Series: Life Is A Lemon And I Want My Money Back
Author: Katie
E-mail: [email protected]
Disclaimer: I don't own 'em & I'm not claiming that this happened, only in my mind.
Distribution: Only at Castles in the Sky http://members.tripod.com/katemarie_1
Rating: NC-17
Het/Slash/Both: Slash
Summary: Kevin tries to find a way to tell Shawn he loves him.
Note: Seventh story in the series. Directly follows Just Friends in the series, which follows What Tomorrow Brings.
Another Note: Thanks as always to AJ for betaing this *G*
He's just told me he can't talk for one week. I know I'm frowning and I must confuse the hell out of him when I start smiling. "You and I are going to talk. Or rather I'm going to talk and for once in your life you're going to shut up and listen."
He shakes his head and tries to mimic being tired but I don't buy it for a second. I grab his hand and pull him down to the nurse's station where this huge giant of a man is standing there waiting. He hands Shawn some papers to sign and starts checking him out. I can't help myself as I slide an arm around his shoulders. No man should have to endure this goofy looking bastard as a lover. I find myself grinning at the thought and suddenly the big goof backs away and finds something more interesting than Shawn. Like there is such a thing. Shawn laughs and then winces as his voice comes out more of a high pitched whine than anything. I start laughing at him because he sounds so cute. I guess I shouldn't have laughed because suddenly his elbow finds its way into my ribs. I grunt and then force myself to grin. He so fucking clueless it's not even funny. He starts to smile back and my grin widens. There's no better feeling than having Shawn throw one of his grins my way.
I watch as he shakes his head before shoving the papers that he had just signed at the nurse and walks away. I don't know what I said or did wrong but I have to make up for walking out on him. Jesse is waiting for us and smiles when he sees me with my arm wrapped around Shawn's shoulders. I shake my head slightly and he just nods.
Quickly he climbs in the back seat and I hear him ask Shawn how his throats doing. I feel like reaching back there and slapping the moron. He just had the shit choked out of him by that fuck Taker. I swear the minute I see that man he's dead meat. I frown as Shawn looks away staring out the window. I want nothing more than to reach over and pull him close to me. I hear his sigh and it tears me up that I can't do anything about it. I really want nothing more than Shawn in my life as my lover. Fuck being friends. I've got enough friends. What I need is a lover. Correction. What I need is Shawn.
I am glaring in the mirror at Jesse as we pull to a stoplight. He's sitting in the back seat making crude gestures between Shawn and me. Little fucker. But actually I'd laugh in other circumstance. I adore Jesse. He's a cute kid. I just wish it were him I was in love with. My life would be a whole lot fucking simpler.
I look over and Shawn is still staring out the window. I watch helplessly as he climbs out of the car as soon as I stop. He takes off without a word and I'm left sitting in the car with a man I adore but not the man I love. Fuck. What the hell did I do to deserve having my life this fucked up?
Jesse climbs in the front seat next to me and smiles that sweet gentle smile of his. "It's okay big guy. He's just upset right now. He'll get over it."
"Fuck Jesse. What am I going to do?"
"You're going to give him some space for the next few weeks and in the meantime you're going to go find Taker and beat the shit outta the bastard for fucking with what's yours."
I grin. Jesse's a smart kid and he's definitely got the right idea. I climb out of the car and he's quick to follow behind. It doesn't take me long to find the Dead Man. He's sitting in the lobby hitting on Shannon Moore. Well fuck maybe I should let Benoit find them. Nah, I know what Benoit can do. I saw what he did to Shawn for kissing Shannon, which Shawn thinks I don't know who did it to him but I found out. I'd rather dispense this justice my way. I walk over and without warning grab the redhead by the hair and drag him out of the building. I see Shannon trying to follow but he's waylaid by Jesse. Good boy. Road Dogg knows exactly what's expected of him.
I drag Taker outside and have just begun beating him when I dimly hear a car pull up. I hear Chuck trying to calm someone down and I'm assuming its Bret. I know damn well that he wants to hurt Taker as badly as I do. Fucker fucked with his lover even though they weren't lovers at the time. I hear another car pull up but quite frankly I'm more interested in choking the life out of Taker than in what's going on around me. Suddenly I feel two pairs of strong arms wrap around my upper arms and they pull back with all of their strength. I kick out with my feet and grin satisfactorily when I hear and feel Taker's ribs crack on impact. Fucking bastard dared to put his hands on my lover? I'll show him. I reach out and kick once more landing square in the redhead's crotch. I hear his high-pitched squeal and laugh.
Suddenly I'm being let go and I turn to my captors. I smile at Chuck and Sean and nod my head in Bret's direction. I look up and grin at my boys who are all standing there a little dumbfounded. Jeff walks over, looks at Taker, looks up at me, looks at Sean and then smacks his lover. "Idiot. I said get him away from Taker, not let him break the stupid fucks' ribs."
