"I know that Kevin. But I've been in love with Bret for as long as I can remember. I can't remember a time when I wasn't in love with him."
"I know Shawn. Which is why I'm going to say what I'm about to say. We love you and we don't want to see you hurt� But� If it's truly what you want? Than we'll stay out of it and we'll support you unconditionally. Only because we love you."
"They don't approve."
"No but they will. They know you love him. They're just worried is all."
I nod my head and watch as he gets to his feet heading back to our friends. Bret makes his way towards me and smiles worriedly. "Are they going to kill me?"
"Only if you hurt me again."
"Right. Shawn�" He trails off as I place a finger against his lips.
"Shhhhhh. I know you're sorry. So am I. Let's just� Get over it, move past it." He nods his head and leans down brushing his lips across my cheek. That simple caress sends shivers down my spine. I'd forgotten how warm and pliable his lips are. He smiles at me and I can't help the grin that spreads across my face.
He takes my hand and leads me out to his car. We spend the next few hours talking, walking, playing with our kids, in general just being with one another. I'm saddened when he drives us back to the hotel. Cam and Blade are both pouting at us when Bret speaks up. "Why don't you two come to our house and crash? There's plenty of room even if Benoit is staying with us."
Blade and Cam turn to me expectantly. Well fuck. I don't know what to do. I want to say yes but I don't know if I can stay in his house and not in his bed. I turn back to see Cameron pouting and Blade just staring hopefully at me and I know then that I can't say no to them. I nod my head and feel Bret take my hand in his. "Good. Blade and Cam can share a room." He waits until I'm looking at him before mouthing his next words. "And maybe you and I can share a room?"
I gulp. As much as I want to be back in his bed I'm still a married man. Not that the fact that she's married stops Becca from fucking anything with legs. But I don't want her to be able to take Cam away from me so I shrug instead of answering him. I hop out of the car just as Benoit approaches. I miss their conversation as I'm climbing into my rental.
Bret's POV
I frown as Shawn pulls away from me until Chris climbs into the car in his seat. "Hey man. I'm going to room with Trish. Sorry if that's a problem."
"No problem man. So what's up with you and the blonde?"
"Not sure. But hey if things go as planned�" He trails off grinning at me. I roll my eyes and watch as he jumps from the car and heads towards the cute blonde. Hell if I was still into women I'd give Chris a good run for his money. As it is I'm more interested in a different blonde.
I frown when I realize he still hasn't come back. I tell the kids to stay put and I make my way towards Shawn's rental. He's sitting in the driver's seat staring blindly out the front window. "Shawn? Did I do something wrong?"
He turns wide blue eyes to me and shakes his head softly. "I just� As much as I want to be back in your bed� I'm still married Bret. I love you and want to be with you but� Well, I just can't give Becca any ammo to use to get Cam away from me. I love him so much. I don't know what I'd do without him."
I nod my head and pull him from the rental. "Come on. We'll go to my house. We'll get the kids settled and then you and I can have a long conversation about all of this."
He nods his head and climbs out of the car. I wrap him in my arms and he leans into me. I miss this. I miss being able to hold him.
"Bret� I�" I'm waiting anxiously for him to continue but he shakes his head. "Never mind."
I sigh and finally pull away from him. Tugging him towards my car I take his and Cam's bags and throw them in the trunk of my car before sliding into the drivers seat. I smile at Shawn but he's staring out the window. I really don't get what's going on with him. I mean so he doesn't want his wife to take his kid away from him. Does that mean he's considering divorcing her? Or am I just reading too much into this whole thing?
We pull into the driveway of my car and Blade hops out, Cam hot on his heels. They stop at the front door when they realize its locked. Blade turns and scowls at me but I just shake my head. I open the trunk and grab Cameron's and Shawn's bags before heading up to the front door. I unlock the door and the kids run up to Blade's room. A few seconds later and I can hear Blade's TV running and it sounds like they're watching cartoons. That should keep them busy for a while.
I head back outside and am not all that shocked to see Shawn sitting on the stairs that lead up to the front deck. I clear my throat and he turns to me with a soft smile. "It's beautiful here."
"That's why I still live here. I never could stand being away from my home for very long."
