Rage's Thoughts:
Rage is sauntering along a hallway in the crystal city, glancing out of the windows as she passes. She watches the stars streak by as the city shoots through space at an impossible speed, the giant engines humming quietly. It's the middle of the night, although it's ALWAYS the middle of the night out here!
Rage smiles a devious smile and stretches like a cat before continuing on her walk.
"Who would have believed this when I first erupted--that I'd be here in this fabulous city made by a species who all worship me as their goddess? That I'd finally join the Teragen AND be Divis' second-in-command AND consort AND mother of his heir??" she thinks happily.
She pauses in her thoughts as flashes of the last hour fill her mind, and she grins again. Normally she'd be sleeping by Divis' side in his great bed, but tonight he'd revealed everything that he wanted her to do when they get to earth, and Rage is so excited and overjoyed that she can't sleep! She has so much planning to do now!
Divis always makes sure that he and she and Victor get lots of sleep each night so they'll have plenty of energy conserved when they get to earth, plus it helps him push the engines faster. They've already bumped up their arrival-time by a lot since departing the crystal planet.
Rage thinks back to when Divis first found her and brought her to his planet. She thinks about how respectfully and almost reverently he's always treated her. She remembers the first time they had sex. He'd made such a production in front of their followers--flying up to the window of his bedroom with her in his arms and then flying in with her. After that there hadn't been much speaking. It had felt very utilitarian. He was there to get her pregnant with his heir--as she'd offered to do for him--and she'd been so excited and nervous that she hadn't dared to do much other than follow his lead.
She knew it was a question that had been on many women's minds over the years--what was Divis like in bed? After she'd offered to be the mother of his child, she'd started wondering that a lot! And then the moment came, and it was almost like two animals doing what instinct commanded in order to propagate the species--no passion and all function.
And then she'd realized...this was probably the only way he knew! All those concubines that he'd had to experiment on to try to make a child, and most of them were there out of sheer ambition and no feeling for him personally, other than fear and awe. That's how it had been with Sin, he'd told her. And Narcosis, and all the others.
But that's not why SHE was there.
Rage starts thinking to herself. "I remember the next day when he showed me to my own room I was like, �Huh?? My own room?? What's this for?' I didn't say that out loud, but I was sure thinking it. And that night I went to his room and knocked on the door and asked if I could spend the night with him again, and the look on his face was priceless! It was a mixture of shock and surprise and pleasure! Obviously no other woman had come to his door like that the night after--probably all of them were too scared out of their wits, or feeling like failures when they couldn't get pregnant, and they'd only been there out of curiosity or lusting for power in the first place!"
"He let me right in, and from that day on I always came to his door at night and he'd let me in, and after a while he just left his door open, and now I haven't slept in my room in years! He told me he was caught off guard by my passion, and after a while he let himself relax and give in to his desires, and now we sleep curled up in one another's arms each night! No one would believe THAT, either! Or that we spend most of our time in bed talking about our son, and what we're going to do when we get to earth."
"After Viktor was a couple of years old, I mentioned the idea of having a daughter to Divis. He quickly vetoed that, saying that we couldn't have any more children or they would fight each other for earth and it would be a giant civil war. But then I think he observed Viktor's quiet, logical nature and was surprised that the two of us could have such a sweet child, and one night Divis and I were in the middle of a passionate moment and he said he wanted to give me a daughter right then and there, and I almost let him!"
"But just before it was too late we both realized that having me pregnant when we get to earth would be a really bad idea, and he was able to stop himself in time. But now he has to be very careful with me because he says all he can think about are having more children when we're in bed together, heh-heh! And that turns me on like nothing else! Well...maybe not NOTHING else! Thinking about what I'm going to do when I get to earth is still my #1 aphrodisiac, but having a daughter comes in a close second!"
"People would be shocked if they could hear us talk in hushed tones at night. Not just because we love to fantasize about the destruction we're going to wreak upon earth, but because Divis always refers to me and him and Viktor as his family, and he's always building up my confidence and telling me I'm a goddess, and thanking me for everything I do for him. Honestly, most women would wish THEIR husbands were like him! I say 'husband' for lack of a better word, because for all intents and purposes that's what he is. At least I think he is."