Sean tries to speak but Jeff shuts him up with a glare. I start laughing and Jeff turns that glare on me. Fuck. I quiet down immediately. Now I know why Sean is so whipped. Fuck Jeff looks mean when he's pissed off. Not that he could actually hurt me but still.
I watch dimly aware that Jeff is helping Taker to his feet. I smile crookedly and reach out with one hand catching the redhead around his throat. I start squeezing and pull him so that our faces are inches apart. "Listen up and listen close you stupid fuck. If you ever, and I mean ever, touch my Shawn again, what I did to you just now, tonight? That's gonna look like a four year old hit ya. Get what I'm saying?"
He nods his head and I release him. I watch with a smile as he drops to his knees. Jeff turns and glares at me. "Dammit Kevin. He's half dead already."
"Ya know what Jeff? I don't really give a rat's ass about that pile of shit for several reasons. One? He fucked with Chuck. Two, he fucked with Sanders. Three? He fucking dared to touch Shawn. For any one of those alone, I'd gladly murder the fucking bitch. All three combined? Well, he's lucky I'm letting him live." I turn on my heel and walk back into the hotel.
Jesse is still standing there with Shannon. He lets go of the young blonde as soon as I approach. "Well?"
"He'll live. He won't be able to breathe very easily for the next few weeks but he'll live."
Jesse nods his head and watches as Shannon runs outside. "So what are you going to do about Shawn?"
"What the fuck can I do? He's obviously not interested in talking to me right now so I'll let him cool off for a while. There's not a whole lot else I can do at the moment."
I watch as Jesse nods his head. He smiles and then steps forward leaning up on tiptoes and kissing me. "Thanks big guy."
"For what Jess?"
"For kicking his ass. For� For not telling anyone why you're suddenly hanging with me. For being so in love with Shawn that I don't feel threatened when I sleep in your room. For� protecting me from him for the past few weeks."
I smile softly. I know it's been hard on him. I also know that Jesse will tell the ones he loves when the time is right but for now� Well for now, I'll keep his secret. "Come on kid. Let's get your tired little ass into bed."
He laughs. "Yeah. I'm the one who's tired old man."
I laugh as he helps me into the elevator and presses the button for our floor. Little fucker knows me too well. We get to our room and I'm not too surprised to see Rob standing there wearing a grin� and nothing else. I roll my eyes as Jesse pulls out our room key and scoots past the flexible blonde. He opens the door and then looks back at me. I just nod my head and he steps into the room closing the door behind himself. "What do you want Rob?"
"Isn't it obvious?"
"What's obvious to me is you aren't half as� half the man you want everyone to think you are? I mean I know there are guys in the back who stuff but� That's ridiculous." I'm trying everything I can to embarrass him. It's not that I don't want him. Well actually it is that I don't want him. I only hooked up with him in the first place because he looks so fucking much like Shawn.
His face is on fire and he looks pissed. "You know you want me Kev. You wanted me weeks ago and you have to want me now."
"Actually Rob� What I want� Is for you to leave me alone. Jesse's waiting for me and I really don't like to keep him waiting." It's the truth. He can't quite handle being alone in any given room for any amount of time by himself. I'm just leading Rob to believe more than that's going on between Jess and I.
He growls and stalks towards me. "You fucking asshole. You think you can just fuck me and walk away? I swear to you, if you aren't back in my bed by the end of the week� I'll make you wish you were never born."
I'm already wishing that. I just wish this little pile of shit would leave me alone and let me get some sleep in peace. I shove past him and knock three times on the door. It's my signal to Jesse that it's me. So far no one really knows what he and I are doing together. I want to keep it that way until he's comfortable being around the guys alone again.
He pulls open the door and smiles softly at me. If it weren't for Shawn, I could easily see myself falling for Jesse. As is he's head over heels in love with Raven so I wouldn't stand a chance. I shake my head to clear my thoughts and step into the room.
Jesse smiles shyly at me. "Kev? I don't think I can sleep tonight. Do you mind if I stay up watching movies?"
I yawn before answering. "Jess, would it make you feel better if I agreed to sleep in your bed?"
He nods his head and climbs onto my bed. He watches with a timid smile as I strip out of my clothes. I've never slept in anything and I refuse to do so now. He strips down to his boxers before sliding under the covers. I smile at him. I feel so bad for him. After all Taker took advantage of him and he's terrified that every guy he meets is going to do the same. I don't know why he trusts me but I'd never take advantage of him. I slide into the bed and he immediately scoots over so that he's right next to me pressing his body against mine.
I bite back a laugh as he sighs happily and curls his arm around my chest. I wrap my arm around his shoulders and lean over kissing the top of his head. "Go to sleep little one."
He nods his head and I stay awake listening to the sound of his breathing evening out. I sigh and close my eyes waiting for sleep to overtake me.