"It reminds me of Texas� only more mountains."
I laugh and sit next to him. "You know I have chairs up on the deck. They'd be better for your back."
He shrugs and leans back. "I'm okay. Should probably get some sleep since I didn't get any last night."
I laugh and he smiles at me. I'm watching that beautiful smile as it melts away. "I'm married Bret."
"I know you are."
"As much as I despise her� She's the mother of my child and� If I leave her she'll find a way to take Cameron from me. I know she cheats on me. She always has cheated on me. But� In Texas they really don't care about that. But if I cheat on her and she finds out? Well, she'll make sure I never see my son again."
"Shawn? I don't care if you're still married. She won't find out. Do you really think she has spies in Canada?"
"I don't know. For all I know� Cameron could tell her. He'd never do anything to hurt me and the reverse is true� but he's a child and children don't lie."
I sigh and nod my head before wrapping an arm around his shoulders. He leans against me and for right now I'm content to hold him like this. "Shawn? What are the chances of you and I ever being together again?"
"I don't know Bret. I know that I still love you with every breath I take. But as much as I love you I won't risk losing my son."
I nod my head and whisper. "I love you too Shawn. I never stopped loving you."
He nuzzles against me and I lean over kissing the top of his head. I feel him smile against my neck and I tighten my grip on him. We sit there like that for quite some time. Eventually, Blade and Cameron come downstairs and join us. They don't even blink twice about the way Shawn and I are sitting. When I look down to see why Shawn hasn't pulled away I force back a laugh.
He's sleeping in my arms. I grin at our children and warn them not to go near the road before getting to my feet and picking Shawn up. I grunt softly. He's heavier than my son is and that's about all I've been picking up weight-wise. I stumble a little as I make my way into the house. Eventually I make it up the stairs and into my room. I know he said he didn't want to sleep in my room but it's not like I'm going to be in the bed with him. Or at least that wasn't my plan until I slip on the throw rug and fall onto the bed on top of him.
I untangle my arms from him and pull back a little. He's so innocent when he sleeps. Well, okay to be honest everyone looks innocent when they sleep but he's so� Stunning. Okay I'm losing my focus. I close my eyes as I feel his hardened cock against mine. Opening my eyes back up I find him smiling up at me. "Is there a reason you're laying on top of me?"
"You fell asleep and I was carrying you to my bed and I slipped and fell and landed on top of you and haven't moved?"
His smile widens and he pulls my head down brushing our lips together. "You feel so good against me Bret."
I lean down to kiss him again when I hear the front door fly open and hear Blade calling for me telling me that Benoit's here with Lance and Jericho. I groan as he pushes me off of him. I watch with a smile as he rolls over and curls into a ball. "Just wake me up before six so I can get to the arena on time."
I lean over and kiss his cheek before heading downstairs.
Shawn's POV
I wait until he's out of the room before groaning out loud. "Fuck. I cannot believe that I'm doing this." I really can't believe I'm falling in love with him again. Not only am I falling in love with him again but I'm also considering sleeping in his bed and allowing him to fuck me. I can't do this. I can't let Becca have any reason to take Cam away from me.
As much as I love Bret, I can't lose my son because of him. I really can't. I don't know what I'd do without my boy. This whole thing is a mistake. Coming here with Bret is a huge mistake. Being here with Bret is a huge mistake. But at the same time I don't want to leave. I want to stay with Bret. I want to be with him. I love him.
No my life isn't too messed up. Not at all. I sigh and roll out of the bed. His bed. I look around his room and decide to be nosy. I walk over to his dresser drawers and begin looking at all of the pictures. I smile at the family pictures. Him with Blade. Him with his brothers. He's even got one of him, Owen and Blade. I'm still looking through the pictures when I come across one that makes my heart stop for a few seconds. How in the world did he get this picture? I know damn well that I never sent him the picture of Cam and me.
I can still remember going to get the pictures taken. Cam was so desperate to get out of it but they were for my mom and his mom for Mother's day. I figured that way my mom and Becca could both have pictures of the two of us. Becca hated the pictures so I went back and got her some of just Cam. I ended up sending the remainder of the pictures to Hunter and Kevin to pass out to the other guys since they're around them so much.
