Dedication: To my evil twin, B, for making me a Molly/Raven �shipper. Her little payback for me making her a Steph/Jericho �shipper.
Crash and Burn
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It�s hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can�t take anymore
He�s like no man I�ve ever met before. Yet, there�s something about him that calls to me. It�s not pity, nor is it sympathy. It�s something deeper, something more fundamental.
I watch him. He�s a loner, and he acts as if he doesn�t care. But I know he does. He cares just as deeply as anyone else, maybe even more so. When that Ninja woman left him he was devastated. I could see it in his eyes. He had thought he had found someone, and she had turned out to be just like the rest of them.
I can�t help but watch him. He draws me. One word comes to mind whenever I look at him.
Wild.
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I�ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You�re not alone
I�m always here. For him. But he won�t let me near, he continually pushes me away. But I can�t leave him. Despite my cousins� insistence that I let him be, I can�t do it. They want me to leave him. I can�t. I won�t.
He acts as if he doesn�t even care about me, but I know that he needs me. And that�s not my ego talking, it�s my heart. I know that in his own way he does love me. Almost as much as I love him.
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You�re caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can�t face the day
He�s built a million concrete walls around himself, and when I manage to finally break one down, another ten take it�s place. Some days are harder than others, but I continue to chip away. I want to know who he is, and I want him to be the one to tell me.
I want to know makes his deepest fears, his biggest dreams, his most outrageous thoughts. Everything.
If only he�ll let me.
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I�ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You�re not alone
Even in his sleep, he finds no respite from whatever it is that troubles him during the day. Every night I stay up, watching him. Watching over him. He�s always restless, always tossing and turning, murmuring.
But I can never hear what he�s saying, what he�s dreaming about. And in the morning, he refuses to talk. So, I just sit there in the dark, smoothing back his hair, murmuring words of my own. Sometimes I think he can hear me, and he�ll become peaceful. But only for awhile, then his nightmares return. Every night I tell him what he refuses to hear when awake.
�You�re not alone.�
Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it�s over you�ll breathe again
You�ll breathe again
Some days are easier than others, and some are just plain impossible. But I won�t leave him. When he�s old and gray I�m still going to be right there, beside him.
It�s hard, and it hurts. But I have enough love for the both of us, and I know that one day in the future all this will change. And he will look at me, and finally see that I�m different. From that Ninja woman, from my cousins, from everybody else.
He will look, and realise that I�m me, and that I�ll never turn my back on him.
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I�ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You�re not alone
He does love me. In his own way, he cares. Sometimes it�s just so hard to believe it myself, but then he does something that restores my faith all over again.
He�ll smile. At me. And all those days that I couldn�t reach him, that he pulled away from me for fear of getting to close, they all disappear. With just one smile.
At me.