The Next Morning
I wake up stiff and still tired. I didn't fall asleep until around four o'clock and it's only nine o'clock now. I smile at Jesse as he rubs his eyes. He looks up and smiles at me. "Thank you Kev."
I smile at him as he climbs out of the bed and heads into the bathroom. He's such a sweet kid. I'm lost in thought as someone knocks on the door causing me to jump. I laugh at myself and head for the door, not caring about the fact that I'm naked.
I pull open the door and stare in shock at the blonde standing in front of me. He hands me a piece of paper and I unfold it carefully as he pushes past me. I watch as he sits down on my bed and frown. I look down at the note and begin to read it.
Kevin
I know you're with Jesse and I'm happy for you. Whatever it is you have to say to me I couldn't really care less because I know you don't love me. Just know that even though this will mean the end of our friendship I do love you and I cannot be just friends with you. I'm sorry. I love you too much to be just friends anymore.
Love
Shawn
I'm scowling by the time I'm done reading the note. I look over at the young blonde and my scowl deepens as I see a tear trickle down his cheek. I walk over to him and wipe the tear away. "Shawn, who the fuck said Jesse and I are a couple?"
He just shrugs and looks away. I grab his chin and force him to look at me. "Shawn, listen up and listen carefully� The only reason I've been spending time with Jess lately is because he needs a friend he can trust. I can't go into detail because it's not my story to tell but I love you not him. I never should have told you I didn't want to see you again. I was wrong. I can't stand not being with you. I love you Shawn. Get that through that thick skull of yours. I love you."
He looks up at me and those Caribbean blue eyes of his are shining with unshed tears. I lean forward and kiss him softly. "Shawn baby don't cry. I'm sorry. I love you though. I can't keep lying to myself or to you. I love you and I want us to be together."
He reaches up and caresses the side of my face before pulling me to him and kissing me softly. I want to hear him say the words even though I know he can't talk right now. He leans his head against my shoulder and then jumps away from me as the door to the bathroom opens up. He smiles shyly at Jesse who grins at me. "Let me grab some clothes and I'll get out of your guys way."
"Wait Jesse. I don't want you going out alone." He nods his head and moves over to his suitcase. He pulls on some clean clothes and I lean forward kissing Shawn softly. "Give me five minutes to get showered and dressed."
They both nod their heads and I see Jesse sit next to Shawn right as I duck into the bathroom.
Jesse's POV
"Hey Shawn. I'm glad you guys are finally together."
He looks over at me and I can't help the smile that crosses my face. It's no wonder Kev is in love with him. He's so gorgeous. He makes a few gestures with his hands that I can't figure out until he mimics writing. I nod my head and grab a pad of paper and a pen. He writes Why are you with Kevin? What happened to you?
I frown. I guess part of me knew Kev would tell him that we weren't any thing other than friends. I shrug and look away. I really don't want to discuss the fact that Taker raped me with anyone. It's bad enough that Kevin knows. I really don't want to tell the world. But I suppose telling Shawn won't hurt anything.
"I was raped. He's the one who found me."
He writes something else and places a hand on my arm as I read it. Who? How long ago? Did you tell anyone other than Kev?
I swallow as I pull away slightly. With a sigh I begin speaking. "Taker. A few weeks ago. Not long after what happened between you and Kev actually. Kevin was wandering around aimlessly. He found me in the hallway outside Taker's room. And no I didn't tell anyone other than Kevin. Don't say it because I won't tell anyone else."
He nods his head and he has such a sweet look in his eyes. It really makes me want to just lay my head on his shoulder and spill everything. Just tell him the entire story. But I don't. Mainly because there's no one I trust completely other than Kevin. We both look up as the bathroom door swings open.
I gaze over at Shawn and smile when I see him staring at Kevin's cock. I have to admit it took me a while to get used to having Kevin walking around naked. But now� Well, now I love to watch him. I grin at the thought. I really do completely and totally trust Kevin. Not to mention the fact that he's so fucking gorgeous and when he's naked? Well there's not a whole lot of other men I'd love to see naked all the time but he's definitely one of them.
Kevin walks by and smiles at Shawn and leans down wrapping an arm around me. "Jess, why don't the two of you head downstairs to the restaurant and I'll meet you in about five minutes?"
I nod my head. Looking over at Shawn he's just staring at Kevin still. I grab his arm and pull him from the room. I laugh at his startled expression. We climb onto the elevator and smile at Benoit and Shannon. They seem to be in the middle of some sort of argument. Shawn and I look at one another and silently agree to just try and ignore them.
Kevin's POV
I hate asking Jess to go anywhere without me but Shawn's blue eyes watching my every move was getting to be a bit of a distraction. I pull on my clothes quickly not wanting to let them get too far ahead of me. I jump to my feet and grab my shoes pulling them on. I head for the elevator immediately.