I pick up the picture and smile. It had to have been Kevin. Hunter never would have sent Bret anything. He may respect him but he sure as hell doesn't like him. Kevin on the other hand has always liked Bret.
I grin and continue looking through the other photos. There's one of him and me from right before the Iron Man match. He and I are both looking all intense and mean but inside we were both nervous as hell. I mean having to fill an entire hour with spots is just a flat out hard thing to do. Even if they aren't high spots which most of ours weren't.
I look at the rest of the pictures and smile at the picture of Benoit, Jericho and Lance. Those three really are just a different version of the Kliq. Actually though it looks too old to be recent so I'm guessing it was back when they were all training� or rather when Jericho and Lance were training. They're all grinning at the camera and quite frankly they look so goofy I'm finding it pretty damn hard not to laugh.
I glance over at the other three pictures and do a double take. There's one of Owen and I goofing around backstage. He was always so much fun to be around. Anyone who ever knew him loved to just be around him. The second to last picture is of Blade and me. He's sitting on my lap and I'm dead asleep. It's actually a cute picture if you can get past the fact that I'm drooling.
The last picture is one I never expected Bret to have. It's of the Kliq. I'm standing in front of Kev and Scott's next to him. You can just barely make out the fact that Kev's hand is permanently attached to Scott's ass. Hunter and Sean are on something behind Kevin and Scott making them look bigger than they are. They're just kind of dangling over those two.
I finally put the picture of Cam and I back and turn away from the photos. For the first time I take a good look at Bret's bed. It's huge. It has to be a king-size bed. I smile and then start blushing as my mind takes bad turns on me. I can't think of Bret like that. I can't think of him in a sexual way. Otherwise I'm never going to be able to stop myself from climbing in his bed and begging him to make love to me. And damn that sounds like a good idea to me right now. His thick long cock buried inside of me�
"Shawn! Come on man. You've gotta get going or you're gonna miss the show." Thank god for that interruption. I was� Well never mind what I was ready to do. I have to go now.
I head down the stairs and out the front door. Cam begs me from the front porch to let him stay there with Blade. I turn to Bret who smiles. "No problem. I don't mind watching these two."
I smile my thanks and even though our sons and his friends are watching I jump back onto the porch and lean towards him pulling him to me and kiss him. We both moan softly before I have the chance to pull away. I grin and grab my bag before hopping into Lance's car. At least I'm assuming it's Lance's car since I know he lives in Calgary and he's driving. All three of them are grinning at me and I just shake my head.
Turning away to stare out the window I contemplate the intelligence of being with Bret again. On one hand it's what I want more than anything. On the other hand, I can't cheat on Rebecca until I get custody of my son. And that's why I've been having such a hard time with everything. I shake my head as the realization sinks in. That's why I'm so hesitant to sleep with Bret. Now to call a lawyer and set everything in motion.
I obviously have to divorce Becca if I ever hope to have a chance with Bret. But at the same time I have to get custody of Cameron before I can be with him because otherwise I'm all but screwed as far as ever seeing my son again. So I'll call my lawyer in Texas and tell him I want him to draw up divorce papers where the only thing I ask for is joint custody of Cam. She can have the rest as far as I'm concerned. She'll never have what means the most to me as far as my job goes and that's the fans. They're the reason I came back to the business even though I no longer wrestle.
We arrive at the arena and I hurry back to the locker rooms. I want to talk to Kev about who I should call. I mean for a lawyer. He and Tamara have a pretty good arrangement. I'd like to use the same guy even if our situations are completely different.
Finding Kevin talking quietly with Scott I change my mind. I don't want to disturb the two of them. They have a right to their privacy. I shrug and start wandering the halls. Its not like I'm exactly a welcome addition in the locker room. Oh the fans adore me still which truth be told I get off on but by the same token the guys in the back hate my guts. With the exception of Kliq, none of the guys in the back room would care if I went away for forever and they never heard my name uttered ever again.
I shake my head. That alone is reason enough not to be with Bret. If he ever decides he wants back in the game I won't be the one to stand in his way. Now that I'm away from him I'm thinking a little more clearly. This would never work. It doesn't matter how much I love him. None of it matters. Only Cameron matters anymore.
