Fandom: Card Captor Sakura Date Finished: October 29th, 2003 (my 21st birthday! ;P) Classification: Romance, Angst Pairing: Eriol/Yue, Clow/Yue, Touya/Yukito, mild hints of Touya/Yue Rating: NC-17 Note: Sequel to `Love Is�', but can be read independently. Glass By Elsewhere <[email protected]> Disclaimer: The characters and story of Card Captor Sakura are not mine. Oops. ;P The lyrics quoted are from `Glass' by Kawamura Ryuichi, translated into English by Mina-P (http://www.senshigakuen.com). I intend no infringement to either party; I'm just quoting `em. Distribution: If you want this story for any page other than the ones I've sent it to, please ask me first, so I know where it goes. Spoilers: I may make reference to any of a number of events in the anime TV series and the manga. These references may often mix the manga and anime versions of said events. Note: Just in case anyone had any doubt, Eriol is quite a lot older during the time of this story than he was in the manga/anime. ;P Note on Spelling/Romanization: All names will be spelled as they were romanized in the original Japanese version of the Card Captor Sakura manga (in the character information sections). In other words, `Clow Read' rather than `Clow Reed', `Li Syaoran' rather than `Li Shaoran' or any other spelling of his name you may have seen, etc. If you don't like the way I (and CLAMP) spell the names, you're free to stop reading at this point. Legend: Emphasis is shown with * * Thoughts are shown with / / Telepathic communication is shown with < > Thanx as ever to my beta reader Adara-chan, without whom my stories wouldn't see the light of day. ;P Also thanx to Loren who checked my Japanese. Summary: Years have passed since Yue last had any contact with the present incarnation of his former master, but when Eriol unexpectedly arrives to attend Syaoran and Sakura's wedding, Yue is forced to face some of his memories�and Eriol is forced to make a choice. Part One: Glossary: aishiteru - I love you anata - you arigatou - thank you arigatou gozaimasu - thank you (formal) demo - but e? - huh? gomen - sorry gomen nasai - I'm so sorry; in this case, it means something more along the lines of a very polite `excuse me' hai - yes; okay ikuzo - let's go iya - no kaijuu - monster---Touya's affectionate nickname for Sakura kaijuu janai - I'm not a monster konnichiwa - hello na - hey nan demo nai na - it's nothing nani? - what? oi - hey onii - older brother otou - father sensei - teacher shitsurei - excuse me To-ya - an alternate romanization and pronunciation of Touya's name--- Yuki's affectionate nickname for Touya wakatta - I know; I understand Yuki-usagi - snow rabbit---Kero's affectionate nickname for Yuki ***** If I could reach my feelings out To you I wish you would knock on the door to my heart Like it's open for you ***** "Oi, Sakura�are you almost ready?" It was the fifth time he'd asked, and the fifth time he hadn't been answered. Touya glanced at his watch yet again and grimaced. Time was wearing on, and if Sakura didn't hurry and finish getting ready, she was going to be late�and being late for one's own wedding wouldn't be quite as easy to laugh off as nearly being late for school. But then, back then, Sakura always had managed to make it to school on time, despite a tendency to wake up late and dawdle on the way, lingering to talk to Yuki. Touya sincerely hoped that, with the same distraction facing her now, Sakura would still manage to be as prompt, in the end, as she had been as a child. "Oi, Sa�" he began again, only to trail off into a stunned silence as he stared up the stairs at a sight he'd never truly thought he'd see. Sakura was slowly making her way down the stairs, her hand tightly clasping Yuki's arm as he guided her. She seemed slightly dazed, and Touya couldn't blame her; he too fell into a stupor the instant he saw her. Sakura had always looked gorgeous in traditional clothing, but this time, their father's taste for beautiful clothes had outdone itself. The kimono itself wasn't too different from others she'd worn in the past, its rich, cherry blossom color perfectly matching both Sakura's name and the lovely blush that spread across her cheeks when she noticed the way Touya was staring. However, the intricate patterns woven in silver through the soft pink fabric provided a sense of the exotic that the garment might otherwise have lost, and they also matched perfectly the set of antique silver hair clasps---an early wedding present from Otou-san---holding in place the precise network of curls piled on top of Sakura's head. "Sakura-san, it's almost time to go!" Fujitaka called just as he rounded the corner into the hallway and looked up. Just as Touya had been, for a moment Fujitaka was frozen, entirely taken aback by the sight that greeted him. "Oh�Sakura-san�a�anata�" Fujitaka's usual eloquence escaped him as he brought up a hand to cover his mouth, trying to blink back his tears. Sakura smiled warmly as she completed the last few steps and let go of Yuki's arm. Behind her, Tomoyo walked the rest of the way down the stairs, revealing herself to be in a kimono colored in soft peach tones, a beautiful contrast