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May 2003 I have a new blog which is currently being designed. Will be ready (hopefully) May 6th. Visit me here at www.lisa.bloghosts.com Wednesday 4th December Feeling sick- I hate my head! Whenever I get sick it involves my head- headaches, sinus, throat, ears- I rarely have anything wrong with me elsewhere. I suppose people who are into starsigns will say it is because I am an Aries- their weak spot is the head. Our Rottie- Mutombo is not doing well at all. We will be putting him down on Saturday. I have known this was coming for months now but I know it is going to be hard. We will take him- my Dad, Bro and David on Saturday. I am trying to be strong but it is hitting my Dad hard. The dogs have become their Children since we all left home. I have never had an animal put down before. I did watch my old dog Bengy die though- that was harrowing. We were waiting for the vet to open as he became ill in the middle of the night. I was sitting with him and he was having a lot of trouble breathing. All of a sudden he didn't have so much trouble breathing and I was really relieved- then my Bro took over and realised it was because he was dead. I remember the relief I felt when I thought he was OK and it helped afterwards to realise that at least he wasn't in any more pain, and I was with him patting and talking to him- he always liked that. I want to do the same for Mutombo- pat him and talk to him until he is gone. I think it is going to be a pretty bad weekend. I am going to my Parents house tonight to spend some time with him. Thursday 28th November Feeling good- feeling loved. Isn't that sickly sweet and pathetic. I don't care- I love my man. I never thought I'd find someone who would put up with me : ) And even if I found someone I thought we'd always have blazing arguements. I know that comes from how my parents were. They used to have awful fights even after they were separated but Dad came to visit. He most of the time stayed at our house on weekends (and still does even though we have all moved out of home). My parents relationship is strange but it seems to work. They have trouble living together and this arrangement works. Now with my mother sick she needs someone there. I know my Dad would rather be out there exploring the world. I suppose I am a Daddy's girl because I really can't tell you what my mother wants. Oh sometime I don't know if I can be a parent. I think I might be too strict because my parent weren't- and I don't want to end up like my mother- I think I would rather be dead. I know that, that is horrible- but it has always been my greatest fear. I know it won't happen. I have so much more education and I think my mental health is much better. Both my mother and Nanna have Parkinson's disease and I am scared shitless that it is hereditory. Whenever I forget something or feel vague I think- "Is this a forerunner to Parkinsons". If they find a gene I don't know if I would want to take a test unless there was something I could do about it. I wish I had started something like this earlier. I think it os somewhat theraputic to put this all down- even if nobody but me reads it! Anyway enough of the past. I like today. The weather is cooler ( it was over 40 deg C here on Mon & Tues- that's over 100F!) and I just bought the new U2-Best of 1990-2000 Cd & DVD.Can't wait to listen to it! Ingrid & her Davids wedding was wonderful! She looked beautiful everyone had fun and I got drunk! It was Hangover city on Sunday : ), I know I could write for hours but I will leave it at that for now! Lisa 10.30am |