"He's so different than Supreme! Gwen can call him Supreme 'Ethan' all she wants, but to me Ethan died a long time ago. Supreme killed him. Supreme never thought my efforts to please him were good enough, and he always talked down to me so patronizingly! I really hope he can see me now. No, I don't hope he's dead. I hope he's alive and well, and that once Divis and I get earth nice and organized that Supreme will show up and we can show him around and see his reaction to the perfectly-functioning utopia it will be! If he's not impressed, at least he'll regret ever holding me back and repressing me when he sees what I'm capable of. He'll wish he'd just let me kill Edgar Wright and a couple other people and get it out of my system! And if he's impressed, I can laugh in his face and tell him 'I TOLD you I was right!' and demand an apology!"
"I know Supreme's not dead. Sometimes Bounty goes into this trance where she starts shouting 'Supreme! Supreme! Supreme!' or 'Supreme's coming!' I told Divis about this the first time it happened, and he said not to listen to her, and that Supreme is dead, so I've stopped telling him that she keeps doing it. Plus one times she went into this trance and said the following words: 'You're her hero...there's a lot of you in her...a lot of you in her...and him...especially him...' and when I asked who 'him' was she started shouting 'Supreme' again until she passed out."
"So now I'm wondering if maybe Diana DID erupt and it wasn't put on any historical records! Maybe she's been alive this whole time, waiting for us on earth, and after centuries of seeing the FSA and humans destroying earth, she's ready and willing to join Divis and see our dream become reality! I wouldn't be surprised at all! I'm the one who begged Supreme to give Gwen and I a daughter! I'm the one who wanted her! Gwen would've been just as excited if we'd had all boys, but I wanted a daughter! Oh I will be SO proud if all of this is true! So proud and so thrilled! She was always so much like me-- despite having half of her chromosomes be from Supreme!"
"I remember when I was little. Gwen and I were one person back in those days. We had the 'Nielsson temper' in abundance. Each child had gotten it in progressively larger doses from oldest to youngest. Pete was the calmest...he was always able to control his temper. Then there was Richie. He was fun-loving and silly and playing pranks most of the time, but when he lost his temper it was REALLY bad. And then there was Nick. When he'd get mad it wasn't bad, it was scary. He'd get this cold, inhuman look in his eyes. He'd almost gone to jail a lot of times for beating the shit out of kids who pissed him off. He didn't take shit from ANYONE. He was a terror on the football team. Guys would jump out of his way just to avoid being tackled by him, because when guys were tackled by him they usually didn't get up."
"And then there was me." A corner of Rage's mouth turns up in an evil smile. "I used to terrify kids by telling them about my fantasies. Oh, it would start out innocent enough. We'd be talking at lunch or recess about what we wanted to do to people who made us mad, and each kid would take a turn telling what THEY would do, and then it would get to me. At first the kids would laugh and nod excitedly, and then after a while they'd see that I wasn't joking. They'd see my eyes and know they were the eyes of a potential killer, and kids would start filing away slowly."
"The teachers would always talk to my parents about it at parent/teacher conference, and my dad would always laugh it off and say I wasn't being serious--I was just pulling the other kids' legs. Then when the teacher wouldn't look convinced, he'd explain that I was the youngest and had 3 older brothers who liked to pick on me, so I was just learning to survive by being tough, and the teacher would reluctantly agree to lay off me a little, but I think I scared the teachers, too."
"Then came the summer my dad started teaching me different track and field sports, and I was in love! I'd found my passion! I could throw the javelin and fantasize it going through various enemies' faces! I could hurl the discus and imagine it decapitating someone I hated! I could throw the shot put and imagine a bully standing there and the shot put bashing in their head! That's how I was able to throw so far and so hard at first! But then after I while I noticed that my frustration just completely left when I was practicing. I was becoming an athlete instead of a serial-killer-in-training. And then I got really serious about it after I started winning competitions, and I decided I didn't want anything to ruin my athletic career. I decided to had to learn to repress my temper."
"Years went by, and I was so single-minded and determined to be the best that I sacrificed having friends and relationships, and even sacrificed my relationship with Dad. I also figured that if I just stayed away from people that this would be the best way to keep my temper controlled. It was always people who pissed me off, so if I avoided people then I wouldn't be pissed-off! There's a nice bit of logic! But it actually worked."
"Then high school changed everything. I had a huge crush on a football player, so I agreed to go out with him when he asked me, and then that backfired when the cheerleaders started teasing him about going out with me. Those stupid girls kept giving me snide looks and making stupid remarks because I dressed like a guy and was tall and muscular, and then one day my carefully-repressed temper finally burst loose like a volcano and I put one of the girls in the hospital. It could have been worse. My brother Nick actually killed another football player during a game. Damn, I bet that felt good. I never got up the guts to ask him about it, though."