SEVERAL WEEKS LATER
Bret's POV
I watch out the front window of my house expecting to see Shawn pull up at any minute. I don�t know why. We haven't actually talked since that day that they were all here for the show. Hell, Kevin was the one who came and picked up Cameron the next day. Kevin said something about Shawn not feeling well and staying with him and Scott. I don't know what it is I did wrong but I want to make it up to him. I know the WWF is in town again. Benoit swung by a few hours ago with Trish at his side. Lance and Jericho also swung by and said hi. We talked for a while but when I mentioned Shawn's name everyone got real quiet like I had uttered a bad word, which, in all reality, wouldn't have fazed any of them in the least.
I know Blade asked Chris to ask Shawn if he could see Cam and Benoit said he'd be happy to ask. But when I asked Chris if he'd tell Shawn I wanted to talk to him he shied away and changed the subject almost immediately. So here I sit inside my house waiting for Shawn to show up with his son. I've followed Shawn's actions in the ring close enough lately that I know he and Becca got divorced and he has custody of Cam. I don't know the details but I do know that now he and I can be together without worry of any repercussions yet I still haven't heard from him in weeks. I'm starting to think that's he played me for a fool this entire time. And hell maybe he did.
I nearly jump out of my skin when I hear the car door slam. I hadn't been paying attention enough to see Shawn drive up with Cameron in tow. I watch almost unseeingly as Cameron all but runs up the front steps. God he's so beautiful. Shawn not Cameron. He's all tanned muscle and long flowing blonde hair. I scowl when I realize he's not alone. His arm is wrapped around one of the Divas. Fucked if I know her name though. Trish and Steph are the only divas in the WWF currently whose names I know. She's a cute little blonde though. If I weren't so in love with Shawn, I'd think they make a cute couple, the petite little blonde and the tanned god of man� and no I'm not biased not at all.
I walk slowly to the door waiting until Cameron presses the doorbell before opening up. "Hey kid. Blade's in his room." I watch as Cameron rushes past me and up the stairs. Turning back to the couple in front of me I force a smile onto my face. "It's been a while Shawn."
"I know. How's it going Bret? Oh by the way, this is�" I don't even have to hear him say her name. Suddenly it flashes into my mind. Torrie Wilson. I swear I thought she was with Kidman though. At least she was last time I saw her. "Torrie. Torrie Wilson."
"Shawn can we talk?"
Shawn's POV
God, I didn't think it would be this hard to see him again. All I feel like doing is shoving her out of my arms and leaping into his. I shake my head to clear the thoughts as well as in answer to his question. "Actually Bret," I say my voice rushed. I wonder if he can tell I'm in a hurry to get the hell away from him. "I was wondering if you'd watch Cam for the night. He really wants to hang out with Blade and Torrie and I want some time alone. So will you please?"
He nods his head slowly and then meets my eyes with a pleading stare. "Can we talk when you come to pick him up tomorrow?"
"Actually, either Scott or Kev is going to be picking him up. I'm busy. I have a signing to go to." Torrie starts to correct me. She knows as well as I do that I don't have a signing to go to at all but I squeeze her a little too tightly and she quiets down. I thank Bret quickly before he can change his mind or I can change mine and pull her into my rental.
She glares at me from the passenger seat. "You just blatantly lied to him. Why?"
I shrug. "Maybe I just wanted to spend more time with you sweetheart."
She grins at that and snuggles against my side. Every instinct I have is screaming at me to push her away but I won't. If I do push her away, I know I'll end up back in his arms and I don't want that to happen. Not for my sake. God not for my sake. But for his. It's not a well known fact but a lot of the guys are excited because there's rumours floating around in the back that Bret's re-signed with the company and I won't get in the way of his comeback. Even if he is going to be like me and just another manager walking to the ring cheating for his boys� Or in my case cheating for Kevin's boys.
I feel Torrie's lips brush against my neck and it takes everything in me not to shudder in revulsion and pull away. I force myself to wrap an arm around her and pull her tighter. I hate that I'm using her to forget about Bret but I just don't see any other way out of this. Not that she helps much. But I am getting kind of used to having her around.
