Author: Katie Jones
Disclaimer: I don�t own them unfortunately.
Distribution: If you want to use it, go for it. Just please let me know where it is.
Rating: R, I think
Summary: Two men with the same problem try to focus on their current lovers and not their love for each other.
Notes: Umm. Four different points of view.
Jeff is smiling at his lover. How dare he! Does he think I care? Because I don�t. Why should I. Just because he is seemingly happy with Glenn. I am happy too. I have Chris. I don�t need Jeff anymore. He means nothing to me.
Chris loves me. I know he does. He�s always telling me he does. So why can�t I tell him? I know because that little rainbow headed brat is still the only man I love. God I hate him. But I love him. I don�t know. Chris swears that he doesn�t mind that I don�t tell him I love him but I don�t want to hurt him the way I hurt Jeff. That�s why we broke up because I couldn�t tell him That I loved, no love him. But he looks so happy with Glenn. I bet Glenn tells him he loves him. Bastard. Funny thing is I don�t know who the bastard is.
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In another's eyes
I'm someone who
Loves her enough to walk away from you
I'd never cheat, I'd never lie
In another's eyes
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I know Mark is watching me. Why? He doesn�t care. He has Chris. Little Mr. Perfect. God I sound bitter. I sound like I care. Which I don�t. I love Glenn. He�s the man I want to be with. Not Mark. Never again. But I miss the way Mark used to� �NO Jeff stop thinking that way Mark has Chris and you have Glenn You mean nothing to him� Somehow that doesn�t help. But he means nothing to me so we�re even.
I care about Glenn but I don�t love him. I�ve never loved him. I don�t even know why I�m with him except that, and yes I�m a prick for this, he reminds me of Mark. God I am such an asshole but so is Mark. That bastard never bothered to tell me he loved me. Oh sure he was always up for showing me, pun intended but all I ever needed was to hear him say it. Why couldn�t he just say it
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In another's eyes
I can do no wrong
He believes in me and his faith is strong
I'd never fall or even compromise
In another's eyes
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I love Jeff. He knows it. Mark knows it. Chris knows it. Even when I was with Chris I loved Jeff. But Jeff loves Mark. He always has and always will. Oh he�ll stay with me because I remind him Of Mark but he will never be able to say he loves me. They think I�m blind. That I don�t see how much Jeff longs to be with Mark. Even when I�m inside of him I can tell he�s thinking about Mark. It should piss me off but it doesn�t. That�s how much I love Jeff. I would give him back to Mark in a heartbeat if I though that Mark could make him happy. But I don�t think Mark will ever be able to say what Jeff needs to hear. So I say it for him. Pathetic I know but Love does crazy thing to you.
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In another's eyes
I'm afraid that I can't see
This picture perfect portrait
That they paint of me
They don't realize
And I pray they never do
'Cause every time I look I'm seein' you
In another's eyes
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Mark thinks I don�t know that he spends every second of every day thinking about Jeff. That�s okay because I have my secrets too. I love Mark. Not just oh-baby-I-love-you-fuck-me-harder kind of love but real love. It�s okay that he still loves Jeff. At least I know that he never once told Jeff that he loves him. So he�s mine. Because he will never utter those words to anyone. He isn�t capable of saying them. So I�ll let him fuck me , pretend I�m Jeff when we�re kissing and making love because I know he won�t go back to Hardy. He will never go back because Jeff won�t take him back without those three little words.
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In another's eyes
Starin' back at me
I see a sinking soul trying desperately
To turn the tide before it dies
In another's eyes
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Jeff and Mark
So I�ll go along pretending I don�t care about him. What could it possibly hurt? Nothing. As long as I keep my distance from him my lover will never know the difference. I will never stop loving him but I can�t be what he needs me to be.
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And what they don't see is killing me
And it's a blessing and a curse that love is blind
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Chris and Glenn
SO I�ll go on pretending that I don�t notice the little covert glances. I�ll let him pretend that I�m the one he wants. Who does it hurt? No one. As long as Jeff/Mark keeps their distance I get to stay with the man I love.
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In another's eyes
I'm afraid that I can't see
This picture perfect portrait
That they paint of me
They don't realize
And I pray they never do
'Cause every time I look I'm seein' you
In another's eyes
In another's eyes
In another's eyes
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That sucked. Didn�t it? I hope no one got too confused.
Katie