A few minutes later and I'm sitting with Jesse and Shawn eating breakfast quietly. We're soon joined by a huge group of people among them Jesse's crush. We scoot closer together to make room until finally I pull Shawn onto my lap. I look around and most of the couples are sitting the same way.
If Jesse were sitting any closer I'd have to make room for him too. I nudge him towards Raven but he just slaps me and glares. I roll my eyes and grin at Shawn when he turns to smile at me. Clearing my head of thoughts of Jesse and Raven I concentrate on the way Shawn feels in my arms. "Fuck this feels right." When Shawn grins and kisses me I realize I said that out loud. Oh well. Fuck 'em. I'm sick of hiding how I feel.
I look around the table and fight rolling my eyes again as I see my boys all grinning from ear to ear. I see Chuck mouthing something and after a few minutes finally decipher what he's saying. 'Congratulations big guy. Looks like you finally got what you wanted.'
I nod my head and grin. I look down at Shawn who is listening to Sean and Scott and my smile gets even bigger. I really don't think it could get any better than this.
A few hours later we all head out. I don't know where everyone else is going but I don't really care. I grin as Jesse grabs Shawn's hand and tells me they'll be in our room in a minute. I like hearing that. Our room. Fuck even if it is a hotel room as long as Shawn is with me I'm a fucking happy man.
I look at my watch when I get to my room and frown. The day is already nearly over. I mean I knew we'd had several meals with the guys while just sitting at the table for hours but I didn't realize it had been that long. I shrug and strip down to my boxers. With a smile I hear the door click open.
I settle myself back on the bed and start to welcome Shawn and Jesse into the room but stop short upon seeing who walked in. "What the fuck do you want Rob?"
"I want you." He walks towards me trying to be seductive but I'm not impressed. I sigh and start to tell him he's not welcome when he's forces his mouth against mine. I try pushing him away but hear a tiny click instead. I yank at my arms and growl when I realize the click was the handcuffs sliding into the locked position. "Now, I've got you. And I will make you beg for me."
"Fuck you Rob." I spit out at him but he slaps me hard enough to have my head rocking back against the head board.
"I wouldn't be so full of myself if I were you Kevin. I'm the one in charge here."
I growl again and turn icy gray eyes on him. "Fuck off Rob. I'm with Shawn now and you don't want to piss me off."
He laughs and reaches over to the bedside table grabbing one of Jesse's bandanna's. He ties it around my mouth and grins at me. "Completely mine. As for Shawn? Well what do you think he's gonna do when he sees you and me fucking? He's gonna run away like the baby that he is and never speak to you ever again."
I growl as he yanks off my boxers and realize that he didn't bother to tie my legs down. I kick out at him but he moves out of the way quickly and grabs one ankle tugging my legs apart and tying it to the foot of the bed. He grins at me before moving to the other side of the bed and repeating the gesture with my other leg.
I tug at the restraints and deepen my growl as he straddles my hips. "Mmmmm I have to say, you look sexy as hell tied up and at my mercy."
I buck my hip's trying to force him off of me but he just tightens his legs together and holds on. He crawls up my body and starts licking and sucking at my neck. I try to force my body not to respond but this seems to be a losing proposition for me.
He makes his way down my body sucking my dick into his mouth. I do have to give him credit. He's really good at giving head. He grins at my moan and deep throats me. I don't last long but I've never been able to last long with someone's lips wrapped around my cock. I spill my seed deep in his throat and he swallows every last drop. Pulling back he immediately starts stroking me. "I wanna have this buried inside of me when Shawn walks in."
I growl and try once again to force my body to behave itself. I swear the sound muted as my body betrays me. Rob grins at me and straddles my hips before sinking himself onto my cock. I groan as he starts riding me. I don't want this. I really don't want him.
Fuck he's so tight though. I buck my hips upwards again and try to bury myself further before realizing what I'm doing. I glare at Rob as best I can and will myself to think of anything other than sex. I start to grin when my body begins to behave itself. I soon feel my flaccid cock slip from his body. He growls in anger and rubs his ass against my cock trying to get me hard again.
I've got myself under control now and just grin at him knowing how infuriated he is. He reaches out slapping me just as I hear the door clicking open. I look over and see Shawn staring wide eyed at the sight before him.
Shawn's POV
I take a deep breath and take into consideration the fact that Kevin is as limp as a wet noodle before losing my temper. I'm actually kind of proud of myself as I don't take my anger out on Kevin like I would have thought from seeing the sight before me. Not that anyone could blame me.
I launch myself at Rob and just start beating on him until I feel strong arms wrap around my waist and pull me away from him. I look back and smile at the bloody and obviously broken nose. I struggle out of the strong arms and move to the bed pulling the bandanna out of my love's mouth.
"Thank fuck you're here. Shawn I..." I cut him off before he can say anything by covering his mouth with my own. We kiss for several minutes before I start to hear Rob stirring. He sits up finally and glares at Kevin and me.