"The principal had to agree that the girls had treated me badly, but said because I was so much bigger and stronger that I was the one at fault for the injured cheerleaders. It was only after much begging and pleading and promising that they didn't kick me off the track and field team."
"And then after that I put such a solid lock on my temper that when those German swimmers tried to rape me after the Olympics I just stood there frozen. I was afraid that if I tapped into my temper that I'd kill those guys, or seriously injure them, and my medals would be taken away-- after all my years of hard work! And that's where Gwen and I split into two people. Gwen still stood there frozen, not an idea in her head of what she could do, and I started urging her to move...to fight...to resist...to do SOMETHING! I started pushing and pulling at the locks holding the temper back, and finally the locks flew open and I pushed Gwen's consciousness to the background and I took control. No German swimmers were killed that day, unfortunately, but years later I fixed that mistake."
"And yeah, my medals were still taken away, but I wasn't going to keep repressing myself anymore! Not for anyone! I was out, and I wasn't going back in! Or so I thought. Then we met Caestus, and I ended up respecting him so much that I repressed a lot of my urges. And then the fin de resistance: I fell in love with Ethan. And married him. And then when Supreme pulled the divorce-card on me I realized that he'd never loved me for who I was. I didn't even know WHY he'd married me! And I have hated him from that moment on, and mourned the death of the man who he'd been when he was Ethan."
"And now I'm unofficially married to his brother. You know, Divis and Supreme are a lot alike in some ways. A dark paladin and a light paladin. Both are very serious and determined men who know they have an image and want to maintain that. The difference is that Divis really is exactly who he shows everyone he is. Supreme is not. Supreme is naturally a very laid-back, casual guy who loves to play jokes on his family and wrestle and laugh and win silly contests and be a lot of fun. But he doesn't think this is the image that the world would want to see of Supreme, so he acts like a dumb, boring stiff on camera. What a hypocrite!"
Rage gives a sarcastic laugh and shakes her head, and then nods to a couple of clones that she passes.
"That's the one thing I miss..." she thinks, glancing back at the clones. "I miss...having close friends to party with. I finally join that Teragen, and all that's left aside from Divis is one crazy, babbling girl, and one brown-nosing back-stabber! I keep asking Divis to tell me about the old days...the days when Raoul used to throw the great parties at his castle...but Divis didn't go to the parties when he was in Chrysalis, so he didn't have a lot of stories to tell me. Hell, I might even be willing to play Truth or Dare with the phony B.F.F. Slut about now, I'm that desperate for other friends around here!"
She pauses. "But once I'm able to sit down with Gwen one-on-one and remind her that she's just like me, we'll finally be a team again. And then Diana will join us, and our family will be complete!"
Rage walks along a little more slowly now, lost in memories of the good times she had when she was in StormWatch.
"Sometimes I wish Divis would relax and let his hair down and party, or be more daring with me in public, but I don't want to change his personality. I want him to be exactly who he has always been, because that's the Divis who inspires fear and admiration and respect and wonder."
Rage walks along again, her thoughts quiet for a moment.
"Sometimes when I'm feeling a tad frustrated about Divis' lack of impulsiveness, I'll think back to all the men I've ever had crushes on, or loved, and remind myself why it wouldn't have worked with them, or didn't work with them. And then I realize that Divis is the only man I could ever be happy with."
"So let's go over the list in chronological order! First there was Damage. I was frustrated that he had two sides because I didn't have any interest in the little nerdy science-guy. I only wanted the big orange guy. But he was only ever interested in stupid, vapid girly-girls. And then when I got him to separate into two beings and I was finally alone with just the big orange guy, we ran into Divis and I realized that even without the little nerdy science-guy in his head, Damage was just a pussycat at heart. He didn't really have it in him to kill people just because they pissed him off. That made me sad, but I still loved him so I would have dealt with that...somehow. Or finally converted him to the Dark Side, hehe. But then he died."
Rage clears her throat and continues her line of thinking.
"Next there was Lance. Lance reminded me so much of my brother Richie! Big, strong, dirty mouth and dirtier sense of humor! Fun to be with, athletic and rough! But he just treated me like one of the guys...which I was used to from men. Plus he didn't seem to be the one-woman type of guy, and that's what I was looking for. Poor Lance...I really miss him..." Rage sighs.
"Then there was Raoul. Not as Big as Lance or Damage, but still athletic. And seductive. But extremely frustrating and arrogant! And definitely NOT a one-woman guy!" She sighs again. "I even miss Raoul. Especially now that I'm finally in the Teragen."
