time: 4:56
listening to: "sex and violence" the exploited
damn...i rote this and then i hit reset instead of save.....im stupid....so here i go again.....
so today im in one of those reflective moods....u know when u look back on yer life and just sit there with that stupid smile on yer face....this whole thing was sparked by some really strange dreams i had last nite..so here i go....
rite now my life is pretty decent...hell its more than decent...its no longer the hell it was from november to february.....im finally past kirks whole i love u i love u not mind game....and i figure thats good for me.....i finally realized what was going on.....and im over it.....im also over him being *so perfect for me*......maybe at some point early on he was but everything got fuct up beyond repair....but its all good....cuz now i can go out and not feel bad.....and i can meet cool ppl and not feel guilty...or feel like i have to compete for their attention.......
life is good and i feel great.....xcept for this essay looming over my head....i go out i have fun i look at pretty boys and on occasion make out with them.....ahhhhhh the good life.....
anyway i should really go.....so much work to do...the last entry i rote had quotes from mir about how horrible the book i have to read is....something about how she wished shed never finished.....oh im looking forward to it...another jem picked by the trent english department....lovely....oh well...fer now my children i must leave u......ttfn