Title: THE UNREACHABLE STARS
Author:
Imagine
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Rating:
PG13
Pairing:
J/D
Category: Pre-slash.
First Person POV.
Date:
Status:
Complete
Season/Spoilers: Any
Archive: AlphaGate; Area 52; The Cartouche.
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Synopsis: As Daniel arrives at Jack’s for dinner he
ponders if he’s made the right decision
Notes: Unbetaed, so please
forgive any slip-ups.
Warnings: None
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The Unreachable Stars
by Imagine
Can I do it? I thought I could, but now that I’m here, I’m
afraid.
Sitting on the sofa in my
apartment it’d been simple to convince myself that I could do it. It sounded easy. I’d been invited for dinner at Jack’s tonight,
something about wanting to talk over a surprise he’s planning; probably wants
my help to spring one of his infamous practical jokes on the folk at the
base. Christmas can be a dangerous time
at the SGC!
Whatever, I decided it was
the ideal time to tell him the truth, just as I have fantasised about for so
long. My best friend, the man who spends
his life protecting me; he’ll probably be a little
surprised but he won’t be angry; at least not for long, that’s what I told
myself, sitting in the comfort of my home.
Okay, he might yell at first, shock, reaction, but that’s natural. Then he’d take a deep breath, gather himself
together and calmly ask, “What’cha say?”
God, who am I kidding? More likely Jack will go ballistic!
I’ve wanted to confess my
feelings to Jack for months now and I had this stupid idea that the season of goodwill would be a good time to
tell my best friend that I’m in love with him.
And tonight’s invitation had seemed just the time to do it. Damn, what a fool I am, there will never be a
right time.
With a sigh welling up from
deep inside as my fear overcomes my courage, I turn and walk away from Jack’s
front door. I’ll think of an excuse and
call him from my cell. I can’t face him
until I get myself under control again.
He knows me far too well.
“Daniel?” a familiar voice
speaks from behind me, halting my getaway as my heart thuds in my chest. “Going somewhere?” Jack asks,
an edge to his voice. “Saw your car pull up and I’ve been waiting for at least five minutes for
you to make your mind up and come inside and now you just walk away? What’s goin’ on?”
Slowly I turn back, my
nerves stretched taut with tension. What
the hell am I going to say now? Lifting
my eyes, I meet the worried brown eyes of the man I love more than anything else
in the universe. The man I need in my life; I can’t risk our friendship
over a love I know isn’t – can’t ever be – returned. Luckily I have an excuse I can fall back on,
so hopefully I can brazen my way out of this mess I created. I should have realised he would’ve known when
I arrived; Jack definitely has a sixth, heck maybe even seventh, sense.
Forcing a smile, and feeling
as if my face is going to crack from the strain, I say, “Nothing, other than that
I left your gift in my car. Just a moment while I get it.” It wasn’t a lie, I really had forgotten to
collect it from the back seat when I parked; my mind too involved with other
thoughts.
Turning away again, I feel the
smile slide from my face and suddenly I want to cry. I feel a fool, a fool who let my dreams
invade my reality. Now I have to let go
of my dreams and face up to the truth.
I have too much to lose by
reaching for the stars. My feet have to
stay firmly on the ground.
Fin.
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