to Sakura's ensemble. "Arigatou, otou-san," Sakura said softly, leaning up to give her still-speechless father a quick hug before she turned to Touya, a slight smile turning up the corners of her mouth as she awaited his verdict. "Sakura�you look�beautiful," Touya said finally, his breathless tone revealing his shock. Sakura grinned, and started to turn towards Yuki, but stopped when she realized Touya wasn't finished. "But�you're still a kaijuu," Touya said seriously, and luckily for him, Sakura was too worried about somehow harming her dress to kick him. "Onii-chan!!" she snapped, but more playfully than she once would have. She gave him a gentle shove. "Kaijuu janai!" "To-ya," Yuki said, in his gentlest, most teasing tone. Touya turned to glance at him, lifting an eyebrow. "Today, of all days, try to keep your sister complex under control." "Nani�!?" Touya sputtered, smiling as Tomoyo and Sakura giggled girlishly and excused themselves, slipping past the three men and making their way towards the door. "Didn't you say it's time to go, otou-san?" Sakura called, and Fujitaka finally composed himself enough to say that yes, it was time they were going. Touya remained in the hallway, watching as his sister made her way out of the house. The smile slowly faded from his face, replaced with a look of melancholic resignation. "To-ya?" Yuki murmured, lightly touching Touya's arm. Touya snapped out of his trance at the sound of Yuki's voice, turning to glance down, his smile slowly returning as he met Yuki's soft amber eyes. "Ikuzo," Touya said, the skin at the corners of his eyes crinkling as he gestured towards the door. Yuki continued to stare at him for a moment before they heard an irate, feminine shout from outside demanding that they hurry up, and the spell was broken. Both of them chuckled and started for the door, and it wasn't until they reached it that Yuki reached out to tug lightly on Touya's sleeve, stopping him in place. Touya turned back to ask what was wrong, but the words died in his throat when he saw the serious look in Yuki's eyes. "To-ya�this doesn't mean that anything has to change," Yuki said softly, smiling slightly when he saw Touya's look of confusion. "You can still protect Sakura, and Yue and I will as well. If there is a difference�it's that from this day on, you can rest assured that he will protect her as well, as best as he can." Touya paused for only a moment before he offered an equally gentle smile and leaned down slightly, brushing his lips briefly against Yuki's before he pulled back. "Arigatou," he whispered, and then he turned away, tugging Yuki along as he made his way to the car. ***** By the time they reached the park, a crowd had gathered, all of them dressed formally, some of them in traditional Japanese clothing and some of them in traditional Chinese wear. Amongst the sea of colorful kimono and robes, it took some time for Sakura to finally spot her groom, and when she did, it was only because she could distinctly hear the sound of Li Meiling's voice yelling above the murmurs of the crowd. Instinctively, her eyes followed the sound, and she couldn't help the bright smile that lit her face when she spied her intended, standing with a look somewhere between resignation and a grimace on his face as his cousin shouted directly in his ear. As though he sensed the touch of her eyes, the clouded look in his eyes abruptly focused, and his gaze swept the crowd until he saw her, standing with her family on the other side of the mass of people between them. Sakura's smile instantly became sweeter, more of the smile that she tended to save for private interaction, and in response, his light scowl melted away into a similar smile. She felt her heart stop in her chest as she watched his lips move in a familiar pattern, a silent message for her, and her alone: "Aishiteru." ***** Touya watched as his sister disappeared into the mob of people, holding Tomoyo's hand, and then his eyes lifted again, moving across to the groom, standing at the other end of the park, waiting. "I have to admit," Touya said begrudgingly as his eyes took in the younger man's attire, "the brat certainly looks prepared for the occasion." "Syaoran-kun," Yuki replied, in a vaguely reprimanding tone that implied that Touya should at some point stop calling Li `brat', "would not have asked Sakura-chan to marry him if he weren't entirely sure. He's like you, that way�" Touya glanced at Yuki sharply, a little perturbed at being compared to Li Syaoran, who had for many years been just about his least favorite person in the universe. "�neither of you would commit yourselves to another person without being completely sure of the feelings of your own hearts," Yuki finished, smiling softly, his eyes shining with a kind of private joy that Touya knew was reserved for him alone. "You know that I'm sure," Touya said quietly, taking a step towards Yuki and grinning fondly when Yuki ducked his head to hide his blush. "And so is he," Yuki said, glancing up at Touya over the rim of his glasses. "As sure as you are. He'll take good care of her, To-ya." Touya was silent for a moment, his eyes again seeking through the