Bret's POV
I'm still standing at the front door staring outside blankly. I know he lied to me. No one has any signings this week. Not even the guys who're from here. Why did he lie to me? Doesn't he� I shake my head and laugh softly. Look at me. I've been reduced to a whining ex all because he moved on. Obviously he doesn't love me anymore. Maybe he never did� Although every fiber of my being is screaming out how much of a lie that is. But by lying to myself about how he feels it makes me feel better about him pushing me away. It makes it easier to stomach the fact that he'd rather be with some bleached blonde bimbo than me.
I finally shut the door and walk slowly into the living room. Suddenly I feel eighty years old. I sink onto the couch and warn myself not to cry. That doesn't stop the tears from sliding down my face. He really doesn't love me anymore.
I look up what feels like seconds later and meet Blade's worried eyes. Any remnants of tears are long gone my face is dry and while my eyes are sore and so is my throat I know that if I were to look in a mirror my eyes would be clear. "What's up Blade?"
"It's lunchtime Daddy. Cam and I are hungry."
I nod my head and get to my feet almost mechanically. I head into the kitchen and swear when I open the refrigerator door. I knew I'd forgotten to do something last night before I picked up Blade from his mothers. I turn around to see both boys staring at me wide eyed and looking a little afraid. I close my eyes to calm myself down and when I open them Blade and Cam are sitting at the table talking quietly. When they realize I'm staring at them Cameron smiles at me. God. Give the kid a few years and he's going to be the spitting image of his daddy. He's already got that smirk that's always driven me crazy.
"Bret? You love my daddy right?" I nod my head slowly knowing I really shouldn't be having this conversation with children. "So why are you just giving up? He doesn't love the witch. He's just using her to try and forget about you."
I stare at him blankly and he laughs before turning to Blade. My son grins at him and turns to me. "Dad, listen I know you're hurting and probably scared he'll turn you away� but just think about this for a minute. If he really didn't love you, why would he run away so quickly after dropping off Cam? Why didn't he stick around and talk to you?"
I shrug. I cannot believe I'm actually considering listening to these two. But unfortunately what they're saying makes sense. I shake my head. "Jesus. What in the hell made you two so smart?"
Cameron and Blade grin at one another again. "We want to be brothers and that can't happen unless you and Shawn get together."
Cam chimes in. "Yeah. Besides, my daddy loves you even if he won't admit it to anyone but Uncle Kevin. But I have heard him say it enough to Uncle Kev. He's always thinks I'm sleeping but I want him to think that."
I shake my head again. I don't know about these two. They're far too young to be this smart about things like love. Especially love between Shawn and me. "Are you two hungry or not?"
They nod their heads and we head out to eat. Afterwards, I head to the hotel where I know Kevin is staying and weasel his room number out of the desk clerk. I head up in the elevator with Cameron and Blade looking at me puzzled. I just shrug and answer their unspoken question. "I want to talk to Kevin and see if he'll tell me what's going on."
They both nod happily and the minute the elevator doors open Cameron takes off. I figure our best bet is to follow him. I stop short at the sight that greets me when I turn the corner. Shawn is arguing with Torrie and she reaches out just as I turn the corner and slaps him. Granted she didn't slap him all that hard but his head still snaps back from the blow. "I can't believe you called out his name. You fucking sick fucking bastard. You'd rather fuck a man� a broken down *old* man at that than be with me? Well fuck you Shawn. I don't need you."
Shawn's POV
I turn my eyes back to her and meet seething green eyes. I know my eyes are darkened with anger. "I don't need you either. Lord knows fucking your skanky ass hasn't helped me forget him. I can never forget him. I love him. But you? You were just a cheap piece of trash I've been using to pass the time until I came to my senses."
I can feel some watching me sending shivers prickling up my spine but Torrie's hand connecting with my cheek again forces my mind back to the matter at hand. "Face it Torrie. I'm not the sick one here. Not even because I've been dreaming of someone else while I was fucking you. You're the sick one here. You're the one who came begging on hands and knees for me to take you in. All because Billy-boy dumped your ass and left you hanging. And who was it he dumped you for again? Oh that's right. He dumped you for Rey Rey didn't he?" I'm expecting the slap this time and manage to block it. She doesn't it that hard but I'm gonna have her hand print across my face just the same. "Don't ever fucking hit me again bitch. Next time you try you're gonna be on your ass before your hand leaves your side." She backs up and glares daggers at me one last time before fleeing down the hallway.
