Disclaimer: I own a ten year old car and a few stuffed animals, you do the math. I borrowed the characters and the song. No harm meant! :)
Rating: PG
Special thanks to Diana for fixing all my problems, um, I mean, for doing beta duty. Hell, you know what I mean! :) Thanks always! Any complains will result in a beating of the Methos muse, so keep that in mind! :) And for those of you who like that sort of thing, speak to me in private! :)
More notes: Kay used this song first and wrote an incredible story with it. I was tempted to forget mine, but she was nice enough to allow me to submit my own paltry attempt. Thanks Kay! :) Her story can be found at: http://www.slashcity.com/kamil/khighlander/makeyou.htm
Feel Me, Feel My Love
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
He came back to me again last night. Shivering and thin, in his dark coat, his pale skin nearly luminescent in the moonlight. He didn't even set foot on the barge, but I felt his quickening tingling through my senses, and I stepped outside to see him. He solemnly made his way inside and straight into the shower. I had a beer waiting for him when he emerged wrapped in my dark green bathrobe. He watched me watch him. I ached to pull him into my arms, but I knew from experience that he had to come to me, he had to make the first move. He gently set the empty bottle on the coffee table and moved to the bed. The robe hit the floor with a quiet whisper and he fell onto the bed in a boneless sprawl, his lean body spread before my eyes. A single word drifted towards my ears.
"Come."
And I went. Willingly. I would take whatever he chose to give me, even if my heart wanted more. A sip of water can ease a great thirst, and I was damn thirsty.
When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
Sometimes I wondered at my ability to accept him into my life with no questions. I let him come and go without restrictions, knowing that if I were to impose them on him, he'd disappear forever. I couldn't hold him--if I pull him too closely or too tightly against me, he started to suffocate. I didn't want to change him; I just wanted to love him.
I never thought it was possible to love someone so much that I would let him leave me. I was sure he knew that I was in love with him. I don't hide my feelings very well. Yet he kept coming back to me. Almost like he wanted the love but couldn't quite let himself have it.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
The first time I looked into his eyes, I was hooked. There was an attraction there that we couldn't deny, although we did fight it at first. Yeah, for the first day. When I found his flat empty, my heart fell out of my chest. I guess I expected a note or something along those lines, but he was gone. Gone without a word. Except he wasn't. He was waiting at the barge for me.
His presence was so new to me that I wasn't familiar with how it felt in my head, and I approached the barge carefully. I recognized his form standing in silhouette on the deck. He had his back to me, his trust in me showing through his defenses, and I called out to him. I let his name roll off my tongue like an endearment. Like we were already lovers. He just looked over his shoulder at me and smiled. I was an open book. His open book.
We went inside the barge and made love for hours. I stopped using my brain and just let all my instincts take over. I never knew that so many emotions could race through my mind at once. I wanted to own and be owned. I wanted to possess and be possessed. I want to love and be loved. He met every emotion with one of his own, and left me the next morning completely sated, emotionally as well as physically. I don't think I have ever recovered from those brief hours.
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
This time, morning found us arguing. It was nothing new between us, but the subject matter is. I tried to mother him one too many times and he was bitching. In my face, he asked me how I could love him after everything he'd done, how I could forgive him for being Death.
"You never asked me to forgive you, Methos. You asked me if I could accept it, and I can and have."
"You're such a child, " he sneered. "You think you know me? You think you have any idea of who I am?"
"No, because you won't let me know you," I replied tiredly. "But I want to. I want to know everything, Methos."
"Everything?" he laughed. "You don't know what you're saying."
"Answer me this then. What's the worst thing you've ever done?"
All I got was a cold look in response.
"The Horsemen, right?" A curt nod. "I've accepted that, why can't you accept that there is nothing you can do that will make me not love you."
"You don't know me well enough to love me."
"You may be right, but I know my own heart, now I want to know yours."
That stopped him cold. I've never seen someone freeze completely. I'd pushed him too far. He would leave now.
The storms are raging on the rollin' sea
Down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet
He didn't bring much, so it didn't take long for him to pack. I wanted to say so much to him, make him realize that I'd never betray him, but he wasn't willing to listen to me anymore. Even that knowledge didn't stop me from making my last declarations.
"I love you. No matter where you go or what you do, I will always love you. And you can't outrun it or hide from it. It's a fact, it's undeniable."
For a split second, I thought I saw a crack in his veneer, but he quickly polished over it. My words would stick with him for a long time.
I followed him outside, and we stood side by side in the early morning light. So much was left unsaid between us, but neither of us spoke. Me, for fear that I would go too far, and him, well, who knows with the old man. Maybe I was starting to get to him.
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love
He finally took a step away from me, and I knew he was ready to leave. My voice shook as I asked him one last thing.
"Can you make me two promises?"
He looked skeptical, "One?"
"Could you say my name sometime? Could you call me 'Duncan' once in a while?"
I don't think he expected that.
"And two?" he asked softly.
"Watch your head. I kinda like it where it is."
"Will do."
Turning away, he started down the gangplank. When he reached the bottom, he stopped and looked back at me.
"I will come back."
I could only nod because I didn't trust my voice.
He smiled then, the smile that changed his whole face and made my heart leap in my chest.
"Duncan."
The end.
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