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04.01.03
france renames their country to 'freedom'. i guess that means they're with us.
okay, i'll stop with the freedom jokes.
45 more mins to go. for the day that is. there's still tomorrow and the day after that, and weeks and months. you see, the hours are always there. oh the hours mrs.dalloway!
04.02.03
i was feeling particularly carnivorous today, so ordered a roast beef sandwich from the diner across the street. when i unwrapped it there was scary amounts of meat between the bread, which is typical of ny deli sandwiches. as i removed some of the meat, i noticed how raw it looked. sometimes a medium done roast has cooked outer edges and the middle part is still kind of rare but this was all reddish pink. i touched it with my finger and the beef actually felt like sushi. cold, damp, and sticky. jane then assured me that this diner's roast beef is always that way and that she had had it once before, though never again.
the cold, damp, sticky beef looked pretty gross but i was hungry so i smothered mustard all over it and took a bite. as soon as i tasted it i realized that it was not even beef but finely cut slices of raw human flesh. roast beef is people. and people are not good to eat.
do wah do wah
dr.e: doobie do wah, yah
lindajun: one can really scat almost anywhere, anytime
lindajun: it is always appropriate
dr.e: shoobie do wah, yes
lindajun: doo beedee doo beedee doo wah
lindajun: there is never a bad time for scat doo wah
dr.e: zee shoop dwah dwah, i have to go micro lab
lindajun: dooooo dah doo doo nadi dadi shoobeedi doobeedi do wah dah dah, okay
dr.e: haha, when you write out scat, i have to sing to myself
lindajun: yeah, before i write it i have to sing it in my head
lindajun: but i'm always singing scat in my head anyway
dr.e: shee wah, yah, bye
lindajun: shoo wah dah dah dah, baibai
04.03.03
I bought tix for the Vagina Monologues today. My friend Ing is in the show.
She is supposed to be the �Angry Vagina�. What shall her angry vagina say?
�Scat scat! Shoobie doo wah��.. yeah���.Scat! Doo�doo� oooooooo��..waaaaahhhhhhhhhh� Beware. Muahaha. Beware the angry vagina.
04.04.03
the weekend! i just looove the weekend. first stop tomorrow: library. i asked my mother to return two dvds for me but she handed them over to a friend who said she was going that way. this person unfortunately got there after the library was *closed* and slid the dvds through the drop box. i am sure to get a scolding from one of the librarians tomorrow. "you can't put dvds into the drop box. there's a large sign on it that says 'BOOKS ONLY'... did you see that?"
this morning i discovered a new favorite bread. the biali. it is kind of like a pita but thicker, and chewier. so good with ham, tomatoes, and swiss cheese. i know that i will eat it very often now, maybe everyday, until i get sick of it. this is what happens when i discover a favorite food. i just have to have it all the time and then suddenly, i hate it. that's what happened with macademia nuts. years and years ago my grandparents went on a trip to hawaii and brought back mass quantities of macademia nuts. i ate so many that i puked. to this day i really can't stand macademia nuts. maybe if they're smothered in chocolate and caramel i can do it but it's not easy.
emi-chan leaves town
emi is gone. she has moved to queens and that's a long way from these parts. how v.sad. my old chum has left town. i met emi in 6th grade. our pants were french cuffed and we were so cool. we went to high school together and then to college together. we don't hang out very often lately- you know, work and all, but then i knew that she was five mins away and that made me feel that we could just hang out whenever. well, it's not like she moved to the ozarks. but still, we grew up here and now she's gone and it doesn't feel the same.
maybe i'll head over to queens tomorrow.
04.05.03 neighborhood
hi everyone. it was too rainy and cold to trek out to the city. mebbe tomorrow i will visit emi.
guess who i ran into at the library today? erica c. we used to be really good friends from 6-10th grade. i remember we would have these extremely long phone conversations and sometimes i would tie the receiver to my head with a bandana because my arm would get tired. anyway, the small talk was kind of awkward and i think i spittled on her while talking. maybe she didn't notice. i do hate it when people spittle on me. esp when it lands on my skin.
vp dr.e
dr.e has been elected vice president of the amsa chapter at rwj! congratulations dr.e! you show'em how it's done.
04.07.03
there is a blizzard outside. jane is hoping that we'll be allowed to go home early. highly doubt it. what if i wrote an email to all offices in ny and nj and gave them permission to take off early?