crowd until he spotted Syaoran standing, now with his back to the gathering, watching the approach of another small group of guests. "Wakatta," he said finally, the barest whisper of an acknowledgment, but it was enough to make Yuki smile. Several moments passed as they waited, each of them glancing at the crowd around them, seeing familiar faces and smiling and nodding whenever someone recognized them in return. "And Yue?" Touya asked, turning to glance at Yuki. "How does he feel about this?" It wasn't the first time Touya had asked the question. He knew the answer well enough, but he asked now out of a lingering nervousness, a nervousness that Sakura's guardian, someone whom Touya trusted far more implicitly than he could bring himself to trust Sakura's fiance, could allay. For a moment, Yuki's eyes glazed over slightly, and Touya recognized this as meaning that Yuki was conducting a silent conversation within his own mind. "Yue says�he would trust Li Syaoran to guard Sakura�that he will be just as competent as her partner and guardian as Yue and Cerberus themselves," Yuki said, his eyes clearing as he smiled slightly. "Speaking of which, where is the little stuffed animal?" Touya asked, deliberately choosing his words to cause a reaction. "Oi, watch your mouth, boyo," came a familiar high-pitched voice, seemingly coming directly from the bag Yuki held in his left hand. "I'm older than you and I still have a few tricks up my sleeve." "Shh, Kero-san, you'll be heard," Yuki whispered, and the voice in the bag grumbled and fell silent. "Na, Yuki, let's go try to find a seat over�" Touya's voice trailed off when he turned back and noticed the way Yuki had suddenly stiffened, his eyes flickering back and forth between different sections of the crowd. "Yuki�?" "Hm�? Oh, To-ya," Yuki replied, his eyes coming to rest on Touya's face. "Ah�nan demo nai na. I thought I saw someone I knew." "You may have," came the muffled voice from the bag again. "I felt it too." Yuki glanced towards the bag. "Mm�demo�" "Ignore it for now, Yuki-usagi," Kero's voice replied, sounding characteristically cheerful. "It's not likely to be hostile." "Hai," Yuki answered, after waiting to hear Yue breathe his own acquiescence to Kero's words. But for the first time that day, Yuki felt Yue's previous comfort dissolving into tension, and Yuki knew it had nothing to do with Sakura or her choice of groom. ***** The wedding was as beautiful---perhaps more so---as anyone would have hoped, especially considering the intense planning that had gone into it, mainly orchestrated by Tomoyo and Meiling. When those two got together, the results tended to be both creative and breathtaking, and with the added support of the Li family, complete with the crowd of Syaoran's sisters and the family matriarch, Syaoran's mother, the wedding had become something that transcended everyone's expectations. Afterwards, the guests were invited to stay and speak to the bride and groom, who were slowly making the rounds, stopping to speak to both family and friends. Yuki shuffled his feet slightly, delighted by the feel of the thick carpet of sakura petals beneath his feet parting around his shoes as he moved. Next to him, Touya stood somewhat stiffly, obviously trying to look like the intimidating older brother, and Yuki could only smile and think of what rich material he would have with which to tease Touya later. He stiffened slightly again, and felt Touya's eyes fly to him instantly, even as Yuki's own eyes lifted, seeking out the source of the vague pulse of familiar power he had felt�not familiar to him, but familiar to the one who resided within him. Yuki swiveled his head and would have kept turning, looking for someone familiar, except that when he caught a flash out of the corner of his eye of a pair of glasses glinting in the sun, Yue abruptly caught his breath. Yuki stopped instantly, turning back, but now he couldn't see anything resembling glasses�only a sea of unfamiliar people waiting to talk to Sakura and Syaoran, who stood only a few feet from where Yuki and Touya lingered under one of the sakura trees. "There," Kero murmured discreetly from where he was tucked under Yuki's arm, doing his standard impression of a stuffed toy, hoping not to draw anyone's attention to the fact that he was genuinely alive. Instinctively, Yuki turned his head, following not his own impulse, but rather Yue's. Again he felt Yue tense as Yuki's eyes came to rest on a young man slowly making his way towards Sakura and Syaoran. Despite the fact that it had been a number of years since he had had any contact with the boy, Yuki---and Yue---recognized Hiiragizawa Eriol instantly, not only because of the familiar sensation of magical energy that he emitted which grew more and more powerful the closer he came to the two magical guardians by Sakura's side, but also because of the fact that he had actually changed very little in all of those years. The last time Yuki had encountered Eriol, the magician had been a boy of sixteen, returned to Japan for a year to tutor Sakura extensively in the ways of magic. He had only waited so long in the hopes of allowing her to mature