I jump slightly at the voice behind me. "Little harsh weren't you?"
I know that voice better than I know my own. I'd recognize the way he smells from a hundred yards away. Fuck. Why'd he have to see that? Why'd he have to hear that? I turn around a sheepish smile on my face. "Hey Bret. I guess you saw that huh?"
"Heard what was said too. So who's the guy?"
"What guy?" I was really hoping he hadn't heard that one.
"The guy you said you'd never forget. The one you said you love. The one whose name you called out while fucking her. The one she said was a broken down old man." His voice sounds hopeful. I don't want to tell him the truth but I can't hurt him by lying. Instead I turn away and stare at the ground. I hear Blade and Cameron playing around the corner and I hear Kevin's deep voice heading our way. "We need to work this out Shawn. If you don't love me than tell me so. Just tell me you don't love me and I'll leave you alone forever. But do it now because I've been in love with you for forever now. I can't keep hanging on to something that's in the past. I cannot keep doing this Shawn. I love you more than anything in my life with the exception of Blade. You're everything to me plain and simple. But I can't keep hanging on to you if what we had� what we could have together is in the past."
I'm nearly in tears by the time he finishes his speech. I look up tears shining in my eyes and meet his beautiful brown eyes staring back at me, the unshed tears clearly visible. "I� Bret." His name comes out as a sigh as I realize that any chance of me turning him away has slipped through my fingers. I shouldn't have looked in his eyes. If I hadn't I wouldn't have realized that no matter what I do� No matter who I fuck� I will never forget him. I will never stop loving him. I step forward and press our bodies together. It's to both our credits that he doesn't pull away. I smile, almost shyly before speaking again. "I can't tell you I don't love you. I've tried for weeks to ignore it. I've tried for weeks to forget about you. I can't. I love you Bret. I always have. I always will. But I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to see you hurt."
His arms move around me and he holds our bodies together. He leans over kissing me softly. Fuck. Why do I always forget how damn soft his lips are? I always forget how good his mouth feels against mine. I'm gone. I'm so far gone over this man. He pulls back and smiles softly at me. "The only way I'm going to be hurt is if you don't� If you aren't mine. I love you Shawn and the one thing in this world that hurts me more than anything is going to bed at night and not having you in my arms."
I gently rub our bodies together. Hey I got a quick divorce. I'm a free man and thanks to Kevin I have solo custody of my son and Becca's sitting in jail somewhere. I knew she cheated on me. I just never knew how badly she was fucking me over until Kevin hired a private detective. Who knew that my ex wife was into drugs? I certainly didn't and by now you'd think I'd know the signs. Lord knows I've been through it enough. Anyhow, Texas isn't to kind on mother's who do drugs and ignore their children even if Cam is old enough to look out for himself. Anyhow she ended up spending about eighty percent of what I had in our savings account on her drugs. Makes me wonder where she was going to get the money if I hadn't gone back to work.
I shake my head clearing these thoughts out and reach up tangling my fingers in his thick dark hair. I'm fully aware that Cameron and Blade are standing at the other end of the hall with Kevin and Scott but I'm not entirely sure I care right now. I pull his mouth against mine and keep the kiss soft and gentle at first. Our mouths move against each other easily like we'd never been apart.
This one kiss is more heated than anything I've felt since we were together originally. His hands are moving up and down my back never straying low enough for me. My hands are still tangled in his hair keeping us from breaking apart for air. Even though my lungs are starting to feel like they're on fire I don't want this kiss to end.
Finally though we have to break apart. We don't move apart though just pull our faces back. I rest my head on his shoulder facing his neck wanting to be close to him. "I love you Bret. If you really want me I'm yours." I whisper against his neck. I know we shouldn't be publicly doing this, especially not with both our children present but I don't really give a flying fuck what anyone thinks.
He pulls back a little and smiles at me when I turn puzzled eyes to his. "Oh trust me Shawn. I want. I definitely want you. I love you too." I swear part of me just melted. I can barely stand for how turned on I am right now. "Let's go get your bags and go back to our house."