"to all s-- employees. due to the inclement weather, offices will close today at 2pm. sincerely, mr.whiskas".
jane thinks i should then send another email that says, "i quit."
tell me, what do you think would happen if a spoonface looked into the back of a spoon?
04.08.03are your kids... HOT?
dr.e: i hope my kids are hot
dr.e: and not not hot
lindajun: why?
dr.e: why would you want ugly kids?
lindajun: but you want your kids to be hot and not hot
lindajun: that's like colin firth
dr.e: no
dr.e: not not hot
dr.e: not not hot = hot
lindajun: o ok
lindajun: what if your kids are so hot?
lindajun: like really really hot
lindajun: wouldn't that make you feel weird
dr.e: that would be kinda neat
lindajun: like, "who are they? why so hot?"
dr.e: hahah
lindajun: "i'm not that hot... why are they so hot?"
dr.e: it's ok if they kinda look like you
dr.e: but not if they look nothing like you... then it's annoying
lindajun: hahahaha
lindajun: like if your son looks like jude law
dr.e: HAHAHA
dr.e: a korean jude law?
lindajun: yeah
dr.e: that would be ok
dr.e: i'd rather have a daughter that looks like kristin kreuk
lindajun: that would be like having snow white for your daughter
lindajun: she would be so pretty and magical
lindajun: do you know who j.s. thinks is the most attractive actress?
lindajun: jane seymour, dr.quinn medicine woman
lindajun: is that funny?
lindajun: because i thought it was really funny
lindajun: and weird
dr.e: hahaha
dr.e: she is 70
lindajun: haha
dr.e: what would you do with a pretty and magical daughter?
dr.e: i'd make her waitress
dr.e: she would bring in lots of tip
lindajun: i would make her wear disney costumes
lindajun: and walk around our front yard
dr.e: HAHAHA
dr.e: that would be nice
last weekend i tried on my bathing suits and things were not looking good. a diet is in order. i want my mom to help me since she also thinks i should drop a few pounds. you know, ration my dinner or something. she confuses me though. sometimes she'll (affectionately) pinch my stomach fat and ask, "now, is that really the stomach of a young woman?" and then other times she'll make all this food and give me huge portions that she knows i will eat without protest, quietly and happily at the kitchen table. then when i've finished all of it she might laugh and say, "(gasp)you finished?! that was so much food!" i don't understand.
04.09.03
i'm tired.
there is pervert on the platform every morning. i feel that he is a pervert because he kind of looks like a cross between david caruso and the father from a christmas story. also he freely stares at women's butts for long periods of time. only if he thinks it is a nice butt though. if the butt is not so nice, he will FROWN. he actually FROWNS at the butts that are not nice. hahaha. it is funny and it is gross.
04.10.03it's friday night
the initial plan was to watch view from the top and grab a beer afterwards. but then i got home late, dr.e had to get a waxing, and so on. turns out the movie wasn't playing in our area anyway, so we were left with no plan. then joe asked me to hang out and i thought this would be a good opportunity to take dr.e to the baden in fort lee and eat chicken. and of course to see joe who i have not seen in months and months and months. so i told him i'd be there in an hour and then decided not to go. it was raining, the roads were slippery, what if i got into an accident? on my way to eat chicken?
instead we went to chilis to eat, then went to dr.e's and watched 8 mile. we also drank beers and burped. the movie was ok. it kind of reminded me of a musical except instead of bursting into song and dance, they begin to rhyme. dr.e and i wondered, what if they began by making it seem as though they would rap, but scatted instead? and then we scatted for a while, "yo, listen up yo, shoobidee schweeeee doodah dahday."
04.13.03
nancy drove up from philly yesterday to visit me. little ole me. nancy looooove me. we met up with emi in the city and watched better luck tomorrow. it was good in that it was *not* the joy luck club. but overall it was just okay. some good scenes, an interesting enough plot, and a disturbing ending. it kind of reminded me of a plainer, asian version of 'trainspotting'. not worth ten dollars so watch the matinee show.
sometimes i talk like frank from the real world: las vegas. he has a strange speaking voice and his intonations are so peculiar. is it wrong that i kind of enjoy hearing myself talk like frank?
you know that last scene in amelie when amelie realizes that she must run after nino and she rushes to the door and opens it and he is standing right there? i love that scene. it makes me feel happy and excited every time i watch it.
yes, i also love the scene with the blind man.