"Fucking asshole. Do you have any idea how turned on Kevin was by me being here?"
I just growl and start towards him again but I see Jesse grab him and start talking. "Get the fuck out before you wind up hurt even more Rob. You'll never come between Shawn and Kevin so don't even try."
He shoves the blonde out of the room and grins at Kevin and me before grabbing his bag and announcing he's going to find Jeff and Sean and see if he can crash with them. Kevin starts to protest but Jesse cuts him off. "Don't. Don't even say it. I know I'll be safe with Sean and Jeff. You and Shawn need to be alone." He waves at me before ducking from the room and heading out to find Jeff and Sean.
I turn back to Kevin and nestle my head against his shoulder. I want to tell him I love him but without a voice I can't tell him. I sure as hell can show him though.
He nuzzles back against me and starts talking softly. "Baby, go find something to get me out of these cuffs. I want to hold you. And for fucks sake untie my legs while you're at it."
I grin and shake my head before climbing off the bed and undressing quickly. I press myself against him full length and lick at his throat. He moans and I lay my head on his chest and watch as his cock swells before I rise up to my knees and straddle his hips. He frowns at me as I rub my backside against his large shaft.
I slide down the bed and frown when he stops me from sucking his cock. I look questioningly at him and he blushes. "He� Rob had me hard� He sucked me off and got me hard again. I� Fuck. I didn't want him. My body was just reacting."
I sit back on my heels and contemplate what he's telling me. I climb off the bed. I know the expression on my face is one of hurt and I am hurt. But not really if that makes any sense. I head to the bathroom and wet down a wash cloth before heading back to the bedroom.
I clean him off quietly and when he goes to speak I press my finger against his lips. I don't want to hear his excuses. Rob's a gorgeous guy and I know Kevin well enough to know anyone going down on him is enough to make him hard. It's also enough to get him off quickly.
I pull away when I've cleaned him off and smile down at him. He smiles back tentatively and I reach over to the bedside table and grab a pad of paper and a pen. I don't care. You love me right?
I wait for his answer and he nods his head frantically so I go back to writing. I love you too� I don't care about him. I want to leave you tied up though. I want to control this.
He shakes his head. I know he doesn't like giving up control but this is something I really need. Please Kevin. I won't ask you to bottom for me. In fact I'll just ride you, suck you off� But please let me leave you tied up.
He finally nods his head and I grin in response before climbing off the bed and throwing the wash cloth into the bathroom. I return and untie his legs allowing him that freedom but leave his arms tied up.
He grins at me and I move up so that I am straddling his chest. Using the little bit of sign language I know I tell him I love him. He whispers his love for me and leans his head forward darting his tongue out licking at my shaft. I gasp and pull back. He grins again. "Hey. I want to make you spill down my throat. Please Shawn?"
I swallow past the sudden lump in my throat and slide myself forward grasping the headboard as he all but inhales my cock. I try to keep still so as not to gag him but it's useless. I begin thrusting my hips and he encourages me with soft little moans and groans.
His tongue swirls around the head of my cock as I withdraw and I gasp giving him the only warning I can before shooting. He swallows my shaft and begins sucking in earnest making me shoot. I whimper as he lets my softened cock slip from his lips and I slide down his large body laying my head on his chest.
"Fuck. I love you Shawn."
I pull my head up slightly and grin at him. I really hope he knows how much I love him because I do. I make my way down his body placing soft moist kisses along the way. He's groaning by the time I reach his engorged cock. I'm content to just lick at him. He whimpers. He actually whimpers so I decide to quit teasing him and draw the thick dick into my mouth sucking gently.
He arches his hips into my mouth and I swallow every last drop of his warm creamy cum before pulling back and lying my head on his hip. I draw lazy circles on his stomach before lifting my head to meet his eyes. I mouth the words I want so badly to say to him and laugh softly as he tries to reach for me. I scoot up the bed and smile down at him. "I want to hold you Shawn. Please let me out of these restraints."
I shake my head and lean over kissing him softly. It's not that I don't want him holding me because I do. But we started something several weeks ago and I want it finished. I want to feel him cum inside of me.
I scoot down his body and lower myself slowly onto his cock. It's hurts like hell without preparation but I need this. I need him inside of me. Biting my lip I wait until he's buried fully inside of me. I begin rocking my hips against him and rake my nails over his nipples.
He groans and tugs again on the restraints making me laugh. Of course it comes out strangled and more than a little squeaky but I don't really care. He groans but is smiling at me. That smile spurs me on more. I rise up and down on his shaft loving the way he feels inside of me.
He's so big and stretches me out so well. I gasp as I finally manage to make his cock hit my prostate. He grins and thrusts his hips against mine. I whimper and stop moving completely. He grunts and stares at me in shock. "What the hell Shawn?"