She continues walking. "Then there was Andre. I thought he was my soul-mate! We had so much in common-- both of our athletic careers were ruined when we erupted, and our personalities were very similar. I knew he wasn't the settling-down-type when we started dating, but I was stupid and let myself fall in love, anyway. Over the years after we broke up I'd still get a little spark when I saw him. Especially after Supreme killed Ethan and I was trying to convince Gwen to give Supreme his stupid divorce." Rage sighs.
"But after Andre lost his soccer career, he started getting into gambling and carousing, and he had no more drive or direction! It drove me a little crazy. I was tortured by worrying that one day I'd go over to his place to surprise him and find him with another woman. I finally broke it off before that could happen--even though he swore to me that he'd never been unfaithful."
Rage kicks the wall softly with a tiny scowl, and then resumes walking in a dignified manner. "Then came Ethan, and we all know what happened with him so we'll skip past that. I started looking around at other novas, but there was no one who even slightly interested me. The Core was huge and muscular, but he was SO big that he couldn't put his arms down, and he lumbered rather than walked! The Saxon was cute and big and strong, but JESUS! I thought SUPREME was a boring stiff! He didn't have anything over the Saxon!"
Rage taps her finger against her chin. You know, I think all the Saxon needed was to get laid and he would have suddenly transformed into a wildman!" she grins.
Her smile fades a little and turns wistful. "The last man on the list who I had a crush on-- and the only human, incidentally-- was Bob." She gives a little laugh. "I don't even need to think about why THAT wouldn't have worked! I would have driven him so crazy that he really WOULD have flung himself off the top floor of the tower!"
Rage walks along and comes to Viktor's door. She quietly peeks in. He's still sleeping soundly with his nightlight on. Her eyes soften as she gazes at him. He loves her so much! And she loves him with all her soul. He's bigger and taller than her now, but is mentally only about 6-years old. An extremely powerful 6-year old. She looks at the crystal animal figurines posed around his room that she'd had made for him. He's so fascinated with earth--especially the plants and animals. He'd wanted to learn everything about animals, so she'd had those figurines made for him. One day Divis had asked Viktor which continent he'd like to be in charge of to start with. Viktor had asked which continent the crystal animals came from, and Rage had realized that these were all African animals-- lions and tigers and elephants and hippos and rhinos and monkeys-- and when she told Viktor that, he'd declared that he wanted Africa! Such a cute boy!
Rage chuckles quietly to herself as she shuts his door. When Divis first started teaching Viktor, Rage had sat in on the lessons. But Divis had a rather...grown-up way of describing concepts to Viktor that had made them hard for him to grasp, so many times Divis had asked Rage to try to simplify them for Viktor, and soon it was Rage doing most of the talking. Divis had been so pleased with the way Rage explained everything to their son that he'd left the lessons completely in her hands. Rage had been so flattered. No one had ever given her so much trust and respect before. She would never betray Divis. She owed him everything.
Rage is finally standing back at the door to the room that she and Divis share. She carefully opens the door, tip-toes in, and closes it behind her. She walks silently over to the bed and gets in under the covers, sliding up behind Divis and wrapping her arms around him. He murmurs something unintelligible in his sleep, and she strokes his hair with her fingertips. He makes a contented noise and holds her arms against him and goes still again.
Rage closes her eyes and smiles. He's never told her he loves her. She's never told him her feelings, either. She considers it bad luck. The first two men she fell in love with are now dead, and the third is missing. She'd rather not jinx this relationship, thank you very much. She's never been this happy, content, or at peace before in her life. Not that being content will have any affect on her ability to perform once she gets to earth! On the contrary! She's been waiting for this day to come for centuries!
And on that day, every fantasy that she'd ever scared her childhood schoolmates with will finally come true.
Lady Supreme's Thoughts:
Gwen watches Jennifer walk away from her and disappear back into the Aeon building, and then Gwen turns and resumes walking the grassy field where she first met Ethan, and where later she and Ethan were married. She's feeling a little lost and out-of-sorts right now.
She sighs. "I really don't have anyone to talk to about how I'm feeling...that's the sad part." She shakes her head. "I feel like such a complainer...such a baby. I would be too embarrassed to tell anyone what's going on in my head right now, anyway. And after I come out of this funk, I'd be humiliated that I'd let anyone in on my little moping-session."
"I guess when I had Rage in my head I always had someone to 'talk' to, as psychotic as that sounds. The more I think about it, the more I realize I didn't have Multiple Personality Disorder, I had Schizophrenia. Because I could talk to the other personality...argue with it...and we'd flip back and forth at a moment's notice with who was in control."
