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| For me, the decsion I made to become Straight Edge was a no brainer. I am not one to push my morals and beliefs on anyone. So I don't want it to come off that way. But for me, drugs have never had a positive effect on my life. I don't see how they could for anyone. I personally do not see the point in doing drugs. People say they do them because they make them feel good. But for me, I can feel good with out them. I can listen to music and get a natural high and not have to worry about the effects later on. The same goes with the buzz you get from drinking and smoking. But I know far too many cases where drinking and drugs have led to lose of lives. I lost one of my friends, Dan Bucci to the effects of drugs In August of 2003.(R.I.P. Danny) And drugs have made me lose many years of being with own father. Granted he is probally one of the closest people to me, I haven't physically been near my father in almost five years. Our interaction have been through letters, and the occasional phone call, spanning months in between. I learned alot for his mistakes, and I made a promist to myself that I would never do any of those things. I've had some rather tramatic experinces when it comes to drinking too. My step-grandpa is an alchohalic, and I grew up in the same house with him. I was abused both physically and emotionally.. and that's something I never want to experiance again. I had to deal with his ups and downs. If he was in a good mood he'd laugh and joke around like everything was hunky dory..but if he was in a bad mood, I'd rather be miles away then to have to deal with him beating the shit out of me and making me do slave work. It could be over 90 degrees out and he'd make my brother and I do yard work even a full grown adult would have issues with for hours on end, with out water, or a break.I don't want to be put in a situation where I do anything simular to anyone else. To me being straight edge is not a trend. I'm not doing to it to fit in or to be like Davey from AFI. I'm doing it so that I am happy. I think it's rather pathetic that people wear X's because they seen it on T.V. and they have no idea what it means. I'm all for people being sXe. But only for the right reasons, because YOU believe in it, not because someone tells you to. Another aspect of being straight edge that I believe strongly in is not having casual sex. I don't have any sex for that matter. I'm proud to say that I am still a Virgin. I don't see what good it will do me to cheapen my body by having sex with any person with a penis. I think that if you are to give yourself to someone it should be for the reasons. I have a few very close friends who used sex for attention. One of which is now in an insane assylum, and the other is a single mother and a high school drop out.I never want to do that to myself. I don't see the point. I seen the way it torn the little self esteem they had to shreads. And the way they would light up with a guy would show they the least bit of attention even if it was only to get sex. It's last for only a few minutes, and then they'd tear them down again, only to be nice so they could get some later. I have been happy for 17 with out sex. I don't see why I should change it. But yeah those are just a few reasons why I have choosen to live my life with out, drugs, drinking, smoking, and casual sex. It complicates things, and as much as you think it doesn't effect other people, it does. | ||||||||||||||
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