I just shake my head, close my eyes and lean forward against him. I kiss his chest and pull off of him. I head over to my bag and dig around quickly for the handcuff key I know is buried in there. I haven't been home since long before all of this happened and I liked using cuffs on people. It gave me more control. I grin happily as I find the key and return to the bed.
I unlock him and return to sitting on his hips. He grins and grabs my hips flipping me over. He lifts my legs up so that my calves are resting on his forearms before he thrusts into me. It hurts slightly but I push back against him anyhow.
He grins at me and we begin moving together. He finally reaches between our bodies and begins stroking my cock. I sigh happily and arch into his touch.
Kevin's POV
He's so damn responsive. I love the way he feels wrapped around my cock. I thrust into him while continuing to stroke his beautiful cock. He's so gorgeous, that long blonde hair fanned out around his head making him look like a fucking angel.
I really didn't expect him to unlock me. I also didn't expect him to have handcuff keys in his bag but I'm trying to care about that fact.
I thrust twice more into him and groan my release. He's practically in tears as warm gooey strands cover my hand and his stomach. I lean over kissing him softly rolling out of him and to the side before licking my hand clean. I slide down his body and lick his stomach clean as well. He moans softly and I finish cleaning him off before climbing out of the bed and heading to the bathroom. I turn on the shower and adjust the temperature before returning to the room only to find him curled onto his side his body shaking.
I reach out and pull him into my arms, kissing him softly. "Honey I was just getting the water warm for us. I wasn't leaving you. I swear I wasn't leaving you."
He turns in my embrace and buries his face into my chest. I didn't mean to scare him but that's apparently what I did. I hold him close forgetting about the running water in the bathroom while he falls asleep finally. I pull away from him and lean over kissing his face softly before going to the bathroom. I turn off the water and return to the bedroom before he can wake up. I settle back onto the bed and gather him in my arms.
I wake up the next morning to find him sprawled on top of me. I could definitely get used to this. I groan at the knock on the door and pull away from my lover not wanting to wake him.
"What?"
Jeff grins at me. "Jesse wanted me to find you and tell you he's going to be crashing with Sean and I for a little while so you and Shawn can have some alone time."
"Why didn't he come and tell me this himself?" I know I'm snarling but this little shit is hardly intimidated by me.
"Because he didn't want you trying to convince him you should be watching out for him. He told me what happened Kevin." I watch as his face sobers. He looks up at me with tears in his eyes. "I wish he would have told me sooner. But that doesn't matter. I'm better equipped to help him than you are so he stays with me and Sean."
"And how does Sean feel about that?"
"It doesn't really matter how Sean feels about it. If he doesn't like it he can find another room to crash in."
I grin and shake my head before turning back to the beautiful man sleeping in my bed. "Fine. Tell him I'm here if he needs me for anything. Jesse I mean. Sean's on his own. Now go away so I can go back to Shawn."
He nods his head and reaches out pulling the door closed for me. I head back to the bed and pull my young lover into my arms. I carry him easily into the bathroom and reach over running warm water into the tub. I step into the tub as he starts waking up. He tries speaking and I have to laugh at the squeaky sound that is his voice.
"It's okay honey. I've got you and I'm about to put you into the tub with me. We need to get clean."
He nods his head as I sink into the warm water. He settles himself on my lap with a soft smile and leans his head against my chest. I reach over and grab the wash cloth and the hotel soap. I forgot to grab mine, which means we'll both smell rather antiseptic for the rest of the day.
I wash very inch of his body even leaning over and washing his feet. He giggles slightly at that and grabs the washcloth from my hand. He turns the tables on me and caresses more than washes my body. Every nerve in my body is alive and well as his long fingers brush against my skin.
I get to my feet and pull him with me. "Brat."
He just grins and standing on tip toe pulls me down to his mouth. I moan into his mouth as his tongue brushes against mine and wrap my arms around his waist. We're dripping wet and it's more than a little hard keeping my grip on him but he feels so good pressed against me that I don't want to let him go. His arms slide around my neck and he holds me tightly.
I groan softly as our cocks make contact and pull away. "Sweetheart, as much as I want to continue this, we need to head out. Our flight leaves in about three hours and we have to be there an hour before."
He nods his head and lets go of my neck. I stand up only to have him wrap his arms around my waist. I hear him whisper in that scratchy voice that he loves me. I fight back the tears and pull him against me. I kiss the top of his head and smile. "I love you too Shawn."
He pulls back and kisses me softly before stepping out of the tub and grabbing a towel. I watch mesmerized as he dries himself off. He drops the towel on the floor and walks from the room breaking me from my trance. I shake my head, laugh at myself and step from the tub. I grab his towel and dry myself off before heading into our room.
He's lying on the bed fully dressed just staring at the ceiling. "See something interesting baby?"
He grins at me and shakes his head before grabbing his pad of paper and pen. I look over his shoulder as he writes. Just thinking.
