Author: Katie Jones
Disclaimer: I don�t own them unfortunately. No clue as to who owns the song but it ain�t me. Faith Hill sings it though. At least the version I�m using.
Distribution: If you want to use it, go for it. Just please let me know where it is.
Rating: NC-17, I guess
Summary: Jeff�s hearts been broken, somebody has a crush on him, Jeff was in a coma and now he�s awake. Wanna know more read the story.
Jeff sits astride a bench watching the older men play baseball. �Hey kid.�
�Hi Drew. What�s going on?�
�I just want to watch. I actually suck at baseball. Now hockey there�s a sport I can get behind.� He says with the intent of making Jeff smile.
It works, sort of. Jeff gives him a little half smile. �I actually wish I was out there playing with them. I love baseball.�
�Hey man I sat down to see if you were all right? You�ve been kinda down in the dumps lately.�
�Nothing big. The man I love is in love with someone else.�
�Jeff sweetie you gotta get over Jericho. He ain�t worthy of you.�
�I ain�t in love with Jericho. I never was. I love� never mind. I don�t want to talk about it.�
�Okay Jeff. But let me ask you a question. Are you sure it�s love?�
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If I�m not in love with you
Then what is this I�m going through, tonight
And if this heart is lying then
What should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I�m not in love with you
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�I don�t know what else it could possibly be Drew. I want to be by this man�s side. I want to be held in his arms. I want to feel him in my arms. I dream of him every night. I� Okay I don�t know what I�m talking about.�
�Oh Jeff.�
�Don�t Drew I don�t want your pity.�
�It�s not pity Jeff. Who is the guy?�
�Why does it matter?�
�Cause as soon as I find out I�m gonna go kick his ass for not wanting you.�
�Oh I�m sure he wants me. He just doesn�t love me.�
�Jeff you don�t need to wait around for some guy who can�t see how great you are. If this asshole can�t see how great you are than he doesn�t deserve you.�
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And if I don�t need your touch
Why do I miss you so much, tonight
If it�s just infatuation
Why is my heart achin�
To hold you forever
Give a part of me I thought I�d never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I�m not in love with you
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�Drew just leave it alone. I love him and he doesn�t love me. In fact he came to me and asked for my help on how to tell some other guy that he loves him. And I gave him the advice hoping he was talking about me. But when he didn�t say anything, I knew that I�m not the one for him.�
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Oh why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me
Like lovers lost in sweet desire
And why in dreams do I surrender
Like a little baby
How do I explain this feeling
Someone tell me
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Jeff turns back to the game and watches as Taker fields a ball. He bites his lip to keep a sob from escaping. Thinking to himself, he says �I don�t get it. I don�t want to feel this way. I hate feeling this way. Why can�t I be more lovable? Why doesn�t he love me?�
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If I�m not in love with you
Then what is this I�m going through, tonight
And if this heart is lying then
What should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I�m not in love with you
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The End
And there is a sequel on the way. I think the next one has the happy ending, I hope.
Katie