Did not have a good night last night. Slathered butter on my potatoes and ate too much chocolate. Went for a good walk however. Still want to stop all the time and sit down. If I keep it up I will be able to walk the city to surf next year for sure (14km fun run).
Friday 8th November 2002
Went for a really good walk - 40mins with David last night. Took it relatively easy as I don't want to overdo it right away. At dinner neither of us took seconds and there was enough leftovers sor my lunch today- Yippe no sandwich for me today. Going for a walk down Bondi Beach tomorrow to see sculptures by the sea.
Lisa 4.30pm
Wednesday 6th November 2002
Well what a weekend. Went on a Hens weekend at the Southern Highlands. We had a BALL! But so much food and chocolate does not a good Lisa make. So now I am back into it. Went shopping for all the healthy stuff and have vowed to make the chocolate bar I depend on last 2-3 days! hehehe. Now I have to be serious, It's almost summer and I desperately need some summer clothes. : ( Wo is me.
Lisa 9am
Tuesday 29th October 2002
Todays Progress Prompts
Today's prompts is all about planning for the holidays. I have no idea about how to cope with them. I have no willpower and will eat all the yummy stuff. My thought are about portions. If I allow myself to have small amount of those items without piling my plate it might work. I think it is better to give yourself a little bit of something then to deprive yourself and binge later on!
Lisa 11am
Friday 25th October 2002
Friday friday. I usually love Fridays but I woke up this morning feeling dreadful. There was a really strong smell of smoke in the air. I thought there must be a bush fire down the road. the smell was so strong. The Australian bushfire smell is so peculiar. It is not like and ordinary fire smell- must be the eucalyptus trees. Turns out the fires are out at the mountains.
My hayfever has blown up and I feel like my head is going the explode. I almost stayed at home but at least at work it is air conditioned. The city is a haze worse then on Wednesday with the dust storm. Australia is an amazing country!
Lisa 9.30 am
Thursday 24th October 2002
I have chosen a really stupid time to begin this. My boyfriend and I are minding my parents house (and our dogs and cats) while they are on holidays. Now my mother means well but she is partly responsible for my poor eating habits. Now that is a whole other story which I won't go into today. She very kindly left the cupboard fridge and freezer filled with junk-food and not much else! I think I put on weight just looking at all the icecream and biscuits she left let alone the frozen chips and cakes. There is so much junk food even if that is all we ate all week there would still be some left (sigh).
I have very little willpower when I go home to my parents. I think it is because I fall into my old habits of when I lived with my mother and was a very unhappy girl.
I am not going to beat myself up about eating the junk-food there but use it as a week to eat things I am not going to want to eat except to spoil myself.
Tonight I do my measurements etc to post here.
Lisa 9.30am
Tuesday 22nd October 2002
Todays Progress Prompts
-How many sizes of clothes do you have in your closet and draws?
I have a couple of things of size 12 (from when I was in high school) some 14 & 16 but mostly 18, My pants and jeans are 20 cause I have huge thighs.
-How do your thin clothes make you feel?
They make me feel like I wish I could wear them again.
-What would happen if you gave away every single peice of clothing that didn't fit you? Are you willing to do it?
Yes and No. I got rid of a lot of old thin and fat clothes when I moved out of home last year. 6 bags worth. Man I am a pack rat. I kept only a couple of things like the pair of pants and shorts I keep as a goal. The thing is that I have very few clothes now I have gotten so big. I am not willing to spend a lot of money buying a whole new wardrobe ( I already bought half a new wardrobe). So I wear the same thing all the time.
First Day
I have been a yo-yo dieter for many years. I am now the biggest I have ever been and I don't like it. I don't like being puffed when I walk upstairs to my flat. I don't like not being able to fit into any clothes I like.
So I am writing this blog to make my-self accountable and to document my changes.
The picture at the link left is how I look now.
I am not a writer by profession or interest, so I can't guarantee that I will always be coherant- but I will do my best and hope to improve over time.
Lisa 11am