her skills on her own, and he had not been disappointed. Sakura was, as ever, a quick and ingenuous learner, and she hadn't spent the years between in vain�ever since she had managed to collect and transform all of the Clow Cards into Sakura Cards, she had moved her magical pursuits onto the more practical task of learning, from Kero and Yue, all that they could possibly teach her of the ways of a magician. After that year had passed, Eriol had left again, back to England, just as abruptly as he had gone before. He was not the sort of person to linger in a place if he was no longer required; he had a rigid sense of his own tasks and duties, and when he was or wasn't needed. That was part of the reason that Yue---and, almost by default, Yuki--- was so surprised by Eriol's appearance here, at Sakura's wedding. The other part of the reason was that, although Eriol was still clearly recognizable as the charming teenager he had been nearly five years before, he had also unmistakably matured into a man. Where at sixteen his slender shape had given him the appearance of gawkiness, it now only leant him a physical air of the natural grace he had always possessed. He moved, if possible, with greater confidence and poise than he once had, although he had always appeared and acted more mature than his physical age would have suggested. His glasses, once simple and functional, had been exchanged for a more chic, modern pair that both clashed with and accented the messy shock of black hair that spilled across his forehead. Unlike the rest of his look, this hairstyle was a return to the one he had used in his youth; as a teenager, he had briefly kept his hair long and usually in a messy ponytail, just like his ancestor, Clow Read, once had. Yuki and Yue's contemplation of the familiar boy-turned-man was cut off abruptly when Eriol finally broke through the crowd and stopped in front of Sakura and Syaoran. The moment Sakura saw him, she broke out in a huge grin, and even from their short distance, Touya and Yuki could both clearly hear her pleased cry of, "Eriol-kun!", followed by Syaoran's calmer, "Hiiragizawa." "Sakura-san; Li-kun," Eriol answered, closing his eyes and offering them his familiar bright, gentle smile as he bowed respectfully towards each of them. Yuki noticed the way Eriol's eyes paused briefly on Syaoran, and he felt some part of him echo another familiarity. He wondered whether, if things had been different, perhaps Syaoran and Eriol might have� He was distracted from his thoughts again by the sound of Eriol's voice. "Konnichiwa. I hope I'm not intruding." "Iya, Eriol-kun�you could never intrude," Sakura said, delight making her voice reminiscent of her old, childish chirp. "But we had no idea you were coming." "I wished to surprise you, and this time I hoped the surprise would only be pleasant," Eriol said with a softer smile, and then he turned, gesturing towards someone in the crowd. Sakura once again broke out in a wide grin as she watched Mizuki Kaho step out from the crowd and make her way to Eriol's side. "Kaho-sensei!" Sakura exclaimed. Beside him, Yuki felt Touya stiffen slightly, but he knew it was little more than a reflex at this point. Touya had resolved his feelings towards Kaho many years since. "Not anymore, Sakura-san," Kaho answered with a bright smile, copying Eriol's previous actions as she bowed to both bride and groom. "It's been a long time since I was your teacher, but I'm glad you remember me." "I could never forget you, Kaho-san," Sakura answered warmly. Yuki had the impression that the sentiment was echoed by the man standing beside him, despite the fact that Touya remained silent. "Gomen nasai," Eriol said, during the next break in conversation. His eyes were bright with something that almost seemed like mischief, and Sakura responded to this sentiment with a similar grin. "If I may be excused�" "Of course," Sakura agreed, nodding, and her eyes followed him as he bowed once more and made his way slowly towards where Touya and Yuki stood. Yuki was surprised to find his eyes carefully watching Eriol's every move, lingering on the smooth motion of a slender, artistic hand as it reached up to brush a sakura blossom from where it had landed on Eriol's shoulder. At the last instant, the hand seemed to change its mind, and instead clasped the blossom in a gentle grip. Yuki's eyes moved slowly from this motion to Eriol's face, and he was surprised to find that he was being watched in return. Despite himself, Yuki caught his breath, surprised by the sensation of butterflies in his stomach as his eyes met Eriol's warm gaze, a stormy combination of blue and grey that had always mystified Yuki. "Konnichiwa," Eriol said, his pleasant voice resonating deeply as he bowed respectfully, first before Touya, and then before Yuki. "Kinomoto-san�Tsukishiro-san�Yue �Cerberus. It has been many years, and I must confess, I'm pleased to see all of you." It was extremely rare that anyone should address Yuki and Yue separately, mainly because there were very few who knew of Yue's existence, but also because those who did know the truth tended only to speak to whichever one of them was currently