leave
it�s amazing
how you make your face just like a wall
how you take your heart and turn it off
how I turn my head and lose it all
She gazes at me for the longest time, her face not betraying any emotions. Then, she leaves. All I can do is watch as she slowly and silently closes the door behind her. I feel like I�m dying.
I thought it was love, and that it was forever. I was wrong. For the longest time I watched her, never taking my eyes off her just in case I miss something. I wanted to see everything, to see her. And the one time I look away, for the briefest second, I lose everything. I lose her.
it�s unnerving
how just one move puts me by myself
there you go just trusting someone else
now I know I put us both through hell
Our relationship, if you can call it that, wasn�t easy. From the beginning we identified every single thing that was wrong, and that could go wrong, if we ever got together. The list just kept on growing every day, but we really didn�t care. All I cared about was her. All I wanted, and needed, was her.
Then something happened, something that I missed. What exactly, I�ll never know. I�m not sure I want to. Whatever it was, she was suddenly turning to him for everything. Comfort, security, happiness. Love.
I�m not saying
there wasn�t nothing wrong
I just didn�t think you�d ever get tired of me
I�m not saying
we never had the right to hold on
I just didn�t wanna let it get away from me
It was wrong, plain and simple. Us was wrong. I often dreamed that we would be together forever, but I knew deep down that it would never last. How it was going to end, I wasn�t too sure. I tried not to think about it too much. When I was with her, nothing else mattered. Nothing but that very moment. I used to fantasise that we were the only two people in the world, and that nothing could touch us.
I didn�t want to lose what we had. With her I was the happiest I could remember ever being. I never wanted us to end. I never wanted anything more than us to be forever.
but if that�s how it�s gonna leave
straight out from underneath
then we�ll see who�s sorry now
if that�s how it�s gonna stand, when
you know you�ve been depending on
the one you�re leaving now
the one you�re leaving out
I never saw it coming. For all my watching, I sure as hell missed quite a lot. I thought that everything was going wonderfully, that it was better than ever. How could I have been so blind? Then again, when it came to love wasn�t everyone blind?
The thought of ever losing her always made my heart stop. Maybe I did see the signs, but I just ignored them. But it doesn�t matter anymore, does it? Because she�s leaving. She�s already left.
it�s aggravating
how you threw me on
and you tore me out
how your good intentions turn to doubt
the way you needed time to sort it out
She was the one who came to me. She needed help. Why me I don�t know, and I don�t care. She said that she had made some terrible mistakes, and now she was losing control of everything. Suddenly, she was depending on me to keep her on track and focused. It started off as friendship, but grew into something more. I wasn�t complaining. At that stage I was already deeply and irrevocably in love with her.
She often said THE words � �I love you�. I have to believe that whenever she said them, she really did mean it. The other possibility is just-
Who was it that said love lasts forever?
tell me is that how it�s going to end
when you know you�ve been depending on
the one you�re leaving now
and the one you�re leaving out
I never thought it would end this way. Then again, I never thought about it ever ending. I couldn�t. It didn�t end with shouts and curses, but with tears and apologies. A simple �I�m sorry�. And then she left.
Out in the hall I can hear Edge and Christian looking for me. They�re knocking on all the doors. It�s time to head for the hotel.
�Chris, you in here?�
It was funny, really. She left me. For him. Her husband.