"About what baby?"
How much I love you. How long I've wanted this. How much this all seems like a dream.
I frown lightly and lean over kissing his neck. "I love you Shawn. This isn't a dream. In any way. I promise you baby. It'll take a fucking miracle to get me out of your life."
He smiles at me and turns around wrapping his arms around me. I hold him tightly just loving the way he feels in my arms. He pulls back and runs his fingers down my chest tapping on my stomach just above my erection. I raise an eyebrow at him and he smiles wider before wrapping his fingers around my shaft.
I groan and then gasp as his mouth closes around me. Fuck. His mouth is so warm and wet I nearly come apart just like that. He pulls back slightly and proceeds to bob along my length. I groan as one of his hands slides along my thigh to grasp my balls. He rolls them between his fingers and tugs gently. I shout out his name as my seed spurts down his throat.
He pulls back after licking me clean. "Fuck baby. That was fantastic. You're fantastic." He pulls me down for a kiss and then shoves me away. He points at my suitcase and I get the point. Grabbing some clothes out of my bag I dress quickly. Or rather as quickly as I can with him rubbing against me. Finally I pick him up and threaten to lock him into the handcuffs that are still hanging from the bed post.
He laughs softly. It's not quite as squeaky as before but it's still a weird sound. I shake my head and finish pulling my clothes on as he writes something down. I read what he's written as he hands me the pad of paper. Can we join the mile high club?
I burst out laughing and wrap him up in my arms. "You're so terrific baby. But no. First of all to do so we need to find privacy and quite frankly most people join in the bathrooms, which I don't even come close to fitting in."
He laughs again and wraps his arms around me tightly. I grab our bags and look around the room one last time before carrying him to the elevator. He's holding on to me as tightly as he can as I hit the down button. He tries pushing away as Sean and Jeff approach, Jeff's girls being carried by the two men. I notice Jesse carrying Jeff's baby with a smile.
I hold onto my lover even tighter and grin at the men who join us. Shawn buries his face in my neck although I'm not sure why. He has no reason to be ashamed. I guess maybe it's because of the way Sean is glaring at him though. I return Sean's glare until he finally looks away.
Finally the elevator arrives and I climb on and hold the door while Jeff pushes everyone else in. He and I share a smile before he steps on board and I step into the elevator after him as the doors close behind me. I set Shawn down and he immediately buries his face in my chest. I roll my eyes and hold on to him tightly.
We hit the bottom floor and all go our separate ways. Sort of. Jesse follows Shawn and me with his bags and climbs into the back seat while I drop all of the bags into the trunk. I'd forgotten that I have Jesse's tickets. Shawn turns around in his seat and offers a smile to Jesse who returns the gesture. I smile at both of them and head for the airport.
We climb on board the plane and I fall asleep, Shawn leaning against one shoulder, Jesse leaning into the other. It's bound to be a long flight anyhow as we're headed to Europe.
I wake up as we land in London. It actually just a change of flights but I hate to wake up my lover and friend. With a sigh I shake them gently. Shawn stirs and blinks at me curiously. He looks so young when he does that. I smile at him and kiss his nose. "Wake up lover. We're in England and we have to change planes."
He smiles back and pulls away from me stretching. I watch him for a few seconds before turning to Jesse and shaking him awake. "Come Jess. It's time to wake up. We have to change planes."
He yawns and smiles at me. "So tired Kev." He mumbles.
"I know sugar. You guys can both go back to sleep when we get on the next plane. Once we're in France, you guys can sleep all you want. Now wake up."
He sticks his tongue out at me making me laugh. Once the plane rolls to a stop we climb off the plane and head into the terminal. I find the flight attendant who's giving out the info as to where the next flight is and realize we've got about ten minutes to make it all the way across the airport. I tell the guys and we all head to the next gate as fast as we can. We make it just as they're starting to close the gate. "No wait." I yell out hoping they hear me.
Obviously somebody heard me because they allow us to board. We slide into our seats and Shawn grins up at me. He grabs his pad of paper and pen and writes something down before handing the paper to me. That was close. But really fun.
I roll my eyes and hug him to me. I look over at Jesse who is fast asleep already. I grin and wait until we're in the air before laying my seat back as far as it will go and pulling Shawn onto my chest. He falls asleep quickly and I spend the rest of the flight staring at him.
I can't help but wonder how I got to be so lucky. But I'm not going to argue his love for me. We arrive in France and I've never been so relieved to be on solid ground. The flight from London was horrendous. Bumpy as hell and completely uncomfortable with the kids behind me kicking the seat continuously. I was ready to turn around and smack the hell out of them but common sense prevailed. Getting into a fist-fight with their dad wouldn't have been a good idea.
