Did I ever tell you
How you live in me
Every waking moment
Even in my dreams
And if all this talk is crazy
And you don�t know what I mean
It doesn�t really matter
Just as long as I believe
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
Heaven only knows
People never tell you
The way they truly feel
I would die for you gladly
If I knew it was for me
So if all this talk sounds crazy
And the words don�t come out right
It doesn�t really matter
If it gets me through this night
If I�m true to myself
Nobody else
Can take the place of you
But I�ve got to move on
Tell me what else can I do
I will love again
Though my heart is breaking
I will love again
Stronger than before
I will love again
Even if it takes a lifetime to get over you
I will love again�
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�Chris, do you love me?� She asked softly. Blinking at her in surprise, Chris leaned forward in his seat and gave her an incredulous look.
�Of course I love you. What�s gotten into you?� Tearing her gaze away from his again, Amy was silent. Groaning in exasperation with her lack of response, Chris reached across the table and took both her hands in his, his thumbs gently stroking the backs of her knuckles.
�Amy, look at me� he murmured quietly, forcing her to meet his eyes, �I love you more than I�ve ever loved anyone in my entire life. Nothing can change that. I�m yours forever, understand?� Nodding mutely, Amy slowly began to feel the spark of warmth inside her heart that Chris had always given her, the love she saw shining in his eyes suddenly obliterating all her doubts and suspicions about him. A small smile tugging at her lips, she slowly stood up from her chair and made her way around the table to him, her hands still clutched tightly in his. Settling herself down into his warm lap, Amy arranged Chris� arms so that they lay draped around her waist and rested her head against his shoulder.
�I love you� she whispered softly, her lips pressing a warm kiss onto the side of his neck. Growling low in his throat, Chris tightened his hold around her and gently nudged her face to the side so that she was facing him directly. Leaning forward, he caught her lips in a tender kiss, the sweetness of it taking their breaths away.
Breaking apart after a while, Chris slid his arm underneath her legs and stood up, carrying her swiftly towards the bed. Laying her down gently, Chris slowly stripped off his clothes and then climbed up beside her, his hands roaming over her face and neck with such adoration it made her heart bleed. It�s going to be alright, she thought dreamily to herself, Finally, everything�s going to be alright�
�Chris!� Amy bolted upright in bed, her heart pounding painfully inside her chest and her breaths coming out in broken gasps. Sweat ran in rivulets down her face and between her breasts, the sheets beneath her were soaked through. Bringing trembling hands up to her face, she pushed her hair back and swiped angrily at the few strands that clung stubbornly to her clammy skin. Her breathing slowly returning to normal, she closed her eyes and drew her knees up to her chest, hugging them to her.
It was just a dream� She thought silently to herself as she gently rocked herself back and forth, It was just a dream� God how she wished it hadn�t been�what she wouldn�t give to have it all back again - have Chris back again. She didn�t care that he�d lied to her, didn�t care that even now he was probably in bed with another woman�
�Bullshit�� She whispered, dismissing that last thought as a lie the second it crossed her mind. She cared - more than she�d like to admit. He had torn her heart to pieces with his betrayal, shattered her trust in him - in any man for that matter. But God help her�she still loved him, and that realization alone cut her deeper than anything anyone could have ever done to her.
�Amy�� Opening her eyes, Amy glanced down to the sleeping angel laying beside her, her heart tugging painfully inside her chest as she watched him reach out for her in his sleep. Oh Jason�I�m sorry�
Jason loved her, she knew it and it broke her heart. He�d been so good to her in these last months, loving her and worshipping her body as if she were a queen - a Goddess� She didn�t deserve him like this - not when she couldn�t return his feelings�
Sighing heavily, Amy laid back down and reached out to draw him into the cradle of her arms, wrapping herself around him and holding him tightly to her. Resting her head gently on his shoulder, Amy closed her eyes and willed herself to sleep, trying to forget her feelings of hopelessness and concentrate on the warmth of Jason�s body. I�m sorry Jay-Jay�someday I�ll make you happy�I swear�
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Two months later�
Amy walked hand in hand with Jason as they made their way down the hall towards the main locker room, giggling softly when every once in a while he brought her hand up to his lips and kissed it playfully. Pushing the locker room door open, she stopped short when she saw who was inside. Jason growled low under his breath and tightened his hold on her hand. Chris and Trish�
�Let�s go somewhere else, love� Jason whispered, bending down and placing his lips near her ear. About to agree, Amy was struck speechless when Chris suddenly turned and noticed them, his icy blue eyes widening for a split second as he looked back and forth between her and Jason.
Clenching his jaw, he then turned back to Trish and whispered something quietly into her ear, eliciting a frown from the petite blond. Ignoring the look, Chris made his way over to them.
�Uh, hi�� He said tentatively, looking at them guiltily. Then, focusing his gaze onto Amy, he exhaled loudly and nervously ran his hand back through his loose hair. �Amy, can I�talk to you for a few minutes?� Leveling him with a cool stare, Jason tightened his grip on Amy�s hand - the implications behind his gesture were crystal clear.
�I don�t think that�s a good idea, Irvine. Why don�t you go back to playing with your blow-up doll over there?� Behind Chris, Trish let out a loud gasp of outrage but stayed where she was, obviously intimidated by the threat Amy posed to her - especially after what she and Chris had done�
�Jason�� Amy murmured quietly, slipping her hand free of his and turning to face him. Reaching up on her tiptoes, she brushed a quick kiss over his lips and gently cupped his cheek in her palm. �It�ll be alright baby, just let me do this - okay?�
�Amy�I don�t know�� Seeing his determination faltering, Amy smiled faintly and kissed him again, this time letting their lips linger. �I have to do this Jay-Jay�I have to move on.� Nodding resignedly, Jason stepped back from her and grudgingly allowed Chris to grasp Amy�s arm and lead her out into the hallway. His loud sigh could be heard as the door swung shut behind them.