"But enough of that. I guess right now I'm just feeling...hmm...betrayed, and neglected, and abandoned...I feel like...like the universe is playing sadistic practical jokes on me one after the other...giving me all these wonderful surprises, and then yanking them away again and leaving me lower than I started."
"See, and now I'm feeling like a jerk for even thinking these things! But I have to get it off my chest somehow. I'm not mad at Ethan. I just miss him so badly that my throat aches. We'd finally gotten our marriage to this perfect, blissful place, and then Divis came and took everything away from me. He took 200 years of my life. He took the rest of my children's lives from me. He took the rest of my brothers' lives from me. He killed my parents and aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents when he destroyed California. He killed Caestus and Andre and everyone else I cared about who didn't end up getting frozen and put into a floating museum for 200 years."
"Then we get unfrozen, and Rage is finally separated from me, and I know Ethan's alive out there, but the years go by and he never shows up. So I held this hope in my heart that he was on earth...that he got here before everyone else and was just waiting for Divis to arrive because he didn't realize that the rest of us were still alive. And then we got here and no one's seen Ethan. He's not here."
"And it's like this huge disappointment sunk into me...this despair that I'm never going to see him again. That by the time he makes it back to earth I'll be dead, or something. I have this doomsday-feeling hanging around me all the time, like I'm not going to make it out of this again...this time for good....and I can't shake it. So I've been writing letters to Ethan in case I never see him again, so he'll know what happened with me and Rage, and know who I am now that she's gone."
"So that's the underlying doom and gloom in my mind. And then on top of that are all these little teasers...things that would have brightened up my life, but they don't go the way I was hoping they would."
"First there's Jennifer. During me and Ethan's happiest years, Jennifer was at her most miserable because she was lonely and pining after Brody. She came over and stayed every weekend with us...she had her own room and everything. The minute she arrived, me and Ethan would tone it down for her. We'd barely touch each other, and would cut out all the little affectionate words and gestures that we did the rest of the week-- all to make her more comfortable. Basically, me and Ethan acted like friends or siblings. And I'd give all my attention to Jennifer and make her feel comfortable and happy."
"Skip ahead 200 years. Now I'm the one who lonely and pining for the man I love, and Jennifer and Brody are together. At first I don't mind the public displays of affection. In fact, it warms my heart to see the two of them together. But then it starts getting a little much, and soon I realize that Jennifer's completely abandoned me. She never comes to visit me on the Endeavor...never wants to talk to hang out with me. She's always following Brody around like a puppy dog."
"So I lose myself in my work-- training with the Supremacy, and planning for the war with Divis. This keeps my mind off my loneliness until we get to earth, because I know there's a young girl there waiting for me...my great-granddaughter...and I'm going to dedicate myself to helping prepare her for when Divis comes. I'm going to lavish attention and affection on her to make up for all the years I missed with my children."
"Then we get to earth and meet Dee, and at first she seems so happy to see me and so anxious to learn all she can from me, but then...I don't know. She seems disappointed with us-- like we're not living up to our holograms, or something-- so she makes excuses all the time to leave and go back home and not spend any time with me."
"It hurts...it really hurts. And then I notice how she stands and acts, and I realize that either she's trying desperately to emulate her great-grandfather, or else she inherited a little too much 'all work and no play' from Bob and Supreme. I really need to have a talk with her and see if this attitude is natural, or if she's trying to project this pre-determined image of herself, the same way Supreme was."
"So then while I'm trying to recover from my great-granddaughter's disregard, suddenly Radar's back in my life! And it's like the black clouds have lifted, and I can handle all the disappointment because I have Radar back! Radar who was always loyal to me above all! Radar who never wanted to leave my side! Radar who only told his secret to me because he trusted me above everyone else! And then what do I find out? He doesn't want to come home with me, either. He wants to stay with Dee. OK, fine. I'm fine with that. Protect Dee. That's a good boy."
"But then he starts sharing his secret with EVERYONE. And then this psion Kelly announces that she's pregnant, and apparently her baby is going to be a nova one day, and now Radar has forsaken both me AND Dee and wants to stay with Kelly! And I'm starting to wonder who the hell I am to him!? Was I just the only female he knew up until now?"
"I know that sounds really stupid! It's stupid to have my feelings hurt over the actions of my dog! (he IS still my dog...right??) But it was the last straw. My husband's gone. My children are gone. My granddaughter doesn't want to spend any time with me. And now my dog's left me. Damn--I need to write a country song about this. It would go platinum in Nashville! Is Nashville even still there??"
