamned right and that scares me more than a little bit.
(Come on, come on)
I'm hoping that you feel the same
This is something that I can't forget
Why is this happening? Does he consider this just a one off thing? Maybe he's using me to get back at� no he would never use me like that. Does he feel the connection, that this is the right thing for both of us right now? I don't know. I just know that no matter what happens between us tonight, things are going to be different in the morning.
I'm not sure why she's responding the way she is. I know I didn't expect this. I thought I'd get a slap in the face or 'I care about you, but not like that.' Not the willing and eager woman who's making me moan in delight. I don�t know why and right now, I don't really care. The only thing that worries me is that whatever happens tonight will change everything.
I thought that we would just be friends
Things will never be the same again
It's just the beginning it's not the end
Things will never be the same again
It's not a secret anymore
Now we've opened up the door
Starting tonight and from now on
We'll never, never be the same again
Never be the same again
I never thought anything like this would ever happen. It had always been friendship, an extremely close one. I loved him/her like a sibling. Now I'm in love with my one time big brother/little sister. The body pressed against mine, one I've seen in every state of dress and undress without a sexual thought is now driving me to the brink of insanity. I can now honestly say that I've loved him/her almost since the beginning, but for some stupid reason, never acted on it, never risked losing the friendship that meant so much to me. I'm not holding back any longer though. This will change everything. Not just for us, but for everyone� should be interesting, especially if nothing happens after tonight and word gets out. What will happen next?
Now I know that we were close before
I'm glad I realised I need you so much more
That was amazing. No man has ever made me feel like more of a woman. We lay apart, breath slowly returning to normal. I study him from under lidded eyelids. He looks satisfied. Good. If this was a one off I don't want him saying (insert Fat Bastard accent here) 'You were crap.' He looks over at me and I quickly avert my gaze. Where now?
Wow. That's all I have to say on the matter. Wow. I look over at her, to gauge a reaction and she quickly turns away from me. I'm willing to risk it. I reach out and pull her against me. She snuggles in against me, resting her head on my shoulder. We fit together perfectly, it's amazing.
"I love you."
And I don't care what everyone will say
It's about you and me
And we'll never be the same again
We talk quietly. There are gonna be some interesting reactions when we begin the PDA's. I don't care. This is not about them, it's not about getting back at DX or Hunter, it�s not finding comfort in each other. It's about me and it's about Billy and it's about love. For the first time, I'm in a relationship that will give as well as take. I like it. A lot. Things are going to be different, but I don't care. I know he'll watch my back in the ring and out of it. The rest of the world can go fuck themselves.
I have to admit I'm a little worried about reactions. Especially from Helmsley. I think Chyna wants him to say something, that way she can legitimately rip the shit through him. Hope I'm there to see it. Generally I'm not worried about it. I just want to explore this wonderful feeling a little more. I don�t know what I was so worried about. This is just a natural extension of our previous relationship. I love Chyna and I feel great. Making her the happiest woman on earth is the most important thing to me right now.