Shawn is leaning against me heavily, half asleep and in pain. His throat has gone back to being sore and I've done everything I can think of to make him feel better. I settle him into a cab and look around for Jesse. I spot him talking to Raven and grin. "Hey Jess. Can you get a ride with Raven? Shawn's about to pass out on me and he's in pain."
Jesse looks panicked and shakes his head as Raven answers for him. "Yeah. I'll give him a ride to the hotel Kev. Is he crashing with you or no?"
"I don't know. You'll have to ask him. But I've gotta get going. Thanks Raven."
"You're welcome Kevin."
I climb into the car before Jesse can protest and grin as he glares at me. I wrap my arm around Shawn and hug him close to me. He settles in and falls asleep quickly. I grin softly and lay my head on his. I catch the driver staring at us and smile. "Hey man."
He smiles. "You are the wrestlers yes?"
"Yeah. Kevin Nash and Shawn Michaels."
He smiles again. "My son is a huge fan. Loves to watch you guys all the time." I grin and reach over into Shawn's carry on bag and pull out his notepad. I wake him up carefully and get him to sign the paper before adding my signature. I hand the sheet through the glass.
"Here. You'll be a hero."
He grins and thanks us repeatedly. Shawn smiles and hugs me before grabbing the notebook from me. Don't let me go back to sleep until we're at the hotel. Sleeping in a car is too uncomfortable.
"Okay baby. I promise." He grins and snuggles against me. I love the way he feels pressed against me even if we are both fully clothed.
Several Days Later
Shawn and I are sight seeing for around the tenth time this week. I don't really care seeing as how much I love just being with him. He's excited today for some reason that he won't tell me. He's still without a voice although he should have gotten it back by now.
I grin as he pulls me along behind him into store after store. I love how happy he's been lately. I don't know if it's just because we're together or if there's another reason behind it but I know that at least part of it is being with me. I don't mean to sound cocky but it's the truth. We were both miserable without each other.
He tugs on my hand and I follow him to the beach. I don't know where in France we are. I'm terrible with names of places. But he's got this thing for going to the beach. This particular beach is completely empty and he turns to me with a smile before stripping out of his clothing.
Not that I don't love seeing my baby naked but I have to wonder why he's stripping on a public beach. I ask him and he grins before reaching out and stripping my clothes off. I frown down at him as he grins at me before running into the ocean. The brat never did answer me. I follow him though because if any one else does show I want them to know that he's mine. He grins at me before ducking under an incoming wave.
I frown at him and wade in. It's a little on the cold side but Shawn grabs my hand and tugs me in. I gasp and push him away gently. "Brat." He grins and giggles before jumping on my back.
I try to stay mad at him but it's tough with his hard on pressed into my back. I reach back and grab him around the waist tossing him into the water. He emerges sputtering before launching himself at me. I laugh as he tackles me into the water. His legs are wrapped around my waist and in second's I can feel his tight sheath surrounding my cock. I groan as he begins pumping his hips.
I grab his hips and thrust up into him making him groan. He rakes his nails lightly across my chest making me whimper. We move together easily. This is almost common place for us now. I just hope a cop or someone doesn't come along. I'd hate to have to explain this to anyone.
I know it won't take either of us very long. He reaches down grasping himself just as I decide to do the same. We work his cock together and I grin when he comes apart over our joined hands. It's his turn to grin when I shout his name just before spilling my seed inside of him.
He drops onto my chest and we both laugh softly as a wave crashes over us, cleaning us off somewhat. I feel him snuggle into my chest but I'm flattened by what happens next.
"I love you Kevin." It's not that scratchy squeaky sound I've become so accustomed to but his normal, deep sexy voice complete with accent.
I push him off my chest and he frowns his disapproval. "What the hell was that Shawn?"
He clears his throat and smiles softly. "I love you Kevin." He begins gnawing on his lower lip. I sit up and he slides into my lap.
I'm still staring in shock and he's watching me carefully. "Did I do something wrong Kev?"
"No. Not at all baby. You can talk?"
"Yeah. I just found out this morning but didn't tell you because I wanted to surprise you. Are you mad at me?"
I shake my head vehemently before wrapping my arms around him. "Fuck say it again Shawn."
"Say what again Kev?" He asks a slight laugh to his voice.
"That you love me. I want to hear it again."
He grins softly at me and leans close kissing me softly. "I love you Kevin. I love you so much."
I tighten my grip on him and press our mouths together. The kiss isn't at all about sex but about wanting to just be close to him. His grip on me tightens and we pull apart when oxygen becomes a necessity. He grins and gets to his feet grabbing my hand. "Let's go back to the hotel Kev. I want you making love to me until I'm screaming."
I grin and get to my feet, allowing him to help me into my clothes. We head back to the hotel. I swear I don't think I've ever been happier. I am completely in love with a wonderful man and he loves me back. I think back over the past few weeks and realize how wrong my statement to him a few days ago was. It won't take a miracle to get me away from him. It'd take an act of god.
THE END