time: 9:01pm
listening to: "this twilight garden" the cure
blah....im so bored.....i should be doing work but....ya.....so today i took down the pic of my nipple piercing cuz ppl r retarded and think that im a slut cuz i have a pic of my piercing on my page......fuck....i just had it cuz i wanted to show renee so i figured hey why not put it up......but ppl r stupid and im sick of getting hit on by dirty old men.......
so im trying to find a job....somewhere.....anywhere....peterboro st. thomas or walkerton....but i really dont want to go back to st. t......the only thing thats there is my family and my friends.....and i mean i want to hang there but i want more.....i need new things....specially boys.....there r no boys fer me in st. thomas....and theres no jobs anyway....its an automotive city and automotive has gone to shit so theres a bunch of unemployed ppl already.....wooo....how the hell am i sposed to get a job? fuck i hate this bullshit
argh......i just want school to be done.....so much pressure.....fuck.....im gonna snap....not really....its just theres so much other stuff too.....and im going insane.......ahhhhhh........i just want a padded little white room....
anyway i have to go to the library....fun stuff.....ttfn
time: 5:01am
listening to: "every rose has its thorn" the unseen (cover of THE SONG by poison.....but u knew that)
so tonite i did nothing....well not really.....i did go to the library....and i did get boox...some fer my presentation tomorrow and some fer the essay i have to rite....but then i came back and hung out with erin and patricia....and then i called my dad and talked to him fer a bit....and then the british (kerry my old neighbour and her buddy andrew) showed up and some how i ended up in fils room with them and fil and patricia and erin.....it was fun....other ppl drifted in and out thru out the nite.....mir ended up coming down.....and then we all sat there and watched retarded things on the computer.....and it was fun....
so my love life er rather lack of is very very sad....lets review....i have developed a crush on my dads girlfriends son jason....who i have begun to refer to as my brother....as disturbing as that is.....when i talk about him to ppl just b/c its so much easier than saying my dads girlfriends son.....yes i am a lazy bitch.....and on andrew or british boy as i have so cleverly termed him.....and this is my plan fer british boy.....get british boy drunk then get british boy.....oh yes....im so subtle...and i have been saying this since sunday nite when i met the guy.....am i walking hormones or what? and dont mistake me i dont want to fuck the guy....i dont want to fuck any guy....id love to have a relationship.....but thats not going to happen so why not have some fun eh? a little making out never hurt a lovely single lass like myself....so in the immortal words of spazz "lets fucking go" *shakes head* im so sad....
but on a good note mir said that she thinx that andrew mite like me.....good sign....i sat beside him tonite in fils room......and did the whole body language accidental then casual touching thing....and he didnt shy away so one can hope....er well i can hope......so bored.....need boy to entertain me...once again im so sad
so i have a presentation tomorrow.....at 9:30 and im not bloody tired....i fucking suck.....and mirs gone to tim hortons and is sposed to be bringing me back a garden vegable samich......mmmmmmm......real uncaf food......yummmmm....
so im bored.....maybe ill go read more about the first austrian republic....yeah....im so xcited.....ttfn