04.14.03
the countdown: 15 mins to go. it is extremely cold in the office. i am singing songs in my head. here's what i've got on rotation: "beat it", "sweet caroline", and "yesterday once more". in my head my voice is awesome. i sing sooo good.
ugh. tired. tired of being tired.
jaz called me at work to tell me to meet her at the library at seven thirty tonight. she has to research an important project. famous musicians from new jersey. so i get there and wait and wait and wait and then it occurs to me that jaz cannot tell time. oh my goodness when i call her house she answers the phone. why are you not here? she informs me hoity-toityly that it is not yet seven thirty. no i say, it is almost eight. wahhhhh i want to cry i am so tired.
04.16.03
i'm so sleepy. my eyes are doing weird things. i think i'm looking cross-eyed.
we had lunch in bryant park again today. oh it was so nice and warm. olivia met us there with her intern brian who really is the gayest gay in gayonia. at one point we were talking about the SARS virus. and then about dying. we agreed that we didn't want to die of a disease. maybe some other people but not us. then brian said, "i would die for love." who actually says stuff like that seriously? i laughed and laughed in my head, it was so funny. but also kind of cute.
jane and o say that my arms are getting buffer. i am so excited.
i'm going to sleep soon. but right now i am singing carly simon's "nobody does it better" with alot of emotion. it could break your heart.
today jeff s. asked me who my six friends were. he wanted their names. jeez. jeff is the perfect paradox. he can be totally funny and at the same time totally serious. once at a diner this guy dropped a spoon and he started dancing with his arms moving as though conducting an orchestra. it's an easy choice if you ask me.
04.17.03 really wierd
what if you were this asian person whose favorite songs of all time were, "old man river", "summertime", and "swing low, sweet chariot, com'in fore to carry me home"?
04.18.03 dresses are pretty
i bought two today. one is the bridesmaid dress for sarah's wedding. we got it on sale at bcbg and it is v.v.pretty when worn with high shoes. also bought a white satin dress that i *love*. when you wear a pretty dress, it really makes you feel like a girl.
after looking through some of my travel photos, i realize that i look really bad when i'm traveling. why? in mexico we must look fabulous at all times. can we do that?
04.20.03
happy easter everyone.
so this girl who goes to my church works in the garment district and we basically have the same job. we talked about work stuff and exchanged business cards and then she said, "call me. we *have* to do lunch sometime." situations like this is when i, as a person, am slightly retarded. when someone i don't know very well asks me to do something, i don't miss a beat, "oh absolutely, i'll call you, at the office. great!" inside i am thinking, "oh okay...no. i don't know you. it will be uncomfortable. and i always eat lunch with my friend jane. maybe we just see each other at church once in a while." why am i always so uncomfortable and awkward and saying yes when i mean no? dr.e and i have this joke about how i might as well say 'yes' and 'no' in the same sentence. "oh absolutely i'll be there no i am not coming. bye."
you know what? i'm going to have lunch with her and it will be fun.
accordion music makes me want to have a passionate argument in french.
freshman year, a friend gave emi a box of jelly belly jelly beans for her birthday and one of the flavors was jalepeno. why they would concoct such a flavor, i don't know. but i remember taking a small bite of it to see what it tasted like and, ugh, it was nasty. so then i offered it to emi, "hey, try this one. i think it is watermelon." she popped it in her mouth and immediately ran to the trash can to spit it out.
"what does it taste like?" i asked.
"pepper?!"
"yes! hahahahaha!"
but then a few days later, when we had eaten most of the jelly beans, and all that was left were gross flavors, i easily tricked her into eating another jalepeno jelly bean. hahaha. emi is so cute.
04.22.03
dept. lunch today. this is good and bad at the same time. free food is good. jl is bad.
emi is taking me to see mama mia next week. i'm going to know *all* the words to the songs. v.v.excited. yay!
04.24.03thoughts from work
best chapstick: neutrogena lip moisturizer with spf 15. it's fragrance free, non sticky, and wears for hours, even overnight.
i want to eat a tiramisu. maybe i can try making it this weekend.
we never really think about where our food comes from. or, say, where our prom dresses come from. many many people are involved. people like me have 9-5 jobs to make the prom dress a reality. agriculture is important. but so are prom dresses. who wants to go to the prom in a home made dress?
coasters are also important.
my boss types really slowly. once when i was passing by his desk, i saw him typing with two index fingers, and this is what it sounded like. "tok....toktok tok..... tok...............tok".
april 29 is free cone day at ben and jerry's. april 30 is free ice cream day at baskin robbins. what if this guy asked you out on a date in the city and the entire night he just took you to different baskin robbins locations for free ice cream? would you be mad?
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