I Love You, Goodbye
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that�s not me
Know what I hate? I hate falling in love with someone, and then realising that maybe it�s not meant to be. I hate it.
For over two years I had hated her, and that had been more than fine with me. I thought I knew her, knew what kind of person she was, and I had hated her. What did I care if I made fun of her? Or if I hurt her feelings?
That was, until she came to me for help. Until I realised that maybe there was something more to her that she let on. I tried really hard to keep away from her, to not let her get too close to me. I should have tried harder.
And then�it happened. I fell in love with her, and she with me. For eight blissful months we were happy together. But in falling in love with her, I came to know the Stephanie she hides from everyone, even her parents.
The Stephanie McMahon whose heart isn�t mine.
You need someone willing to give their
Heart and soul for you
Promise you forever, baby that�s
Something I can�t do
I know she loves me, and for that I�m grateful. But someone else had already won her heart before I even had a chance to compete. I raged against the unfairness of it but soon came to realise that it was all for the best.
It doesn�t mean that it doesn�t hurt though. I feel like it�s killing me, but I have to let her go. I have to give up the most wonderful, most amazing thing in my life. I wish I could go back to hating her, but I know I never will.
I don�t know who it is, but I have my suspicions. I do know that he would do anything for her. I do know that his entire life revolves around her. I do know that his soul belongs to her.
Hmm�he sounds a lot like me.
But it�s not.
I could say that I�ll be all that you need
But that would be a lie
I know I�d only hurt you
I know I�d only make you cry
I�m not the one you�re needing
I love you, goodbye
All alone in my hotel room, waiting for her, I always vow that today is the day I tell her that it�s over, that I can�t be with her anymore. That she should be with the person she�s meant to be with.
But when she slips into my room in the middle of the night, a welcoming smile on her lips, my determined promise begins to crumble. When she sighs my name in the dark, my resolve evaporates into nothing.
She says she wants me, and she needs me. She insists that she loves me. I�m not going to call her a liar. But it�s not me she should be saying these words to. I know that prolonging my relationship with her will only result in even more pain and angst and heartbreak, but I just can�t do it. I can�t give her up so easily.
I can�t say goodbye.
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I�m only
Doing this for you
I don�t really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the
Kindest thing to do
I won�t say goodbye.
But I already have. The moment I realised that I wasn�t the man for her, I murmured a soft goodbye. She didn�t hear me.
Why won�t I say goodbye? Why can�t I say goodbye?
I justify my refusal by telling myself that I can�t break her heart. I know she loves me, and if I say goodbye, it will hurt her. Hurting her is the last thing I ever want to do.
You�ll find someone who�ll be the one
That I could never be
Who�ll give you something better
Than the love you�ll find with me
She may love me, but sooner or later she�ll realise I�m the wrong man. I dread the day that she will realise this, and one day I know she will. I always pray that it will happen much, much later.
I love her. She loves me. It�s that simple. But it�s not. Because I�m not him.
Leaving someone when you
Love someone
Is the hardest to do
When you love someone as much
As I love you
I know that in the long term it would never work out between us. It�s not because we�re too different, it�s because we�re the same. Neither of us could ever live with being second best. I refuse to believe it, but it�s true.
I will say it. I will. I will say that one word that will put an end to something that should never have started in the first place. I will finally tell her�goodbye.
I don�t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I�ll never be the one you�re needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby it�s never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye
A soft knock on the door, and I open it even before she has time to lower her hand. The word is ready on my lips, but she quickly closes the door and kisses it to extinction.
�I�ve missed you, Rock,� Stephanie whispers with a soft smile at me.
�Next time,� I vow silently even as I lock the door.