in possession of the body they shared. Eriol, however, had always behaved with equal respect to both Yue and Yukito at the same time, as though he believed that he might slight one by failing to mention the other. Yuki smiled warmly and bowed his head, but his eyes flitted back upwards in surprise when he saw Eriol's hand lift, the cherry blossom offered in his open palm. "If I may, I would like to speak to Yue-san later, at his, and your own, convenience, Tsukishiro-san," Eriol said politely, the look in his eyes as unreadable as usual as Yuki hesitantly reached out to take the flower, his fingertips feeling a hesitance not entirely his own. He could feel Touya's eyes on him, curious, but he wouldn't have been able to explain the conflicting feelings that flickered through him even if he had tried. "Certainly," Yuki breathed, meeting Eriol's eyes with the same hesitance he had felt about the flower. To his surprise, this time when their gazes met, a sensation like electricity shifted through his mind and his body, awakening senses within him that he himself didn't truly know how to use. He knew that Yue was responding instinctively to the magic of his former master, the familiar energy signature that now belonged to Eriol and to one other, although that other had never seemed quite as compelling---mainly because of his lack of understanding of his own magic---as this boy. "Arigatou gozaimasu," Eriol said quietly, finally dropping his eyes, releasing Yuki from the spell. With a last respectful bow, he politely excused himself and disappeared again into the crowd. Despite the obvious fact of his curiosity, Touya didn't ask, partly because he knew that Yuki wouldn't be able to easily offer an explanation, and partly because he wondered whether it was any of his business. Yue's feelings towards the modern incarnation of his former master seemed ambivalent at best, but then, Yue's feelings often appeared ambivalent and rarely ever were. "Yuki?" Touya asked after a moment, when Yuki's eyes remained glassed over. "Hm�? Oh, To-ya," Yuki said, the haze slipping away from his eyes as he turned to look up at his lover. "Gomen. I just�" "Wakatta. You don't have to explain," Touya answered quietly, his eyes reassuring Yuki, and Yue, that he meant his words. "Lighten up, Yue," Kero murmured out of the corner of his mouth, and for some reason, the sun guardian's quiet interjection broke easily through the tension, and both Yuki and Touya smiled. Within him, Yuki felt Yue stifle a smile as well. "He won't hurt you anymore." Yuki thought he understood something of the thought that briefly made its way into the pattern of his own thoughts, before Yue quickly repressed it. <You don't understand, Cerberus�you simply don't understand.> ***** Yuki waited until most of the guests had left before he made his way into the shelter of a small copse of trees and bushes, and a moment later another young man walked out of the sheltered area. He was unfamiliar to most who remained gathered around Sakura and Syaoran, and eyes followed him as he slowly made his way across the park, his exotic appearance making many abandon their sense of politeness, unable to keep from staring. "Yue," Touya breathed, when the angelic creature who held everyone so spellbound finally reached his side. The first thing he noticed, with some relief, was that Yue's usual most distinctive features---his huge, pure-white wings---were absent. Obviously, at some point, Yue had finally come to understand the danger inherent in showing his more obvious non-human characteristics in public. Yue's brilliant silver-lavender eyes lifted from where they had lingered on the ground, avoiding eye contact with others, and easily met Touya's familiar gaze. "To-ya," Yue replied evenly, and after a slight hesitation---the product of several lifetimes' worth of trying to destroy his own joy-- -Yue's mouth curled in a gentle smile, vaguely reminiscent of his other self. Without preamble, Touya lifted a hand and gestured beyond the lingering crowd, towards the playground on the other end of the park. "I think I saw�" "Wakatta," Yue said quietly, cutting Touya off, as he so often did. It wasn't that he deliberately intended to be rude; it was more that Yue had never cared much for the scruples of humanity, and he hadn't been created to do so. Because of this, he was perhaps the most startlingly honest person Touya had ever met, and like everyone else in Yue's life, Touya had felt the sharpness of Yue's tongue directed towards himself more than once. "Shitsurei," Yue murmured, obviously distracted, and Touya only nodded and watched as Yue continued his slow walk across the park, ignoring the people that watched him as he disappeared out of sight. "Yue," a quiet voice whispered, and Touya glanced down to where Kero was now resting in the crook of his own arm, still playing the stuffed toy. "E?" "Yue needs to learn�" Kero sighed, almost seeming hesitant to continue. His little black eyes seemed vaguely troubled. "�to forgive." Touya didn't answer; the only answer he could think of was a nod of agreement, and he knew Kero didn't need the confirmation. ***** END PART ONE |