"Oh and I forgot to mention Lance on top of everything else! Lance and the Saxon are still alive, so we bring them back to Terra Nova to have a party to celebrate being reunited and back on earth. Jennifer and Brody are busy sharing the details of their sex-life with everyone, so I turn my attention to Lance. Good old reliable Lance! Thank GOD I have one of my old friends back from the golden days!"
"We talk for a while and catch up on things, and then he starts obsessing about wanting to get laid. Now I admit, I had a very tiny crush on him a long time ago before Ethan and I got together, so I start wondering if he's coming on to me. Not that I'd say yes, but I would have been flattered that he'd finally noticed I was female! It would have cheered me up, in any case."
"And then I realize he's talking to Kat. *sigh* Why am I not surprised? Does she have "I'm easy!" tattooed on her forehead in invisible ink that desperate people pick up on?? Seriously! I mean, she hasn't once mentioned missing Screw...I mean SKEW, or their children or ANYTHING since we were unfrozen! Doesn't she have a heart?? Next time I get a hold of her medical records I'm going to check, because I'm starting to seriously wonder!"
"So she goes off with Lance-- who she has NEVER given the slightest inkling of affection for before that night-- right in front of Elias, who if I was a betting-woman, I would bet is still in love with her. But again, when you're heartless you don't really care, right?"
"OK, now I'm started to get bitter and angry and this is doing me no good. The only positive side of this is that I don't feel the desire to kill Kat, which I would have felt in abundance if Rage was still in my head, and it would have eaten at me and given me insomnia. I'll take 'bitter and angry' any day over 'murderous and furious!'"
Gwen sits down on the grass and crosses her legs, holding her head in her hands. "So I came out here to think and be alone and try to relive good memories from this place, now that we find out that Aeon doesn't give a rat's ass about us anymore or respect us...they treat us like ex-employees who they're just humoring and letting wander around like ghosts...and Jennifer finally pulls herself away from Brody long enough to come talk to me, and what does she want to talk to me about? About how I feel about killing Rage. What a great topic of conversation!"
"Not only does Jennifer know that when me and Rage were first separated I was trying to get Rage's love for Damage out of my head so she marks her territory all over Damage at every opportunity she gets, but she also knows that I feel responsible for Rage's existence, and that despite all Rage did, that I miss her and feel bad for her, so Jennifer keeps digging the knife in and asking how I'm going to feel if they kill Rage, or if I'm going to kill her, myself! Yeah, thanks. I love you, too, Jennifer. I mean, GOD! Is she only a good friend when she's miserable? She's seriously not the same Jennifer I used to know now that she's happy!"
"So to finish my long rant, right now I feel like I have nothing and no one. Each person that meant so much to me has been taken away from me one at a time. Brody took Jennifer from me. Jennifer took Brody from me. Kat took Lance from me. Dee removed herself from me. Radar gave himself to a new owner. And speaking of that, Max is a royal bastard! How DARE he give MY dog orders!? He's lucky Rage is gone! She would never let THAT fly! But good old Gwen always obeys her orders and does what's best for the team and just keeps her feelings to herself." *sigh*
"This isn't good. I just need to run some laps, or lift some weights, or do something to try to work off this frustration. It doesn't help that I haven't gotten laid in over 200 years, myself, hehe. Too bad that Supreme-hologram isn't tangible. He'd be in trouble."
Gwen sighs and shakes her head. "Rage...what have you done?? How could you forget how much you hated Divis and go off with him?? How could you join the Teragen after mentally tearing every tenant of it apart?? Were you really that lonely and desperate?"
"I'm sorry I didn't go after you when you thought Damage was dead. I betrayed you, too. I should have left the ship and gone after you to talk to you. I shouldn't have left you to float aimlessly through space."
"I take full responsibility for everything you've ever done and everything you're going to do because I never got help for my temper when I knew I had a problem and we were still one personality. I should have gone to a psychologist when I was a child, like the principal wanted me to do...even though Dad wouldn't hear of it because he said EVERYONE in the family has the Nielsson Temper, we're not crazy! I shouldn't have tried to just stuff you down into my subconscious so far that I wouldn't have to deal with you again. NOW look what happened."
"But you came when I needed you most, and when I tried to stuff you back down into the black hole again and go on with my life you wouldn't let me, and now this is where we are. I can't blame you for fighting to survive."
Gwen holds her head in her hands. "I just don't know what I'm going to do."