"Our house?"
"Our house." He says nodding his head. Hmmm. Do I tell him now I don't want to leave Texas or should I wait? I vote for now.
"You know my home is in Texas." I hear one of our kids say aww man in that way that only children have. "Bret it's not that I don't love it up here but�" I trail off as he rubs his thumb against my bottom lip.
"I know. So we have two homes. Mine here and yours there. I'm not asking you to leave Texas Shawn. I just� I can't leave Calgary. My family is here. Even if I can't stand them they are my family."
I nod my head. Well this was a problem I hadn't foreseen. I start to pull away from him but he holds me even tighter. "Shawn, we can work this out. I'll occasionally fly down there with Blade to be with you and you'll fly up here to be with Cam a couple of times a month. This is completely doable and I meant what I said. I want you in my life no matter what the cost."
Bret's POV
I wait anxiously for him to answer me. I can't move down to Texas. It's not that I wouldn't be willing to. I just� I can't be that far away from Blade on a day to day basis. I can tell Shawn is contemplating the position we're both in and finally thankfully he nods. I hear both our kids shout for joy and laugh when Shawn turns red.
Kevin laughs as well causing us to look up at the tall blonde. "Well fuck. It's about time knuckleheads. Blade and Cam can stay with me tonight so you two can be alone." He wiggles his eyebrows suggestively as I consider how hard it would be to hit him and not get killed.
Shawn's laughing silently against my shoulder and I roll my eyes. "Thanks man." I wrap my arm around his waist and ask him quietly for his room number. He tells me and we head to his room ducking in and grabbing his bags before heading outside to my car and eventually to my house.
We barely make it through the front door before he's got his tongue down my throat. I moan into his mouth and drop his bags on the floor before picking him up and carrying him up the stairs. I drop him unceremoniously on my bed and whip off my t-shirt. He laughs but is tearing his clothes off as well.
Soon we're both naked and lying side by side on my bed, our bed, our cocks pressed together almost painfully as he grinds his hips into mine. "Fuck. Stop Shawn." I climb off the bed when he lets go of me and duck into the bathroom. I smile as I walk back into our room. "Lube." I answer his question before he asks it. He grins and reaches out taking the tube from me. He pauses and stares up at me those wide blue eyes brimming with what look suspiciously like fear. "What's' wrong Shawn?"
"Maybe you should wear a condom. I haven't been with any guys since you but Becca�" He trails off and look down at the bedspread. I snort softly and sit down on the bed next to him tilting his face up to meet mine. He smiles softly. "I haven't been tested in a while. I didn't realize quite how bad she was fucking me over."
I frown. I really don't want to wear a condom even though I know it's probably a good idea. Especially since Kevin explained everything Becca had done to him. Not only all of the guys she fucked while married to him but the drugs. "Do you think you can wait until you've been tested?"
"We're talking six months until I can get a second test. I ain't waiting half a year."
I laugh and nod my head. "Okay but tomorrow I'm taking you to my doctors and we're getting you tested. Until then I guess we use condoms."
He nods his head looking as sad as I feel. I could throw caution to the wind but� I know damn well that I won't. I go back into the bathroom and frown. "Fuck."
"What?" He calls from the bedroom.
"I only have one condom."
He's frowning when I return to the bedroom condom in hand. "Well� I mean� I can suck you off and then you can fuck me."
"I don't want to get off without you. There's a drugstore about five minutes from here. I'll just run down there and then�" I stop talking and grin at him. I start laughing and sink onto the bed. "Do you realize how much we sound like horny teenagers?"
He laughs and nods his head. "Yeah so. Hurry up already."
I nod my head and grab my pants pulling them back on. "I'm also gonna grab some food since I know how much you like to eat after cumming."
He sticks his tongue out at me and I laugh before grabbing my wallet and heading out into the night.
Half an hour later I duck into my kitchen and drop off the food before heading to my bedroom. I fling open the door and sigh as I realize he's asleep and his stomach is covered in cum. Shrugging I drop the box of condoms into my nightstand and strip before laying down next to him. He wraps himself around me and I've never felt more right. My life has never felt so secure. I smile knowing that it's taken us a long time but we're finally where we belong. With each other.
THE END