�I hope you know what you�re doing Ames�� Hearing a delicate snort from across the room, Jason looked up and saw Trish sitting primly on the edge of her seat, a slight grimace on her lovely face.
�You and me both Reso, you and me both��
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Amy let him lead her down the hallway a little ways, stopping when they came to an old vending machine that sat crookedly in the corner. Leaning back against it, Amy folded her arms across her chest and settled her gaze onto Chris, waiting.
�So uh�how have you been?� Her mouth turning down into a slight frown, Amy looked at him incredulously and raised her eyebrow.
�Chris, is that really why you wanted to talk to me? To find out how I�ve been?� Looking a little sheepish, Chris glanced down at the floor and shrugged. Meeting her eyes again after a few seconds, he smiled slightly. �Not really Amy, that�s not why I asked you out here.�
�Then why did you?�
�It�s�kinda hard to explain Ames. I guess what I wanted to say was, well�I�m sorry.� Amy�s mouth dropped open in shock.
�You�re�what?� A guilty flush spread across Chris� cheeks at her look of disbelief.
�I�m sorry. I�m sorry for all the shit I put you through, I�m sorry for lying to you� fuck Amy- I�m sorry for everything, alright? Every Goddamned thing I did to hurt you�I�m sorry.�
Standing in the hallway across from him while he poured his heart out to her, Amy was shocked by what she felt�or rather, what she didn�t feel. Gone were all the feelings of tenderness and love - gone were the explosive feelings of passion and desperation. All that remained now was pity - pity and regret for not seeing who he was before.
�Oh Chris�� she murmured softly, causing him to look up at her in surprise. Pushing away from the vending machine, she stepped across the hallway towards him and placed her hand on his shoulder, her hazel eyes bright with emotion.
�It doesn�t matter anymore, I forgive you. I think I forgave you the second I walked into that room today and saw you with her - I saw how happy you looked, how happy she looked. I�d be an idiot not to see that you two are crazy about each other�� A small smile tugged at Chris� lips and he chuckled softly.
�Yeah�she�s something alright.� Glancing slyly at her from underneath his lashes, Chris reached out and gently nudged her shoulder. �What about you and Reso? I saw the sparks flying when you two walked in, fuck�he looked like he wanted to kill me when I came up to you!�
�Jason�s�protective.� Amy said quietly, blushing a little. A knowing smile came to Chris� face as he watched her expressions closely. �Special guy, huh?� Nodding shyly, Amy smiled and blinked dreamily.
�He�s the best�� Giving her shoulder a little squeeze, Chris looked longingly back down the hall towards the locker room where Trish and Jason were waiting for them - he was obviously missing Trish already. Ah, the sign of true love� Amy thought with a pang as she watched the emotions play out across her ex-lover�s face, wishing Jason were there with her right now to love her. Realizing what she�d just been doing, Amy grinned with her newfound enlightenment and waved her hand at Chris.
�Go on back to her, Chris�I�m sure she�s anxious to have you back with her.� Smiling at her gratefully, Chris nodded and then started off down the hallway. Pushing the door open, he walked up to Jason and smiled ruefully.
�You got a great girl there, Reso. I should know.� Bristling slightly at the older man�s words, Jason gasped softly seconds later, when Chris abruptly stuck his hand out to him. Eyeing him warily for a split-second, Jason tentatively reached out and grasped his hand firmly in his. Chris� eyes sparkled warmly.
�Take good care of her�� Stepping back from him, Chris turned and headed over to Trish, a loving grin plastered all over his shining face. Reaching down, he pulled her into his arms and immediately swept her up into a breathtaking kiss, the petite blond sighing happily and wrapping her arms around Chris� neck.
Jason watched them for a second, feeling irrationally jealous at the obvious love the blond couple had for one another. Sighing heavily, he turned and headed out into the hallway, shutting the door quietly behind him.
�Jason�� Hearing the softly spoken greeting, Jason turned and saw Amy standing there before him, wet tear tracks running down her flushed cheeks. A frown of concern twisting his face, Jason rushed forward and drew her into his arms, hugging her tightly to him.
�Amy honey, what�s wrong? What did that bastard say to you?� He asked frantically, leaning back and wiping the tears away with the pads of his thumbs. Smiling up at him sadly, Amy hiccuped and twined her fingers through his hair.
�Chris didn�t say anything.� Looking at her uncertainly, Jason hugged her tighter.
�Then what�s wrong?�
�Jason I�I love you.� Feeling a wild surge of joy course through his very soul, Jason smiled and then looked at her in confusion, a little tremor of worry suddenly overriding his happiness at her look of profound loss. Holding her face in his hands, he looked deeply into her eyes.
�And loving me is a bad thing?� Biting her lip for a second, Amy searched deeply within his warm brown eyes, seeking the answer she was looking for. Leaning forward, she placed her lips just below his ear and smiled.
�No�it�s the best thing that ever happened to me. You�ve taught me how to love again, Jason -I�ve been a fool for not admitting it to myself sooner�you complete me - you complete my soul.� Groaning, Jason crushed her to him and buried his face in the fragrant mass of her hair, his body shaking with the force of his emotions. He�d waited forever to hear her say those words�
�God, I love you so much Amy�you�re all I�ll ever need - in this life or the next�� Sighing happily at his words, Amy jumped up and wrapped her legs around his waist, not caring who might come by in the hallway and see them.
�Take me home Jason, make love to me�� Grinning widely, he was only to happy to comply�
THE END